fall in love with a mentor

The plane took off in the early morning night, and Jiaxi watched the brightly lit Singapore getting smaller and smaller and finally out of sight, but her inner desire became clearer and clearer.This foreign land, because of Junyi's existence, has a feeling of home. He is eager to walk hand in hand with him on this land.On the other side of the world, on the land where I was born and raised, there is still a place called home waiting for me.

City n in winter and the influence of smog are particularly gloomy and cold. It was the first time I took a flight to city n, and I was not very familiar with the operation of the airport bus. As a result, Jiaxi sat at the bus station and then transferred back to my hometown.It was past eleven o'clock in the morning when I arrived at home, and my parents and elderly grandma had been waiting at the station for more than two hours.This is the last thing Jiaxi wants to see. He can't repay their deep love, and he is always tortured by guilt deep in his heart.The home is just a few steps away from the station, and they would rather wait here with the cold wind blowing, Jiaxi had the urge to cry.Jiaxi, who has lived on campus since middle school and has been wandering outside for more than ten years, has already lost the urge to go home, and facing the family's greetings, Jiaxi only feels guilty.

Here and Singapore are simply two worlds. When Jiaxi came back, I came into contact with the soil of reality. I had the illusion that life in Singapore was just a dream, and maybe it was more beautiful because it was a dream.

The current hometown is not the beautiful place full of idyllic scenery that once appeared in the dream.The fields that once stretched as far as the eye can see have now become the walls of factories, and the streets that lie on mats counting stars have also become garbage dumps that turn red when it rains because of the move in of the vegetable market and the slaughter of pigs and sheep.The rural areas that are undergoing transformation seem to have experienced catastrophe, waiting for the fate of demolition. After a few years, it will either become a new type of town full of high-rise buildings, or it will become uninhabited ruins.In any case, Jiaxi knows that it is impossible to pursue the hometown of her dreams, and she will no longer have the feeling of returning to her roots.

I have long been used to regard forbearance as happiness, and have long been accustomed to regard busyness as life. In Jiaxi's view of qualityless life, parents live a mediocre life.Both father and mother gave up working outside because of their health, and chose to help others do some manual work at home. They delivered the goods every night and collected them in the morning. Jiaxi sat silently under the lamp and helped them make two For a dime bracelet, three people can only earn 40 yuan if they work late into the night.After finishing her work and her parents went to bed, Jiaxi sat under the quilt and began to look through the picture book. What is Junyi doing at this moment?Do you also entrust your feelings in Chen Han's diary and recall the past in the silent night just like you are looking for spiritual comfort?

In this way, I spent the New Year without any surprises. After the year, I ran into an elementary school classmate on the street by chance. They said that someone organized an elementary school classmate reunion on the fifth day of the fifth day, and asked Jiaxi to attend.Seeing that the students were really enthusiastic, Jiaxi refused and agreed.The party was held in a big hotel in the county town.More than 50 people in the class went to No. 30 people at the time, and the scene was quite lively.Seeing those immature faces turned into mature middle-aged people, Jiaxi dared not recognize her.

"Jiaxi, why haven't you changed at all, you are still the same as you were when you were a child." Everyone said this almost unanimously, yes, sometimes Jiaxi also feels the same way, even though the years have left traces on her face, she is still in the way of dealing with others. On the one hand, I am still as immature as when I was a child.

Because the class monitor was not there, someone suggested that the study committee member Jiaxi preside over the meeting, but Jiaxi politely declined. A taciturn person like him is the most unsuitable host.In the end, the literary and art committee volunteered to be the host.

Listening to the joyful noises around her, Jia Xi sat in the corner, feeling that she was the only one who was out of place in such an environment.He took out the primary school photo from his pocket, and carefully looked for the faces of the people present at the meeting, wondering how the years had carved them into the faces of middle-aged people.And the people around them have already started talking about their children's cars, houses, and shops after a few drinks. They have all married and established businesses, have a world of their own, and a range of life under their control.As for Jiaxi, she was still empty-handed. Apart from this sense of loss, Jiaxi felt that the real difference was that they were all living in reality, while she was the only one living in fantasy, in an unreal world.Whether it is the comic world in dreams, or the love world between Junyi and himself, they are all like a vacuum that is not polluted by reality, without human fireworks.

When the party was in the second half, the host suggested that everyone find a reason to have a few drinks.Some people say that people who have children have a toast together.A group of people stood up on the round table, and the sound of toasting and chatting was endless.Later, some people said that those with cars had a toast, and a group of people stood up and drank the sea, which was very lively.I don't know who said it last, let's have a toast to those who are not married?Everyone agreed, so Jiaxi had no choice but to stand up.But when he stood up, he realized that dozens of pairs of eyes were staring at him alone, and everyone was stunned.

"So I'm the only one who's not married," Jiaxi smiled shyly and said, "Let me toast to everyone, and wish everyone happiness and health!"

"Ah, Li Jiaxi, I heard that you have gone abroad, why didn't you bring a foreign bride back from outside?"

"Yes, yes, Li Jiaxi, are your eye sockets too high?"

"Shall I introduce you to one?"

"How can returnees like Jiaxi fall in love with ordinary village girls?"

"Yeah yeah!"

Seeing that all the topics turned to herself, Jiaxi hurriedly took the opportunity of going to the bathroom to get out of the room, and stood outside to get some fresh air.The winter wind from the north was cold and hard, pouring in from the open collar, and Jiaxi couldn't help shivering.I bought a pack of cigarettes from a canteen nearby, and Jiaxi smoked one and lit it.He learned to smoke after Mu left, and quit after smoking for a while, but today he suddenly thought of smoking one.A crescent moon radiates a cold brilliance alone in the sky.At this moment, Jiaxi misses Junyi very much, every time in such a lively environment that makes Jiaxi feel out of place, Jiaxi feels lonely, and Junyi is the only person in this world who understands herself.If he is destined not to be able to live in reality in his life, then he hopes to be accompanied by Junyi in the illusory dream.At this moment, Jiaxi has decided to go back and go to him immediately, no matter what, he will not let go, even if there is still a shadow of Chen Han in his heart, he will warm his heart with his love, and then the two will walk hand in hand through the long years .

The author has something to say:

☆, sweet goodbye