man of oz

Hearing this, Nongzi sword almost didn't come out.

In the past, he would definitely not be able to understand the meaning, but now... Seeing Li Momo's embarrassed but serious expression - he thinks that the "together" that Li Momo said should mean "that".

Hahaha, so it wasn't a confession... Nongzijian's mood was fluctuating, he was relieved that it wasn't a confession, but also worried about whether the other party saw something.

He laughed dryly and pretended to be stupid, "Ah, yes, we are very good friends, of course good friends...we are often together."

Li Momo finally asked what she had kept in her heart for a long time, and seeing Nongzijian's flustered expression, she knew she had guessed right.

She held her chin with one hand, looked up at Nongzijian and smiled, "Because I like the person who is senior, so I know, just by the way he looks at you."

Like senior sister?Qiao Jiao?

Nongzijian looked at her in shock, such a gentle and quiet girl, like Qiao Jiao? !

... No wonder you were so disappointed when Qiao Jiao didn't come, and asked if June and I were a couple?

"On the night of Xiaowei's birthday, when I was talking to you, senior June still glared at me. He must be jealous." Li Momo continued with a smile.

Nongzijian was completely messed up, he didn't know what to say, he roared in his heart, what happened to this world? !Some time ago, I found out that the teammates who played together seemed to be a couple, and now there is another gentle and pleasant girl who says she likes Qiao Jiao!

Shouldn't women be with men? !

Seeing his frightened look, Li Momo said embarrassedly, "I can feel the feeling of being introduced to others by someone I like. I was also dragged away by force. I hope you don't mind."

Lu Yuege was already very eye-catching, plus he was Qiao Jiao's favorite and her rival in love, so Li Momo naturally paid close attention to him, and occasionally met him a few times, and he was always with Nongzijian. With gentle and focused eyes, she could see clearly.

Li Momo sighed in her heart at that time, it turned out that she was not a rival in love, but her kind.

"Wait, that," Nongzijian scratched his head, a little guilty, "You misunderstood, June and I really don't have that kind of relationship, we're just good brothers..."

"Ah... this..." Seeing Nongzijian's earnest explanation, Li Momo froze for a moment, then bent down and apologized again and again, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry!! Senior, I thought—I'm so sorry!"

Do you blame yourself for taking it for granted, thinking they are a couple... This is too bad, I exposed myself, and it seems that I have pierced the window paper between them...

"Haha..., it's okay, it's okay... I don't mind."

Hey... It's fine if a man likes a man, it's considered a contribution to family planning. Two beautiful and weak girls get together, so what will happen to so many men who can't get wives...

After the embarrassment, Li Momo was a lot more relaxed.Leaning her back against the railing, she let out a long breath, "Oh, I really made a big oolong, I thought I met the same kind, so I foolishly came here... Qiao Jiao, all I like are handsome guys, I must be hopeless .”

If Li Momo likes a man, Nongzijian can also comfort her. There are many good men in the world, and there is no need to hang to death on a tree with a crooked neck, but what she likes is the bold and aggressive Yu who is only interested in handsome men Sister Qiaojiao, so Nongzijian really didn't know how to comfort her.

Li Momo didn't care either, it was rare that someone was willing to listen to what she said, and she was embarrassed because she was worried about embarrassing herself, so she organized her words carefully, and she seemed to be a kind and reliable boy.

"I like Qiao Jiao, don't tell her." Li Momo winked at Nongzijian.

"Well, I know, I won't say it." Nongzijian nodded.

"I just need to look at her." Li Momo stretched out her hand to the top of her head, and compared to Nongzi Jian who was standing beside her, "I know it's impossible, just look at me, I just came here."

Nongzijian is 181cm tall, and Li Momo is less than his shoulders.

She said, "I'm only this tall and my hands are so small, how can I protect her... I can fix plumbing bulbs, but so what, what she needs is a man."

Nongzijian was silent, yes, shouldn't such a cute girl be with a man?Shouldn't a man protect her?Why do you have to—think about protecting another girl...

He thought of Lu Yuege.

Why do you like such a hard-bang bang man who is neither sweet nor soft.

Silently liking someone for so long, suppressing and hiding my love, standing next to the person I like as a friend, afraid that once I open my mouth to confess, I won't even be a friend...

"But, it will be very hard for two girls to be together..."

"This is the way I want to go, so I have to bear all of it." Li Momo smiled.

Nongzijian seems to have seen the great strength and courage contained in her petite body. It was the same in the accident when someone jumped off the building. She is braver and calmer than anyone else. She is soft and strong, and she can also support her lover.

Nongzijian said, "I think you are very powerful and brave. I knew it when I was in the laboratory building. I thought you were a weak girl who needed a man to protect me. I was wrong... You will find someone you like of."

"Thank you." Being recognized and blessed, Li Momo's eyes sparkled, and she smiled happily.

In the end, Nongzijian couldn't help but asked Li Momo why he felt that he and Lu Yuege were a couple.

Li Momo said with an embarrassed smile, "Because I often see you together, playing and fighting very intimately, and the way senior June looks at you... I thought it was."

Li Momo added in her heart, even if you are not, Senior June must be.

"Haha...Actually, we are, very good buddies." Nongzijian said more and more in a low voice.

Neither he nor Lu Yuege are introverts, and they often fight and make some colorful jokes... This is almost the case for boys who have a good relationship... Li Momo saw it, could someone else see it too?

"Well, I misunderstood, maybe because I am the one... so I often pay more attention, and I think it depends on everyone." Li Momo comforted him. Most straight people are very disgusted that they are matched with the same sex. Those misunderstandings just now should have added trouble to the very good senior in front of me,

"You don't have to worry, it's all my own random guesses, I'm thinking too much. Hey, who made Senior June so handsome, those eyes look affectionate to everyone."

Nongzijian rubbed the tip of his nose, "Well, I'm just asking casually, cough, I really have nothing to do with him..."

"I'm sorry, I was thinking about it myself, and it troubled you." Li Momo nodded with a smile following his intention, and thanked him again, "Thank you, it's rare that someone doesn't mind and is willing to listen to me. "

The dormitory on weekends is deserted, there is no one there, those who go home, those who go on a date, the farmer who was originally a beautiful woman who had an appointment, returns home listlessly.

When people are free, they tend to think too much. Nongzijian locked the door, lit a cigarette and sat on the edge of the bed. He swipe his fingers on the screen for a long time. After hesitating for a long time, he turned on the phone and entered keywords. Feeling weak, it took a long time to type the word "gay".

"How to judge whether I am gay", "Dream about my friend in spring, am I gay?"

Click on the search, and there are actually many people who have had similar dreams.

Nongzijian's sense of guilt has faded now, huh, it turns out I'm not the only one who is like this, puberty, it's always easier to get confused, which shows that the problem may not be very serious...

Looking down, one person commented:

[Although you have had a girlfriend, you have a physical reaction to him. There is nothing to doubt about it. You are, Deep Cabinet.The straight ones cannot bend, and the curved ones cannot straighten. 】

"Deep cabinet?" Nongzijian raised his heart that had just been let go, unconsciously clenched the cigarette butt between his lips and teeth, and searched for many terms he had never heard of before.

[…but having same-sex-behavior is not necessarily homosexual, in fact many people are potentially bisexual. 】

— Bisexual? ...I used to like women, but now I actually dream of being with June...Maybe, maybe——no, no, impossible...

【…Sexual orientation is beyond one’s control and cannot be corrected. 】

——So, June will never like girls, even if she doesn't like me, she will be with other men?

What kind of man will he be with?I also do very intimate things, kissing, having sex... Bah, bah, what the fuck am I thinking? !

Has your brain been eaten by a dog?

[Sexual orientation is mostly formed innately, and the environment we live in is dominated by heterosexuality, so some homosexuals do not realize their true orientation until later or even in middle age in such an environment]

……

Nongzijian put down his mobile phone and lay on the bed thinking. He recalled his past of more than twenty years.

Simple, ordinary.

Some people like to play with good-looking children of the opposite sex in kindergarten. He only likes to play with mud and excavators. After a big fall, he was severely punished by the elder brother who came back from the army, and was almost sent to an Internet addiction rehabilitation school.

At that time, many junior high school students who were only thirteen or fourteen years old began to secretly have ambiguity and talk about love.

A girl sitting in front of him is a candy maker at home. He has good grades and sometimes teaches homework to the classmates next to him. To thank him, the girl often brings home-made candies and chocolates for him to eat.

He doesn't like sweets very much, and generally doesn't want them.

The classmates next to them started pairing and booing them. When talking about one person, there will always be another person involved. When talking about her, they will start with "your girl", "your girlfriend" and "your wife", lest the world will not be chaotic. .Nongzijian always pretended to hit them, or ignored them.

That girl didn't mind, she would still bring him candies and chocolates from time to time.

On the day of graduation, she also asked him some inexplicable words, "The Legend of Condor Heroes is returned to you, have you seen the things I put in it?"

Nongzijian had a question mark on his face, he had donated that set of books long ago, she put something in it, why didn't she ask earlier?

He quickly apologized to her, afraid that it was something expensive.

The girl lowered her head with a smile and sighed, saying that it was fine if she didn't see it.

When Nongzijian passed her by on his bicycle, he heard her whisper, "It's really a piece of wood."

High school is tough, and he is in the experimental class. Most of the students study very hard, and he has no idea of ​​falling in love. He didn't wake up until the university. At night, the dormitory talks will be held, and the topics of men will never be separated. Woman, the topic has become more intense, and the small movies on his computer have saved more than ten gigabytes.

Nongzijian was lying on the bed rubbing the center of his brows. Thinking about it now, the things that the girl surnamed Lin or Yang put in the book were most likely love letters. I didn’t know this kind of routine at the beginning, it was really stupid , understood too late...

Even if he knew it back then, would he accept her... He couldn't imagine it... But it might not be a love letter, if it was just a thank you letter, it would be embarrassing...

——Thinking about it this way, I have a crush on girls, but why have I never had a strong desire to pursue them... Nongzijian glanced at the text on the phone, and he was so frightened that he quickly buckled the phone upside down on the quilt .

No, no, this is not a deep cabinet!It doesn't mean that I like men!

He quickly searched for a few pictures of beauties to calm his shock, and he also recalled the girls he had a crush on before.

Alas, I should have talked about more girlfriends in the past, so I am sure there will be no troubles now!

Look at these pure, lovely, sexy girls, with red lips... Nongzijian's fingers brushed against his lips unconsciously.

Girl, what does it feel like to kiss... He has never kissed a girl in his age, the only experience was Lu Yuege.

Nongzijian thought of that kiss, although it was only a few seconds, but he could never forget it... Months have passed, and he still remembers that soft and fresh feeling... and the intense kiss in his dream a few days ago ——

He suddenly turned over and hammered his cranky head with a bang, shit!Why am I so shameless!Wasn't it just being kissed?Why did I diverge and expand so much? ! !

The scariest thing was that when he was recalling that dream, something changed underneath... He quickly turned over and curled up his body, roaring in his heart, "Brother, hurry up and get rid of me!! !"

He forced himself to calm down and tossed and turned on the bed, but it was his young age, how could this need be suppressed.

Nongzijian couldn't help stretching his hands down.

The reason why I have such a dream must be that I haven't lured for a long time, and it should be normal as soon as I luv...

He kicked Lu Yuege out of his mind, and began to think about Teacher Cang and Teacher Matsushima... I have feelings... Nong Zijian was so happy that he wanted to laugh, he really has feelings for girls the most!

Get out of the deep cabinet and everything else, I must like girls!

Nongzijian sketched his ideal girl in his mind, with black and flowing long hair, soft body, fair skin, ruddy lips...

Hey, wait, why does the more I think about it, the more I look like someone... These characteristics seem to be very suitable for someone - long black hair, red lips that are not dyed, skin that is fairer than girls, gentle personality and cooking It's delicious, but the chest is a little flatter, and the JJ is a little bigger...

Thinking of Lu Yuege's place, Nongzijian wished he could go back and poke his eyes.

With this interruption, the state was a little bit down and down again, Nongzijian knocked his head hard, and warned himself not to think about him again.

Taking the mobile phone at the side, the short movie posted by Zhou Chang last time has not been deleted, Nong Zijian clicked to play, and after a while, the voice of the island girl-you rang out in the dormitory.

...But people's hearts often do not follow the command of reason, the more they are not allowed to think about something, the more their hearts will do the opposite.Nongzijian's eyes were fixed on the screen, but he couldn't help but compare the person in the movie with the person in his dream...

He kept moving his hands, accompanied by voices such as "Hi Yaku" and "Ya Ya Die", but he was still out of state.

The phone just ran out of battery and the screen went black. Without the interference of the small movie, he couldn't control the imagination in his mind. The intense image kept lingering, and that person occupied all his thoughts...

Panting for breath, he entered the sage time, and after 2 minutes his mind slowly cleared up, and he spread his hands tremblingly.

The palms and fingers are all over the place, and a lot of water flows from the gaps between the fingers, clearly telling me that I think someone has reached the peak.

—You have a physical reaction to him, you do.

Nongzijian buried his head on his knees in confusion and annoyance, what should I do...

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_(:з」∠)_I have modified it as much as possible, and I feel so dangerous every time...