Shi Jin Doujin - Mo Dao Jing Nian on the other side

8.

That day

Takashiro said, I have never had a heart crisis again.

Ding Cheng said, squad leader, I can't believe that someone as strong as you is here.

Gao Qian said, I thought we would meet again?

The old horse said, Zhanyou Xia, you have come to a place that I can only spend my whole life to reach.

……

Put the flowers on the table in front of the stele, and look up at the photo in the middle. The man in the photo on the stele is wearing a military uniform, with a serious face and no smile. He looks like the soldier in people's impression. For the first time When I saw this photo, I was in a trance and thought it was someone else.

Shi Jin felt that he had not told him many things.For example, I once stood in front of the bed one night, looked at his sleeping face, and said thank you.For example, I finally understood why he and the class deputy fought that year.For example, I didn't embarrass him, and that flag is still hanging in the third class.For example, Wu Liuyi is really a good soldier. This year, Gao Lian's house already has a pennant he earned.For example, they are going to fight against the drill again, this time it is the old enemy Hong San.For example, for example, for example, for example, for example...

……

Shi Jin said, monitor, I miss you.

after that day

Wu Liuyi found that Shi Jin was stronger than he imagined. Ever since the news of Xia Yan's death came, their class was crying, crying so much that he wanted to cry along with him, but their class leader Leng Neng stood there indifferently. Move one by one to appease, wipe tears, and smile from time to time, don't cry, ah!What about our steel consciousness?

The mood in their class was calmed down by Squad Leader Shi, but Wu Liuyi asked him when he was looking for no one, what should you do yourself?

Shi Jin shook his head and said, I don't know either.

He didn't say it was okay, and he didn't say how to solve it, but Wu Liuyi became more worried.

Shi Jin is the same as usual, training, drills, and then it's drills.

The location this time happened to be the same place as when Shi Jin participated in the 35 minutes, and he told Gao Cheng that he wanted to avenge his shame.

Gao Cheng said yes, my soldiers will get up from where they fall.Have you got up yet?History and present?

Shi Jin heard his subtext and looked up at the sky. He said it was like this. I raised my head, thinking that I had not only got up but also stood tall, but when I lowered my head, I realized that I was just standing still.

Gao Cheng also looked up at the sky, and then at Shi Jin.After thinking for a while, I said.

Let's stick to atheism, I'm just talking to you in private.

After explaining, Gaocheng lit a cigarette and continued, I used to think a while ago, if the person left, in fact, he really didn't just leave, then will we meet him again sooner or later?

Shi Jin looked at him, and then replied, Company Commander, I don't think as much as you do.

You don't pretend to be confused for me, Gaocheng puffed out a cigarette, you just pretend to be me telling a story, and one day you and him really meet again, what are you going to tell him?Do you say that you have been depressed all your life, or that you are not good at being a soldier at all?

Shi Jin smiled awkwardly, am I so obvious?

Gao Cheng patted him on the head. It was Wu Liuyi, the deputy of your class, who told me that if you don’t do ideological work for you, you will be finished. I said you should ask the instructor or the psychological team to intervene in this matter. Why do you ask me?This kid told me, I still think it's better for the company commander to tell you.People have said that, what else can I do, I said that, just call me.

Didn't I realize that there was a Monkey King next to me?Shi Jin smiled helplessly.

Gao Cheng pinched a cigarette and lit another. To be honest, Shi Jiner, you did a good job, but after hearing what Wu Liuyi said, I think you can do better!That kid is happy and happy, why are you still depressed?

Instead, Shi Jin smiled, nodded and said, the revolution has not yet succeeded, and I still need to work hard.

Gao Cheng cut him and left.

After leaving this side, Wu Liuyi came over from the other side: "Squad leader, what are you doing here?"

"You still ask, if you hadn't betrayed me, would I have been called here in such a miserable situation?" Shi Jin replied without looking back.

Wu Liuyi stuck out his tongue: "I'm turning myself in now!"

Shi Jin smiled: "Surrender yourself, that's fine, hand in your gun and don't kill me!"

Wu Liuyi smiled helplessly: "Squad leader, we're going to practice right away, what's the use of you capturing me?"

"That's right!" Shi Jin turned around and said, "You are in a good state of mind today!"

"Well, I get very excited whenever there is a tough battle!" Wu Liuyi couldn't hide his eagerness.

"Control your emotions, control your emotions...it's easy to make mistakes in judgment if you are too excited!" Shi Jin hurriedly reminded him.

Wu Liuyi immediately nodded with a straight face: "Hmm!"

Shi Jin approached him instead, lowered his voice and said, "Actually, I am too!"

Wu Liu laughed after a pause.

"Let's go! Go back to the camp and get ready!" Shi Jin took the lead and left.

Wu Liuyi followed, and looked back at the direction the squad leader was looking at just now. It was a cliff with two trees growing sideways, nothing special.

When going back, Ding Cheng came over: "Squad leader, are you nervous?"

Shi Jin said with a serious face, "Excessive excitement!"

"By the way, I ran into Yan Yi a few days ago, and he said he would quit after this time! Let's give him a farewell!" Ding Cheng held a cigarette in his mouth, and passed one over.

Shi Jin pushed the cigarette back and looked at him with some surprise: "What's wrong with him? Didn't he still cry when he sent Squad Leader Ma to Squad [-] last time and said he wanted to be a soldier for the rest of his life?"

"Don't mention it, it's Class [-]. Some time after the last time, Yan Yi asked for leave and went to Class [-] to see the old horse. It was said that it had a huge impact on him. I don't know what he saw! When he came back, he complained to me that it was like that Soldiers can do that too!" Ding Cheng's laughter was full of helplessness: "I don't know which one is like that! After so many years, his logic has not gone smoothly."

Shi Jin also laughed.

Ding Cheng asked him again: "I remember you don't smoke?"

"I just took a sip, but I was still tucked into my mouth. I didn't prepare myself to choke to death, so I was afraid!" When Shi Jin said this, he still felt the taste of nicotine in his mouth, and it seemed that it would never go away. same.

Ding Cheng's eyes suddenly drifted a little far away: "Oh! It was so good at that time. I had a dream a few days ago. I dreamed that I made a battle plan for us during the last exercise. It seemed real. When I glanced at it, I found it was a dream. Don’t mention that loss!”

"We are soldiers brought out by the squad leader. In fact, it feels quite different!" Shi Jin tilted his head and sighed.

"Yeah! It's like losing your backbone!" Ding Cheng patted Shi Jin on the shoulder after speaking, "I'm not saying you didn't do well!"

"I know!" Shi Jin nodded.

"By the way, I heard that there is a personal letter in that brown paper bag, have you read it?" Ding Cheng asked casually.

"Personal letter, no name, and I don't know if it was addressed to me!" Shi Jin shook his head: "I didn't read it."

"You'll know it after reading it!" Ding Cheng walked to the side and sat down while saying this.

Shi Jin didn't tell them that Xia Yan was an orphan, and he didn't say that he was the recipient of the notice. He didn't tell anyone except Wu Liuyi, who was there at the time, so he didn't want to tell anyone.

When I opened the paper bag that day, there were very few things in it, a medal watch, a pen, a photo, oh yes, and his salary slip, and what was left was a letter. In fact, it was written on the envelope, Shi Jin receive.He didn't have the courage to take it apart, so he put it back.

I'm just thinking about something that doesn't matter.

Here comes the task.

After the mission, Shi Jin immediately restrained all his thoughts and rushed over: "Assemble!"

The others also rushed over immediately, their eyes were piercing, and they were not confused anymore. They were soldiers, and their duty came.

As for tasks, it is always easier said than done.

Everyone has their own problems, but the squad leader has reminded them more than once. At this time, if you think about it, you should be more vigilant.

Wu Liuyi's problem was that he was too eager, and if he rushed out without observing first, the whole thing would be cannon fodder.

Shi Jin's problem is that he does not have enough concentration, and he often cares too much about his comrades and neglects himself.

It was their problem, they all remembered.

This time they all performed very well, but they were still shot dead. Shi Jin died heroically to save Wu Liuyi. It also killed a lot of people, otherwise Gao Lian would have dragged them out and killed them long ago.

"June [-], you are too impulsive." Shi Jin lay on the dead zone waiting for the exercise to end: "You have time to put on a heroic posture, and I will die in vain!"

"I just forgot about my problem for a moment!" Wu Liuyi explained.

Bai Tiejun sighed on the side: "Me too!"

Wu Liuyi also got down on the ground: "Squad leader, I was wrong!"

"What do you mean, you! Why are you ashamed like me?" Bai Tiejun was immediately annoyed.

Wu Liu gave him a thumbs up: "Okay, you have self-knowledge!"

"Fuck!" Bai Tiejun kicked him.

"I'll walk around!" Shi Jin stood up and patted the dirt on his body, not bothering to talk to them.

"Are you going to look back?" Ding Cheng asked Shi Jin as he floated out of smoke.

"No, just walk!" Shi Jin said, "Sitting is also sitting."

"Be careful! This time it's not..." Ding Cheng covered his mouth and sat back in despair after speaking halfway.

Seeing Shi Jin leave, Wu Liuyi asked Ding Cheng, "Have you been here before?"

"Yeah!" Ding Cheng nodded: "At that time we were still Red Sansan!"

"You are still old comrades in arms!" Bai Tiejun interrupted.

"That's right!" Ding Cheng smiled.

"The squad leader must have performed really well last time you came here?" Wu Liuyi thought, otherwise how could he have entered the steel seven.

"What a fart! It's just bad luck." Ding Cheng thought it was funny when he said it: "He injured his leg, and he went for a walk like this, but he fell off the cliff for some reason. Later, Squad Leader Xia took the risk. Danger saved him."

"I didn't expect Xia Ban and the squad leader to have such a relationship!" Bai Tiejun was very surprised.

"Yeah!" Ding Cheng nodded: "If he still doesn't admit it, he will definitely go!"

"I must go." Bai Tiejun replied heartlessly: "If it were me, I would definitely have to go to the edge of that cliff to have a look again!"

"Captain~~I'm coming~~" Another puff of white smoke, Gan Xiaoning also came out.

"I knew you had to come out too!" Ding Cheng looked back: "Yes, eh? Where's Wu Liuyi?"

Bai Tiejun looked around: "It was still here just now, but it disappeared in a blink of an eye. Did you go to the bathroom?"

In fact, Wu Liuyi went after Shi Jin, he vaguely remembered the cliff he saw at that time, he wondered if he would really go there again, he was not worried that he would fall, he was worried that he would be injured if he touched the scene Affection.

There is no suspense about this matter, Shi Jin did go to see it, he has forgotten how he felt at that time, he only remembers the pain, and he also remembers the squad leader telling him that at worst we will die together.

Recently, he often thinks about this incident, and often feels that he has let go.

When Wu Liuyi came over, he happened to be distracted with a lonely face.I wanted to call him, but in the end I didn't call out, and in the end, I just watched from a distance.

"Hey!" Ding Cheng came from behind and patted him.

"Ah?" Wu Liuyi turned his head and jokingly called Veteran Ding.

"I just said he has to come!" Ding Cheng lifted his chin confidently: "Oh! I'm so distracted. I haven't found us for a long time, and I'm still a scout!"

Shi Jin suddenly turned his head to look at the two of them: "What are you talking about!"

Ding Cheng is worthy of being a genius, his reaction at this time was too fast, and he gave a military salute: "Squad leader!"

Only then did Wu Liuyi realize that he also hurriedly gave a military salute.

"I said you two are not only spying on me, huh? You also speak ill of me, right?" Shi Jin paced over.

"No!" Ding Cheng and Wu Liuyi finished speaking in unison, and Wu Liuyi didn't know what to say, so Ding Cheng continued: "We don't care about you! Besides, what, there is an order this time, right? Dead people can't walk around casually!"

Shi Jin was taken aback, scolded you for not telling me earlier, and ran back with them.

Ding Cheng winked at Wu Liuyi, Wu Liuyi raised his thumb and mouthed a word of praise: Good job!

"Don't make small moves!" Shi Jin roared without looking back.

"Yes!" Ding Cheng and Wu Liuyi stuck out their tongues, thinking that he has eyes in the back of his head.

Wu Liuyi looked at Shi Jin's back, and his mind turned to his face when he was absent-minded.

After a period of time, they found that Shi Jin was often in a daze when he was resting, but no one knew what he was thinking.

Wu Liuyi was worried about him for no reason, so he paid attention to him, ran around looking for him without seeing him at a glance, until he saw the figure again, but never told him, and he sometimes felt exhausted.

Probably too obvious, once Ding Cheng put his arm around his shoulder and asked, don't you think the squad leader is your son?

At that time, Wu Liuyi felt that he seemed to be on the verge of crashing, but he restrained himself a lot after that.

But Shi Jin didn't feel it, at least he really didn't feel it before Wu Liuda lost his temper.

Speaking of that day.

That day, Shi Jin lost his mind and hit his head on the horizontal bar. He lay on the ground and couldn't get up, bleeding profusely.

Wu Liuyi was frightened and went crazy, and he carried him and ran away regardless of what the people around him said. When he was lying on the bed in the infirmary, he heard his squad leader say something in a daze, "Squad leader, I really don't understand you."

On that day, he knew how deep Shi Jin's heart disease was.

Shi Jin thought, monitor, I really don't understand you, why didn't you tell me anything.Why wait until the last, the last, really the last, I still don't know anything about you...

The wound was stimulated by alcohol, and the pain made his eyes brighten immediately. Shi Jin interrupted his thoughts just like that, and when he looked up, he saw Wu Liuyi with a serious face. He smiled: "You sent me here?"

"En!" Wu Liu nodded, but for the first time in his heart, he began to hate this commercial smile, because it was too like a synonym for unfamiliarity.

"Thank you!" Shi Jin sat up suddenly, but his head was really dizzy, and he continued after a while, "Can you send me back, please?"

When Wu Liu sent Shi Jin back to the dormitory, he told him what he said when he was dazed.

Shi Jin still smiled so repulsively, but Wu Liuyi was completely irritated, he yelled at me why, he grabbed his key and went to get the kraft paper bag.

This time it was Shi Jin's turn to be frightened crazy. He wanted to go over to grab it, but Wu Liuyi slammed it down on the table. The former defeated man is indeed now gone.

Wu Liuyi was even angrier when he saw the name of the letter. He said, escape, is escape the way?Can it be solved without facing it?good!You don’t want to read it, I’ll read it to you.

Shi Jin's complexion changed. His headache was not a headache, but the wound this time. This pain made him more awake, like the two officers talking that day, every word was squeezed into his ears. here, clearly.

But it was Chu Xia Yan's voice clearly.

Shi Jin: Hello,

This is the first letter I've written in my life, and I don't know what to start with.

I'm on the border right now.I won't say which border, it's a military secret, it's estimated that by the time you receive my letter, the mission has already been completed for a long time.

I'm sorry I left in such a hurry and didn't have time to say goodbye to everyone.

I will go back and make amends.

I will leave the mess to you so irresponsibly. I have confidence in you, but what about your problem?You said at the time that it seemed that you squeezed me away, and I ran away before I could solve it.Because I don't know how to solve it at all.

When I first joined the army, I was excellent. My original excellence was for the collective glory, but after being outstanding, I broke away from that collective and deprived many of my comrades-in-arms of opportunities. When I sent away my comrades-in-arms, I also had This kind of guilt, I don't want him to go but there is nothing I can do.So it became a heart disease that couldn't be solved, put it in my heart, I didn't say that I didn't want to hurt others, but in the end I didn't expect to hurt you.

This world is actually so unfair. As long as I think that I will deprive others of opportunities intentionally or unintentionally in the future, I often have trouble sleeping and eating.

So, I'm leaving, I don't want to part with you, but in fact, there is still a feeling of relief hidden.I'm a coward, I'm gone after this mission.

There is something I want to tell you. I have been looking for opportunities for three years but failed to make a deal. I don’t know why, but I have always felt embarrassed. Now writing seems to be much more convenient.

Three years ago, I wrote your name on my death notice.

It was always blank, but when you told me in the hospital that you understood, I suddenly felt that if something happened to me, I wanted to let you know.

I'm sorry I haven't told you for so long.

Finally, thank you, as a soldier who is neither a dead old A nor a private soldier, I have lost a lot of happiness, even if I can’t integrate into the old A or the ordinary barracks, so it’s really nice to be able to talk and joke with you calmly I……

thank you so much.

I'm afraid you're going to say I'm disgusting.I will leave the pen here.

夏焱

PS. I envy your parents, write this sentence in the next letter!

"It's over." Wu Liu let go of the letter as soon as he handed it to him, and Shi Jin just slid down like this. What was left on the table was blood and tears, very similar to life.

Shi Jin clutched the letter very hard, he cried quietly, only tears fell down, he said in his heart, squad leader, squad leader, squad leader... just these two words over and over again.

Wu Liuyi closed the door when he went out, he thought, let him cry, enough crying.Then he went back to the Squad Leader Shi in his memory, the Squad Leader Shi who would tell him I promise you will obey.He also understands that this problem cannot be solved even if he spends his whole life, but at least he must be able to let go of it a little bit.

Whether he succeeded or failed, Wu Liuyi himself did not know.Anyway, their squad leader was already smiling as usual that night.

After listening to Shi Jin's report, Gao Cheng stopped him when he was about to leave and asked, "How is the solution?"

"It's not resolved!" Shi Jin smiled.

"Ah? That's not a mental illness!" Gao Cheng felt that his face didn't seem to be resolved.

"Leave it alone, it's dry and broken, it hurts to keep it in my heart." Shi Jin replied a little emotionally: "But it hurts, I want to remember it."

Gao Cheng looked up at him, and finally nodded: "Okay! You should remember."

"The company commander, I'm leaving first!" Shi Jin saluted with a smile.

"Let's go!" Gao Cheng also smiled at him, and said to himself when the door was closed: "It's really hard to be a soldier of the Seventh Steel Company!"

Of course Wu Liuyi didn't know what he said, so he observed it for several days and couldn't find out why.

In the bathroom, when Wu Liuyi went out, he couldn't help but turn around and ask, "Is this a solution or not?"

"Of course!" Shi Jin replied simply.

"Oh!" Wu Liuyi just turned his head and turned back when he thought about something wrong, "Of course it is or of course it isn't?"

"I don't know!" Shi Jin smiled as usual.

Wu Liu came to a conclusion, he didn't know if it was resolved or not, but it was true that their squad leader had become difficult.

"Ah, that's right!" Shi Jin turned around and smiled gently: "June [-]!"

"What?" Wu Liuyi raised his head, but suddenly felt a gust of wind behind him.

"I know you have made a lot of efforts for me! Thank you!" Shi Jin smiled strangely while holding his shoulder.

"Squad leader, you are welcome!" Wu Liuyi was about to escape, but Shi Jin quickly closed the door behind him.

"I suddenly remembered that my head was injured that day, and my reaction was slow. Someone took advantage of the danger and pushed me on the table to teach me a lesson." The smile on Shi Jin's face had completely disappeared as if he had changed his face. sound.

"Squad leader, don't get excited, listen to my explanation!"

"Excuse me, you dare to press my head, you rebel."

"No, monitor! Help~~~~~"

Afterwards, the miserable cries of the deputy of Class Wu resounded throughout the corridors of the Qilian dormitory, and it was still lingering for three days.

Shi Hou was later promoted again, a third-rank non-commissioned officer, and he returned to the dormitory wearing a hard military uniform. Before he had time to take it off, he heard the instructor calling him outside: "Shi Jiner!"

Shi Jin immediately greeted him with a promise: "Instructor, what are you doing?"

"Come with us, your company commander Gao is too busy. The home visits of the new recruits have been arranged, but the superiors called him away." The instructor pulled him: "Anyway, you look at the soldiers more than you do." He is much stronger, why don't you go with us!"

"Oh yes! Wait for me to drink some water!" Shi Jin agreed simply, and when he picked up the cup, he asked, "Instructor, where do you arrange for me to visit?"

"Huh?" The instructor thought for a while: "Oh yes, let's go to Rongshu Village."

"My hometown on June [-]st!" Shi Jin gulped down a couple of gulps, and then walked out.

The scenery outside the window changed, the weather was clear and cloudless, and the winding wall eaves drew an arc and extended towards a point in the sky.

The car also drove away quickly, leaving the entire barracks far behind. Shi Jin looked back and suddenly felt that it was like an isolated island on the other side, where time flies and groups of silent soldiers live there.

Shi Jin, what are you thinking?While thinking about it, I suddenly heard someone asking me this question.

Shi Jin just smiled slightly, leaning on the seat more comfortably.

--THAN--

At this point, our story is over, but another person's story has just begun.

The author has something to say: According to the strong request of my relatives and friends, I am conceiving a story about Yuan Zhe on the other side