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"Su Yin, you don't have to protect yourself so carefully."

Seimei said so.

And Su Yin raised his eyes and looked at him for a long while, then was silent for a moment, and smiled as if he was crying: "Really?"

Qingming was slightly taken aback.

"But Qingming, have you ever thought about what I think..." Su Yin looked away, her heart was heavy, the air was so thin that she could hardly breathe.

"Everyone always tells me...it's okay, what's the big deal? It's the same when I was abandoned by my mother, and it's the same when I was abandoned by Ootengu-sama. Even Seimei doesn't want me anymore..." She blinked In the blink of an eye, drops of water rolled down her cheeks, completely uncontrollable.

"Everyone said, what's the big deal about these things, why are you so fragile... But I'm just sad, what can I do? When I was a child, I accidentally fell, hugged my mother and cried endlessly. At first, my mother would still She comforted me and said, it doesn’t hurt anymore, but if she cries for a little longer, she will change her face and scold me, saying why I can’t bear a little bit of suffering... I just want her to hug me more. I just want to cry , but everyone will only tell me to be quiet, no one wants to hear me cry."

"It was also at that time... Qingming, you said you were going to die, and then just drove me away. I know, I know you can't help it, life and death are not up to you... But why, why did you insist on driving me away ? You hope I can be more sensible... I am already very sensible, why don't you ask me if I want to stay?"

Qingming sighed inwardly, and tentatively reached out to touch the top of Su Yin's head, but she dodged it.

"Don't touch me!" she yelled at him so impatiently and impolitely for the first time.

Then she turned her back, turned her back to Qingming, hugged her knees tightly, buried her head in it, sucked in her breath hard, and suppressed the choking in her voice.

"I'm already...very sensible. After all, if I'm not sensible, everyone will still hate me..." Su Yin kept her head down, unwilling to raise her head, "Did I do something wrong? Obviously it will be you sooner or later. They all abandon me one by one, and don't let me keep a distance from you... If at that time, if at that time, I still like Ootengu-sama, I don't know what I will become."

——I really, can no longer accept him calmly.

Obviously he was the one who abandoned me without saying a word.Why did it take so many years to tell me that he actually likes me.

It's been many years, big tengu.

She sobbed intermittently:

"No one likes me at all. So I won't like anyone anymore."

"I don't like anyone. I don't like Daitengu, and I don't like Seimei-sama. You're all going to abandon me anyway...don't lie to me again. I won't believe it."

Will never believe it again.

——Like a clam whose pearls have been stolen by a snipe, no matter what happens, it will never open its shell again.

Qingming looked at Su Yin silently and said nothing.

He closed his fan, took two steps forward, bent down and hugged her into his arms, patted her on the back lightly, and said softly, "Okay, I see."

"Cry, Su Yin." He said, "I hear you cry."

"If you want to cry, just cry."

Be it a human heart or a monster's heart, they are all elusive things.

Have you ever seen those crying kids?They are noisy and always disturb others, so the adults can't help but scold them: "It's really useless!"

But if the child does not cry and sits quietly aside, the adults will perfunctorily praise him as a good boy, and then chat and laugh with other people with high spirits, completely ignoring the eyes of the children around him who are eager to be cared for.

This world is so strange, no matter how big your grievances are, you can only hide them and learn to make do with them.

"Why are you telling me this... Qingming... just pretend that you don't know anything?" Su Yin murmured.

Wouldn't it be happier to live if you didn't know anything?

Even that happiness is fake.

"Because there is no way to pretend that I don't know," Qingming replied, "How do you let me feel at ease?"

"I said I would protect you, did you forget?"

"..."

It was probably because she cried a lot last night, and when she woke up the next day, Su Yin was in a bad mood, listless and unable to cheer up.

On the way to escort Akashi to school as usual, he happened to meet Shintaro Midorima, who looked serious as always.

Akashi greeted him with a smile: "Shintaro."

Midorima, who was standing in front of him waiting for the traffic light, realized the existence of Akashi. He turned around, pushed his glasses, and his gaze involuntarily lingered on Su Yin for a moment, then he pushed his glasses, nodded and said, "Morning!" , Akashi. It's rare to meet you here."

"Yes." Akashi agreed, "What's the matter recently? You don't seem to be in a good mood."

"...Hmph." Midorima Shintaro uttered an unpleasant syllable faintly.

"The final exam is coming soon," Midorima Shintaro said, "Kagome Higurashi is still asking for leave... Teiko is not a middle school that can be directly entered, she is really..."

Su Yin couldn't help feeling guilty for a moment, then raised her head again, and glanced at the traffic lights across the street.

"Master Akashi," she reminded, "the traffic light is here, I'm leaving first."

"Okay, sorry to bother you." Akashi Seijuro nodded politely to her.

Su Yin smiled back and turned away.

Thanks to her excellent hearing ability, Su Yin still heard the conversation between the two behind her after walking a long way:

"...Higure's sick leave is very urgent this time, maybe he is really seriously ill."

"But their family doesn't want us to visit patients at all. There must be something wrong."

"Maybe Shintaro pays too much attention to these things."

Then, Midorima Shintaro seemed to reply something, but this time it was really far away, and Su Yin couldn't really hear it at all.

It's so dangerous, I almost showed my flaws when Shintaro Midorima mentioned Kagome Higurashi.

Thankfully she is good at acting.

Su Yin was thinking about some things, such as what to eat at noon, and when will I go back to Akashi's mansion later so that I won't be scolded. come with a hand.

"Well--"

——Or, this time, he was really incapable of noticing.

Violet light flashed through the shadows.

The author has something to say: There should be two updates today, and the remaining two updates are [-] words (maybe)

I haven't written a single word on this week's list... no, I've written two thousand words now.It's too awful.

I have another exam tomorrow morning, and I have exam arrangements until NO.17... I worked hard.

ps:

On the sixth day, I drew a big tengu! ! !The first time I got a dog woo woo woo

However, I am a newly opened account in the past half a month, and I can't help but raise a dog. I cried, and finally got together a few, and the dog gave me a 222...

The heart is ashamed.