I feed my entire legion by farming

"Well," Qiao Yan nodded, subconsciously turned his head to look at the driver's seat, only to find that the driver was no longer there.

"Give him a vacation, and I'll drive you back later." Knowing that Qiao Yan was embarrassed, Tan Mu didn't expose it.

Qiao Yan thought for a while, "Don't you want to see the exhibition?"

"It's the same at home. Your mistress has cooked a meal, and we'll eat it when we go back tonight. I'll take you to the mall later. It seems that I didn't choose the right suit today, and we all cried in disgust. "Tan Mu would occasionally tease Qiao Yan like a child, such a doting tone would always make Qiao Yan like it but feel embarrassed.

In the end, he could only wrap himself into a ball and nestle in Tan Mu's arms.Tan Mu gently patted Qiao Yan's back, "It's a little heavier than before."

Joe moved in disgust, as if he was afraid that he would be too heavy on him.

Tan Mu folded his arms and hugged him tighter, "It's better to be heavier, it was too light before, and the doctor said you can't get enough nutrition. Don't follow the aesthetics on the Internet, there is a limit to being white and thin, and health is the most important thing."

Qiao Yan quietly poked his head out of Tan Mu's arms to look at him, like a little squirrel just poking its head out of a hole to observe.

Tan Mu lowered his head and touched Qiao Yan's forehead with his own.It's obviously an overly intimate gesture, but Tan Mu and Qiao Yan's eyes are very clean, without any intimacy, on the contrary they seem extraordinarily warm.

Looking at Tan Mu's face so closely, Qiao Yan's face was a little hot, but he was reluctant to leave.He liked Tan Mu's body temperature very much, as if no matter what kind of terrible fear he was in, Tan Mu could pick him up from the abyss and let himself stay in his arms to rest and breathe.

"Tan Mu..." Qiao Yan called out to him in a low voice.

"Well, Yanyan, I'm here." Tan Mu's voice was low and deep, as if ringing in Qiao Yan's heart.

Qiao Yan pursed her lips, "Let's go back!"

"Wait a little longer." Tan Mu's eyes were filled with a doting smile, "Wait for us to get warmer, and then we'll go back."

"..." Qiao Yan blinked, and the end of his eyes suddenly became moist.Tan Mu's tenderness made him want to cry.

Qiao Yan knew in his heart that he was not moved by Tan Mu because he hadn't been treated well by others for a long time.It was because Tan Mu was very kind to him, and almost gave him all his tenderness, which made him unable to control his tears.

In the past, Qiao Yan actually seldom cried. Even when she was cornered and desperate enough to commit suicide, she would cry a little.At that time, he thought that maybe he was naturally so strong, so he would survive no matter what happened.

But Tan Mu made him understand that this is not the case, he is not stronger than others, nor is he born able to bear suffering, but because of the past, even if he cries, no one loves him as much as Tan Mu, so tears It's just a waste of effort.

But it's different now, Tan Mu gave him the power to be willful, so he can act recklessly, tears are no longer scarce, and even the corners of his eyes can be red and wet anytime, anywhere.

Nesting herself in Tan Mu's arms, Qiao Yan wanted to say something to him, but she didn't know how to talk to him.

Tan Mu circled Qiao Yan and didn't urge him.

After a long time, Qiao's dull voice came from Tan Mu's arms, "Tan Mu, why are you so kind to me!"

Tan Mu seemed to be stopped by Qiao Yan's question, and after thinking for a while, he said, "Because you attracted me."

"Janyan, do you remember my occupation?"

"You said you were a collector."

"En." Tan Mu held Qiao Yan's face and said seriously, "You are the best treasure I found after returning to China."

Qiao Yan couldn't understand, "But I can only bring you trouble, and I can't gain anything."

"You can grow up well, that's what I look forward to the most." Tan Mu has no way to explain to Qiao Yan that he is shocked by the instant amazement every time he sees Qiao Yan, and there is no way to explain to Qiao Yan that for him Said that many of Qiao Yan's qualities are precious enough to make him addicted.But he was able to clearly and straightforwardly explain his intentions and expectations to Qiao Yan.

Qiao hated being silent. He savored the meaning of the conversation carefully, and couldn't figure it out for a while.He even felt that the person Tan Mu was talking about was not himself.

He sat up and asked Tan Mu seriously again, "Will you be happy as long as you watch me grow up?"

"Yeah." Tan Mu nodded, after thinking for a while, he added, "Not only do you grow up well, you can cry happily, make troubles willfully, and laugh happily, I will feel very satisfied. Hanan, Your whole body is attracting me. As long as you stand here, I want to see more of you, even if you are desperate for redemption, you still amaze me."

Tan Mu's words were the best dreams Qiao Yan had ever heard since he grew up.Ever since he could remember, Qiao Yan knew that he was a superfluous member of the Qiao family, an unwanted child, an existence destined to be disliked, and a stain on the Qiao family.And since he grew up to such an age, he has been taught to be cautious in his words and deeds, even when he is asleep, he has to restrain himself in a frame, for fear of going overboard.

Even if he got the tenderness of others, Qiao Yan didn't dare to get too close, he was afraid that his status as an illegitimate child would bring trouble to others.But Tan Mu gave him a promise that he never dared to dream of.

Qiao Yan shook her head uncontrollably, "No way."

He denied it in a low voice, "It's impossible for you to be so kind to me."

"why not?"

"I... sooner or later I'm going back to Qiao's house. I can't keep troubling you like this. They're all looking for me, I know it. But I'm too mean. I know you're gentle, so I keep pretending to be pitiful. "

"I'm not that fragile, I...have been running away. Because this place is so good." Qiao Yan covered his face, he couldn't let himself look into Tan Mu's eyes, those eyes were full of tenderness, even if he just thought about it, It would make Qiao Yan lose all courage to move forward, and just want to cowardly hide in Tan Mu's arms.

But he always has to face reality.

Even if he is afraid, even if he thinks of the Qiao family, he will be breathless, even if he is terribly afraid of the future that can only be bound by the Qiao family.

Qiao Yan took a few breaths in embarrassment, and Tan Mu looked at him worriedly, but this time, Qiao Yan did not directly collapse like yesterday, but calmed down quickly.

Tan Mu frowned, keenly aware that Qiao Yan was forcing herself.But he didn't stop it.Because he understands that no matter what the situation is, Qiao Yan who has to struggle to get up is the real Qiao Yan.

"But you don't have to go back to Qiao's house." When Qiao Yan's mood stabilized, Tan Muhe promised him, "Janyan, you are an adult, you can choose your future."

Qiao Yan was very confused, "The old man will not let me go."

"I will protect you. Yangan, I hope you can think about it carefully." Tan Mu sighed, "I didn't have time to tell you before, I will go out tomorrow and come back in about a week. I hope to wait for me to come back In time, you can give me an answer that satisfies you."

"Janyan, you can love yourself more."

At the end of the day, Qiao Yan calmed down and went back to the hospital peacefully.Tan Mu accompanied him until the evening, and then went back alone.Qiao Yan leaned against the window and watched him leave without moving.

The nurse came to deliver the dinner, and was a little surprised to see that Tan Mu was not there, "Did Mr. Tan not watch you sleep before leaving?"

Qiao Yan froze for a moment, then turned to look at the nurse.

The nurse walked in and draped the coat hanging next to Qiao Yan's shoulders, "You can't catch a cold. If you're not lying down, put on the coat."

Qiao Yan obediently followed the nurse's orders.

The following night, Tan Mu didn't come, and the next day, Tan Mu didn't come either.

Qiao Yan's mood dropped visibly to the naked eye.Nurses and doctors are also in a hurry.The nurse and Qiao Yan explained, "Mr. Tan is going abroad temporarily and will be back soon."

"Yeah." Qiao Yan nodded, as if listening, but also as if not listening.

He was in a trance.

Without Tan Mu around, Qiao Yan began to suffer from insomnia again.The sadness and despair that had been suppressed before also returned again.But without Tan Mu by his side, Qiao Yan found that he couldn't cry.

On several occasions, nurses found him out of breath and put him on a ventilator.But these few times, Qiao Yan recovered quickly, and it took him only a few minutes to make himself normal.

On the fourth day of Tan Mu's business trip, Qiao Yan began to suffer from insomnia. He sat on the bed with his knees hugged.The temperature of the air conditioner in the ward was suitable, but Qiao Yan felt cold.Those malicious eyes were hidden in the darkness in all directions, looking at him with either contempt or covetousness.

Just like when he was lying in the ward that day, Qiao Chen slammed the ashes on the glass while watching the ashes curling up outside the ward.

There are so many people watching, everyone's eyes are only curious, but no one is sad for Lu Niao.

Only Joe hates it.

Joe Yan bit his lip hard, he tasted blood, but felt no pain.Qiao Yan was a little curious. He tentatively picked up the fruit knife next to him and opened a cut on his finger, and blood dripped down.Qiao Yan tilted her head to look, but she didn't feel any pain at all.

It shouldn't be, it's bleeding, why doesn't it hurt?

Qiao Yan kept staring at his fingers, and when the blood had solidified, he cut another knife in his palm.But this time, the wound was bigger than the one on his finger, and the blood flowed more, but he still didn't feel any pain.

Why in the end?

Qiao Yan tilted his head to watch, suddenly feeling that he was scary like this.In the past, no matter what kind of pain, Qiao Yan could endure it, but she was not unaware of it.He has always felt that pain is also a proof of being alive.But now, he doesn't even feel pain, so is he still a human being?

Still alive?

Qiao Yan dropped the fruit knife and clenched her hands tightly, the blood was sticky between her fingers.But Qiao Yan just stubbornly curled up in the corner and trembled.It wasn't until it was almost dawn that he slowly got up from the ground, went to the bathroom to find a rag, wiped off the bloody places on the ground, and then wrapped his hands in gauze indiscriminately.

Just doing these two things exhausted all of Qiao Yan's strength.Looking at the bed that was so close at hand, Qiao Yan couldn't help herself to climb on it.

It would be nice if we could talk about it.