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And at this moment in the ward, Qiao Yan also didn't know how to face Gu Yuan in front of him because of the indescribably complicated emotions, and he couldn't even look at her naturally like in the beginning.

Guilt, guilty conscience, excitement, sadness, there are too many emotions gushing up in his chest, each of which is something Qiao Yan can't get over but can't avoid.Because of her status as an illegitimate child, and because of the source of half her body's blood, even if Qiao Yan thought she had a clear conscience and had done everything she could, Gu Yuan was different.It was because of his birth that she was so frightened and became seriously ill. Even her originally perfect life was destroyed.

If there is only one perfect victim in this incident, it must be her.After all, she has never done anything wrong, from the beginning or now.But in the end, all the retribution seems to have fallen on this gentle and kind woman.

Qiao Yan trembled uncontrollably, and finally raised her head, looking at Gu Yuan dully.

He had thought about how he would look when he met her many times before, but he never expected that it would be so dramatic.Gu Yuan would mistake him for her own child, and feel sad and anxious because of his breakdown.

"I..." Qiao Yan felt that he should say something, but his throat was choked and he couldn't say a word.

Just like when I was seven years old, I was tortured by Qiao Chen, and after being put down, I felt the same feeling when I received the news that I could go to school.

Qiao Yan thought of the application form he had treasured for many years, and what the old housekeeper said at that time.

"Madam asked me to convey to you, study hard and behave in a dignified manner."

These are the rare words that the old housekeeper said were similar to teaching.Qiao Yan was young at the time and didn't quite understand it, but she had firmly remembered it in her heart.Until now, it is still regarded as a famous saying of warning.

And it was precisely this sentence that made Qiao Yan find his own place in the confusion.Before that, he knew nothing about his future.Although he was only seven years old, he had been locked in the attic for a long time and had no contact with the outside world, which made Qiao's life boring and boring.

At that time, Qiao Yan thought about whether he would be like this all his life, living like a mouse most of the time, and being Qiao Chen's punching bag for a small part of the time, allowing him to vent all the injustices.

I also thought about whether I would be trapped in the attic for the rest of my life. The most stable days are the days when Qiao Chen is not at home. He can open the window and secretly look at the blue sky outside.

At that time, Qiao hated to dream, and the scenes in his dreams were all gray.

It wasn't until the day he actually walked into the school, looking at the schoolbag and textbooks in his hand, that Qiao Yan realized that there were such bright colors in the world.

But after he really started to study, Qiao Yan followed the teacher, learned etiquette and morality, and saw the myriad of postures in the vast world, so he really knew what kind of gift he had received.

What Gu Yuan gave him was not only a dignity and an opportunity, but also a perfect future that allowed him to leave the Qiao family and have his own dream.

Therefore, Qiao Yan has always firmly remembered Gu Yuan's kindness, kept the secret of her illegitimate child, worked hard to go out independently, studied hard, and did not cause trouble to Qiao's family.

Not only because of her duty, but also because she didn't want to show up in her own heart, causing Gu Yuan to be speculated about her unhappy marriage by the outside world.

She was already sick because of herself, so Qiao Yan was even more unwilling to let herself be a stain on Gu Yuan.

Qiao Yan imagined that after he could really leave the Qiao family and start a family, he would formally visit Gu Yuan once. At that time, he must have fulfilled his wife's request for him, and he would be able to express his gratitude openly and say something to his wife. , "I did not live up to your expectations. I left Qiao's house and became a man of integrity."

But right now he...

Not only did he fail to keep his secret, but he also hurt all the people around him who were kind to him.What made Qiao Yan feel guilty and hideous the most was that he knew that his mother had caused Gu Yuan's illness, but he still stubbornly wanted to worship her and keep her by his side forever.

Just because he wanted a home so badly.

For the first time in 18 years, he was so close to the realization of his dream, so he got carried away and tried to reach the sky in one step.It is precisely because of this that he is now in such a mess.This is his retribution, the retribution of his ingratitude.

So Qiao was tired of accepting his fate and wanted to give up.

But why, why is it in front of Gu Yuan?Why let Gu Yuan see him so ineffective?

Qiao Yan lowered her head, not daring to look at her at all.He was afraid that he would see disappointment and regret in Gu Yuan's eyes.

However, Qiao Yan's silence made Gu Yuan even more anxious. She kept holding Qiao Yan in her arms, and stubbornly coaxed Qiao Yan in her own way.He coaxed him until he lost all strength, and then reluctantly lay down on the bed, but his eyes were still stubbornly looking at Qiao Yan.

"Don't cry." Gu Yuan also saw the photo on the ground, the bright sea of ​​sunflowers was pressed between the broken glass on the ground, under the refraction of the light, it didn't look bleak, but more dreamy, just like when Gu Yuan took the picture with a camera I thought the same thing when I downloaded them.

Signaling Qiao Yan to pick up the photo from the ground, Gu Yuan told Qiao Yan the origin of this photo, "I took it the day I knew you were there."

The gentle smile in Gu Yuan's eyes made Qiao Yan's heart skip a beat.

Gu Yuan pulled Qiao Yan to the bedside, and said with nostalgia, "I was so unlucky that day. First, I had a quarrel with Qiao Gucun, and then because of something not going my way at work. Later, I fainted because of hypoglycemia. I was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment, and I missed your brother's piano conference."

"Big brother can play the piano?"

"Yes! I play it occasionally now. He likes it very much, and he even said that he wants to be a pianist. It was his first time to participate in a piano conference. Although it was only a school event, he took it very seriously! The night before preparing the dress, try it on. A bed of clothes. I bought flowers and wanted to see them, but I broke my promise."

"After I opened my eyes, I felt that today was really terrible. Then the nurse told me, I have you!" Pinching the tip of Qiao Yan's nose, the smile on the corners of Gu Yuan's eyes and eyebrows made Qiao Yan feel overwhelmed. Infected, I couldn't help but raise the corners of my lips.

Gu Yuan pulled Qiao Yan into him again and continued to tell him the story, "Next, your brother came to the hospital to look for me. He was a little disappointed and worried about my physical condition, but after knowing that he had a younger brother, he was also happy. Terrible."

"Then I left the hospital with him and went back to work to pick up the camera. As a result, on the way back, because we took a shortcut, we came across this sea of ​​sunflowers."

"It's really beautiful. The sunset is actually a bit dim, but these flowers bloom brighter than in the early morning. At that time, Ah Jing and I said something at the same time."

"What did you say?" Qiao Yan was completely attracted by Gu Yuan's story.

"Ah Jing and I said at the same time, I hope you can be like these sunflowers in the future, no matter what time you are, you can firmly let yourself bathe in the sun. Then I took this photo, and later won an award and was asked by the teacher Let's go, with that agreement."

"Did you see those sunflowers planted in the greenhouse? They were all picked by your brother and planted by your mother."

So, if it wasn't for his birth, Qiao Chen should have been happier.Eldest brother, Gu Yuan and Qiao Chen, will be a very happy family.Qiao Yan looked at Gu Yuan's face and said in a daze, "I'm sorry."

Gu Yuan shook her head to comfort Qiao Yan, "Don't say sorry, it doesn't matter if the teacher doesn't accept it. Mom doesn't care if the baby can become a photographer. As long as my baby is happy and healthy."

She hadn't spoken such a long and calm word for a long time, and a tired look appeared on her face for a while.

Qiao Yan hurriedly helped her to lie down, and then raised the bed higher so that she could look at him.

However, Gu Yuan reached out to feel under the pillow, found a candy and put it in Qiao Yan's palm.

"Try it, you won't feel uncomfortable after eating sugar."

Qiao Yan didn't move, but Gu Yuan took out another one and put it in his palm, leaned into his ear and whispered, "Your elder brother won't let me eat a lot of candies, there are only two in total, and I'll give them to you. Be happy ah!"

Qiao Yan gripped Tang tightly, but felt that it weighed a thousand catties.

Gu Yuan stood up and stroked his hair, "Is it better?"

"Yeah." Qiao Yan nodded, but the tears couldn't be controlled, and they were still streaming down.

Gu Yuan sighed, "Okay, okay, cry hard when you're sad. Who made me a mother!"

She pulled Qiao Yan's head down, let Qiao Yan lean on her shoulder, then patted Qiao Yan's back little by little, and stroked his hair.

This is the warmth that only a mother can give, and it is also the first time Qiao Yan has felt the warmth in 18 years.He knew he wasn't worthy, but in the end he couldn't help but grabbed the corner of Gu Yuan's clothes.

Gu Yuan smiled and hugged Qiao Yan even tighter.Gently hummed a very soft song.

Qiao Yan gradually fell asleep in such warmth.

Gu Yuan didn't call him, but softly called the nurse to bring a hot towel, and put it on Qiao Yan's eyes that were red from crying.

Qiao Jing, who had been hiding for a long time, finally walked in from the door.He stood beside the bed, watching the scene of Qiao Yan cuddling in Gu Yuan's arms, but he had mixed feelings in his heart.

"Mom..." Just as he was about to speak, Gu Yuan glared at him.

"Keep down, your brother is asleep."

"It's really aggrieved to cry like this."

Looking at Gu Yuan's precious Qiao Yan, Qiao Jing's words that he is not my brother stuck in his throat, and he couldn't say anything.

However, Gu Yuan complained to him very much, "I don't know how you take care of him, you see your brother is skinny. Didn't you always say that you take good care of him every time you come here?"

Qiao Jing was speechless.

But this time, Gu Yuan held his hand, pulled Qiao Jing to sit beside the bed, then patted his head with difficulty, and said with a smile, "Ah Jing, you have worked hard!

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