Summer of Fireflies

The person I like is not me, but Takekawa Hotaru in the past.

I am a person who is both timid and likes to get into a dead end.

Because I know that there will be no result of love, because I know that we can't be together, so I plan to keep my liking for you in my stomach.

Even the matter of confession is never considered.

Like is a kind of honest mood, how could it be rotten in the stomach all the time?Since liking you has become a fact, there is nothing shameful in saying it.

After saying what I like, I feel much more relaxed.

The happiest thing is: I like you, and you like me too, before I confess, you confess to me first.

The moment I look back, I have already abandoned all kinds of worries, and I can't bear to let you leave me. Since I like you, life and death have become indifferent.

The moment I hug you tightly is like embracing my whole world——

The author has something to say: Do you think I will tell you about the fact that I was fascinated by the last ancient Tanwen and didn't want to type? !

It was supposed to be updated yesterday, but the toilet in the dormitory was blocked at night, and I was so disgusted that I couldn’t code all night QAQ!

I always feel that I am getting less and less motivated to code words, so my motivation to code words is only finished? TAT

In the end, I still wrote the confession first~(RQ)/~The ten-year plot is actually not far away, after these two get together

58. Turn right

There are many ways to die in the world, such as falling to death, hitting, hacking, drowning, poisoning, etc. There are thousands of causes of death. The most beautiful and relaxing ways to die are probably death from sleep and old age.

Some people say that freezing to death is also an artistic way of dying. The corpse is buried under the snow-capped mountains, and when it is dug out, it is equal to a natural work of art that does not need to be carved.

To say that being buried by snow is a beautiful and artistic way of dying...that is simply nonsense!

When I emerged from the snowdrift, my whole body was covered with icy snow particles, and my skin was so cold that it lost its color. The whole body could no longer be described as a mess.

Brushing off the snow particles from our hair and clothes, and looking at each other, the young man and I laughed to ourselves, full of the joy of the rest of our lives after the catastrophe.

This time, the huge avalanche disaster only affected the halfway up the hill, so the young man and I were able to escape the catastrophe by luck.

"Sister's good luck in the New Year must be blessing us." The young man's eyes were soft, and his lips and eyebrows were slightly curved, which showed that he was in a very good mood now.

"Why didn't you say it was caused by my bad luck?" I rubbed my blue fingers, even the breath out of my mouth was cold, it's no wonder that my body was not frozen after being buried in the snow.

"During the New Year's visit, the senior sister got the lucky lottery, and I got the bad luck lottery."

...almost forgot that there was such a thing.

After lighting the fire, my body warmed up a lot, but my fingers were still cold, and the young man snatched my fingers out of breath. I turned my head, forgetting that my hand was still in the opponent's palm.

"Hey, senior sister's last sentence just now... is she saying that she likes me?"

Heart on forehead, with the warmth of a flame, looking at the young man's magnified handsome face from a close distance, my heart missed a beat in time, I blinked and looked up, and found that the corners of the young man's lips were slightly raised at this moment, that His warm eyes were filled with a bright smile.

"C-cai didn't say those words!" I turned my head away in an instant, intending to deny it to the death, but the warm sun came out from the gray clouds at this moment, shining the heat on my face Frequent rise.

The young man just lowered his head and smiled lightly, his laughter was as sweet as fermented wine, the sunlight hitting his face made his smiling face more spring-like.

After communicating with each other, I felt much more relaxed, and my heart was filled with a touch of joy, but at the same time, the atmosphere between me and the young man also increased a lot of uneasiness.

Now is the winter season with white snow, but the air is filled with the warm breath of spring. I feel like a girl in love. The intimacy of young people will always make me blush inexplicably.

This is probably... the feeling of being in love?

Staring at the boundless snow-white world in the distance, the bare branches were covered with a layer of gold by the noon sun, I shook my head, and suddenly felt very unreal.

However, no matter how much he likes me, no matter how much I like him, those insurmountable obstacles between me and the youth should be faced, and they must be faced after all.

——I like you, please stay with me

How could this sentence be said simply and easily?

People who love each other may not be able to stay together until the end of life.

Ideal love is one thing, realistic rationality is another. This is the same thing as I like you, and another thing to be together. Otherwise, there are so many people who love each other in the world. Lovers, why can't they be together in the end?

Love is not a fairy tale about Snow White. As long as the prince kisses the princess and the princess wakes up, the fairy tale can be Happy Ending until the end.

The first is the obstacle of age... Well, sibling love is not a rare thing now, this can be skipped and ignored.

The second is their identities. Tsunayoshi Sawada is the boss of the Mafia Vongola family. I am just an ordinary person. Not to mention that the world of the mafia is very different from the world of ordinary people. Enough to make me shy away from life in the mafia.

Assuming that I am really with the youth, it means that I will inevitably live in the blood of the dark world and live a life of fear.

I'm not like Xiaochun, nor like Janice, I have the courage to throw moths into flames for my lover. To a certain extent, my attitude towards my feelings is more rational than theirs, otherwise when I separated from Bailan, I would Nor will it be so decisive to stay away.

There are too many mafia enemies, and life is precarious. No one knows whether they will be turned into loess in the next second.

Don't say that my force value is below the negative value, because I have been living in the peaceful world of ordinary people. Even though I have experienced the fraud of the mafia, I hate the dark methods of the mafia even more. I think it is absolutely impossible for me to adapt to daily life. They all live in the midst of a hail of bullets and worries.

With Sawada Tsunayoshi's ability, maybe he can protect me very well, and I don't need to get involved in the bloody world of the mafia.However, the lamb that has been protected in the greenhouse, Tsunayoshi Sawada can’t be by my side to protect me 24 hours a day. He has his job, and I also have my own job.

Many things in this world can be guaranteed, only in case of emergency can not be guaranteed.

The last time Kyoko came to Palermo to play, she was also injured under the eyes of Tsunayoshi Sawada, so no one can guarantee that I will not be the next Kyoko to be injured.

I don't have to be afraid of getting hurt, but the young man is definitely not willing to let me suffer the same experience as Kyoko.

Suppose, in order to be able to be with the young man, I am willing to throw away all these obstacles for him, then what about my son An An?

Before I think about my relationship, I am An An's mother first. Do I want An An to step into the world of the mafia like me and live a life full of danger and fighting every day?

Rather than letting my son learn conspiracies and tricks, or wielding knives and guns to fight the enemy to death, I would rather An An hold a pen and his comics and live a peaceful life like ordinary people without much trouble.

An An is the son I love the most. As the mother who loves him the most in this world, I have no reason to let him follow me into the world of the mafia and suffer.

To put it bluntly, it’s actually a question of whether to turn left or turn right. I like youth, but An’an is my most cherished treasure.

To the left is to be with young people; to the right is An An's peaceful life.

This is a very difficult choice, but it does not prevent me from making the most rational judgment.

Since I can think of the above problems that lie between us, I believe that the young man can also think of them. Therefore, when we faced the separation again, a strong sense of heaviness fell heavily on my heart, asking me how to deal with it. Explain to him:

――I'm sorry, although I like you, I can't be with you

As soon as we got out of the mountain pass, Hayato's car had already stopped at the mountain pass, just waiting for us to get in the car.

The news in the mountain village is closed. I don’t know how he learned that we will go out from here. He marveled at the power of the modern high-tech GPRS positioning system.

Or maybe Hayato Kageji knew we were here through another method I don't know.

Besides Xiaochun, An An was also there.

"Sister." When we parted, the young man hugged me in his arms without hesitation about other people's eyes.The sun was shining brightly, and his unique smell of the opposite sex exuded in the air. He rested his chin on my shoulder, and the soft hair gap brushed against my face. He hugged me cautiously and tenderly, as if hugging him The most treasured treasure in the world.

Between the dry clothes and the sound of each other's heartbeats, just a simple hug, but like white clouds wandering leisurely in the sky, flutteringly warmed into my heart.

Guessing what he was going to say to me, my chest felt uncomfortable for no reason, my nose was sore, and I subconsciously stretched out my arms to wrap his arms around his thin waist.

"I like senior sister, but I don't want senior sister to get hurt."

The sincere tone is mixed with a touch of sadness. I seem to feel the violent struggle in his heart, just like the violent struggle in my heart at this moment.

Before I made a choice, he had already made the choice for me.Draw a clear line, from now on he and I are two different worlds.

opened his mouth,