After dressing as a villain, I'm with the paranoid male protagonist.

Qiao Annian couldn't remember how old he was, and he was going to be in charge of the family's New Year's Eve dinner.

It could have been when he was 11, it could have been when he was 12.

When it is dark, he has to go out, and the weather is very cold, so he usually chooses to run to keep warm.

The uncles and aunts in the vegetable market all know him, and sometimes they will give him a little bit of a discount, or give him a change, but some vendors will think that he doesn't understand anything, and the price is very high.

His stepmother will give him a note, and he needs to prepare everything on the note.

The things are heavy, the bag is tight, and there are many people. These are not the most difficult things. The most difficult thing is to encounter leg cramps like today, or sometimes the stomach hurts from the wind and other physical discomforts.

Sometimes it takes a while and it passes, other times the situation can last for a long time.

There was no other way, I could only bear the pain and walk back.

The temperature was low in the morning, and the old padded jacket Qiao Annian was wearing didn't do much to block the wind. The wind hung on his face, making his nose run cold, only the calf was warm.The warmth slowly spread across his body, and his whole body became warmer. Even when the wind blew on his body, it didn't feel so cold anymore.

I don't know if it was the comforting effect in his heart, or Xiaolou's massage really had an effect, but he really felt much better now.

Qiao Annian patted He Nanlou on the shoulder, he sniffed: "Xiaolou, I'm better now, let's go back"

He Nanlou stopped his hands, and he stood up, "Take a few steps, I'll take a look."

In fact, it still hurts a little, so Qiao Annian still limps a little when he walks.

He Nanlou said decisively: "Wait for me here, I'll call a taxi."

Qiao Annian subconsciously said: "With such a short distance, would calling a tricycle be a waste of time?"

Going back from the vegetable market, it only takes about 10 minutes to walk.

He Nanlou glanced at the pile of things on the ground, "You used to carry so many things and walk back alone?"

Knowing that you have to go out early in the morning to buy vegetables, and you can buy all the vegetables in such a short period of time, all these require the accumulation of experience.

Qiao Annian nodded, with a smug tone: "However, I will deduct the money for three rounds."

He was not that stupid, and handed over all the money he got back.

Of course his stepmother would be wary of him, and would ask him the price of each dish one by one, and he would say that the price of each dish was higher on average.His stepmother sometimes searched him to see if he had hidden money, and asked him to take off his shoes so she could check them.

Therefore, usually as long as his stepmother asks him to buy something with a relatively large amount of money, before entering the door, he will use a small plastic bag to put those erased odds and extra wallets, and hide them in the yard. In the flowerpot, after everyone has gone to bed at night, go and take out the plastic bag.

If it rains that day, hide somewhere else.

Anyway, it is a battle of wits and courage.

He always remembered what his grandmother had said to him, live on.

Only by surviving can he leave here and go to the bigger world outside.

He Nanlou was not surprised.

If Qiao Annian had only kindness, he would not have been able to survive in Jiangcheng alone at the age of 16. What's more, he might not survive the year when he left the town at the age of 16.

Kind and brave, he will use his little cleverness at the right time, and at the same time stubbornly stick to his bottom line.These contradictory character traits make up a complete Joannian.

"Not too stupid."

This half-praise made Qiao Annian very proud, "That's right!"

He Nanlou squatted down in front of Qiao Annian: "Pick up the things, come up."

It's too crowded here, and tricycles can't get in. They need to go to the intersection.

"No, why don't you help me over slowly? It's a bit heavy."

Needless to say, vegetables, he also bought fish, pork ribs, taro, and fruit, which was heavy.

"Come up."

Qiao Annian had no choice but to carry the things in one hand, put the other around He Nanlou's neck, and lay on He Nanlou's back.

...

These days, the New Year's Eve street is still very lively.

When Qiao Annian and He Nanlou went out, it was pitch black, but now the sky is getting brighter.

There are usually no people on the street after six o'clock, but today there are people coming and going, and most of the shops are up early in the morning.

On the way back by tricycle together, we could see adults setting off firecrackers at the door of their homes, or some early-rising children throwing and throwing firecrackers on the side of the road to play.

The street outside the vegetable market is the busiest old street in the town. There are clothes, gloves, candied haws, roasted chestnuts and other food, and there are many small vendors who shine shoes.

Over the years, Qiao Annian would pass this street every time on New Year's Eve. Every time, he would run past and rush back with vegetables. He had never strolled slowly, let alone Don't say it's like today, sitting in the car and watching the pedestrians on both sides of the street.

Among the crowd, Qiao Annian saw a familiar figure from the back, it was his stepmother.Without his free labor, his stepmother walked towards his house with several big bags full of things in her hand.

The bag was punctured by something, and the Dongzao inside rolled out. His stepmother chased Dongzao and ran to the middle of the road.

The tricycle driver yelled to give way, Luo Juan raised her head in dissatisfaction, her eyes met Qiao Annian who was sitting in the car, her eyes were wide open.

There was no special emotion in Qiao Annian's eyes, as if he was looking at a stranger.

Because Luo Juan looked up, He Nanlou also saw her.

The tricycle drove past quickly.

Luo Juan, staring at the tricycle going away, a trace of remorse flashed in her eyes.

I should have known that I shouldn't have driven this kid out so early!

Now there is no one who works!

...

Running into her stepmother Luo Juan on the street had no effect on Qiao Annian's mood.

After a short rest on the tricycle, Qiao Annian's legs were also much better, and the pain was not so great.

When he got home, Qiao Annian put all the vegetables he bought in the kitchen first, put the fresh fish and crabs in the washbasin separately, and put the rest on the countertop.

It was too early for them to go out to buy groceries, and the two went back to their rooms to catch up on sleep.

After Qiao Annian woke up, he felt refreshed.

It has been many years, and he has not slept comfortably on New Year's Eve.

Qiao Annian walked out of the room, just in time to see He Nanlou push the door out.

Qiao Annian smiled: "What a coincidence? You didn't wake up until now? What do you want for lunch? I'll make it for you."

He Nanlou: "Together."

Qiao Annian did not refuse: "Okay."

The two went downstairs together.

Because we have to prepare the New Year's Eve dinner in the evening, it is relatively simple for two people to eat at noon. Otherwise, if we can't finish eating at noon, it will easily cause waste.

Qiao Annian cooked seafood noodles for the two of them, using clam soup as a base, and put two whole shrimps in dried shrimp, fish cakes, and clams. Before putting the noodles into the bowl, he carefully picked out Shredded ginger, chopped green onion and black fungus in the soup were not put in the soup.

The two of them had just eaten a bowl of noodles, while Qiao Annian was cleaning up the kitchen, the doorbell rang like a reminder.

He Nanlou went to open the door.

Qiao Annian was a little uneasy. Could it be that Xiaolou's father or mother finally came to find Xiaolou?

Xiaolou was able to reunite with his family in the big family. Qiao Annian was of course happy for his friend, but he was always an outsider, so it was still somewhat awkward.

"Annian—Annian—"

Hearing Lin Jiajia's voice, Qiao Annian put the drained bowl in the sink and walked out of the kitchen.

"Jia Jia, why are you here?"

It's the first time the two have met since the holiday. Unlike before, if the two have something to do, if they call out to each other, the other party will come out of the house, and when they go out, they will be able to meet people.

"Come to play with you! I used to go to your house to play with you on New Year's Eve, and you didn't have time. Finally, do you have time today? Let's go, let's set off fireworks together! By the way, we will go to the street to buy couplets."

"Aunt Lin asked you to go to the street to buy couplets. After passing by me, you came to play with me by the way, right?"

"Haha. They're all the same. Let's go shopping in the street together?"

Lin Jiajia went to hold Qiao Annian's hand.

Qiao Annian turned her head and asked He Nanlou: "Xiaolou, do you want to go?"

Boss Lin Jiajia was not happy: "Why did you call him again? It's not enough for the two of them to sleep in the same room every day, and they have to be together when they go shopping, right? Is it your wife? Where did you take it?"

"Xiaolou and I are both men, do you think I will marry him in the future, or will he marry me in the future?"

"It's true. I heard you said that they are all men. I just reminded me of this. Not long ago, one time, in the middle of the night, I was ordered by my dad to buy cigarettes. Passing the small forest by the pond, I just heard, you know, the kind of noise that parents make at night. I thought who was playing so wild, looking for the sound, fuck, two guys mouth to mouth, booing. Made me sick."

Qiao Annian was stunned, this kind of thing had completely exceeded his daily cognition.

Lin Jiajia still feels disgusting thinking about it now, but when she saw Qiao Annian's stupid appearance, she immediately felt a sense of superiority that "my brothers don't know this, only I know".

"Hahaha. Are you stunned? Have you not seen it? I don't know if men can have sex with men, right?"

Qiao Annian nodded truthfully. He really couldn't imagine the scene of two men kissing.

Qiao Annian guessed: "Could it be that he was drunk? One of them thought the other was a woman?"

"How do I know this. I can only say that there is such a possibility. I told a buddy about it later, and he said that the kind is called gay, and it's called gay in TV dramas. They all mean the same thing. It's just I like men, but I can't work with women. I also heard that those comrades have a lot of fun. As long as they make eye contact with people, they can make appointments with hotels and other places, so ten of them Eight or nine of them are sick. Let me stay away if I see them. Because some of them are very fond of abducting boys, and specifically tricking little boys into sleeping with them."

Qiao Annian's three views are constantly being impacted.

He Nanlou: "Like minors, and specifically pick on minors. It's pedophilia, even in heterosexual relationships. It has nothing to do with whether the other party likes the same sex or whether they are gay. Homosexuality is not only for men, there are also women. Except Liking the same sex is essentially no different from the heterosexual group. Some people are flirtatious, while others are devoted to it.”

Lin Jiajia only knew that there were men doing it together, but he didn't even know that women could still like women.The adolescent boy's inexplicable sense of victory made him feel as if he was being compared. He said unconvinced: "How do you know so clearly? Could it be that you are gay?"

"I'm."

"Hahaha, have nothing to say?"

He Nanlou's response and Lin Jiajia's ridicule sounded almost at the same time.

Strictly speaking, He Nanlou is not actually gay. In his two lifetimes together, he only liked Qiao Annian.

Qiao Annian is gay, so he is gay.

Without Qiao Annian, he would most likely only be obsessed with AI.

...

Be quiet.

When Qiao Annian came out, he forgot to turn off the faucet.

The water flow was small, and they had been talking before, so he didn't notice that the water was on when he came out of the kitchen.

At this moment, none of the three of them made a sound, and the sound of the water in the kitchen was amplified.

Qiao Annian: "I'll go in and turn off the water."

Qiao Annian went into the kitchen. Before entering, he didn't look at He Nanlou or Lin Jiajia.

Lin Jiajia and He Nanlou were left staring at each other.

Of course, it was Lin Jiajia who stared at He Nanlou unilaterally.

"You just... What you said just now, is it true or... Or did you just say it casually to scare me?"

He Nanlou: "To me, homosexuality is not a scary word."

But you scare me, brother!

Lin Jiajia roared in her heart.

In the kitchen, Qiao Annian turned off the tap.

The door was open, so Qiao Annian could clearly hear the conversation between He Nanlou and Lin Jiajia.

Qiao Annian didn't know how to digest the shock in his heart.

First, Jiajia told him that he had seen a man kissing a man, and then, without warning, Xiaolou admitted that he liked men...

Qiao Annian flicked the water from his hands, and he walked out of the kitchen, "The water is turned off, let's go. Let's go out together. Xiaolou is with us?"

Lin Jiajia: "!!! Did you hear what he said just now? He said he likes men!"

Qiao Annian actually thought it was a bit strange that he liked boys, but he didn't show it.

He changed his position and thought about it. If he was the one who liked boys, he would definitely feel bad if Xiaolou showed any disgust or disgust in front of him.

So, before he came out of the kitchen, he had already made a decision——

"So what? Isn't he still our classmate and friend?"

Yes.

so what?

He will never break up with Xiaolou just because he likes boys.

Lin Jiajia didn't understand: "You, don't you feel sick?"

two men.

vomit--

It's disgusting to think about.

Qiao Annian shook his head truthfully: "Why is it disgusting? I have lived with him for so long, and I have never seen Xiaolou take anyone home. He also sleeps at home every night and never goes out with anyone. Yes. I don’t know the gay community, but I know Xiaolou. He’s not the kind of guy you’re talking about.”

Lin Jiajia was in a hurry, and blurted out: "Then, what if he likes you?"

Qiao Annian: "...Can you stop asking such impossible things?"

"Why is it impossible? You have good grades, good looks, and good personality. How can it be impossible for him to like you?"

Qiao Annian subconsciously said, "But I'm a man."

"That's right. Isn't that what he likes?"

Lin Jiajia pointed at He Nanlou's face.

It's too impolite to point at people like this, Qiao Annian took Lin Jiajia's hand down, "Like guys, doesn't mean that all boys who come from around me will like them? Look, we like girls, but we haven't seen them either. We like a girl when we see a girl. Well, you don't have to worry about such impossible things. Let's go, let's go shopping together. "

Qiao Annian ran to the table, took the keys of the house, held one in each hand, and went out with He Nanlou and Lin Jiajia on their arms.

After Lin Jiajia walked a few steps, she was about to turn her head and look at He Nanlou, as if a pair of horns suddenly grew on his head.

...

There are many people on the street in the morning, but at noon, there are no people on the street.

Many shops were closed, and only children were running around on the street with toys or food in their hands.

Lin Jiajia went straight to the store selling couplets, fearing that if she went later, all the stores would be closed.

There are only a few lively streets in the town.

On the way, the two met several classmates, some went out to buy new year's goods with their parents, and some were just like them, just out to wander, cooperate and were sent by their parents to run errands.

"Xiaolou, which pair do you think looks better?"

Qiao Annian also stood in front of the shop's booth and followed each other to choose couplets. He had two pairs in his hand, and he couldn't make up his mind, so he asked He Nanlou to read them for him.

Just as He Nanlou was about to take over the two couplets, his body was forcibly pulled away by Lin Jiajia, "You'd better keep a distance from An Nian in the future."

Joannian: "..."

Qiao Annian finally chose the one he liked the most at first glance, and paid for Lin Jiajia's one together.

"You don't need to pay, my mother gave me the money—"

After Qiao Annian gave the money to the boss, he dragged Lin Jiajia out, "I'll give you the couplet, and I can't afford anything else. I just wish you and your family a happy new year. Also, can you... Lou is a little more natural? You have no way to accept it, and they didn't force you to accept it. You just get along naturally and it's over, don't pick things up."

"I pick things up? Who am I doing this for..."

"I know, you care about me. But you can't be so embarrassing. I assure you, Xiaolou doesn't have any thoughts about me!"

"Really?"

Qiao Annian was moved with emotion and reason: "If he has any thoughts about me, can I not feel it?"

"What if you just don't feel it?"

"Do you look at me like an idiot?"

"Not like."

"Then it's over!"

"It seems that there is such a reason."

He Nanlou came out of the store with his hands in his pockets.

Of these two people, one dared to speak and the other dared to believe.

...

Lin Jiajia still couldn't accept that He Nanlou was a comrade.

awkward.

He bought couplets, found an excuse and went back without going with Qiao Annian, He Nanlou and the others.

Qiao Annian apologized to He Nanlou on behalf of his friend: "I'm sorry, Jiajia just... I guess it happened suddenly, and he couldn't accept it for a while. Don't worry about it."

He Nanlou: "What about you?"

Qiao Annian blinked: "Huh? Me what?"

"What do you think, same..."

He Nanlou opened his head and covered his mouth with one hand.

"Hi, An Nian, He Nanlou, are you going out for a stroll too?"

She is the deputy monitor of the class, a cute girl with a round face and two dimples when she smiles.The girl held her mother's hand, came from the opposite road, and waved to them with a smile.

"Well, yes. It's okay, just come out for a stroll. Hello, auntie."

Qiao Annian took his hand off He Nanlou's hand, waved to the girl, and took the initiative to say hello to the parents.

The parents of class six knew Qiao Annian as the class monitor, and the other party greeted him with a smile.

After the girl left with her mother, Qiao Annian whispered, "I, this is the first time I've heard of it today. I don't know anything about the gay community either. In fact, I think it doesn't matter whether I know it or not." .Whether you like boys or girls, aren't you still you?"

Qiao Annian carefully chose his words, for fear that if he accidentally said something wrong, it would hurt someone.

Don't judge well what you don't understand, let alone fear it.

"If there is a final deviation in the experiment, you meet Joe as you wish, but you find that the world&#[-];is not the one you love. What do you do?"

He Nanlou lowered his eyes.

How could Brian's assumption be established?

After returning, Qiao Annian pasted the couplets he bought on the door frame.

A new and festive scene.

Just like the Spring Festival he spent this year.

It was almost four o'clock in the afternoon, and Qiao Annian began to work on the New Year's Eve banquet at night.

He Nanlou helped him.

Qiao Annian found that often when he turned around, before he even opened his mouth, he would find that Xiaolou had already given him what he wanted.

It was as if they had a tacit understanding that they had lived together for a long time.

The dishes on the table were served one by one, and the sky gradually darkened.

Qiao Annian brought out his stewed pigeon soup from the kitchen, and said to He Nanlou who was arranging the dishes: "Start—"

The New Year's Eve banquet, even if there are only two people, should be lively.

At night, the sound of firecrackers is more intense than during the day.

Qiao Annian took a shower in the bathroom, and the sound of fireworks and firecrackers outside the bathroom window never stopped.

It's really New Year's Eve.

time flies.

Qiao Annian took a bath. According to the custom, he should change into newly bought clothes and shoes during the New Year.

But he doesn't have new clothes, but he washed his red sweater and a pair of jeans that he hasn't worn a few times yesterday.

Qiao Annian buried her face in the sweater and sniffed it, her eyebrows and eyes curved.

Fragrant, with the taste of sunshine.

Qiao Annian changed into the red sweater that he would only wear on important occasions, and this year he was reluctant to wear it. After putting it on, he realized that the sleeves were a bit short.

Qiao Annian lowered his head and looked at the cuffs that only reached above his wrist bones, feeling extremely distressed.

Obviously, the year before last, I deliberately bought two sizes up...

I can't fit the jeans anymore, and I can't pull them up when I reach the thighs.

The clothes were really short, and he couldn't stretch his arms freely, so Qiao Annian had to take off the clothes.

Joannian, who was breathing on the heater and wearing only thermal underwear, pushed open the door of the room. Joannian saw a stack of clothes neatly arranged on his bed, and - a brand new red short down jacket.

Joannian was stunned.

This red down jacket... Wasn't it the one that Xiaolou tried on when he accompanied Xiaolou to Jiangcheng?

Qiao Annian even forgot about the cold. He sat on the bed and quickly flipped through the pile of clothes, warming underwear...sweaters, sweaters...all that day in Jiangcheng, when Xiaolou was trying on clothes, he asked his opinion, he Those things that were agreed upon.

No wonder...

No wonder Xiaolou didn't wear the newly bought clothes except for a few that he saw Xiaolou wear.He thought Xiaolou had too many clothes and couldn't wear them.

Actually, did you buy it for him?