true identity

After an incense stick of time, Zhao Ci fled out of Jiang Yanyi's room in despair, feeling annoyed, angry, ashamed, and ashamed all over him, as if he had been stuffed into a sauna room, and he couldn't even breathe smoothly.

Mr. Jiang, who usually stood like a green pine, looked as if he had lost his bones tonight. He leaned against the door and said to Zhao Ci, who turned his back to him: "Zhao Ci, why are you still so stupid and not sleeping? How about—"

"No, no, no, it's better, I've eaten too much, let's go, let's go." Hearing his voice, he hastily walked away.

"Or—" Jiang Yanyi tentatively asked.

"No, no, sir, go to bed early, go to bed early..." Before he could finish speaking, Zhao Ci had already run out of the yard.

Jiang Yanyi stood up straight and couldn't help laughing anymore.When he couldn't see Zhao Ci, his laughter gradually died down, and he sighed steadily, turned around and entered the room.

Zhao Ci, Zhao Ci, why are you so weak!

What should a person do if he loses in a verbal battle with someone? As cowardly as Zhao Ci is thinking about how to reply right now.But after thinking about it, he didn't know how to respond to Jiang Yanyi's teasing.It was as if he had fallen into a group of cactuses, it was difficult to strike anywhere, and he dared not strike anywhere.

While thinking, he walked into the garden by moonlight.In the middle of the night, all the private courtyards had long been locked, but this garden was still open.

It was quiet in the middle of the night, and the gatekeepers were either having a tryst with Zhou Yue or the maids. Zhao Ci only felt that the world was alone, and when the breeze blew, he immediately felt refreshed and his grievances were swept away.

"Who! Who's there!" A female voice pierced the silence, and Zhao Ci trembled in fright. He turned around, and while he breathed a sigh of relief, his head ached again: "Miss, you don't sleep most of the night, pretending to be Wang Zuxian." Woolen cloth?"

"Who is Wang Zuxian?" Pei Lingyu, who was alone, had a good face when she saw Zhao Ci: "Why are you here?"

"I can't sleep, so I come out for a walk." Zhao Ci explained while moving to leave.

Pei Lingyu called to stop him: "You want to leave before you tell me who Wang Zuxian is?"

Zhao Ci knocked on his forehead, and suddenly hated himself for being too slippery: "Wang Zuxian is a great beauty, Miss, I am praising you as beautiful as a fairy."

The tone of his words just now was obviously not flattering, Pei Lingyu didn't like him, and sneered: "Slick." She held the lamp in her hand, and the outer layer of paper cover protected the wick, and the light gently embraced the two of them, Except for this circle, there is a shadow, even if the moonlight is so bright, everything is still dark.

For the first time ever, Pei Lingyu stopped Zhao Ci who was about to leave again: "Since you can't sleep, just chat with me."

In the middle of the night, Zhao Ci, who is alone and widowed, has to be cautious even in modern times, let alone getting along with an ancient man in ancient times.He hesitated and said: "This is not very good..."

"What's wrong." Pei Lingyu frowned.

"After all, it's just you and me. It's not good for your reputation."

Pei Lingyu snorted: "I've never cared about what reputation is. Whether it can be eaten, used, or worn, the world judges you by the eyes of the world. Why should you care about other people's opinions if you live out your own image? .”

He couldn't believe that Pei Lingyu's ideology was so avant-garde. Not to mention right or wrong, her own concept alone was enough to beat up many boudoir girls, even Zhao Ci felt ashamed.

There is a cluster of high and low rockery behind them. Pei Lingyu put the lamp on a gentle stone platform, covered the stone pier with a handkerchief and sat down. She glanced at Zhao Ci's stunned look and said, "Looking at your appearance, you can tell that you are a secular person." things."

She pointed at everything, Zhao Ci really couldn't laugh or cry: "Miss, how did I offend you?" Since she didn't even care, he didn't shy away from staying.

Pei Lingyu looked at him for a long while without speaking, a strange expression appeared on her palm-sized face, angry at his indisputableness and mourning at his misfortune.

With a flash of consonance, Zhao Ci had an epiphany without a teacher. He took over Pei Lingyu's silence and shut up. The two sat on one high and one low stones and looked at the bright moon in the night sky together.

The moon is full tonight, and a big round hangs in the sky. Although the soft light is not as dazzling as the lights, from a distance, the moonlight gently covers the entire night with a veil of light. The original appearance was more or less revealed, making the whole night clear.

Zhao Ci's voice was clear and clear. He was usually full of vitality like a teenager, but he couldn't help lowering his voice in this situation. The tone of his voice was like a long sigh: "Life is unsatisfactory. You have to face it. , what can be solved by returning home alone?"

Pei Lingyu was startled, she turned her head and stood up: "What do you know!?"

The lamp at her feet was almost overturned by her movements, Zhao Ci hurriedly reached out to hold the lamp holder.The paper cover couldn't help being licked by the tongue of fire, and it was burned up all at once, leaving only the naked flame swaying in the wind.

"It's all right now, you have to be careful when you go back—hey, hey, what are you doing?" Zhao Ci just hid the lamp in the leeward place, and Pei Lingyu grabbed his arm, and she lifted him up.

"What do you know? Who are you?" Pei Lingyu asked in a low voice like a frightened bird.Her eyes seemed to be driven to the extreme, it was the fear of being exposed, the begging to save her dignity, and the sternness that I would kill you if you said it.

Zhao Ci rolled his Adam's apple, and waited until his body was shaken by her before saying, "I, I don't know anything, and I'm not anyone, I just want to comfort you."

"If you didn't know the inside story, how could you say such a thing!" Only because she was in this mountain, Pei Lingyu didn't know how amazing it was to return home alone.The servants and maids in the mansion have guessed all the possibilities, if Yingwu hadn't forcefully told them to pay attention to their mouths, otherwise the news would spread out of the mansion with wings.

Returning to the province, regardless of the length of time, basically the bride and groom come back at the same time, so there is no reason for being alone.

Zhao Ci didn't know the concept of returning to the province, but the newlyweds had just been paired with mandarin ducks, and they were basically in pairs when they went out.He also had a flash of inspiration to think of this, so he was comforted.

Pei Lingyu was not stupid, she was just troubled by worry, she held Zhao Ci's arm and looked up at him, and found that he looked at her with sympathetic and pitiful eyes, and she understood it all at once.

"Heh..." She pushed Zhao Ci away.Zhao Ci bumped into the rockery, grinning his teeth in pain, and his whole body was hidden in the shadows.

Standing under the moonlight, Pei Lingyu's face was gloomy: "You think I'm pitiful? Why are you!"

"I do not have……"

The excuse was interrupted before the sentence was finished, as proud as Pei Lingyu, what he hated most in his life was being pitiful.

People in the house pitied her because of her ordinary appearance, pitied her because she was obviously talented but was unable to inherit the family business as a woman, pitied her because she failed to court a mate, pitied her because of her weird personality and was included in the second-class marriage list...

Pairs of eyes stared at her, sighed and shook their heads one by one, her advantages were wiped out one by one, all her good things were dismissed, and those eyes, either bright or dark, seemed to say: You are fine, but You are neither beautiful nor gentle, and you behave recklessly and never bow your head. The respect you have now is only because you have a good pregnancy, and it is fortunate that you are the daughter of Mr. Pei, otherwise you would not have what you have now.

Self-doubt made her have frequent nightmares, she cried, she screamed, she also wanted to put on a good appearance that the world recognized, and hone a good character that others liked, but when she did it, what she got was symbolic. Unidentified eyes.

Don't say you are good or bad, praise you, and then talk about the girl who is more beautiful and gentle than her.

Pei Lingyu had secretly seen that girl, she was indeed beautiful and generous, and she was a good model for the eyes of the world.But the girl secretly complained that one mountain is still higher, and there are others who are pouring into her ears.

Pei Lingyu finally understood how ridiculous she was, how could she think of smoothing her edges and corners to submit to other people's eyes.How others see and think has nothing to do with me, can I still do everything well?

After suddenly realizing it, she devoted herself to seeking the truth in the painting.

In the scorching summer days, she was sweating profusely and picked up a pen to describe the lotus, and in the cold weather of March and September, she painted the soul of plum with snow on the tip of her eyebrows.

She conquered others with her paintings and won the affirmation of others. Those poor eyes finally turned into awe and admiration. She waited until no one would mention her shortcomings, waited until she used her own ability to overcome the ignorance of the world, and waited until she found After arriving at her bosom friend and marrying him, she didn't realize until she raised her case and respected her like a guest——

Pei Lingyu once said that she will marry whoever can see through the true meaning of her paintings.As soon as these words came out, letters flew into Pei's house like snow, only Wenren's enviable words imprinted in her heart: be free and easy.

The abbot of Ciyun Temple made them think that she was devoted to charity and full of filial piety.Only he spoke his mind.

She put on the phoenix coronet xiapei contentedly and married into Wenren's mansion. Wenren envied her and loved her, so she was very happy.But there is only one thing, he doesn't seem to understand her that much...

Both "Listening to the Wind Blowing the Lotus" and "Nine Petals of Handan" were shelved, and her pen and ink were also idle. He took her to meet his relatives and friends, and he proudly introduced his wife with both ability and political integrity to others.

She pretended to be among his friends, and while enduring the irritable communication, she was grateful for Wen Renxian's thoughtful apology and love for her after returning home.

The dullness and joy of marriage balance each other, and she thinks she can bear the habit until she meets someone.

After soaking in the secular world for a long time, her eyes were also stained with dust. When she first met him, she felt that he was not good in everything. He had no money, no power, no backer, and even no voice.

She has become someone else's wife, how can she be different.But she really liked him, very much.

"Why do you pity me?" Pei Lingyu's eyes turned red, she lifted her chin high, tears rolled in her eyes and she managed not to shed them.

She pulled out a mocking smile: "You can't even discover your own love, how dare you pity me?"

Zhao Ci was about to refute strangely, but a person suddenly flashed in his mind, and he was so frightened that he supported the rockery.

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Rolling around and begging for a cute little flower! !