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On the morning of the second day after Goree's New Year's concert, a suburban cemetery.

Goree, wearing a black cashmere coat, squatted in front of the tombstone and put down a bouquet of dewy white roses, then took out a handkerchief and focused on wiping the black and white photo and the inscription on the tombstone. Ye Xing in the down jacket was pulling the weeds near the tombstone in handfuls.

"Mom, Ah Xing is back, he came to see you." Ge Rui said softly, staring at the woman with a gentle smile in the photo.

Yexing called out in a low voice, "Auntie..."

Then the voice suddenly choked up, and Ge Rui's eyes were a little red.

After a while, Ye Xing asked, "Do you often visit Auntie?"

Ge Rui shook his head, "Rarely, I dare not see her."

Ye Xing stopped talking.

The two sat in front of the tombstone in silence until the morning sun rose and shone on the two of them. Ge Rui got up and said, "Let's go."

Ye Xing said, "Wait a minute."

He knelt on the ground and kowtowed three times firmly.

Walked out of the cemetery, got into the car, and the car drove a long way, approaching the urban area, neither of them spoke.

Until Ge Rui's stomach grumbled, Ye Xing said, "Let's go have breakfast."

"What do you want to eat?" Goree asked.

Ye Xing thought for a while, and said, "Is that breakfast shop in Xinghua Lane still there? I remember we used to go to his house to eat beef noodles when we were in school. His boss is very kind, and the meat is big and plentiful. The taste of the noodles is also very authentic... What's the name of his shop? It's been so many years, I can't remember..."

Ge Rui was also impressed by this restaurant, "It's called Italian Chinese food."

"That's right, that's the name! Ah, I suddenly want to eat his beef noodles..."

Ge Rui said, "It's already closed."

"Really." Yexing showed a disappointed expression.

Ge Rui glanced at him, "I know there is a restaurant that tastes very similar to his, why don't we go to that one?"

"Okay."

After eating the noodles, Ye Xing was even more disappointed, frowned and said, "It doesn't taste like it at all."

"I think it's pretty similar." Ge Rui said and ate a few more noodles.

Ye Xing looked at him and said faintly: "Ten years have passed, our tastes and hobbies have changed, and our memory has also been biased. The beef noodles in our memory are not the same taste, so you eat the beef noodles from this restaurant. I feel alike, but I don't feel alike."

Ge Rui put down his chopsticks and wiped his mouth. He also looked at him, but didn't answer.

Since Ye Xing suddenly returned to China a few days ago to find him and Chang Yu, he proposed to invite him as a concert guest. After that, the two rehearsed together, performed together, and participated in the celebration banquet. Every day was very busy, and there was no time and opportunity like now Sit alone together and have a good talk, looking at each other's faces clearly and directly face to face.

Ye Xing and Ge Rui are the same age, 27 years old this year.

After living in France for ten years, his appearance, temperament and eyes have changed a lot. Even his voice and smile have changed a lot. , with some elegance and laziness unique to the French.

The 17-year-old boy in Ge Rui’s memory was adopted by relatives because his parents died when he was young, and he grew up in a special environment. His personality is somewhat split and polarized. Sometimes he is sunny and straightforward, sometimes vulnerable and sensitive. Chirping and chirping like a bird, and when you are in a bad mood, you can sit quietly for a day without saying a word.

But looking at him now, Ge Rui can no longer find the shadow of that boy.

The boy has become a strange man who is only slightly familiar.

The once unforgettable lover, sitting face to face like this, chatting nonchalantly, can't help but look at each other, but when they look at each other, they can't help avoiding each other's eyes because of the embarrassment that cannot be ignored.

After more than 3000 days and nights, the former vows of eternal love and the former love are gone. Those happy and sweet days ten years ago are like an old dream, illusory and blurred, making people unable to tell which is real What happened, which ones are my own memory illusions.

After breakfast in a slightly stiff atmosphere, Ye Xing asked Ge Rui, "Where are we going now?"

"Do you want to go back to the music cram school?"

"it is good."

After leaving the breakfast shop, Ge Rui was going to the parking lot to drive, Ye Xing said: "I haven't taken a domestic bus for a long time, why don't we go by bus?"

Ge Rui was taken aback.

Before he could answer, Ye Xing laughed, "I forgot, you are a household name now, so you can't take the bus casually. Forget it, let's go by car."

Ge Rui said, "Wait for me for a while."

Yexing waited at the door of the store for 2 minutes, but before Ge Rui's car came out of the parking lot, he saw a man wearing a white mask and a brown baseball cap come out.

Ye Xing laughed, "Do you think this way you won't be surrounded by people?"

Goree also handed him a baseball cap and a mask, motioning for him to put them on.

Ye Xing put on the hat and tried it on, "Would it be more attractive if both of you are dressed like this?"

"If there is one person, others will have many kinds of conjectures, but for two people, others will only think that these two people have some kind of infectious disease, and they will not get close easily.'"

"..."

Ge Rui specially picked a very empty bus, and calmly tossed coins under the driver's slightly terrified gaze. Ye Xing followed behind him, his throat suddenly felt itchy, and he couldn't help coughing twice with his hand on the mask. They all became more frightened, but they couldn't drive them off.

Under the equally terrified gaze of three or four passengers, Ge Rui and Ye Xing walked to the last row of the bus and sat down.

The air conditioner in the car was fully turned on, and they were all wearing thick coats. They were already a little stuffy, but they were even hotter with masks and hats on.Ye Xing opened the window a little, and the cold wind suddenly came in and blew on the exposed skin of his face, making his face icy cold.

Looking at the street scene outside the window, Ye Xing said with emotion: "It's been a long time since I came back, the city has changed a lot, many buildings and houses have been demolished..."

"In recent years, it has been remodeled everywhere, and the changes are indeed quite big."

"Do you still remember that we used to take the bus to the city sports park to play basketball as soon as we finished our music lessons?"

"Um……"

"Sometimes we also go to the streets of Century Square to perform. It is said that you major in piano, but you dare to perform in the street after listening to a few violin lessons. You only know the most basic etude. Those passers-by are you Foolishly, I thought you were really good at drawing, tsk..."

……

Along the way, Yexing recalled some past events with great interest, but Ge Ruiqu was a little absent-minded.

He remembered the day he went to the street with ceramics.

The two went shopping for a day, went to see a movie with a full stomach for dinner, and then took the bus home.

At night, the car was empty, except for the driver, there were only the two of them, and they sat in the last row with the windows open. The wind blowing on their faces was as cold as it is now, but Ge Rui's heart was warm at that time.He couldn't help reaching out and holding the ceramic one, intertwining his fingers.

Ceramic's hand was a little callused, it was just right to hold it in his hand, but it was damp and cool, he couldn't help holding his hand tighter, wanting to use his own body temperature to give him a little more warmth.

The colorful neon light outside the window passed by him one by one, he knew that ceramics had been watching him, and at that moment, his heart was peaceful and stable.He turned his head and looked at ceramics quietly, and the idea that it would be good to grow old like this flashed through his mind.

Ge Rui didn't know when Ye Xing stopped talking, and when he came back to his senses, he found that the music school was coming soon.

"What did you just say? I'm sorry, I was distracted just now..." he said in embarrassment.

Yexing looked at him, "It's okay, I didn't say anything."

Ge Rui wanted to say something else, but Ye Xing pointed out the window and interrupted him, "It's the stop."

When they walked into the music tuition school, it was the class time, and Ge Rui's arrival did not attract the attention of the students, avoiding the situation of being surrounded by spectators.

After entering the school gate, they heard the mixed sounds of various musical instruments and singing from the vocal class. Ye Xing and Ge Rui thought of their former selves, and couldn't help but smile at each other.

Because of Ge Rui's previous studies, the reputation has been greatly shaken in recent years, the campus has doubled in size, many new buildings have been added, and the music classrooms, piano rooms, and small auditoriums have also undergone thorough renovations.Ge Rui and Ye Xing walked around, but couldn't find any sense of familiarity.Ye Xing originally wanted to visit his first teacher who taught him how to play drums in the past, but was told by the guard that he had no class today and did not come to school, so he could only be disappointed in the end.

When they finally reached the small basketball court, Ye Xing said, "If there was a basketball court here, we wouldn't have to travel so far to play basketball in the sports park."

Ge Rui smiled and looked at the small basketball court, "It seems that there used to be a big banyan tree planted there."

"Yes, we buried a letter to each other under the tree." Ye Xing also laughed, "Unfortunately, we can't find it now."

Ge Rui didn't ask him what he wrote in the letter back then, and neither did Ye Xing.

This topic was taken lightly.

After leaving the music cram school, they went to Century Square where they had their first street performance together, and then went to a musical together.

It was a bloody tragic story. The male and female protagonists overcame many difficulties to get together, but the male protagonist found out that he had cancer. When the musical was in the second half, the male protagonist deliberately concealed his illness and broke up with the female protagonist. When she was crying alone at home, Ye Xing suddenly burst into tears.

His tears became more and more wet, and his whole face was wet, but he quietly did not make a crying sound.

The only handkerchief he carried was dirty to wipe the tombstone, and there was no facial tissue on his body, so Ge ​​Rui held his right arm in front of his eyes in silence.

Ye Xing was also polite, grabbed his sleeve and lowered his head, wiping his tears and snot together.

When he was almost wiped off, he suddenly asked, "Have you ever shed tears for me?"

"Have."

On the day he left the country, he knew that there was no possibility for them in this life. He was like the leading actor in this musical, hiding at home and crying, his heart ached as if he was about to die, and he wished he could die right away. .At that time, the feeling that the sky was falling, and there was nothing to love, but now in retrospect, it is very distant and strange.

Ten years, everything has passed.

There is a Haagen-Dazs restaurant opposite the theater, Ye Xing said after walking out of the theater, "Please treat me to Haagen-Dazs."

Seeing the eye-catching slogan at the door of the store, Ge Rui hesitated.

Ye Xing smiled and said, "This is the last time, just let me get what I want."

Ge Rui nodded, "Okay, I'll go buy it."

But Ye Xing stopped him, "Give me your wallet."

Ge Rui handed it to him suspiciously.

"You wait for me in the car." After Ye Xing finished speaking, he trotted to the opposite side with his wallet, bought two sets of three-color balls, returned the wallet, and said, "Although I bought it, it was you It’s the money I paid, so it’s still counting as you treating me to dinner.”

Ge Rui drove the car to a secluded alley, and the two were eating ice cream in the car, in different moods.

Ge Rui finally asked about Ye Xing's life in France, "How have you been doing there for the past ten years?"

Ye Xing said: "It's very comfortable, very leisurely, every day is like a dream, life has settled down, my heart has settled down, gradually I no longer have nightmares, and the sense of guilt is not so heavy..."

Ge Rui said awkwardly: "Ah Xing, don't feel guilty, it was just an accident and no one wanted it."

Ye Xing smiled wryly and asked, "What about you, have you let go of your guilt over the years? Why have you been refusing to forget the past? Aren't you also punishing yourself?"

Goree couldn't deny it.

"In the past ten years, I have been in pain for a long time. I know that you will go to France to visit me from a distance every year. I am afraid of seeing you and want to see you. I have been waiting for you to come to me, called My name, tell me that everything is over, you still want to be with me. I have been waiting for you for ten years, but I have not waited... Gradually, I gave up and gave up..." Ye Xing looked at Ge Rui, "Chang Yu often persuaded me that if Auntie was still here, she would definitely not want to see us like this. Before, I only thought it was his words to comfort me, but then I figured it out. Auntie is so kind, she can't be so kind." I am happy that we have been living in guilt and self-blame. She will only be more sad and sad than us... Ah Rui, I already have a new life. This time I return to China to completely cut off the past. The photos in your wallet The person on the website seems to be suitable for you too, he should be your current lover? Stop using me as an excuse to let yourself live in guilt and self-blame, forget the past and live a good life. 'I wish you happiness' like this I won't say the hypocritical words, I know you will have a good life, and so will I, let's... let's just leave. "

After saying these words and eating the ice cream in his hand, Ye Xing took one last look at Ge Rui, got out of the car and left.

Ge Rui didn't stop him, just watched him leave, just like when he hid behind the pillars at the airport and watched him leave, but his mood was completely different.

He knew that he and he would never have the chance to meet again.

He took out two yellowed letters from the car.These two letters were the letters he and Ye Xing wrote to each other back then.After Ye Xing went abroad, he dug up those two letters, but he didn't read them once because he was afraid of hurting the scene.Now, there is no need to look at it.

He lit the lighter and burned the two letters together with those sweet and painful memories.

After sorting out the past with Ye Xing, Ge Rui immediately drove to look for ceramics. He got out of the car and was about to go upstairs when he saw Shen Guangye get out of the car with ceramics on his back, and ceramics obediently lying on his body.

Their intimate gesture made Ge Rui feel dazzling, and he didn't know what was wrong with him, so he hid behind the stairs reflexively.

He heard Shen Guangye ask him, "Will you be with me?"

Ge Rui's heart tightened.

Ceramic rubbed back and forth on his back without speaking.

"Will you be with me?" Shen Guangye asked again patiently.

This time, Ceramic replied hoarsely: "Okay..."

Ge Rui's heart fell to the bottom of the valley in an instant, a cold, empty, indescribable feeling.

After standing behind the stairs for a long time, he did not go upstairs and left quietly.

What he didn't know was that ceramics was so dizzy from drinking, no matter what Shen Guangye said, he said he just knew.

Shen Guangye didn't intend to take advantage of the fire to rob him, he was just teasing him, and he didn't take his drunken words seriously.

Going upstairs, Shen Guangye asked again: "Would you like to drink some boiled water?"

"it is good……"

"Take off your wet clothes first, okay?"

"it is good……"

"I'll put the bath water in for you, and then take a bath for you, okay?"

"it is good……"

Shen Guangye was funny, so he knew it was okay, and he didn't even know that he sold you out.