private island

Guan Sheng approached the monitor, and Director Chu asked him to watch the performance just now.

This scene is a one-man show that lasts for one minute. It shows Xiao Beicui knowing that the middle-aged Lili/Ahui has been diagnosed with a terminal illness, and she sits helplessly on the balcony of her home, staring out the window in a daze.He stared awkwardly at his performance, completely superficial, with a pained expression like constipation.

"Your reaction should be divided into four stages, astonishment, pain, confusion, and emptiness." Director Chu told the play for him, "In your heart, Ah Hui has already died once, when he became a woman. And In the near future, his physical body will also perish."

"Oh." Guan Sheng replied lightly.

"Have you ever fallen in love?"

The people around all looked over at the same time, waiting to eat melons.Naturally, he would not admit it, and smiled easily: "I have never been in love."

"Pause the filming, everyone rest for half an hour." Director Chu asked someone to bring a small mirror and handed it to him, "You don't need to do anything, just stare at yourself in the mirror."

Guan Sheng sat back on the balcony and looked at the person in the mirror.

A 50-year-old middle-aged man, with twin temples and stars, his handsome outline has been cut by wind and frost, and the lines at the corners of his eyes are like dry earth.The corners of his mouth drooped slightly, as if he would never be happy again.

While putting on makeup, he dozed off and never took a good look at himself.It turns out that this is how I get old.In a few years, he will be a little old man just like Fan Xi in his dream.

He stared dreamily at the mirror, and kept looking.

At some point, the director appeared next to him and said softly: "You are very lucky, you are a young man, you have a smooth life, and you have never experienced a lovelorn, but you can imagine it. Your life has gone through most of it, and you have been to all the places you should go. Yes, you have eaten what you should eat, you have a spacious house, and a nice car. However, for the rest of your life, you will never be able to hold the hand of the person you loved when you were young.

Until you were dying, you were still full of regrets, unwilling to close your eyes as you lingered on your last breath.But it's useless, some of it will disappear, phew... don't comfort yourself that there is another life, maybe in the next life you will be a fish in the sea, and the person you love will be a cactus in the desert, and you will never see each other. "

"Director, we have such a big hatred and hatred, you want to curse me like this?" Guan Sheng stared at each other with red eyes, "Isn't it just that I lack a little acting skills, as for?"

"I'm just teaching you acting skills." The director patted him on the shoulder, "Let's not shoot first, then rest, you sit here and think about it, and act from the beginning by yourself. Don't be nervous, no one is watching you."

Brother Sheng, I still like you very much, but I don't love you anymore—Fan Xi's words sounded in his ears again.

He began to fantasize that it was his parents who forced them to die and separated them alive.It was the company and the manager Yuge who used both kindness and power to force him to let go.It was someone secretly playing tricks, causing them to die...

It seems that when the irresistible external force is strong enough, the regret will be lighter.He can paralyze himself: look, it's not my fault, I tried my best, I can't help it.

In a traffic accident, it is the most uncomfortable to be fully responsible for one's own side, because there is no one to blame, only self-blame.

He wanted so badly to find someone to blame.Blame an annoying wind, an untimely rain, a cloud that gathers and disperses.Yet, looking around, he had only himself to blame.

He looked down at his hands.

With the hands that wrote love songs, he killed his own love.Such unreserved, life-and-death love will never exist again.He is a loser with thousands of fans.

Another point, every time he thinks about it, he can't laugh or cry - in order to reject himself, that kid actually wrote a manuscript? !Wrote a manuscript!How ruthless this must be, like a tm proposition composition!With the theme of "Farewell, Brother Sheng", there are beginnings, inheritances, and endings, and the ending is sublimated.

He looked sad and confused, and felt almost a physical pain in his heart, and it took a few deep breaths to relieve it.After sitting there for a long time, he remembered that he was working, and hurriedly said to the director: "I'm ready, let's try again."

"It's already finished, this one is okay," the other party said to him OK, "Do you want to keep one?"

He froze for a moment, heaved a sigh of relief, and shook his head again and again.

It was so good, I finished the most difficult scene without knowing it.It's like a child going to get an injection, crying and struggling, and being told that the injection is over.

At the end of September, after the film was finished, he went to the south to record a program - to be a guest for a tutor in a music variety show.

During the preparation of the show, the director sent him an invitation.He felt that he was still young and not accomplished enough to be a teacher, so Brother Yu declined, but he could be a guest for one episode.Brother Yu said that he didn't want him to be a mentor at first, because the price was not agreed.

After the recording was over, when they flew back to City J, the postgraduate entrance examination books purchased online had already arrived and were quietly piled up on the coffee table.Misty grass, so many... He sank into the sofa, staring at the pile of books, his determination to study wavered a little.

Except for the lyrics, he hasn't memorized anything for a long time, and he doesn't know if his brain is rusty.

"When you buy something, how do you write my name on the courier? Isn't it usually mailed to your assistant?" The younger brother sat over and naturally put his feet on the coffee table.He glanced coldly, and the other party smiled and put his feet back into the slippers silently.

"I don't want people to know that I'm going to take the postgraduate entrance examination for the time being. Be strict with your mouth and don't go out and talk nonsense."

""Polyphonic Music", "Counterpoint and Fugue Course", "Musical Form"..." The younger brother looked through those reference books, "Isn't it good to learn in practice? Is it necessary to take the postgraduate entrance examination? And, where are you? I have time to attend school."

Guan Sheng said indifferently: "Time is squeezed out. My existing knowledge is not enough to support me to write more innovative songs. I must continue to study."

"Then you have to memorize the questions carefully, otherwise you are such a big star, it would be embarrassing if you don't pass the exam." The younger brother glanced at the phone, "Mom invited us to dinner!"

He followed his younger brother to have dinner with his parents across the door.As soon as I entered the door, the aroma of soy sauced elbow wafted into my nostrils, and the table was full of home-cooked dishes.

"God, why are you doing this to me—" The volume of the TV was turned up very loudly, and a costume drama starring him was playing.Feeling embarrassed, he silently changed to a foreign movie.

"My brother is going to take the postgraduate entrance examination!"

As soon as he was seated, his younger brother leaked the news.Parents did not ask too much, unanimously expressed their support.After the meal, the younger brother wiped his mouth and went out to roam around, while Guan Sheng played cards with the elder brother.

The bonfire, the homemade playing cards, the blushing face of the lover... Thinking of the days on the island, he couldn't help being in a trance.

"Sheng'er, it's your turn." Mother reminded gently.

He came back to his senses and played a few cards.

"I heard from your brother that you were in a bad mood a while ago?"

"It's okay, I can't write a song, I'm narrow-minded." On the day he broke up in love, he hid in the studio, but a big man cried his face like a monkey's ass.When he came out, he was seen by Guan Qing.The younger brother is like a primary school student, he talks to his parents about even the most important things, and he must add fuel to the story.

Seeing his parents constantly exchanging glances and sending signals he couldn't understand, he smiled confusedly: "Just say what you want to say."

"Cough..." Father cleared his throat, rubbed the cards in his hand, and said casually, "A few years ago, who was that boy who braved the heavy rain and pretended to be a takeaway boy to come to you? Never seen again."

Guan Sheng's heartbeat missed half a beat, and it turned out that his parents saw it.He wasn't sure what their intentions were, so he said vaguely, "A friend, I'm in a hurry."

"Is it the boy who lives on the island with you? His name is Fan Xi." Mother asked.

Guan Sheng's chest tightened and swelled, and he nodded perfunctorily, reminding them to play their cards, but they just put them down.

"Are you two dating?"

His mother asked lightly, but it exploded above his head like thunder.The secret hidden deep in his heart was suddenly dug out for people to watch. He froze on the spot, speechless.

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