Abuse's extravagance

Hearing the sound of the door being closed, Roy walked out of the room slowly to the balcony outside the living room.

After waiting for a while and confirming that Luo Jie's white SUV drove out of the parking lot and headed towards the green road, he returned to the house.

He knew that Luo Jie was going to drive their mother and daughter home to meet their parents.

When having breakfast today, he specifically confessed that he must participate in the whole process, and he was not allowed to evade the cruel demands he made on him.

At that time, he just responded vaguely, quickly finished his breakfast, went into the room and only came out now.

Calculating the driving time plus the time for eating and chatting with his parents, Luo Jie should not be home until the afternoon, and now is the time for him to take action.

After taking out a medium-sized suitcase from the storage room, Roy dragged it back to his room and began to organize the luggage.

According to Huang Jingying's condition, Luo Jie and her should get married within this month at the earliest.At that time, their mother and daughter will live in this home and live together as a family.

As a superfluous person, he should be acquainted, and he will leave here automatically without waiting for Luo Jie to speak.

In the past few days, he used the spare time when he was working in the office to search for a house suitable for one person on the Internet, and actually went to the site to inspect the house after get off work.

He does not plan to buy a house, and his current idea is to live in a rented house, with relatively no worries or mortgage burdens.When he can't bear the pain in his heart, he can leave whenever he wants to.

The new home is about 30 minutes away from Luo Jie's house by car, so even after get off work or on holidays, if you are driving alone on the road in a panic, you won't run into him.

You can call him cowardly or a coward, but he just doesn't want to see Luo Jie walking side by side with her, and he doesn't want to suddenly find out one day that Luo Jie can still smile brightly without him.

He didn't have much luggage to take away, mainly some clothes and personal items.

There are too many things in this house that have left the memories of his love with Luo Jie, if they are taken away, he will only think about others.

Memory is the source of pain.He would rather lock himself in an empty house and let the cold breath and lingering emptiness and loneliness invade him, rather than let himself live in thoughts all the time.

After tidying up the luggage and throwing away the things that should be lost, the whole room returned to how it was when he first moved in four years ago.He hoped that when he left this room, he could also leave with such a clean heart.

Carrying the luggage and stepping out of the door, Roy stood on the aisle, looking at everything in the room with complacency, and wanted to keep everything here in his heart before leaving.

Moving footsteps to open the door of the study, he walked to the sofa chair in the study and sat down.

It was only after 01:30 in the afternoon, the outdoor sunlight was strong, and the golden light introduced from the large windows filled the entire quiet space.

The leisurely scent in the air made him a little sleepy, he put his whole body weight on the soft sofa, and looked around the scene in front of him thoughtfully.

Rows of custom-made walnut bookcases, desks and workbenches with models, classic standing lamps and coffee tables, each display and item show the taste and characteristics of the house owner.

Although the books on the bookcase belong to Luo Jie, he has read every one of them carefully.

With the feeling of wanting to walk in the footsteps of the one he loves, he wants to learn more about his thoughts through these books, get closer to him, and make up for the four years of separation from home.

only. ． ． ．The more we fell in love and the deeper we got to know each other, we realized that separation was really for his own good.

Keeping his eyes on the desk full of items but orderly, at this moment, the phantom of him and Luo Jie who usually stay here appears in his eyes.

Luo Jie always sat at that table and stared at the computer, while he stayed on his favorite window sill.

He often reads, dazes, sleeps there, and accompanies him to deal with work.Although less than a ping in size, it was a secret place where he could relax.

Thinking of leaving here soon, my heart is as dull as if something important has been stolen.Suddenly, he stood up, came to Luo Jie's office chair and sat down.

He casually took a piece of paper from the table, picked up a pen and wrote down a few words, this was his farewell letter to Luo Jie.

However, he didn't intend to let him see directly, let him realize his true thoughts so quickly.He got up and went to the bookcase, specially selected a book, clipped the paper to one of the pages, and put it back in place.

He thought that if there was still fate between them, he would find the letter no matter where it was hidden, but if it was destined to end in this way, let his heart be silent. ． ． ．

After leaving the study, Roy fixed his gaze on the closed wooden door on the left.

His eyes penetrated the door, and the scene inside was depicted in his mind, his originally penetrating eyes were suddenly stained with a touch of melancholy.

After hesitating for a while, he took action and stepped into this space that made him feel happy but sad.

The smell belonging to Luo Jie immediately surrounded him, and his eyes, ears, nose and heart could sense him.He hadn't entered here in just three days, and longing had already sprouted in his heart.

The state of the room was exactly the same as in his memory, the bed set was still Luo Jie's favorite color, and a white shirt was thrown on the single sofa near the window.

I don't know why, but an unwanted thought popped into his mind: I really want to know if it was put by Luo Jie, or if he put it on the night before he left?

He moved slowly, but when his fingertips were about to touch, he resisted the urge.

With a desolate smile on his lips, he told himself that if he got the answer, so what, what could be changed?It will only increase the burden on the heart.

Turning around, Roy returned to the end of the bed, quietly staring at the bed as blue as sea water.

While in a trance, fingers touched the soft bed involuntarily, slowly moved from the edge of the bed to the pillow at the head of the bed, and her feet came to the position where Luo Jie was used to sleeping.

When he regained his senses, he stubbornly withdrew his hand, but the tiny strands of hair on the pillow easily broke through his heart, stopping the footsteps that were about to leave.

The reluctance and sadness that were suppressed in his heart were not allowed to be released. At this moment, the unscrupulous flow spread all over his body, making him unable to face everything with ease.

After some entanglement in his heart, he convinced himself that he would let himself lie on this bed for the last time, being so close to him and infecting his breath, as a farewell gift.

Lying in that position, Roy leaned his face against the fabric, rubbing his scent with the tip of his nose reluctantly, imagining that he was lying in his arms.

Trembling repeatedly touched the traces left by him, his chest suddenly flooded with water and was oppressed uncomfortably, and the corner of his mouth tasted salty.

Emotions were revealed as transparently as tears, he clutched the quilt tightly, curled up and sobbed non-stop.

In fact, he was really reluctant to leave here, very reluctant to leave Luo Jie.

For him, Luo Jie is his dream, his happiness, everything about him, without him, what else in this world is worth his care and concern.

This terrible idea always emerges in the dead of night. ． ． ．

He is not as strong as he imagined. His heart is full of fear. He is afraid and hesitant about losing Luo Jie and not seeing the future.

He can only force himself not to think about it, not to let pessimism control him; because he is very afraid that he will not be able to get out of that sad state for a while and choose another path.

"Jie..." helplessly calling his name, Roy wished so much that he would show up now and rescue himself from this love prison.

Although he could feel his presence, what he reached out to hug was just air.

With unresolved grief in his eyes, he lay flat and looked at the ceiling, giving up struggling.He knew that all the torture was self-inflicted and he had to bear it himself.

But. ． ． ．The heart is really painful and tormented. ． ． ．

Can anyone tell him. ． ． ．I love someone very much but I have to pull him out of my heart, leaving only an empty heart, how can I survive?