Three to ten [Esports]

Shi Yu hasn't seen his family for a long time, the last time we met was still very hot, when he got out of the car recklessly that day, it was Xia Yan who pulled him to avoid the fans who were chasing him.

At that time, he didn't think that he would like Xia Yan, and Xia Yan would go further and further on this road. Many things were beyond his expectation. He thought that he could overcome his anxiety about the game in one year and continue to love him. Let him continue playing e-sports, if he can't overcome it, he will never touch e-sports again for the rest of his life.

He is not very old now, but he always feels that it is not him who is young and frivolous, but Lan Xinghe.

Maybe Lan Xinghe is him, but he will never be Lan Xinghe.

Shi Yu never expected that his parents would appear in front of the base and him together this time.

After seeing Shi Yu's father, Shuangchi stuttered all of a sudden, his tongue couldn't be straightened and said, "This, this, this is Xiao Yu's parents??"

Su Wenkai glanced at him, and then a few more times. He felt familiar.

Qiu Shui stayed at the base for the rematch this time, and when he saw someone coming back, he quickly stepped aside.

He really couldn't grasp the aura of a professional elite.

Hearing the sound, both parents raised their heads, their eyes seemed to wander between him and Xia Yan, Shi Yu looked down at his bandage-wrapped hands, thinking that he couldn't hide, so he didn't hide, and walked straight in front of his parents.

It’s really not that Shuangchi thinks too much. He always feels that there is something called warmth between Shi Yu and his family. On the other hand, he opened his mouth to ask, it was obviously a family member with blood flowing, but it seemed like a familiar stranger.

"I asked Liu Lu to go to your school, and the teacher said you dropped out." Shi's father spoke first, staring at Shi Yu's silver hair, and frowned: "When did you dye your hair?"

"I left early. I left within a few days after school started. It happened early. It happened after the college entrance examination." Shi Yu nodded and sat down, replying one sentence after another. Then he raised his head, "Why do you suddenly have time?"

"Xiao Yu, why didn't you tell your mother when you were bullied?" Shi's mother looked at Shi Yu's bandaged left hand, her eyes were faintly red, "It's okay to drop out of school, it's okay to play games, you have to tell mom."

Shi Yu didn't say a word, it's a bit cold today, maybe he didn't wear enough clothes, and now his hands and feet are cold.

"Xiao Yu, mom saw the trending search, and mom found out that you have a lot of things that mom doesn't know. You came to play games and became a professional player. Mom has been thinking about it for the past few days. Is it because of me and you? The reason for the father, is it because we lacked company for you, so you mistakenly take care of you as liking..." Shi Mu said, and found a group photo from her bag, and she took it out to Shi Yu, "Mom Only then did I realize that I don’t even know what you like.”

That photo was taken a long time ago, when Shi Yu was still playing IdentityV, it was taken by Shi Yu and Rabbit holding a notice before they reached the finals together.

It's been so long that Shi Yu didn't think of this photo when he chatted with Xia Yan one by one that day.

"You left this photo at home. You look so young at this time, why doesn't your mother know anything..."

"I just asked. Your termination fee is not high. Dad will pay for it for you." Shi Yu's father said suddenly.

"I don't want to terminate the contract." Shi Yu looked up from the slightly yellowed photo, and he looked like his father. He and his father looked very similar, and when he looked at people with cold eyes, his expression almost changed. Same.

"You don't terminate the contract, what are you doing here with your injured hand? Do you know how big your business is? Do you know how I felt when Xiao Liu came to me and released the video of you and that man?" Shi The father spoke very harshly, and every word and every sentence carried the aura of the workplace, which made people feel oppressed. Suddenly, he leaned forward and his voice began to tremble: "It's dad's fault, but dad can't just watch my son There are these problems."

Shi's mother felt the seriousness of her words, turned her head and pulled Shi's father, gave him a hard look, and then turned to look at Shi Yu, "We can't accept it for the time being...can you go home with mom first? Take you to the treatment, and heal your hands first..."

"When you found out, you didn't take care of it, but let the matter ferment on the Internet. You wanted me to see the seriousness of the matter clearly, because I liked a boy and made you lose face." Shi Yu said word by word. As he said that, he didn't have any expression on his face, nor did he look at his parents' expressions. He was smashed all over his emotional cards and didn't know where to pick them up.

Maybe he was right, Father Shi didn't speak, and his eyes fell on the photo on the table.

"You can suppress things, and you can also open things up. You want to prove to me that only standing tall has power, and you want me to see clearly. I did see clearly, but at that moment I felt It's very sad." Shi Yu was expressionless, every word was like a knife slashing at his own heart, he knew everything, at that moment he felt even more pathetic, "I am your son, not your competition Opponent, you want me to see clearly that those methods should not be used."

How ridiculous, a father wants to know his son, what he has to do is to call his assistant to check, instead of calling someone who cares to ask.

"I don't think there's anything wrong with who I like, I like him because he's nice to me, he takes care of me when I have a fever, he's standing in front of me when I get scolded, mom, we met just a few months ago That day, do you remember that I was late? Do you know why I was late? Because I was being chased, and he took me to hide.” In fact, I really want to say that he can put every insignificant Talking about the little things, too many things happened between him and Xia Yan unknowingly, "He is very good, and I like him very much, but it's not what you said that you mistakenly take care of him for liking."

"But he still didn't protect you well, your hands..." Shi Mu lost control of her reason and blurted out.

"Have you ever thought that this knife was originally aimed at me?" Shi Yu turned his head back earlier than anyone else, and when he saw Shi Yu turned his head, the man turned the knife edge to look like him, Xia Yan wanted to block it for him It’s just that he didn’t want Xia Yan to get hurt. If he didn’t block it with his hands, Xia Yan might not know what would happen now, “You don’t know him, you are wandering in the capital, and you think everyone is so bad, I I know what you think of him, but he's not what you think!"

"You all think that I am with him because he is kind to me. You blame yourself and feel that you love me less. I think that even if you love me a little more, I know him. In the end, I will still fall in love with him." Shi Yu couldn't describe that feeling, they could feel each other's surging love through the screen, and they would still fall in love with each other without the interference of external conditions such as voice and appearance. This is a collision of souls, a love that cannot be described in words.

After a while, the conversation room was as dead silent as death.

"Isn't this the game you liked the first time?" Shi Mu thought for a long time before asking this sentence.

For feelings, she put all the responsibility on the parents, they are not competent parents, young she thinks, as long as you give children money, it is love.Later, every time she went back to the villa, she would find how lonely and empty the empty house was. The bigger the house was, the stronger the feeling was. want to escape.

She misses so much.

She has never attended the child's parent meeting, and the clearest memory of Shi Yu is even the time when Shi Yu was born, and there are infinite fragments after that.

She only thinks that her son is very sensible, has passed the university entrance examination, is excellent in all aspects, and will be able to receive their company and position in the future, but now all this is starting to disintegrate. He made an appointment that day, wanted to meet him, wanted to give him Ordering some of her favorite dishes, she almost blurted out the children's set meal, but it wasn't until they met that she realized that her son had grown up so much.

When they learned that Shi Yu liked boys, they didn't feel good about this guy named Xia Yan. They had been wandering in the intrigue for many years, their thoughts had already been invaded, and they thought people were bad.

In fact, Shi Yu was not wrong. When he heard this series of news, Shi's father did not choose to press the hot search. He watched the matter unfold, wanting to watch his son see the situation clearly and understand what should be done. It shouldn't be done, to make him feel sorry for his recklessness and impulsiveness, but the reality is that Shi Yu didn't even send a message to tell them to ask them for a favor, nothing.

"No." Shi Yu shook his head, "I stopped fighting a long time ago."

"I'll say it again, terminate the contract, and come home with us first." Shi's father was breathing a little anxiously, but his demeanor was still there, and he couldn't make a scene with his son outside and embarrass him. His words were heavy, but he didn't yell Loudly, like an order that cannot be refused.

Shi Yu looked at him with very cold eyes.

Seeing Shi Yu's expression, he could guess the reply, and suddenly his father's voice raised half a degree: "Do you still want your hand?!"

"Xiao Yu, my mother checked your medical history before she came here..." Shi Mu's eyes were red, and she knew better than anyone how much the injury had been.

"..."

Shi Yu's mouth was half-opened, and he closed it slowly. He also asked privately about the injury this time. He was not as simple as a scratch. A knife almost pierced his wrist. His e-sports career was almost scrapped.

He is reluctant to stay in RT.

Unexpectedly, a year later, it was not that he could not overcome the anxiety of the game, but the question of whether he could continue to play.

"You can go home... I won't break up." Shi Yu closed his eyes, and his Adam's apple rolled up and down. This sentence seemed to have consumed all his strength.

"It's up to you whether to break up or not." Shifu snorted coldly, "The video didn't capture your face, when the time comes, find someone close to you..."

bang-

Shi Yu stood up abruptly, accidentally knocking down the vase beside him, his eyes turned red all of a sudden, and he spoke directly with a very naive thought: "Then I won't treat it."

"Abandon it."

"Even if it's all right without him, I'll continue to use my hands up."

He really loved e-sports before, but in the back, in the blood and passion of the game, he wanted to have him in the victory, to have him after the end, and to hold his hand tightly when cheering.

The sound of the vase shattering was too ear-piercing, no matter how good the sound insulation was, it couldn't resist it.

Tang Chu hurriedly opened the door, fearing that something might happen inside, Xia Yan followed him in.

He looked into Shi Yu's red eyes and wondered if his guess was right, but he thought it was because of him.

Shi Mu's condition was very good. Seeing Xia Yan coming in, she looked directly at Xia Yan and began to size him up.

Xia Yan accepted the scrutiny frankly, and asked in a low voice if Shi Yu had been scratched, Shi Yu shook his head.

"Can I talk to you alone?" Shi Mu asked, she looked at Xia Yan and smiled.

"Okay." Xia Yan nodded.

The wind on the roof is quite strong, this place was not chosen by Xia Yan, but by Shi Mu.

She turned to look at Xia Yan and asked, "Do you smoke?"

Xia Yan was stunned for a second when asked, then nodded: "Puff."

"Okay, have you brought it? Lend me one." After Shi Mu said, she took the cigarette and lit it skillfully. Seeing Xia Yan was a little surprised, she explained with a smile: "I seldom smoke. Occasionally, when I am upset, I will come to smoke." root."

Xia Yan nodded and said nothing else.

"I'm not a qualified mother." The smell of tobacco scattered, the wind blew, and the sparks lit up. Shimu continued: "When I was young, because my family was not rich, I couldn't buy many things. At that time, I was in Think, I must let my children not have this kind of trouble."

"I still remember when I first had Xiaoyu, I still feel happy when I think about that kind of surprise." Shimu said, lowering her head and taking a puff of cigarette. Now she has an inexplicably uncomfortable sense of decadence. The condition is very good, although he is over 40 years old, there are not many wrinkles. "In the past, when I felt guilty and couldn't accompany Xiao Yu, what my father and I did was to send money to Xiao Yu."

"Actually, when Xiao Yu went to my personal designer to make this necklace around your neck that day, I started to pay attention." Shi Mu's eyes paused on the moonstone necklace on Xia Yan's neck for a few seconds, and finally looked directly at Xia Yan , the emotion is not deep: "How much is your one-year signing fee?"

Xia Yan reported a number frankly.

Hearing this, Shi's mother showed no expression and shook the ashes, "This necklace doubles your salary."

"My personal designer has a high starting price. She is very famous. You can search for it." Shi Mu didn't go to see Xia Yan, but after giving her name, she continued: "I checked your background, I know it's rude, But I want to say that you may not be able to give Xiao Yu what he wants."

"Xiao Yu has never had any concept of money." After Shi's mother finished speaking, she took a long-term view and looked down at every scene. The white mist of cigarette butts between her fingers stretched very long. Guangshi has a similar style, but looks several times taller.

"You are older than him and have more experience than him. I think you are very smart and see many things more clearly than him." Shi Mu said unhurriedly, the smell of nicotine filled her lips and teeth, and once the person Stop, many things will explode in my mind, "Actually, I feel that I am very human, because we have been sorry for Xiaoyu since he was a child. Whether it is a parent meeting or any ceremony, we always arrange assistants to attend Yes... I hope you can understand the sadness of being a parent, and when he grows up, he will understand that he will long for a family more than this, being talked about, discussed, and despised by others."

"I believe that you see as many comments on the Internet as I do. Can you solve it? Can you protect him well? Are you sure you can persist?"

"If his hand is not treated well, you will not be in the same position. At that time, can you still be together? There is no topic of a piece, no same circle, and now being together is more or less because of a temporary novelty , My son, can I still not understand? He liked a game very much at the time, but the place where he comes now is not the professional position of that game at that time. "

The smoke was almost burning to the butt, and was almost swept away by the wind. Shimu lowered her head and extinguished the cigarette.

"Then I'll take him away first..."

"I think we can have a good chat." Xia Yan suddenly spoke, interrupting Shimu's words.

Shi Mu's eyebrows were jealous, "What else are you talking about?"

"You were just telling me, but you didn't give me any room for discussion." I have to admit that Shi Mu's words made sense, and she successfully attacked Xia Yan many times. Respect, "You're wrong, you don't know him well."

There was a bit of surprise in Shimu's eyes, she didn't speak, but just looked at Xia Yan like this.

Maybe it was because she didn't pay attention to it just now, it was the first time she felt that a boy as old as her son could be so full of aura and so cold.

"Did you know that he suffered from anxiety when he first came to sign the contract?" In fact, perhaps anxiety is the best explanation for Shi Yu's undecided emotions. No one wants to recall it anymore, but now this hole is going to be opened for treatment.

Faced with Shimu's flustered look, Xia Yan pressed the tip of his tongue against his teeth, and his voice became colder uncontrollably, "His hands shake every game, and he can't eat because of his radical remarks."

"When we first met, he said some very unfriendly things, and he did that to make people hate him."

"When I got to know him, I found that he was a duplicity person. While hoping that others would hate and resent him, he was eager to get good from others. Do you know why? Because he felt that he did not deserve to be treated well."

"I think most of the reason why we can come together is because we both lack love. We fill each other up and heal each other." Like two dilapidated rag dolls, they help each other mend their wounds with needles and thread, filling them with brand new cotton .

"..." Shi Mu avoided speaking, she just wanted to hit Xia Yan's self-confidence, after all, she didn't know anything about what Shi Yu was like.

Almost as soon as Xiao Yu went to kindergarten, she went to work.

Memories afterward began to fragment.

The number of times she went home was rare, and most of the time she went home was late at night, very late, and Shi Yu went to bed early at that time.

She could see the high-score test papers piled up on the table, and she glanced at some of the certificates, and the words of encouragement were forwarded by money.

Until later, when she learned about her son skipping class, she finally took the time to meet Shi Yu. At that time, Shi Yu was already 175, and the insoles of his sneakers were a bit thick. Compared with her 176, she realized for the first time that she His son is already almost as tall as himself.

Only then did she know that her son wanted to play e-sports and liked playing games.

But his father didn't fully agree with it, and his one-sided view was that the road of games would not have much future in the future.

At that time, none of them knew that Shi Yu played well, even very well.

I can't remember whether it was in the first or second year of high school. At that time, Shi Yu seemed to have changed. All the photos about games and friends were put away, and Shi Yu didn't go out anymore. Every day he went to school, after school, When I got home, there were no more test papers on the table.

The exercises are getting higher and higher. When I am on vacation, I lock the door and stay in the room in the dark.

April NO.13 is Shi Yu's birthday. In previous years, they would send money directly to Shi Yu. It was a rare time that year. She ordered a cake for her son. She chose the popular black art or something. That night, when she saw Shi Yu looking for something on his arm covered with red rash, she knew that her son was allergic to chocolate.

She asked Xiao Yu why he was allergic to chocolate, but Shi Yu just swallowed the allergy medicine and said nonsense: Forgot.

But she forgot that she ordered the cake, but it was not uncommon in the past that Shi Yu was allergic to chocolate and went to the hospital.

"He has always liked that game, and the previous equipment has been kept in good condition." Xia Yan's nose was cold from the wind, "His anxiety is also caused by that game. His former teammate played a fake match. If If there hadn't been a match-fixing match in that match, he would have been a professional player a few years ago."

"I'm sorry, I didn't protect him well. If I had paid more attention that day, his hand wouldn't have been injured." That scene has been playing in Xia Yanmeng for the past few nights, and the blood on his hand couldn't be washed away, As soon as he raised his head, it was the dazzling glare of the blade.

"Even if he can't play e-sports in the future, if he can, I will win the award for him."

"Perhaps in your eyes, our relationship is so small that we can't afford to go through any hardships."

"I just want to say that without him, I still don't know what it's like to be cared about, cared for, and loved by others, what it's like... Without if, now that I'm with him, I'm like It's like living."

"Money can never replace companionship. I think money is always cold in his eyes. He really has no concept of money, so he cares about everything more than money."

"Because no matter how much money is in his eyes, it is just a series of cold numbers."

The floor of the base is not high, and the angle of view here cannot be as wide as she usually looks around when standing on the top floor, and she doesn't even feel like looking at ants. I don't feel the atmosphere of family anymore, and You Hun is in a state of tension with every string in the workplace.

It's been too long, so long that her understanding of feelings is unfamiliar. When she learned that her son was with a boy, she thought of him badly, and at the same time, she only felt that her son was too eager for this kind of care.

"He won't break up with you, and even threatens us with no treatment." Perhaps this is the real purpose of her chatting with Xia Yan alone. She doesn't know how to coax her son, so she can only use his weakness to threaten... ...This kind of action is not enough, she has nothing to do. "His hand hurts very badly, and I don't think you want him to stop there."

The wind on the roof was not as strong as before, Xia Yan's voice was slightly hoarse and cool: "I think you should tell him well."

Shimu's eyes widened, slowly, her restlessness began to be relieved.

This is the conflict between them. After a long time, she is not good at expressing her son, just like Father Shi, who loves him, but...

Their state seems to have returned to a long time ago. At that time, Shi Yu was only a little over one year old, and they were in a hurry when they had a fever, sickness, and minor ailments. It is the same now. Their intentions are always good, and what they express is always the worst.

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The author has something to say:

I remember thinking about this paragraph when I first started the article. I forgot about the plot at that time for a few months. I finished coding all night last night, two in one, and it was uncomfortable to be disconnected.Hate it, forget the plot!That's right, you're almost back to school after the National Day [Tilt your head laughing]