Abuse's extravagance

Staring quietly at the man in front of him, Roy didn't even close his eyes to rest for a while, just to keep his appearance deeply in his mind.

In the gloom, the man's face has a peaceful and rare childishness, which is completely different from the mature appearance when he is awake.Only in front of him would he show such a defenseless side, exposing his own weaknesses, which filled his heart with deep pity.

Even though the scene in his eyes is always the same, and the protagonist is the same person, Roy doesn't feel tired, nor bored, and just maintains the same embracing posture with the man, looking at him lovingly but complicatedly.

Only the man's regular breath and steady heartbeat can be heard in Yaoran's space, and he also breathes up and down along his chest, and the two are almost one.

Xuruan's body still retains the heat and bodily fluids left by the passion of the two, but compared to the intense intercourse, he still likes the intimacy of simply feeling each other's existence.

Just watch him quietly like this, do nothing, let yourself become a part of him, and make this night an eternity in your memory.

Although he has made up his mind to leave, Roy still has a little willfulness in his heart, hoping that time will stand still for him.

But the clock chiming the hour outside the room and the sliver of light penetrating through the cracks in the curtains cruelly hit his remaining selfishness, and asked him not to make any struggles and face the reality.

Whenever the picture that was about to become a reality flashed through his mind, his chest would feel like being pricked by a needle, and he couldn't stop the sourness rolling in his emotions from flooding his eye sockets, blocking his breathing.

He thought that he could completely let go of this relationship with Luo Jie, but the closer he was to parting, the more invisible his attachment became.

He could only try his best to suppress the collapse, not to let that emotion materialize.

Just like right now, if I just shiver a little, the arms around my waist will wrap around me tightly, giving him more stable warmth.

If he couldn't help choking up sobs, then Luo Jie would definitely doubt himself, so he absolutely didn't allow himself to cry at this moment.

There are only a few hours left before that scene, as long as he persists and endures a little longer, he can vent his inner reluctance and sorrow to his heart's content, and abuse such an irresponsible self to his heart's content.

But now, if he wanted to stop his overflowing emotions, he could only do so.

After engraving that beloved face on his heart, he slowly closed his sour eyes, and fell asleep in his body temperature for the last time.

When Roy opened his eyes again, Luo Jie was no longer in the room, leaving only the sweet illusion of the two embracing each other in his arms.

When he found that Luo Jie was not there, his face faded away, and he glanced at the alarm clock on the bedside table in fear, fearing that he would miss the opportunity to say goodbye to him.

But when the hour hand reached seven o'clock, he suddenly looked like a deflated balloon. He lay back on the bed weakly, staring blankly at the front, his eyes flushed.

After trying to swallow the sadness back into his body, he passively got out of bed and walked out of the bedroom.Hearing a sound coming from the direction of the kitchen from the aisle, his dim eyes trembled, and then he walked into the bathroom.

Looking at the pale face in the mirror, he unconsciously swung his arms to brush his teeth and straighten his hair; after some washing, his whole body became much refreshed, but his eyes were still dead.

Knowing that he could never face Luo Jie like this, he held up the cold water with his hands and slapped his cheeks fiercely, trying to cheer himself up, "It's almost over Roy, you can do it... "

Although his lips raised a mocking smile, his body and mind were in a tense state, and the blood in his body was constantly draining.

After splashing cold water on his cheek again, he put away the melancholy in his heart, restored the Roy with only a smile on his face, and walked out of the bathroom, ready to draw the end of this relationship.

When he came to the entrance of the kitchen, a rich and full aroma immediately burst into his nostrils. He didn't make a sound immediately, but stood by the door and quietly observed Luo Jie.

Watching Luo Jie use a rolling pin to crush the white rice in the plastic bag, then put it into the chicken soup to prepare porridge, then cook the chicken in the place, and peel the shreds by hand without taking the trouble, in addition to admiration, I also cherish gratitude.

Admire him for being willing to put down his figure to help him prepare breakfast in the kitchen, so that ordinary men can't be so caring and delicate; thank him for always taking care of himself and loving himself in every possible way; tolerate his immature and willful brother.

To be honest, he should say thank you to Luo Jie for everything he has done for him.But before thanking him, he should say "I'm sorry", because he really owes him too much.

"Are you going to just stand there and watch, won't you help me?"

Suddenly hearing him throw this sentence into the steaming pot, Roy slightly bent his moist eyes.The paused footsteps began to move, hugging his waist from behind, leaning against that broad back.

"How do you know I'm hiding behind?" The lost and regained warmth made his face show satisfaction; he buried his face in Luo Jie's clothes, and he rubbed his scent with the tip of his nose.

"Looking at me with such passionate and admiring eyes almost burned two holes in my back. Do you think I can't find out?" After a self-conscious laugh, Luo Jie freed one hand , responding to his caress.

Lost by him like that, Roy silently stared at the pure white cloth in front of him, and said sullenly: "Don't be so stinky! Hearing you say that, you seem to think of me as a woman who is very nympho."

The nasal complaint made Luo Jie's cute appearance of pursing his lips immediately appear in Luo Jie's mind, and he smiled.

"Grand hope! I never thought about it that way." He knew in his heart that he wasn't really upset, but he still explained seriously: "I just feel like we have telepathy, because I felt your sight for a moment just now. Touched me, so I made a sound to test."

"Telepathy..." Roy muttered to himself, knowing in his heart that he was trying to make himself happy.

If they really had a telepathic connection, then he might realize how sad he was now, and it would be impossible to joke with himself like this.

"Maybe we really have..." There was a slight smile in his tone, but his eyes were empty to look at the light coming in from the window.

"However, it's really rare that the bed bug in our family got up so early. I haven't seen you get up so early since I made breakfast for me that day." Luo Jie retracted without noticing his strangeness. Continue to process the remaining ingredients by hand, chop the fried shiitake mushrooms, and put them into the porridge together with the shredded chicken.

(That's because I know you're going to work in 10 minutes, and I don't want to lose you if I can't even share the last breakfast with you.) After whispering helplessly in his heart, Roy hugged him even tighter him in his arms.

"You're not here, I can't sleep..." This is another sincere statement from him.

Hearing him speak with suppressed emotions, as if it was his fault for waking up so early, and hiding his dependent side, Luo Jie had a smile on his thin lips.

It just so happened that all the preparations were over, and now all that was left was to wait for the porridge to be cooked; he pulled away Roy's hand that was stuck around his waist, turned around, and hugged him back.

"If you say that, I will be reluctant to let you go every morning."

Before seeing the face he was looking forward to, his mind received this sentence first. The seemingly ordinary and simple love words made Roy's heart burn and hurt.

Trembling, with a false look of happiness, he raised his eyes, and the corners of his raised mouth were full of pretentiousness, "Then you may be fired from the company, how can you support me like this."

But his body seemed to be rejecting his own falsehood, trembling one after another; the more he absorbed Luo Jie's warmth, the colder his heart became.Without warning, he sneezed on that tender face.

The good mood was interrupted like this.Noticing that he was only wearing a thin shirt and his lips couldn't see any color, Luo Jie's expression immediately turned serious, "Why didn't you put on more clothes after getting up, the weather has turned cold recently, you can easily catch a cold like this! "

After reading a sentence, eagerly, he immediately surrounded Roy with his own body temperature, carried him out of the kitchen, and headed towards the bedroom.

Roy hugged his neck, looking at his solemn face because he cared about himself, his chest became heavy with the steady strength step by step.

Thinking that I was about to let go of this warmth, at this moment, the heart that had decided to let go jumped out and questioned myself: Why did I have to choose to escape instead of becoming braver for Luo Jie? ． ． ． ． ?

Why can't it go on any longer?

Why can't he live just for him?

Many question marks jumped out to blame him, but he couldn't make any answer.

"Hurry up and put on your pants and coat, then go to the dining room and wait obediently for me, and I'll bring you breakfast in a few minutes, do you understand?" Luo Jie pinched the face with innocent eyes. Rubbing his brown hair that glistened in the sun.

"Um."

Respond to his tenderness with a smile.The moment the two of them cut off physical contact, Roy felt as if a hole had been opened in his heart, and the happiness he had was rapidly draining away, while fear and emptiness kept pouring in.

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Inadvertently playing with the cutlery on the table, Roy glanced at the kitchen entrance from time to time, waiting for Luo Jie to appear.

After grasping the direction of the parting plot in advance, every minute and every second is very difficult for him now, and he can hardly bear to be separated from Luo Jie.As if he was the air he lived on, all the cells in his body were restless due to lack of oxygen.

"Breakfast is ready~"

At this time, the soft voice that floated into his ears was like a breeze, untying the restraint of his throat, and his nose became smooth.However, his gaze followed Luo Jie, watching him bring hot porridge to the dining room, and place the pot in the middle of the two seats. This time, the narrow part became the chest.The heart that has just been appeased is anxious about the next separation.

"You're hungry, you can eat right away." Seeing him staring at him eagerly, Luo Jie thought he was hungry, so he quickly picked up a bowl and scooped up half a bowl of porridge, and placed it in front of him.

"The porridge is still hot, be careful."

Thoughtful exhortations were not enough, he directly picked up a spoon to help him stir the hot porridge, hoping to dissipate heat quickly.

The hot air dancing in the air tempts people's appetite.

"It smells so good~" Roy held the bowl with both hands, looking at the light yellow porridge in front of him, with almost no complete rice grain shape, and was moved by his heart.

Enticed by the rich aroma, he kept salivating, and he impatiently took a small sip with a spoon, blew a few mouthfuls, and put it in his mouth.

The smooth porridge slips into the throat almost without chewing. Although it stays on the taste buds for less than a few seconds, the mouth is filled with the sweet taste of chicken soup and shiitake mushrooms.

Every bite is fragrant and evocative, and he moves the spoon more diligently.

"Why is this porridge so delicious? It's obviously full of ingredients!"

The frown that didn't meet the praises should have caused Luo Jie to crack his lips into a smile, "You don't even want to see who cooked it, my porridge has a hidden secret~"

"Really?" Roy remembered that he didn't see anything added just now, just chicken soup, chicken and mushrooms.

Luo Jie showed a mysterious smile of "don't tell him".

Seeing that his lips gradually returned to ruddy, she helped him serve another bowl of porridge, and put it aside to cool down, so that he could enjoy it later.Then, he sat down and began to eat.

From the corner of his eye, he watched his lips remain cheerful, and Roy also smiled slightly.The two ate in harmony as usual, chatting occasionally, and occasionally quietly admiring each other's eating appearance, an intimate atmosphere surrounded them.

However, behind such a happy picture, there are huge variables hidden, waiting for an opportunity to devour the beauty in front of us.

"recent....."

Hearing him raise his head, Roy immediately sent a concerned look.

"I want to sell that house in the suburbs."

"Sell it?" Roy put down the tableware in surprise, and stared at him blankly, "But Huang Jingying and Xiao Qing are not living in that house now, if you sell it, where will they live?"

"I have prepared the divorce agreement, and I will send it to her today." Luo Jie did not directly respond to his question, but explained his thoughts in another way.

How could Roy not know that everything he did was for himself.That marriage is now their biggest threat. As soon as the threat is lifted, he knows that Luo Jie will definitely abandon his family and personal reputation cruelly, just to stay with him.

But he who loves Luo Jie so much will never let him become such a bloodless and tearless person.

"Since the divorce has not been settled yet, it shouldn't matter if they live in the house first?" Touching Luo Jie's hand on the table, he softened his tone. He didn't want him to feel that he opposed his idea, but he just hoped that he could let go. slow speed.

"Jie, I don't want you to be a bad person." (Let me be the bad person now, and let me bear all the sins.)

Luo Jie understood his delicate thoughts, and sighed lightly, "Actually, I didn't want to force her. At first, I thought it was too far from you to the company, so I wanted to buy a new house near the company."

Holding the softness covering his left hand, he brought Roy's hand to his lips and kissed lightly, "If you want to go back to our original home, then I won't sell it, and we will move back there after the divorce. "

Watching him completely trust and respect himself.The tender look of compromising for love made Roy's throat choke.

Because only he knew in his heart that it was impossible for him to return to that home.And after he left, it was impossible for Luo Jie to stay here again.How cruel it would be to let him go back to live in that home full of memories by himself.

Enduring sadness and meeting Luo Jie's eyes, he shook his head, and then made a wish that would never come true, "I don't want to go back and live there, after you get divorced, let's buy a new house together, I hope we can live together." This time it was designed by the two of us.”

Luo Jie agreed with his idea very much, and rubbed his cheeks with a pair of eyes, "Well, that's it, then I'll find a few good houses first, and then I'll take a look with you."

"Well, I trust your eyes."

Pretending to be happy and talking about the future blueprint that does not exist between the two, Roy's chest seemed to be roughly rubbed by hands.

He lowered his head as if he was eating porridge, trying to restrain the sourness that filled his eyes, and he still maintained a faint smile at the corner of his mouth.

After less than a few seconds of silence, he suddenly heard the creaking sound of a chair moving beside him. He looked up in surprise and saw Luo Jie going to the living room, picking up the suit jacket on the back of the sofa chair and putting it on. He stood up as if being shocked by electricity. "You, are you going to work!?"

I took a quick look at the time, and there was still half an hour to spare!Now he was asked to watch him leave suddenly, and in just a few seconds to accept the fact that he would never be able to meet again, the blood in his body froze in an instant, and there was a loud ringing in his ears.

"There is an important contract today, I have to go to the company early to have a meeting with my subordinates."

In Luo Jie's eyes, he seemed to be dissatisfied with being left alone at home by Gu's family.

After tidying up his clothes, he walked up to Roy, hugged him and coaxed him softly: "After signing the contract, I'll see if I can come back from get off work early to accompany you, okay?"

Knowing that he would disappear into his own world if he let go, the urge to cry kept rushing into Roy's nostrils.His heart couldn't bear the trembling and was strongly compressed. He really wanted to hug Luo Jie tightly and cling to the heaven he gave him; but his reason told him not to linger or struggle, and just draw the end quietly like this.

"Um."

After a light reply, Luo Jie really walked towards that door.The back that was drifting away seemed to announce the countdown to heartbreak.

"Jie!" Before conscience could control his thoughts, his body had acted for him, grabbing his clothes from behind.

"What's wrong?" Hearing his urgent voice, Luo Jie looked back curiously.

However, I saw him looking at me very enviously, whispering eagerly and coquettishly: "Did you forget something?"

In the next moment, the thin lips had kissed the seductive lips; he clasped the back of Roy's head with one hand, brought him into his arms, and conveyed his emotions to him deeply and intensely.

"I love you."

Lip to lip, he murmured selflessly.

"I love you too..."

Roy also devoted himself to responding to his love, almost reluctant to leave his entanglement.

The lingering again and again made the body temperature of the two close to each other gradually rise. Even though he knew that they had hugged for the last time, sadness ravaged his body. The pain made his fingertips tremble and he couldn't hold Luo Jie tightly.

Locking all the tears in his closed eyelids, even though his nose was filled with moisture, he dared not breathe hard, for fear that Luo Jie would hear his reluctance.

"Then I'm off to work."

After throwing a comforting smile on his nostalgic face, Luo Jie turned around and put on his leather shoes, reaching for the doorknob.

"Well, be careful when driving."

Roy's soft voice flew in the air.But if Luo Jie turned his eyes at this moment, he would find that his slightly curved eyes had turned into tangles, and his smile was so stiff that he completely lost his appearance.But he said those two words behind his back: "Goodbye."

The moment the door was closed, the flamboyance swirled in his eye sockets like raindrops, disintegrating drop by drop onto his cheeks, scorching his heart hotly.

"Goodbye, Jie...bye."

After these words were squeezed out with trembling lips, the more violent punishment of departure invaded Roy's chest, like a knife digging into his heart; the bitterness and pain that came out of the nest spread all over the body at once, penetrating through the blood and The ends of his hair made him almost unable to stand upright.

Embracing the numb body, although the touch on the lips and the heat on the body are still vivid, what reverberates in the heart is only the deep reluctance and the pain of loss.He knew that from this moment on, this body would no longer accept the warmth from other people, and nothing could fill the gap in his heart.

Just like this, he silently let the tears go away. He didn't cry out loud to vent his emotions, and he didn't waste time in self-pity. He just returned to the seat in the restaurant with a hazy gaze, and continued to eat the cold porridge bite by bite with a blank expression on his face. .

Tears were constantly mixed with the cold porridge, and the taste in his mouth was a mixture of five flavors that he would never forget in his life, but because Luo Jie cooked it for him with all his heart, he would try his best to finish it.And his tenderness also ended here with the last feeling.

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I often hear people mention the phrase BlueMonday, but the weather on this day is clear and blue, which is the opposite of melancholy.

At the gate of Taoyuan Airport at eleven o'clock in the morning, all kinds of people came and went.

Some people were chatting and laughing happily, planning to seize the end of this summer to sway their youth and sweat to their heart's content; some people looked tired, but their eyes and hearts were full of satisfaction.A small place gathers rich emotions every day, carrying different joys and sorrows.

Among the crowd, there was a man dragging a suitcase in his hand, walking with a smile on his face.With a gloomy expression that is not suitable for the bright sun outside, he walked into a certain terminal and was about to go abroad.

"Roy."

Hearing someone calling him, he stopped to search for the source of the sound.Seeing a familiar face appearing on the right, he walked towards him.

"Are you okay?" Jill asked concerned, noticing that his eyes were a little puffy.

Roy shook his head with an apologetic expression, "I'm fine."

"I'm sorry...it's this time and I still make you worry." Trying to keep his emotions in a calm state, he didn't want the man in front of him to see his weakness and want to rely on others.

"Don't say that, I can understand your feelings, your decision is right."

After patting his heavy shoulders a few times, Jill hugged him like this, intending to face the next thing with him like this.

Roy didn't respond to his touch, but smiled slightly, looking at the scenery outside the French windows.

The image in his eyes is no stranger to him, it has appeared twice in his memory.The first time was running away from home eight years ago, and then the heartbreaking escape four years ago.

Eight years passed in a blink of an eye, and he never expected that after so much hard work and persistence, he would finally have to leave here for the same reason. He suddenly felt that he was ridiculously miserable.

But the only good news is that no one will come to keep him this time.This should be the last time he left sadly in his memory.

After that, the two went to the counter to go through formalities and check in luggage, and then went to the waiting room to wait.

"Has everything been dealt with?" Jill just chatted with him casually without inquiring about the whole thing.

Roy shook his head, but his expression showed a very deep and relieved smile, "I think let time deal with it."

Some people say, "How long you love someone is how long you need to forget him"; but he doesn't intend to forget, and he won't stop loving him, so the time to leave is indefinite.

Jill smiled, knowing what he meant. t

"Hi passengers, take flight BR12 at 760:[-] and fly from Taoyuan to..."

At this time, the airport announcement came from the ears, reminding passengers that it was time to board the plane.

"Come on, it's time to go in." Jill gave him a nudge.

"Um."

Walking slowly towards the exit entrance step by step, Roy looked calm, but his eyes were still moist.

After completing the inspection, he glanced back, smiled, and disappeared at the end of the turn in the aisle.

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