our castle

In a daze, Tang Xiangxi seemed to hear Wendy calling herself in her ears, and she was still pushing herself.Tang Xiangxi knew that she should greet her, but no matter how hard she tried, it was difficult to open her eyes.

After struggling for a long time, when Tang Xiangxi finally managed to open a slit, he saw Wen Zhenhua looking down at him worriedly, with one hand on his forehead carefully checking the temperature.

After confirming that Tang Xiangxi didn't have a fever, Wen Zhenhua breathed a sigh of relief, and met Tang Xiangxi's confused eyes, "Are you awake? You couldn't wake up today, so Wendy thought you were sick."

As if confirming Wen Zhenhua's words, Wendy climbed onto the bed from the other side and hugged Tang Xiangxi's neck, rubbing Tang Xiangxi's face worriedly.

"Princess Wendy, Daddy is really happy to be hugged so warmly by you this morning." Tang Xiangxi's homeowner, Wendy, rubbed her hands twice vigorously, and then sat up slowly, but still lazily.

Wen Zhenhua raised his eyebrows, and flicked Tang Xiangxi's forehead, "Did you have some kind of dream?"

Tang Xiangxi usually belongs to the less dream school, but this time he obviously had a dream all night, which led to his current trance state.

"It's not a nightmare, it's not a good dream..." Tang Xiangxi scratched his forehead a little dizzily, "It's just... I dreamed about my mother and him. My mother was waiting for him back then, and then I dragged my mother gone……"

Speaking of this, Tang Xiangxi sat up suddenly, and looked at Wen Zhenhua with confirmation. Maybe there was some reason that contributed to his dream?

"Okay, Wendy, let's have breakfast late, Xiangxi, hurry up too." Even though Wen Zhenhua pulled Wendy out, Tang Xiangxi lay lazily on the bed, seemingly lost in some kind of thought.

It took a long time before Tang Xiangxi seemed to have made up his mind and grabbed the phone next to him.Tang Xiangxi didn't come out for breakfast, which made Wendy very surprised, "Daddy, is Daddy still mad at us?"

Wen Zhenhua didn't make a sound, just shook his head at Wendy, "Daddy promises you no, so, Wendy drank this glass of juice, then went downstairs to join Xiaowei and the others to go to school together, and wait for Wendy to leave school today Then you can see Daddy alive and kicking, okay?"

With Wen Zhenhua's guarantee, Wendy felt a little relieved and walked out.Wen Zhenhua walked to the sofa and sat down, his eyes unconsciously fell on the coffee table next to him, on which he had pasted a sticky note before.

Tang Xiangxi didn't tear it away, but he left it there, and now, this note is no longer here.

After understanding something, Wen Zhenhua quickly connected Xiaofang's call.

"Xiaofang, help me pick up Wendy this afternoon. You don't need to take it home. Can I let Wendy play at your house for a while? I'll pick her up tonight."

"Boss, this is of course possible. Did something happen between you and Mr. Tang? What kind of [-] forbidden scenes need children to avoid?"

Xiaofang's voice has always been so hearty, so hearty that she almost deserves a beating.Wen Zhenhua leaned on the sofa with a headache, begging for mercy helplessly.

"What is the [-]th ban? Are you thinking too much? Help me take care of Wendy...Xiaofang, don't threaten me with this. Family time, just do as you want, please."

Sensing that Tang Xiangxi was about to come out, Wen Zhenhua hung up the phone in a hurry, and after a while, he saw Tang Xiangxi coming out uncharacteristically without a three-piece suit.

"Zhenhua, you...you are still here..." Realizing that what he said was like 300 taels of silver here, Tang Xiangxi grabbed the toast on the dining table and bit it in his mouth, and said vaguely, "I ...today...not going to work..."

Wen Zhenhua had already guessed the continuation of Tang Xiangxi's vague and unfinished lines, he just waved his hand to show that he already knew, and did not look at Tang Xiangxi's expression.

Today is Tang Xiangxi's most depressed day of the year, and Wen Zhenhua has always known this.

Tang Xiangxi felt that he was in a trance all day, and when he was sitting in the car, he still had that piece of toast in his mouth and didn't eat much.Regarding the decision just made, Tang Xiangxi is still not sure whether he is right or wrong.

Aimlessly, Tang Xiangxi drove the car around the streets for a whole day, until it gradually stopped beside a cemetery when the sky was getting dark.

Tang Xiangxi leaned on the steering wheel, it took most of the day to gradually adjust his mentality, and let out a breath slowly.

Gathering up his courage, Tang Xiangxi got out of the car, and was surprised to find that Tang Yaoqun was standing at the gate of the cemetery, looking at him with a complicated expression, more relieved than anxious.

"Why don't you go in?" There seemed to be no place to put his hands, Tang Xiangxi put his hands in his pockets, standing somewhere not far or near Tang Yaoqun.

Tang Yaoqun seemed hesitant to speak, feeling a little sentimental about the distance Tang Xiangxi always kept, "I want...I want to wait for you."

It wasn't until he stood so close to Tang Yaoqun that Tang Xiangxi realized that his father, who was tall in his impression, had lost his heroic appearance and had become a little stooped. This made him realize how many years of changes he had missed.

"Boring, let's go in together." The words lost their original coldness, Tang Xiangxi lowered his head and walked straight forward, he knew that Tang Xiangxi would follow behind him.

The two walked one after the other, and finally stopped in front of an inconspicuous tomb.Tang Xiangxi lowered his head, his eyes did not fall on the tombstone, but he stared straight at the ground like a child who has done something wrong.

"How many years, more than ten years since her death, this is the first time we have come to see her on her memorial day, isn't it?" Tang Yaoqun's voice sounded a little emotional, and even more face-to-face Lover's vicissitudes.

Tang Yaoqun knew that Tang Xiangxi hated him.Tang Xiangxi refused him to appear in his life, Tang Yaoqun knew that his appearance would make Tang Xiangxi collapse.

He didn't have the courage, didn't dare to try to appear, so, on the day Tang Xiangxi's mother was buried, he just stood far away in a corner, watched secretly, and wiped away tears secretly.

And every year, her memorial day, this day is Tang Xiangxi's "end" of the year, so he dare not show up even more.Every time Tang Xiangxi would stay here for a whole day, he couldn't.

So he chose to come to see her one day later. On the day of her death, he stood far away in a corner, watching Tang Xiangxi all day; the next day, he stood in front of the grave with a bunch of flowers in his arms, looking at the bunch of flowers that Tang Xiangxi left behind, Facing the cold tombstone, I said the homely words of the previous day.

And Tang Xiangxi will never know that there will be two bouquets of flowers in front of his mother's tombstone.

Tang Yaoqun was in a mood of nostalgia, so Tang Xiangxi spoke.

"When you told my mom, tell me, you wouldn't take us into your family, I was disappointed in you. When my mom passed away, I felt like the whole world was dark. You didn't show up that day. I was really disappointed. very hopeless."

Tang Xiangxi's voice sounded calm, but Tang Yaoqun could hear how wronged he was, which made him unable to help explaining, "I was there that day, I just... just thought you didn't want to see me again, and I didn't want to make you sadder. "

Tang Xiangxi's body trembled, as if he did not expect Tang Yaoqun to give such an explanation.He calmed down for a moment and continued.

"Since that day, I have told myself that I have nothing to do with you anymore, and I will not care about everything about you. But every time I see you, I can't control my words, I can't control myself. Hehe... Maybe it's because I care too much about you, right?

If you didn't intend to accept me from the very beginning, you didn't intend to want me, then you shouldn't have let me be born in this world.

But you take care of me, you accompany me, and finally you tell me that you can't accept me, no matter how much I complain, no matter how much I hate, I..."

Speaking of this, Tang Xiangxi's eyes were already filled with tears, and he was already crying when he spoke, but he bit his lip to keep the tears from falling.

It was rare in Tang Yaoqun's life to feel overwhelmed. It wasn't the feeling of being at a loss when he was rejected by his son before, but as a father, he was at a loss when he saw his beloved child cry but couldn't go up and wipe it away.

"But why, when I feel that I can accept it, why do you deny my existence?" The most unacceptable thing for Tang Xiangxi was the day when Tang Yaoqun said that he was just his friend.

Unexpectedly, I have hated Tang Yaoqun for so long, always put him in the position of father, and in the end he is not even a son in Tang Yaoqun's heart.His resentment became so powerless in an instant.

In the end, he was completely abandoned by Tang Yaoqun.

Tang Xiangxi looked away, not wanting Tang Yaoqun to see her crying.Tang Xiangxi's tears made Tang Yaoqun feel he couldn't breathe even more. That friend that day...

"I never, I never... have never regretted having you as my son. You have been my greatest pride from the beginning to the end." Tang Yaoqun was a little excited, and couldn't hold back his tears at the end.

"I'm cowardly, I can't admit to my wife that I have you, I can't give you a complete family, let alone admit your existence in front of my wife.

It's my cowardice that prevents you from having a complete family... It's me, it's my fault... I don't even have the courage to call myself your father, it's my fault..."

For the next time, like a cassette player, Tang Yaoqun covered his face and weakly repeated "my fault", both of them burst into tears for a while.

"I know I can't force you. It's impossible for you to divorce your current wife for us. It's unfair to her. Although you don't love her, she loves you and spends all her youth with you. Even if you You can't divorce her if you don't love her, I understand."

Tang Xiangxi was not the awkward child at the time. He could understand Tang Yaoqun's pain after thinking calmly. Anyone, when anyone faced this situation, they couldn't make a choice in the end. Whether it was the outside home or the current home, they were all responsible.

After all, Tang Yaoqun is not a cruel person, he can't force him to make a choice, and now, there is no need to make a choice.

"I already have a family now. Zhenhua and Wendy are with me. That's enough. Don't continue to be deadlocked over this matter. Let's let each other go. You don't owe me anything."

When the words came out of his mouth, Tang Xiangxi realized that it was not difficult to say these words. When he saw Tang Yaoqun's shocked face, his only thought was that his father's shocked face was like this.

"Although it is difficult, I will try to accept our father-son relationship again."

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