[Comprehensive] Fate holy fool

Your wish cannot be granted.

You will never reach a happy future.

- At the end of the story, you will die.

"..."

Unbelievably, even though Dazai, whom he trusted from the bottom of his heart, asserted so, Satsuki's heart was as calm as the surface of windless water.

Perhaps, it was because she had been indifferently and unconsciously aware of the facts a long time ago—as early as when she was lucky enough to "escape the catastrophe" and accepted her own end point.

In the end, she failed to be liberated from the clan's cage after all.The resentment named "Frost Moon" has still taken root in her body, just like the bones were frozen in the winter many years ago. Even if time passes and spring comes, the stinging pain deep in the bone marrow will never disappear.

But looking back, the so-called "past suffering" is similar to rheumatism.The lingering ghost follows you like a shadow, sometimes tormenting you to the point of pain... But as long as you grit your teeth, it is by no means an insurmountable obstacle.

(……what.)

(Speaking of which, Akutagawa-senpai was the first to push me like this.)

"Don't dwell on the tragedies of the past", "Look clearly at the present", again and again, Akutagawa almost compulsively poured his own life experience—together with quite extreme violence—into Satsuki's mind, forcing her to change from frequent Lift your eyes in the flashback of pain, and face reality with full attention and enthusiasm.

If not, she might have missed even more irreparable things.

(Although the good medicine is bitter, I am also very grateful for the senior's intentions... But, is there really no more gentle way?)

After traveling around the earth in a reflex arc for nearly three weeks, Satsuki finally belatedly thought of complaining, remembering that she should complain about Akutagawa's harsh education policy.

"—But, in the end, it's all Dazai-sensei's fault, so forget it."

"Huh?! Xiaoyue, you are wrong! I wanted to wait for you to calm down after crying, so I kindly didn't make a sound. Why did you scold people as soon as you opened your mouth??"

Even Dazai was caught off guard by the inexplicable airborne accusation, and immediately raised his arms and shouted exaggeratedly, puffing out his cheeks like a child having a temper tantrum.

"..."

Gaoyue remained indifferent, her sitting posture was as steady as Mount Tai, and her expression even looked a little like "Please start your performance.jpg".

"Although the teacher hasn't done anything 'now', the senior has suffered a lot at the hands of you in the future, and even brought me to suffer, so I want to take advantage of this moment to hate you. Dazai-sensei can read the outside world Record, you should also feel that you are not wronged, right?"

"Well... well, it's not wrong to be wronged. I can also imagine my own methods..."

As if feeling helpless towards himself, Dazai clasped his hands and leaned back, an ambiguous wry smile appeared on his lips.

"But Xiaoyue, it's a shame that you can still fight for Akutagawa-kun? You are obviously in danger. Ah, could it be that, 'Love makes you stupid and strong' or something like that!"

"Which planet is this proverb?"

Rin Tohsaka interrupted unceremoniously, "Speaking of which, how can anyone openly discuss such a topic in front of others? It's rare that Satsuki has the awareness of that aspect, and of course she will be shy—"

"No, I think the teacher is right. Although I was stupid before falling in love, I can't judge whether I have become more stupid, but I do feel that I have become stronger."

"—Aren't you shy?!"

"? I don't understand, Rin. Why is there a need to be ashamed."

Satsuki tilted her head like a newborn chick, and cast a puzzled look at her friend from the bottom of her heart.

"This is neither a lie nor malicious intent to cause harm to others, but a true feeling that I have found with great difficulty. No matter where I am, or in front of how many people, I can speak openly and honestly."

While thinking about the romance stories she had read and trying to figure out what expression she should have at the moment, she put her palms on her chest and gave them a small and quiet smile like wildflowers on the roadside.

"I've never been ashamed that I liked being a senior, on the contrary, I'm very proud of it. As long as I have this pride in my heart, I will not run away from the end."

"Wow........."

Not only Rin and Dazai, but even the Servants who were present beside him couldn't help being moved.

"Oh, this is really..."

The red Archer watched the excitement and whistled loudly, apparently because his scar was healed and he forgot about the pain of the female ordeal, and he also forgot that the blue Lancer hadn't come back when the female ordeal was in progress.

"This is really... this is really touching!"

Diarmuid, for sure, is the ideal audience for a romantic movie, looking ready for a standing ovation at any moment, "If one day I can — I mean, I really hope — one day I can puff out my chest like the Master My love affair. It's a pity that I..."

"I think it's fine, Lancer. 』

Leo's teasing chuckle came from the communication channel, "Mr. Finn is here too, you can just express your heart for years, and just settle your suspicions." 』

"What, what?!!"

"Ahaha, just kidding.Because everyone seems to be a little depressed, I unconsciously want to liven up the atmosphere...』

Just as Leo was talking calmly, some strange noises were suddenly mixed into the call:

"Yes, yes...that's it!She was so right!This feeling of nostalgia is worthy of my pride, and I can speak loudly in front of everyone! !Mary, Mary! !Mary! ! !Did you hear, I am to you...」

"Ah, it started again.Gao Wen, please take Mr. Sanson out after knocking him out, let's continue our discussion. 』

Leo instructed with a gentle smile.

……

It was a discussion, but in fact Dazai didn’t have any constructive guidelines for the strategy of the art museum. He just provided them with a detailed and complete map and let Leo and others analyze the route.At the same time, he also pointed out to Satsuki with a mysterious face:

"That's right, Xiaoyue. The door that needs a 'ring' to open should be able to pass now."

"what?"

Rin frowned puzzled, "But, I heard that Satsuki hasn't got the key yet..."

"No, you already got it? Because the 'Ring' was not an item from the beginning, but a gatekeeper—that young Alter Ego, the soul of Passionlip."

Dazai narrowed his eyes and smiled, "Although that child is paranoid, she is not completely unreasonable. After being defeated by Karna-kun and listening to Xiaoyue's heart, she should also understand...no matter what she does, Xiaoyue once decided It is impossible to change the path. Since this is the case, can't I just let it go with tears? Xiaoyue is really sinful!"

"I didn't do anything, please don't make it sound like I'm a loser. Also, do you know how many women you've brought to tears?"

"Ah, but~ the other Ego, Meltlilith, is not so easy to deal with."

Dazai smiled as if he had never heard of it, "She was born as the crystallization of cruelty and hedonism. It can be said that she dissolves, devours her lovers, and merges them into one. She is the queen bee who pursues the supreme pleasure like honey. Apart from conquering by force, I am afraid There is no other way to conquer Meltlilith. Ah, why not try sex | seduction?"

"..."

The red Archer didn't say a word, but his handsome and resolute face suddenly turned brown to green, which made him look like a carrot just pulled out of the soil.

"Wait, let's not mention sex|seduction...the problem is more than that."

Rin also lightly touched her lips with her fingertips, muttering with a worried expression on her face.

"The Servants of the opponent's camp, according to preliminary judgments, are Berserker, Assassin, and Archer Arjuna. Although we are not inferior in number, Sakura has gradually merged with the spirit world. In order to fight her, how much should I save?" Fighting power is not overstated.”

(That is, "can't go all out"...)

It was indeed a helpless dilemma.But until now, it only makes Gaoyue feel "what's that, that's all".

The lack of combat power is made up for by the tactics of Rin and Leo, but any problems that can be solved by combat in combat works are not considered a problem.

The discussion came to an end, and after bowing her head to the young Dazai for the last time, the girl turned around and started walking.

The future is bleak, and the future may only be hopeless.

but--

No matter what kind of ending he will usher in, it must be wrong to push all the sins and troubles to Sakura and stand still and wait for the salvation to come.So she can't stay for a moment, even if she is sad, she must move forward.

For the beautiful scenery that the two once watched side by side, and to protect Sakura's heart, she must destroy Sakura's wish with her own hands.

……

……

……

"……come yet."

After passing through the door where the wedding vows are engraved, the scene unfolding in front of Satsuki is breath-taking.

Here is a cylindrical tower that stretches for an unknown number of floors, may be nearly a hundred meters high, and extends infinitely toward the sky.

What surrounded them was not a wall, but a huge bookcase that was distributed in a circular arc like the wall, layered on top of each other, and the top could not be seen at a glance.Except for the entrance they just passed, there is no passage in the space sealed by the books, only a line of fragile wooden stairs like a plank in the air clings to the wall, depicting a winding trajectory spiraling up.

...For no reason, it is reminiscent of a spider's thread hanging from Paradise to hell.

At the bottom of that slender spider web, a young man all in black stood alone with his back to her.There was no tragic and desolate aura in that figure, it was so steady that it was almost indifferent, as if it just found a unique spectacle on the way of walking, so it casually stopped to watch.

"..."

And the face he turned towards Satsuki was as cold and expressionless as before.

"Ready?"

Akutagawa asked flatly.If his black eyes were a frozen lake in winter, his breath and his words were like the cold wind blowing from the lake.

"When you're ready, let's move on."

It was completely matter-of-fact, without comfort or encouragement, and it didn't even mention the worry and regret after learning of her end.Only after Satsuki stepped aside (busyly whispering "Why do you think he has a girlfriend") Rin and Archer stepped forward, Akutagawa bowed his head inadvertently and said to her:

"Fukamachi. Remember what I said to you when I first started training you?"

"I remember."

Gao Yue was not at all surprised by this abrupt question, she nodded neatly in response.

"'To live is to fight to the death, don't forget'.—That's what my senior told me at the time."

Similarly, this is Akutagawa's consistent survival attitude for the past 20 years.Just because she knows that he treats herself more harshly than anyone else, Satsuki never complains and shows weakness, nor complains about his indifference and harshness.

"Just remember. Let's go."

"Ah, yes..."

Therefore, now I just need to face him with the strong attitude that Akutagawa praised as before——

It was clearly planned in her mind, but the moment she followed him up the stairs and realized that the figure was within reach at the moment—or maybe it would disappear when she turned around—said Gaoyue’s heart tightened suddenly, and her steps followed suit. He sped up, and as soon as he raised his arms, he slammed into him forcefully from behind.

"...!! What did you do suddenly. I said I was in danger behind me..."

Akutagawa was caught off guard by her and staggered. He planned to turn around and scold, "I'm a coat with a bloody throat", but maybe he sensed the strength of Satsuki's grip on the fabric of his back, so he didn't in the end. Swipe her away.

Instead, Akutagawa still said to her in that night-breeze-like voice:

"Fukamachi. Are you scared?"

"……Yes."

Satsuki's answer rang after a few seconds of delay.Because it was the first time to show him the weakness hidden in her heart, she hesitated when she spoke, like a child learning to speak, unable to grasp the words.

"It's...it's not that I haven't made up my mind, nor am I confused about the direction I've chosen. But even so, when I think of 'I might die', I really... still feel fear."

"So, don't you want to die?"

Akutagawa asked calmly without looking back.

"Yes."

Satsuki nodded again, "The time for me to truly be called 'alive' is too short, and I still have too many things I want to do... Besides, I finally understood a little bit about seniors. If it really ends here, I will There is no way, but if there is a glimmer of hope that can save Sakura and I at the same time, I don't want to end yet."

"Akutagawa-senpai, I... don't want to die."

(Ah, I said it...)

Facing the most unlikely person in the world to spoil her, she uttered embarrassing and soft words that sounded like coquetry.In this way, there is nothing wrong with being ridiculed and disgusted by him, it is better to say that he has started to laugh now——

— laughing?

Noticing the moment Akutagawa sneered with trembling shoulders, Satsuki looked up in surprise.

"Oh...why, isn't that all there is to it. It's too stupid, Fukamachi. What's so embarrassing about this?"

Akutagawa turned around.

The corner of his mouth was curved upwards, and there was indeed a narrow smile that could be called ironic in his eyes.But the ridicule was not aimed at Satsuki, but more like facing an invisible barrier called "fate", the young man sneered and sneered.

"Listen, Fukamachi. It's human nature to be afraid of death. If you're not ashamed to express other feelings to people, then you don't need to be ashamed of this."

"But senior, you said—"

"Of course, I don't intend to comfort you with this natural fear. If I really want to say, I can only give you one sentence."

As he said so, he took Gao Yue's hand that was hanging in the air in a daze, and gathered his five fingers together to hold it tightly.Although it was only for a short moment, Satsuki really felt the scorching heat under the stone-like cold outer wall.

"—If you don't want to die, just live."

"If you want to work hard for it, it's okay to ask me to help you."

"Senior...well, you seem to have said a few words..."

"To shut up."

really.

I'm afraid that in the end of my life, I can't expect this person to say considerate and tender words.As Rin said, from the sidelines, it might be possible to say "I really can't figure out how he has a girlfriend".

He will never be merciful, will not show mercy to the weak, and will not express his sincerity frankly.

Even Satsuki herself understands that Akutagawa's way of life is stubborn and extreme, even embarrassing and savage, no matter how flattering she is, she cannot be called beautiful.

But even if not beautiful—

"I understand."

Injecting the lingering fear and pure love into it, this time Satsuki finally smiled without reservation.

"I'm sorry for keeping it from everyone. In fact, I'm really scared, I don't want to die, and I'm so nervous that I'm about to cry now... It's because I'm so afraid of death, so I will never accept my fate, and I will struggle to live until the last moment. go down."

"So... please save me too, senior."

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Mr. Sanson who suddenly confessed to Mary is one of the trio of French fanboys, and Mary, the daily cook, doesn't care (.

Xiaoyue is really strong, but because she is too strong, she wants to bear everything alone, because she knows that everyone is conflicted, so she will never ask others for help.Jie also noticed this and said to her, "You are not ashamed to be afraid of death, you will suffocate to death if you persist"... In fact, Jie's EQ is not low. In this regard, I must give him another ten years!He is really smart and understands people's hearts, and he really has a bad personality (praise) and refuses to speak well. After all, he kicked him to the ground immediately after enlightening Dun (Dun: I haven't even had time to be moved, so he He doesn't have a girlfriend...why does he actually have one?!