The fate of burning the wrong coin

What's the matter, can we talk now?Something has been wrong since last night. Su Xiaonan turned to look at Xiu Ran, and Xiu Ran looked at him, and said, "Let's walk forward and talk while walking." "

"Okay." Su Xiaonan nodded, and walked forward side by side with Xiuran.

"I remember when I first came to the community, I stood here and watched you for a whole week."

Xiu Ran pointed to the red carport on the opposite side of the community and said, Su Xiao laughed after hearing this: "Yeah, you still found such a lame reason to befriend me. At that time, my appearance made me think that I had offended some little gangster somewhere."

Thinking of the past, a gentle smile appeared on Xiu Ran's face, "I can't help it, you are stubborn in everything you do. I have been with you for a whole week, but you didn't notice it at all. You know how to talk to those people every day. The dogs talk, and from what I've observed, they're always having a good time."

Su Xiaonan's face was a little red, and she explained stiffly: "You don't understand this, we have to have professional ethics, and we have to take good care of their dogs after taking money from them. I'm cultivating relationships with them."

After hearing this, Xiu Ran smiled softly, but didn't point him out: "It wasn't until later that I walked into your life that I realized that you are really a well-deserved stick. At first, you kept putting me like an enemy. I hit your stomach."

Now Su Xiaonan has nothing to say. Indeed, because of Mu Zhelan's abnormal reaction in his stomach, he was not less suspicious. After all, such an unknown person appeared out of thin air. He was too careless not to be suspicious.

"Hmph, why didn't you insist on inventing that bloody identity to lie to me back then?"

Su Xiaonan still refused to give in, he looked at Xiuran, and asked wonderingly: "What happened to you today, why did you start to recall the past?"

Hearing this, Xiu Ran stopped and looked at Su Xiaonan fixedly, his eyes were full of sadness and reluctance.Su Xiaonan looked flustered for a while, and asked anxiously, "What's wrong with you?"

Xiu Ran looked at him without blinking, his nose was a little sore, "Xiao Nan."

"Yeah." Su Xiaonan nodded vigorously. He has been with Xiuran for so long. In his heart, Xiuran has always been gentle, cheerful and optimistic to protect him at all times. Why is he showing such a weak side at this moment? What is it? Something provoked him.

"In the underworld, there is an unwritten rule." Xiu Ran said softly, his eyes fixed on Su Xiaonan's face, that obsessed look made people heartbroken.

"What?" Su Xiaonan listened anxiously, but did not dare to urge her, feeling as uncomfortable as if a cat had been annoyed.

"No matter what it is, demons and ghosts, you can't make enemies with those who still help you after knowing your identity."

"What's the matter? Does it have anything to do with you?"

Su Xiaonan looked at Xiu Ran and asked, Xiu Ran looked at him and said, "Just yesterday, you saved me with your blood."

"Yes, what's wrong?"

Xiu Ran took a deep breath and looked at him: "Your blood is not enough to save me."

"You mean—" Su Xiaonan understood a little bit, "The person who really saved you was Mu Zhelan?"

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Xiu Ran did not speak, using silence to represent everything.Su Xiaonan had never seen such a depressed Xiuran, and she couldn't help feeling a little anxious: "So what if he saved you? That's why you're so sad? Is it really that important who saves whom?"

Xiu Ran looked into his eyes, "I never thought of watching you join hands in happiness."

Xiu Ran has always been so straightforward, he didn't want to hide it from Su Xiaonan, and he had no reason to hide it from him.Su Xiaonan didn't say a word, usually he would avoid this kind of issue when talking about it, not on purpose, but until now he still can't figure out his feelings for Mu Zhelan.Since you can't even figure it out yourself, how can you talk about it?It's just that Su Xiaonan didn't know why Xiu Ran came here suddenly.

The wind messed up Xiuran's hair, his handsome side face was shrouded in a mist of sadness, the smell of parting gradually rose in the air, Su Xiaonan felt a little stuffy in his chest, but he didn't know what to say to break the deathly silence.Xiu Ran looked at Su Xiaonan quietly, raised his hand, and stroked his hair.

Su Xiaonan's body froze, but she didn't dodge.

"I originally wanted to have a fair competition with him face to face. I would rather you not save me and let me die like that."

Xiuran's words pierced into Su Xiaonan's heart like a knife. Su Xiaonan looked at him with grief in his eyes, "Why are you so worthless, and would rather I not save you? Could it be that you live only for me?"

"Yes."

Xiu Ran responded neatly without any hesitation. He looked at Su Xiaonan and smiled sadly: "Do you think I'm willing to live like this without a human being or a ghost? Xiaonan, I was once a human being, and I have experienced the warmth and happiness that a human being should have. .If all of this can no longer be realized, what do I need this cold body for? I am already tired of this kind of day and night running away. I can't feel the warmth, enjoy the food, and can't even accompany my relatives. , I was able to persevere, just because I was thinking and looking forward to it, maybe one day you will turn back. I hate it so much, I hate that I let Mu Zhelan rush ahead of me, and I hate that your blood is fused together forever."

Su Xiaonan frowned tightly and looked at Xiu Ran. Xiu Ran tried hard to restrain her emotions, and after a long silence, she looked into his eyes and asked word by word: "Xiao Nan, you...what kind of feelings do you have for me? ?”

Su Xiaonan's heart was a little sore, even if Xiu Ran didn't ask, he would still think about it for a long time at night.What kind of feelings does he have towards Xiu Ran?Maybe, he shouldn't have concealed Xiu Ran a long time ago, it was his selfishness that hurt him again.

"I'm very comfortable with you... I have a feeling of being taken care of." Su Xiaonan's heart was very bitter. He knew that every word and every word would hurt Xiuran deeply, but at this moment, how could he still hide?You can't be too selfish, since the person in your heart is not him, let him go.

"It's like—" Su Xiaonan took a deep breath and met Xiu Ran's eyes, "It's like being close to family."

"Oh, I got it." Xiu Ran smiled lightly, until now he had never said a single word of resentment or hatred to Su Xiaonan.The wind was still blowing, and Su Xiaonan's heart was also blown cold, while Xiu Ran kept looking at him, the obsession and nostalgia in his eyes broke his heart.

Taking off his coat, Xiu Ran walked to Su Xiaonan's side, and put the coat on Su Xiaonan like many times before, "I won't be here in the future, you have to take good care of yourself."

"Where are you going?" Su Xiaonan touched her coat and looked at Xiu Ran anxiously, and Xiu Ran looked at him, "A lot of times, I can't control my emotions."

Su Xiaonan agrees with this point, he has seen Xiuran lose control several times.

"I think I'll go crazy seeing you guys together in the future."

A layer of mist covered Xiuran's eyes, "Rather than not being able to fight for it, rather than making you hate it, it's better to leave early."

Su Xiaonan really wanted to catch Xiu Ran and tell him not to leave, as Xiu Ran said, he would not leave.But what position does Su Xiaonan still have to keep him from leaving? It hurts Xiuran's heart, and she just grabs him and won't let him leave. Su Xiaonan will despise such a self.

The wind blows stronger and stronger, Xiuran's back gradually moves away, Su Xiaonan looks at him without blinking, the coat on his body still smells of Xiuran, but he walks further and further away, just like when he came, resolutely No nostalgia.In the end, what remained in the wind was still the sentence that made Su Xiaonan's heart ache: "If one day you need me, I will definitely come back to you as soon as possible."

What he held in his hand was the string of Buddhist beads left by Xiu Ran. It no longer glowed in Su Xiaonan's hands. Too many future and past events were mixed together, which hurt Su Xiaonan's eyes. He rubbed his eyes and sucked them. With a sigh of relief, he slowly turned around and walked home.

There are still people waiting for him at home, Su Xiaonan, you can't be vulnerable at this time.Just let Xiuran go, since you don't have him in your heart, why selfishly let him stay and protect you?

After returning to the house, Su Xiaonan was still in a low mood, and Xiao Mu Zhelan was also different from the past, she was lying in the small stroller quietly and staring at the ceiling in a daze, her confused eyes were not what a baby should have.The big one and the young one stayed quietly for a while, Su Xiaonan got up to drink the milk, went to the stroller and carried Xiao Mu Zhelan out.

While feeding Xiao Mu Zhe Lan's milk, Su Xiaonan hugged him horizontally, and all he could think of was the scene of him lying on the sofa watching TV and Xiu Ran working hard to feed the child.When Xiuran was around, Su Xiaonan didn't feel too much. Now that I think about it, how much love would it take for Xiuran to protect his rival for him?Thinking of this, the tears that Su Xiaonan had held back for a long time still fell, falling on Xiaomu Zhelan's body drop by drop.

Su Xiaonan turned her head away, not wanting Xiaomu Zhelan to see him shed tears, but before this head could be turned away, that fleshy little hand raised up, reached Su Xiaonan's face, and wiped the tears with his palms.

It's okay if you don't wipe it, but Su Xiaonan is even more sad when you wipe it, his tears flowed down in rows, yes, why did he pretend to be something.This is his home, and he can do whatever he wants.

Xiaomu Zhelan didn't even drink milk in the end, and used his usual small movements to comfort Su Xiaonan.Xiaomu Zhelan hugged Su Xiaonan's neck, and smiled back and forth at him with her teeth bared. Su Xiaonan kissed his chubby cheek, and picked up the bottle again.

Sad is sad, sad is sad, but life has to pass, he has persisted for so long, he must not give up.He wants to wait for Mu Zhelan to grow up, and wait for him to tell all the truth to himself.

Even though I said that, after Xiuran left, Su Xiaonan realized how hard it is to be a mother.

When the two of them were together before, I didn't think so, but without Xiuran, Su Xiaonan obviously began to struggle.just say