After being rejected by the Pure Love God of War three times, I smashed it and won.

Ji Mian was dragged by him and walked for an unknown distance, Yi Guyou walked too fast, she gradually couldn't keep up with the other's pace, and finally couldn't help it after her breathing became short of breath.

All the appointments that were originally arranged were all in vain. She was quite happy to meet her parents and the atmosphere was good. Who knows that she has become like this now?

Ji Mian suddenly became angry for no reason, and violently pulled someone who was still rushing forward into the dark alleys on both sides of the street, and violently pushed him against the wall and said viciously:

"Why are you walking so fast! My wrist is swollen from your pinch!"

Yi Gu Youtai suddenly bumped into the hard wall behind him, and it took a few seconds before he finally came back to his senses.He stared blankly at Ji Mian who was staring at her angrily, and saw a trace of anger and unconcealable worry in his eyes.

His white brain along the way finally started to work, the expression on his face cracked for a moment, and then he became flustered visibly, pulling Ji Mian's wrist was full of distress.

"I'm sorry Mianmian, I just..."

He looked at the circle of red marks pinched by him, and wanted to beat himself to death with self-blame.

Ji Mian stared at him steadfastly, judging that the man had finally calmed down, he breathed a sigh of relief, but there was an inexplicable sense of apathy in his heart, he didn't really want to talk, he pulled his wrist away and turned around to leave, but was caught by Yi Gu. Yuta hugged her into her arms.

"Yi Gu worry too much!"

Ji Mian called him with raised eyebrows, put her arms between the two as if she was about to struggle, but was hugged even tighter by the other party.

"Mianmian," Yi Guyoutai whispered in her ear, her voice trembling a little, "Mianmian, can you listen to me?"

Ji Mian frowned, trying to kill his patience, "I'll talk about it later when I have something to say."

"I'm afraid I won't have the courage to tell you...Mianmian, I'm actually a very selfish person..."

Ji Mian paused, thinking that he had committed a crime.

At this moment, even with a strand of hair, I can imagine that there is definitely a place for Li Xiang in Yi Gu Yuta's words.As if being dragged into the water bit by bit, every cell in the skin felt the feeling of lack of oxygen. To be honest, Ji Mian didn't want to hear it, but from the corner of her eye, she saw a pair of dark green eyes full of water vapor, and the eyes were full of sadness , she paused, but in the end she still didn't push him away.

Yi Guyoutai noticed that the girl in his arms stopped struggling, his heart softened again, he turned his head and kissed Ji Mian's earlobe, and began to whisper what he had never told anyone.

"Rika, I'm sorry for her."

When Otoko Yuta was 11 years old, Kimoto Rika was killed in a car accident in front of him. The driver was driving very fast, as if a gust of wind was blowing by Otoko Yuta's hand, and the previous second was still alive. The fragrant rolls of talking and laughing have gone far.He didn't have time to react, long bloodstains were left on the ground, and Lixiang was already out of breath.

At that time, Yi Gu Youtai seemed to be nailed in place and unable to move. He didn't understand anything yet, but he already understood one thing.

"I lost someone very important in that moment."

Kimoto Rika was his closest friend in childhood.Yi Guyou is too sincere to others, many friends like to play with him, but Lixiang is the most special one among them.

"I didn't want to believe the fact that Lixiang left in front of me, so I cursed her. Although it was an unconscious act, I did curse Lixiang so that she would not be able to become a Buddha after death."

Yi Gu Youtai's voice trembled, as if those memories had barbs, and every time he recalled them, his body would be covered in bruises.

He hugged Ji Mian tightly, almost greedily absorbing the warmth of her body.

"But, Mianmian, I'm too selfish. When I knew that Lixiang had become a cursed spirit by my side, my first reaction was not joy, but fear, very fear."

"I was very scared, afraid that she would really drag me into that world."

He almost tried his best to suppress Li Xiang's appearance. For six years, he didn't call her once, but he clearly knew that Li Xiang had always stayed somewhere in his soul, and once he called her name, she would respond him, and out of his control.

He trembled every day, fearing that he would not be able to control his strength and let Lixiang run out. Over time, he became withdrawn at school and did not get close to others, so that he was bullied by seniors.

"That day when Lixiang locked those people in the locker, bright red blood seeped out from the gap in the locker. I was terrified. But at the same time I was afraid, an even more terrifying thought popped up in my heart that this was done by Lixiang. None of my business……"

"At that time, I was really, really bad!"

Ji Mian didn't make any struggles anymore, and let him hug her, with his head on her neck, his voice faintly tinged with tears.

She sighed silently, raised her hand and patted Yigu Youta's back, once and for all, as if coaxing someone who had a nightmare.

The night is completely shrouded, and the streets of downtown Tokyo are noisy with lights, but they are in stark contrast to the dark alleys here. One step away seems to be separated by two worlds.Here, Ji Mian felt that he could hear Yi Gu Youtai's heartbeat.

Ji Mian's gentle touch soothed Yi Guyoutai's colic heart little by little, he involuntarily tightened his arms, wrapped her around Ji Mian's slender waist, and held her tightly in his arms, speaking out all the words in his heart After confirming that the other party did not have the slightest resistance, he had the courage to continue speaking:

"Until Mr. Gojo told me that I cursed Lixiang, I finally had to face the ugliness in my heart. I was afraid that Lixiang would destroy my life, but I wanted to use that power in delusion."

"It was I who harmed Lixiang. She could have gone to Buddhahood early."

"But even so, Lixiang is still willing to lend me her strength when I need it. I...I have nothing to repay her."

"That's why I...Mianmian, I..."

After Yi Guyouta finished speaking, he was so nervous that he almost didn't know how to breathe. He buried his head and stared at the wall behind him, as if he wanted to stare at a hole in the wall.His heart was beating so hard that his entire chest was trembling, and his palms were sweating.

What would Ji Mian think of him knowing this?

Do you think he is selfish, just like Xia Youjie once said, a scum who plays with women's feelings?

He was suddenly flustered, almost instantly looking for Ji Mian's eyes to confirm, but in the next instant he stopped all movements abruptly.

What if Ji Mian doesn't like him anymore?Can he bear Ji Mian's disappointed look at him?

Or can he still let Ji Mian go?

He was scared, suddenly afraid of Ji Mian's response.

Otoko Yuta has never felt that time is so hard to bear, his heart is in a mess, every second is like a trial for him, and his tense nerves are almost reaching the limit.

Ji Mian tugged at him, but didn't move, and took a lot of effort to tear the head away from the neck.

Yi Gu Youtai's face finally appeared in front of her eyes, as expected, his eye circles were red, and his eyes were full of indelible sadness, which made Ji Mian feel a twinge of pain in his heart.

Yi Guyou was too caught off guard when he saw Shang Ji Mian's gaze, and was immediately flustered, but he wanted to show her his most simple, sincere, hottest feelings without any fancy rhetoric.

"Mianmian, I really"

After being with Ji Mian, his heart and eyes are full of her, he hopes that he will have Ji Mian every day in the future, can Ji Mian understand?he really, he really

Otoko Yuta's strong emotion that was about to spew out suddenly seemed to be blocked, his pupils shrank sharply, and he felt two pieces of cool softness that suddenly covered his lips.

Ji Mian couldn't bear to listen anymore, so he pulled off his collar quite forcefully and blocked it.

"It's too long-winded..." She frowned and muttered dissatisfiedly.

"Yi Guyoutai, why are you so timid? You said so much, didn't you just want to express a meaning?"

Yi Guyou looked at her blankly, his brain had stopped functioning.

Ji Mian sighed, sometimes this wooden head can't be expected to be clever.

She frowned, thanks to the cover of the night, she was able to hold back the expression on her face, pretending to be indifferent, "So, you think there is nothing to miss in this world and you want to go to that world with Li Xiang?"

"Don't dare to face the cruel truth and the strong feelings of childhood sweethearts. This is probably a shameful escape, but it is useful."

"But you still don't understand, Youtai, tell me, why did Li Xiang willingly be bound by you for so many years, and finally didn't blame you at all?"

Yi Gu Youtai stared at her in a daze, moved his lips but didn't make a sound, subconsciously aware of what Ji Mian was going to say next, his heartbeat echoed in his ears, faintly looking forward to the next words.

"Of course it's because she likes you as much as I do!"

Ji Mian looked into his eyes seriously, there was a faint light in them, and she bent her eyes at him.

Yi Gu Youtai's eyes suddenly became moist, those eyes were like emeralds soaked in water, shining brightly, Ji Mian's thumb stroked them in time, except that she didn't even catch the moon. The fleeting color of water.

"Whether you are good or bad, I like you. I just regret that I didn't get to know you sooner."

"You and Lixiang have already given each other the best ending, let the past go."

"But your future belongs to me. I like you who can stand alone now, and I will tolerate your cowardly side, so it's enough to just show it to me. I don't want to hear you say such self-defaming words again. "

Ji Mian tugged at his collar, and because of the height difference, she raised her head and looked straight into the other's eyes with an extremely serious expression.

"So now I'm giving you one last chance, what do you want to say? Tell me condensedly."

At the end, he added viciously as if he didn't think it was enough, "Don't even think about going to bed at night!"

Yi Gu Youtai looked down at Ji Mian's pretending to be fierce, his fingers moved slightly, and suddenly he pressed the back of her head forcefully, and kissed her lips like biting.

Ji Mian was taken aback by his sudden strength, and forgot to maintain the expression on her face. She opened her eyes wide in panic, feeling that her lower lip was about to become red and swollen from his rough sucking. The two separated a little, and an ambiguous silver line crossed the air.

"What are you crazy about?" Ji Mian gasped and glared at him.

Yi Guyoutai hugged her tightly, the two bodies fit together almost seamlessly, he was in her ear, his voice was low and hoarse, filled with infinite warmth and love.

"I love you."

"Mianmian, I love you very much."

Ji Mian was taken aback for a moment, then raised the corners of his mouth lightly, put his arms around Yi Gu Youta's neck, leaned against his ear and blew wickedly, and whispered, "It's over if we don't talk about it..."

Yi Gu Youtai laughed lightly, now that he has released many attachments, he just feels more relaxed and carefree than ever before, looking down at the blushing person in his arms, the blood in his body is boiling again little by little.

His hands started to move restlessly, and Ji Mian had faintly touched something unspeakable.

Delicate kisses fell on Ji Mian's neck from top to bottom, the air became discolored|unpleasant, she could hear Yi Gu Youtai's heavy breathing in her ear, her body was also a little unbearable, but she still used her The remaining sanity patted him on the back,

"Be sober, it's indecent to be outside now."

Yi Gu Youtai paused when he heard the words, held her face and kissed her slightly parted lips deeply, and then dawdled away when the sucking ground was almost dripping with blood, and then inserted his right hand into her He gently interlocked his fingers and pulled her home.

The author says:

How could my mother abuse me? She still fancied humanities and took away my emotional line, but I will talk too much about Yixiang. ?