Inhabit you as a forest

The day lengths are getting shorter and shorter in November, and the afternoons are cut short.After taking a nap, the sky dimmed before he started working for a long time.

In the summer evening, there are ice sodas in the coolness, the streets are full of hustle and bustle, watermelon flavor, mint flavor, and refreshing stars are thrown in the sky.

In the evening of late autumn, the evening is cold and cold, the pedestrians are in a hurry, the setting sun is restrained in color, and the unrecognizable night wind tramples on the fallen leaves all over the ground.

All make this time period unpleasant.

Sheng Qi waited from evening to night, watching his phone during meal time, and moved his bedtime back half an hour.

But I didn't receive a message from Wen Lian, Wen Lian promised her to tell her if there was any more blood, since she didn't tell her, it means that today is fine and her health is fine.

It is not ruled out that even if Wen Lian is uncomfortable, he will keep his promise and stop disturbing her from today on.

In either case, Sheng Qi knew that he should stop paying attention to this matter.

She held back and didn't take the initiative to ask, so as to avoid endless entanglement, so it's better to be more agile.

After all, Wen Lian is an adult, if the body is really uncomfortable, it is impossible not to know how to take medicine to see a doctor.If something was wrong with her, her mother would notice too.

It's not her neighbor's turn to meddle in her own business.

Wen Lian's time of going in and out every day is too fixed, and during the time Sheng Qi observed her, she basically didn't have any extra outings.

I run two or three times a week in the morning. I am in a good mood to walk the dog. The rest of the time is at home, to be precise, it is her room.

Sheng Qi has discovered this problem before. Han Ruohua taught Wen Lian motivation and survival, and taught her manners and restraint, but he didn't teach her to express her emotions openly, let alone relax and entertain herself appropriately.

But Han Ruohua himself has these abilities. In the past, in the tight life, he would find time to grow flowers and read books.Now that I am middle-aged, I still walk my dog, watch TV, and have dinner and tea with friends.

In addition to being as responsible to the students as before, Sheng Qi felt that she had also changed, and she relaxed.No longer will they be constantly busy at home, urging them to do serious things.

In short, because I have figured out Wen Lian's life, it is extremely easy not to run into her.They haven't seen each other for several days, Sheng Qi is busy with his work every day.Just like when she was alone in a different place before returning to Yujiang.

At that time, she shared a room with her college roommate, but the roommate had a job and a boyfriend, and they didn't spend much time with her.

She tried to join the company after graduation, but left within a year.The wages of young social animals are not high, and they often work overtime for free. The most hateful thing is that the leaders are stupid and their colleagues hate it.

I didn’t go to work after that. Although it was a freelance job, it was not easy.Without division of labor, she herself is a small team and needs to market and sell herself on various platforms.In this regard, she is very Buddhist, uploading works whenever she has them, interacting occasionally, and not too much thought.

When Wen Lian asked her about Weibo, she didn't say anything, because it was part of her job, and she didn't let go of her life too much, so it was boring to read it.

Everything has to be done by herself. In addition to the drawing, she needs to communicate with the client about the content of the project, negotiate the price and sign the contract, find materials, revise the draft, communicate, and collect payment.During this process, Party A can be more reliable and worry-free, but when encountering unreliable ones, it makes people angry.

I don't know if it's because my menstrual period is approaching, or because I'm in a bad mood recently, and I often get angry when communicating, and my tone is obviously rude.

Talk about breaking a list.

Aware of this problem, Sheng Qi soon realized that she was being controlled by her emotions, she was diverting her depression and irritability, and she was venting her anger on others.

It shouldn't be like this, and she hasn't met any heinous people, and every step is her own choice, so how can she let herself be self-willed.

She forced herself to laugh again, returning to calm.

When grandma passed away, she was the most worrying thing. If she couldn't live happily, grandma would not be happy if she found out.

Sheng Qi stood up and went to the window for a while.

The long-term fixed posture made her spine very uncomfortable.When she was young, she loved to dance and dance, and all she learned from her cousins ​​was naughty, as if she had endless energy.

Had a car accident and survived the catastrophe. On the surface, everything seemed to be healed, leaving only a scar.But she remembered the feeling of lying still on the bed and walking cautiously, and she no longer had the mood and energy to jump up and down.

She doesn't like the gym, so she applied for a gym card as soon as she came back, and she only went to it five times in total.

Cheng Juan went there more frequently than her, calling her occasionally, and she was either really not free, or unwilling, pretending not to be free.

Wednesday is Wen Xu's birthday, Sheng Qi liked it in Moments, and found Wen Lian in the family photo.

Wen Xu is a fine person, he will hold one at home and one outside.The former looked harmonious and peaceful, while the latter looked like a group of demons dancing wildly, and Sheng Qi couldn't find Cheng Juan's shadow.

She sent a message to wish Mr. Wen a happy birthday. Mr. Wen was probably very busy, and this insignificant wish was drowned in the sea of ​​messages.

Sheng Qi checked again the next day, and saw Wen Xu commenting in the comment section: "Picture [-] is my cousin, single."

The nameless fire rushed up, Sheng Qi took a lot of effort to control his emotions, like a towering tower that had not yet laid a solid foundation, collapsed in an instant, dust covered his eyes in the ruins, and no grass grew.

Wen Xu has a wide network of contacts, so she should be very fast.

That sentence disappeared not long after, Sheng Qi didn't bother to care about the reason, and buried himself in drawing his own picture.

On the weekend, an old man passed away at home. Although she was not close to her, when grandma passed away, the younger generation over there came to see her.My aunt told her specifically, and she decided to go back and have a look when she had time.Her father also specially transferred a sum of money to her for her to transfer.

It was only when Sheng Qi drove Yu Tao's car to the countryside that he realized that in this season, the countryside seemed to be colder than the city. Her clothes were not thick enough, and she was so cold that she doubted her life.

Forget it at home, if you can wear the thick clothes of your sister-in-law or aunt, you can make do with it, and go to other people's homes for funerals and feasts, and Sheng Qi wants to save face.

Lightweight bottoming shirts and long overcoats, good-looking is good-looking, but they can't compete with keeping warm.

There are many customs and noises at the funeral, Sheng Qi can think of the year when grandma left when he watched it.In December, it was even colder than now. She was in the hospital and couldn't believe why she couldn't open her eyes after she closed them.

A living person, from riding a bicycle to take her to the market for breakfast, to collapsing, entering the hospital, and leaving completely, there is not even two months.

She said that she would take her grandma to see her university in the summer, and that she would make money to honor her in the future, buy a house in the city, and live with her.

Grandma sometimes said that it was enough for her to live until she finished college, and sometimes she was greedy and wanted to see her get married and have children, and help her take care of the children.

None of them expected that she would be in Shengqi's third year of high school.

At the funeral, my aunt and cousins ​​cried bitterly, but she couldn't shed a single tear in front of others.

She wondered if she was not filial enough, otherwise why would she not be able to cry.

Her sadness is actually very selfish. The sad thing is not that grandma died before her hair became white, but that she really became an orphan.

No one will want her anymore.

No matter whether she has food or not, an orphan is an orphan, someone will give her alms, but no one will love her.

The more he watched, the more sad he became, Sheng Qi left the crowd and sat down in a place where no one was around.At the corner, the cement floor was dirty, she didn't feel sorry for the newly bought coat, she just sat there, huddled up.

At family gatherings, it is inevitable to meet a bunch of aunts and aunts who don't usually get in touch with each other. These people are very kind when they see her on the surface, and they want to introduce her to someone.

Sheng Qi is at the marriageable age. At this age, there are many boys and few girls. Everyone is very enthusiastic. It was her aunt and cousin who helped her out.

They are even more exciting behind the scenes.

There was a shelter next to Sheng Qi, and people passing by didn't look carefully, and they didn't expect to be seated by someone else.

I heard several relatives talking about her.

"Have you seen her mother? She looks like her mother."

"I've seen it before. She's tall and beautiful. When I got married back then, I didn't think she was a person who lived a life."

"The heart is cruel enough, my daughter will leave if she doesn't want to."

"The one who left with her made such a big fuss that her father couldn't hold his head up, and he's not coming back now."

"You said her grandma died, she is not at her father's place, what are you doing now?"

"Which stepmother can accommodate others, she must have nowhere to go, so she ran back."

"That's right, she'll really stay there in the future, it's going to be so hard."

"At least there are two aunts here who dote on her, and find someone to marry. It won't be too bad in the future."

After Sheng Qi finished eating his melon, he sat quietly and waited for others to leave, so as not to embarrass them.

The weather was gloomy, the wind hurt people's faces, and their hands and feet hurt from the cold. She looked up at the dark clouds.I smiled at the boundless sky for a while, my smile was helpless, but it was far from sad.

Grandma's death hit her the hardest. As for her mother and father, they were never by her side since she was a child. Although she regretted it, she would not feel sad for them.

It doesn't matter what others say.

She remembered the conversation with Wen Lian when she was 17 years old. At that time, Wen Lian said that she was liked by many people. She laughed: "Whoever said that, my dad doesn't like me."

Wen Lian was a little sad, so she had no choice but to comfort Wen Lian.

"It's too greedy to want everyone to like me. I already have a lot. Grandma said that if you have it, you will lose it."

Because grandma, aunts, and cousins ​​love her very much, and she has many friends, she almost has no parents.

Because he is not ugly, and he is not short of money, he has a lazy personality, stupid brain, and poor grades.

Her life is balanced, and she asked naively: "Wen Lian, what will I lose when I meet you?"

Wen Lian couldn't answer.

She smiled again, "No, I will not lose, you are not my possession, you are my reward. In the future, I will treat my grandma and aunt better, I will study hard, save money, and be a good boy , so that I can keep you forever."

Can't keep it.

Why did she say so many silly words before? Cheng Juan was right.

Sheng Qi was sent to the gate of the community. The house was too messy, so she didn't ask anyone to sit up.While waiting for the elevator, a familiar figure stood beside him, Wen Lian again.

She glanced at the time silently, it was just in time for her to get off work.

The two of them staggered their eyes tacitly, entered the elevator, stood on each side, and returned to the state when they first met.

Sheng Qi tried his best to ignore the people around him, and deleted the sentence from Wen Xu's circle of friends in his mind.

Until he suddenly sneezed.

She took out a tissue from her pocket in embarrassment, no way, she caught a cold.

Wen Lian looked over, glanced at her face and clothes, her expression was dull, and she didn't say anything.

After entering the house, Sheng Qi didn't do anything, but squatted down in the porch, standing on tiptoes and hugging his knees.

The feeling of depression is indescribable.

During this period of life, work, and family, all the grievances accumulated and exploded together, and tears were about to flow from the eyes.

But there is nothing to be depressed about, this is what they said.

Wen Lian did everything she needed to do, and told her to start over again, she was the one who didn't want to untie the knot, no wonder others.

Why is she crying.

As she thought this, she wept terribly, and the tears fell drop by drop on the carpet.

After taking a shower listlessly at night, he lay on the bed and played games with Xu Tongtong.

Wen Lian's message popped up: [Is there any cold medicine at home? ]

Sheng Qi replied without thinking: [Yes. ]

[put on more clothes. ]

Sheng Qi calmed down this time and did not return.

Only then did she realize that Wen Lian's profile picture had changed. When she saw it in the afternoon, she was still Xiaoqi, ugly and cute, and she didn't match Wen Lian at all.

Now it's a painting.

It was the first painting she gave Wen Lian. That night Wen Lian came to bring her dumplings, and she fed Wen Lian grapes.

What does it mean?

She was not in the mood to play games anymore, so she turned over and kept thinking about this matter.

Although he didn't figure out the answer, his mood improved, and he was much more relaxed than when he just came back in the afternoon.

She got up to cook instant noodles for herself and drink medicine!