not sad planet

A hazy layer of water vapor was condensed on the glass window, and the cold-toned sky was only a narrow slice seen from the window.

If you can't change the past, what's the point of traveling back?It is just in vain to let those things that have no power to stop happen again in front of you.

However, if the past can be changed, will Yu Ling still be the current Yu Ling...

Thus falling into an unsolvable time paradox.

When he walked out of the house, Liang Shu kept thinking about this question.

After walking a few steps, he looked back.The thick fog gradually spread, and the distance from the house was not too far, as if looking at an isolated island.

He lifted his foot and continued walking.

In front of him is a long road that seems to have no end. On a winter morning, thick fog covers everything around him. The whole world is hazy and he can't see anything clearly, but he clearly knows what he is going to face next. what is it.

Yu Ling's high school is at the end of this road, far away from the urban area, and in the remote wilderness, it seems that an ancient castle appeared out of thin air.

European-style architecture, a large number of carved patterns, towering spire design, looks gloomy in a foggy day, and the low-hanging clouds are like a floating net, covering everything here.

This is Yu Ling's high school, a well-known private school with a high cost-effectiveness rate that is well-known throughout the country.The living conditions and learning environment here are very good, and the tuition fees are very high, so it is also known as a "noble school".

Before coming out, Liang Shu asked Yu Ling a stupid question, which was what he had always wanted to ask: "Is your family rich?"

"Who told you that?"

Liang Shu opened his mouth, "I..." but was speechless.

No one told him, everything was just his subjective speculation, "You go abroad to study in university, high school is also such a good school."

In Liang Shu's superficial knowledge, people who can study abroad must be either rich or noble. In addition, Yu Ling's high school is so famous, he subconsciously thought that Yu Ling was the second generation of the rich, the eldest son of a rich family, because For some reason, I broke up with my family.

"Who told you that you are rich?" Yu Ling said calmly, "I am not."

Most people's high school life is mediocre, overwhelmed by day-to-day study, quizzes and exams, without much free time.

The same is true for Yu Ling, except that two major events happened in his high school days, both of which were related to death.

One is the death of his father, and the other is witnessing the suicide of a classmate.

Talking about this kind of self-revealing of scars may bring up many painful memories, but Yu Ling was always calm when he narrated.

What happened in the past has already become a foregone conclusion, even if you try to change it, it will eventually repeat itself in another way.

There are always many regrets that cannot be undone in time, just like the watch that Yu Ling's father sent him, whether it was thrown into the river or smashed into pieces, it could not escape the fate of destruction.

That watch was the only thing Yu Ling's father left him when he was alive.

He didn't keep it.

"I have always regretted it." Yu Ling finally said.

Memories flashed in my mind like lightning.

When he threw that watch into the river, didn't Yu Ling feel a little bit reluctant?Liang Shu recalled Yu Ling's expression at that time, and murmured: "If only you had told me earlier, then I might be able to stop you."

Yu Ling shook his head and said solemnly: "It can't be stopped."

His father, Yu Feng, was the captain of the sea rescue team of the fire brigade in a certain coastal city. He was on duty at the seaside, and his daily patrols were also at the seaside.Yue Guihua originally planned to take Yu Ling to settle in that city, but she was an only child, her parents were both elderly, and under Yu Feng's persuasion, she did not follow him there and stayed in the original city.

Although they are thousands of miles apart, the relationship between the husband and wife has always been very good. Until now, the old home still keeps the small shells and starfish handicrafts that Yu Feng sent from the sea many years ago.

Rescue at sea is a very dangerous job. Rescuing people from the boundless sea is tantamount to fighting with nature.In the summer of Yu Ling's first year of high school, Yu Feng had an accident while performing a diving rescue mission and was buried in the sea. Yu Ling didn't have time to see him for the last time.

Tourists do not understand the laws of tides, squatting on reefs far away from the shore to watch the scenery, and the tide rises in a blink of an eye, trapped by sea water, and swallowed by sea water, it is only a matter of a moment.

However, the tourist Yu Feng rescued came to the beach with high tide because of broken love and suicide.

Most of the sea rescues can only salvage dead bodies that are swollen with water, and only a few living people are rescued.

When he was very young, Yu Ling saw Yu Feng driving a speedboat in photos, and he thought it was cool from the bottom of his heart. He also thought that he could become a great person like his father in the future.

However, since then he has started to resent.

"They all said he was a hero, but what he did was a meaningless sacrifice. People who don't cherish their own lives are not worthy of respect, nor worthy of being saved."

After Yu Feng died, colleagues, leaders, and reporters came to his home to condolences, and the unit also subsidized a sum of compensation. Yue Guihua declined the reporter's interview, took Yu Ling to move, and used the money to send him to better private schools.

Later, Yu Ling went abroad as an exchange student only because of his excellent grades, and it had little to do with whether his family had money or not.

Hearing Yu Ling finish all this, Liang Shu felt very anxious and uneasy, and felt that he shouldn't ask the question.

He was a little overwhelmed, and he hesitated to say sorry.

"You don't need to apologize. You've kept this question in your heart for a long time, right? Actually..." Yu Ling paused, "If you asked me before, I would have told you."

After a few seconds of silence, he said again: "But you never asked."

"I dare not ask." Liang Shu said in a low voice.

"Well," Yu Ling smiled slowly, "So I'm still to blame."

"I am a forward-looking person. Many things in the past have been forgotten, but there are always some things that cannot be forgotten. Whatever you ask, as long as I still remember, I will tell you."

Yu Ling said that he is a forward-looking person, and he doesn't know how much credibility he has. Should he be optimistic or pessimistic.

But now, there is no need to hide it anymore.Liang Shu thought about it and asked, "Then I'll ask, what happened to the girl you mentioned before who committed suicide because of you?"

"It wouldn't be to tell you that you didn't agree...and then..."

"No," Yu Ling realized where he was thinking, and immediately denied, "You think too much."

"However, it was indeed because of me. If it wasn't for me, she might not have died." Yu Ling's tone was calm, even a little serious.

Reminiscent of what he said just now, Liang Shu vaguely had a new guess, "That is...she committed suicide in front of you, and you had a chance to save her, but you didn't?"

"Almost," Yu Ling pondered, and said ambiguously, "After all, I didn't really want to live at that time, and no one could save anyone."

"But I still feel uneasy about my conscience. After she passed away, for a while, I often had nightmares in which she accused me of not saving her."

In fact, not only after his death, but also occasionally when he was living with Liang Shu, he was sweating coldly in his sleep, calling someone's name vaguely.

Liang Shu suddenly figured out something.

A few years ago, Yu Ling went to the cemetery to pay homage to this girl, when they had just been together.

When Liang Shu saw the photo of the young girl on the tombstone, he thought it was Yu Ling's dead ex-girlfriend. He was so frightened that his heart sank.

No matter how hard he tried, how could he compare to a dead man.

Later, Liang Shu asked sideways, and got Yu Ling's denial, so he was relieved.

"Then what are you going to do when you travel back this time, persuade me to save her?" Yu Ling asked.

"I...let's try it." Liang Shu said without confidence.

In the final analysis, the past cannot be changed, just like dominoes, one after another, if you try to change, the world may collapse and everything will be messed up.

"When I was in high school, my thoughts and actions were quite extreme. I don't think you can change me at that time, so...don't waste your efforts," Yu Ling said, "You just need to ensure your own safety."

"And..." He hesitated for a long time this time before continuing, "If I say anything bad to you outside, you...don't be as knowledgeable as him."

"It's not my intention to make you angry."

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Yu Ling: I am an optimistic person.