Reborn Desire

6. [We can't have all of each other]

I found Selena's home, which was a small villa. I knew this inspiring girl, although she supported herself with the money she earned, she had an unusual family.

Selena and her family should be sleeping at this time, so I shouldn't go in and disturb her.

So I sat on the grass nearby, not caring whether my new pants would get dirty. The long flight made me a little tired. I really wanted to lie down on this soft lawn and sleep, but I thought of seeing Selena I still couldn't help but cheer up, I closed my eyes slightly, thinking of what kind of surprise I would bring to Selena.

Time seemed to have passed for a long time, and there was a noise at the door of the villa, so I quickly stood up to look.A beautiful and beautiful foreign girl is coming out of the villa.

Selena, as always, was dressed in a clean but modest outfit, as she didn't wear a skirt because of the New Hampshire weather.

I approached cautiously, for fear of disturbing her, but in my heart I wanted to give her a surprise appearance, so I couldn't help hesitating.Unexpectedly, Selena turned her head slightly and saw me hidden under the bushes.

Maybe it was not bright enough, Selena narrowed her eyes slightly, took a few steps forward, and said, "Who is it?"

I kept one position for too long, and I couldn't move my legs. Seeing her approaching, I moved slightly and wanted to go out, but my center of gravity was unstable and I fell to the ground slightly.

My butt touched the ground, the pain made me grin my teeth and rub my butt, but I didn't realize that Selena had come over.

It took me a while to react, looking at Selena's fair skin and familiar face, I smiled at her.

Selena was startled, then helped me up and said, "Why are you here?"

Her tone did not express surprise, which disappointed me a bit. I shrugged and said, "Do you see any changes in me?"

Selena looked at me after hearing the words, and said, "It seems to have become a lot stronger."

I patted my stomach triumphantly, and said: "Since you left, I feel that I have gained a lot of weight. I wanted to lose weight but found that most of the weight loss methods are unscientific. See how I am now? Although I haven't lost weight, But it’s much prettier than before.”

"Haha, it looks like this." Selena was amused by me, and her eyes were slightly curved, looking very happy.

Then Selena let me into her house. Originally, she wanted to go out to buy vegetables and cook. Now that I am back, the two of us will go together later. This is what I insisted on.

"After they separated, I was the only one left at home." Selena poured me a glass of water.

I feel sorry for this girl, and because of this, I will choose Selena. She has too many burdens and needs someone to bear them for her, and I am willing to be this person.

So I smiled and said, "It's okay, it won't happen in the future."

Afterwards, we went shopping together, because this place is remote, and you need to go to a nearby city if you want to buy vegetables. Selena moved the bicycle hidden in the warehouse, pumped up, and I set off with Selena on my back.

We bought fresh meat and vegetables, and Selena's favorite fruit, which we have been doing these days, and the outside world can't disturb us.

When I was about to go back to China, I realized that we do not all belong to each other. What you need to do, who you need to care about, and what tasks you need to complete occupy all of your life.

And this girl in front of you is a very small part of all you are.

7. [This process is often difficult]

When I returned home, I began to prepare some things needed for school.

This period of time is relatively busy, especially my family is about to move, my father has been promoted, our family can live in the area near Cheng's house, and I had a meal with Cheng'an again, he seems to be in good spirits all the time, and I was admitted to Beijing Normal University, which is a very good school.

September came in a blink of an eye, and I flew to the city where the engineering university is located together with my high school classmates who were also admitted to the engineering university.

Compared with Gyeonggi City, it is not so hot there. My classmates and I stayed in the hotel for one night, and reported to school the next day.

After school started, I lived in a four-person dormitory and received busy courses every day. Fortunately, my classmates around me were hardworking.

During this year, I kept in touch with Selena on the phone. She went to a prestigious school in New Hampshire and majored in psychology.We miss each other very much, but I have experienced the pain of transnational love due to the busy schedule of studies, especially the long journey.

Just before my sophomore year, there was an accident. I don’t know why my father went crazy. He kicked me to the army without any discussion. .

I didn't even have time to say goodbye to my classmates, so I became an engineer.

……

The United Nations has decided to send 2.7 peacekeeping troops to Darfur near Egypt, where the Red Sea sits in the east, and Sudan and Central Africa are in the south and west.The Soviet government has negotiated peace with the Communist Party, and we will set off next month.

At that time, I packed my bags and left my motherland and hometown, embarking on a road full of setbacks and unpredictable dangers.At that time, I was full of vigor, not afraid of heaven and earth, and wanted to stab the enemy with the sharpness of the sword I had honed in four years.

Sweat was dripping from my forehead under the blue steel helmet. I folded my arms, closed my eyes tightly, and leaned back naturally.The rumbling and vibrating sound of the plane almost pierced the eardrums, and the plane gradually soared into the sky. At this time, I had a special feeling, and I couldn't help but cry.

The captain's sonorous and high-pitched voice rang clearly in my ears: "...we must not forget these four principles for a moment! The principle of legality! Clear tasks and accept all orders from the superiors!"

The principles of peacekeeping and his beliefs have long been integrated into a strong sword.

"Agreed to the principle! Stationing and activities are all based on the opinions of the conflicting party! The principle of neutrality! We must strictly abide by neutrality when we perform tasks!"

The sword has been unsheathed, and the belief of dedication and defense gushes out from the heart. I can't wait to show the demeanor of a Chinese man and represent China's peacekeeping mission.

Those who are still struggling to survive in the cracks at the bottom offer their strength.

"...The principle of the minimum use of force! We must protect our comrades from any harm! We must take self-defense measures when the opponent uses force!"

This is a passive rule, for which comrades will sacrifice, but as a peacekeeper, you must also prepare for this.

Afterwards, I followed the team and completed two major missions respectively. The attacks and self-defense actions I experienced made our group of young soldiers have profound experiences for the first time.

Some comrades around us sacrificed, some were seriously injured and could not continue to fight side by side with us, but we still kept our faith and adhered to the four principles, and this is the meaning of the existence of the peacekeeping force.

At the end of the second project, the United Nations held a meeting and sent representatives to Darfur to discuss the next work with representatives of peacekeeping forces from various countries.

At that time, I touched the sweat on my forehead and unbuttoned it again. The cool wind suddenly blew, making me feel much more refreshed.

A comrade-in-arms came over, still holding a water bottle in his hand, and handed it to me: "Ice water, cool off."

I took the kettle, and the cold touch suddenly reminded me of the past. My mother used to make mung bean porridge for me at home, with crushed ice in it. I chewed the crushed ice while drinking the porridge.

Afterwards, we went to St. Paul's School, where the temperature was always cool. Even if it was hot occasionally, I could go to the school cafeteria with Chengan and others to buy iced drinks.

There is not much difference in college. Now that I think about it, I don’t know why my life has suddenly changed like this.

"Brother, what are you thinking?" The comrade who brought me the water bottle patted my shoulder, and the eyes on Mai Se's face were extraordinarily bright, staring at me curiously.

I smiled and said, "No, I just remembered the past..."

"Oh, I'm thinking of my girlfriend, right?" The comrade-in-arms squeezed his eyes, looking like 'I understand you'.

Girlfriend... I don't know if Selena is doing well?What is she doing now?After all, we haven't been in touch for more than two years, so how do I know if she is.

Seeing that I was in a bad mood, my comrade immediately shut up, and then changed the subject: "A representative of the US peacekeeping force came in the morning, and beside that representative was a beautiful foreign girl, who stunned our comrades standing guard! "

"Hey, buddy, look, that's the foreign girl next to her, she's really temperamental, she's pretty, but a good girl was spoiled by a fat guy..." The comrade-in-arms couldn't help sighing.

My footsteps were getting closer and closer to that foreign woman, but I stopped when I reached the last two meters. Two comrades in front stopped me and whispered to me: "Everyone has a desire for beauty, even if it is a foreigner. Beauty, but beauty knows no borders, but... buddy, you also have to see where this is before entering, okay?"

I looked up and saw that it was located at the headquarters of the United Nations Conference in Darfur. I was not qualified to enter, and there were soldiers guarding it.

The soft waist-length blond hair and the slim figure flashed before my eyes and entered the headquarters.

I think I can't be wrong, that woman with unique charm, who used to occupy most of my life, I miss that beautiful and kind girl for a long time, Selena.

I didn't have a chance to meet that Selena, because we were soon notified of being repatriated, and we were given a day to pack our bags and stand by for orders. Tightly restraining Aoli's slender body, he spoke to the representative with a smile on his face.

I thought we would say goodbye, but the sudden crisis brought me to meet again.

At that time, we had already boarded the plane. On the way, we were told that Darfur had been attacked and we needed rescue.The medical soldiers who shuttle around are also performing their duties.

Representatives of the United States and their entourage also rushed here to cooperate in the construction of the airport and various collapsed bridges.

Selena was right in front of me. I don't know if she recognized me who was in a panic at this time. She handed me the water bottle and seemed to say something, but the noise from the side covered her voice.

I looked up at her and found that those bright eyes were still bright. Selena must have sacrificed a lot to stick to her ideals and come here, but seeing those bright eyes, I knew that although it would be hard work, it was worth it .

8.[A lot of promises, little fulfillment, only I love you left]

The anti-government organization started to attack again. We were passive, and many of our companions were injured and fell down. I protected Selena, hugged her tightly, and fought back with the gun in my hand.

This time they were in hot pursuit, and the bridge that had been repaired collapsed again, and our hard work was in vain.

The enemy's bullet hit my shoulder, and blood gushed out. I let out a cry of pain, which caught Selena's attention. She quickly asked, "What's wrong with you?"

I fainted in a daze and rested my head on Selena's shoulder.

It seemed like a long time before I woke up and slowly opened my eyes. The sunlight hurt my pupils slightly, and there was a white wall in front of me.

I don't know how Selina is doing now, but I raised my heart and couldn't help but want to ask someone.

At this time, I thought, I have made many promises to Selena, but very few of them can be fulfilled. Two years of military training, and then this mission... She has found a new boyfriend, right?

The corners of my eyes were wet immediately, and I didn't go to the gap. The door of the ward opened suddenly, and the tall foreign beauty walked towards me and hugged me.

The warm time passed quickly, and Selina beat my shoulder with her hand, and said bitterly: "It turned out to be you, you were injured and unconscious, and I realized it was you..."

Her eyes were red, and I felt distressed.

Afterwards we had a frank talk, and I was glad that Selena didn't find a boyfriend again, but I hadn't heard from me for more than two years, and she was worried and sad for such a long time, and it wouldn't be a few days to let me go.

Because of this injury, my father who sent me to the army to exercise on a whim also let me go temporarily. I have time to coax Selena. This time we climbed the Great Wall in Gyeonggi City, and returned to Linzhen to continue A journey that never ended last time.