Did he confess today?

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"Tell me, what's going on here?" Papa Gu put down his phone heavily, this was the first sentence he said to Gu Yuan today.

The photos sent by Aunt Osmanthus are all obtained from other guests. It is normal for guests to share the beautiful photos of Gu Yuan among the guests. Everyone looks at the photos with appreciation. Gu Yuan is like the most popular cat in the cat cafe .

Because the social circle of the customers in the shop is thousands of miles away from that of his parents, Gu Yuan never thought that such a situation would happen in the past.

He sat in his seat without saying a word, just stalemate with his father for a long time.

The food on the dining table was already cold, and the light above his head was cold white. Gu Yuan hadn't eaten a few mouthfuls of food, but now he felt sick to his stomach, as if he was sitting in an interrogation room.

In Gu Yuan's house, Dad Gu makes decisions on all major matters, while Mom Gu is busy with all kinds of small things. They have lived this kind of life for 20 years.

In fact, it seems that there is nothing wrong with it. Everything about Gu Yuan has been taken care of in an orderly manner. Compared to Chi Yu, who has never received the love of his father and has to love and take care of his mother in turn, he already has too much.

But I don't know when it started, the idea of ​​"one day I will leave home" has been following him growing up, like a shadow.

"I work outside." Gu Yuan finally opened his mouth.

"Really working? Do you want to buy anything?" Gu Ma asked.

"You don't need to work now for money!" Dad Gu said loudly, "Tell me, you used to go home every other week, and you had classes at school from morning to night. What time did you spend working?"

The answer was self-evident, Gu Ma realized the seriousness of the problem, and looked at Gu Yuan worriedly.

"This job didn't affect me in anything," Gu Yuan said.

"It hasn't affected yet? Look at how you're doing in the exam now—" Father Gu was finally completely ignited the powder keg, and he stood up: "I heard from your mother that you don't want to study finance. I understand, I I am willing to let you choose, but the question is what are you going to choose? To be a cowboy in a bar?"

"Father!" Gu Ma also raised her voice, "Don't talk nonsense when you lose your temper all day long!"

"Then let him talk about it, if we didn't give him a plan, would he have a plan for his life?" Papa Gu pointed at him.

"Don't worry about whether I have a plan or not." Gu Yuan refuted it back, and said with a rare tough attitude: "I can solve all my problems, and I know what I'm doing. Now I'm making money through legitimate channels, maybe The timing wasn't right, but I wasn't on the wrong track. And it's not like I miss a few hours of school every day and I'm screwed."

"Then tell us, why do you have to make money at this point in time?" Gu Ma asked.

Gu Yuan fell silent at this moment, but his knuckles tightened little by little, and his nails sank into the flesh of his palm.

"Don't worry about him anymore! Let him make his own plans!" Papa Gu dropped his chopsticks, his face flushed, and he shouted loudly: "From now on, I don't care about you, Gu Yuan , I’m already disappointed in you! Get out! Just don’t take the college entrance examination!”

Gu's mother was completely frightened, and hurriedly scolded and persuaded, while Gu Yuan glanced at his father and got up from the dining table.

He didn't want to be at home for a second.

The moment he closed the door of the house, he also shut the fucking sigh behind his back.

Gu Yuan had a backlog of anger all over his body, but the fire couldn't be vented out, like a damp match that couldn't be wiped away.

There was a fine spring rain this evening, and the ground outside the house was also wet with sporadic mud.

Gu Yuan walked through the green grass that grew in early spring, saw the lights in the neighbor's house across the street were still dim, and remembered that Chi Yu and his mother had gone to have a big meal.

He took out his phone, and sure enough, he saw that Chi Yu had sent him a photo of eating conveyor belt sushi.

I don't know why, but the frustration and sadness that I didn't feel just now rushed to my heart.

But Gu Yuan didn't want to spoil Chi Yu's good mood, nor did he want Chi Yu to know his current situation.

Chi Yu said on the radio before that he liked the way his whole body was shining.

But in fact, he is not such a person at all, he has countless flaws, maybe Chi Yu will be disappointed in him too.

Gu Yuan frowned, continued to walk out, and replied to Chi Yu's message: Fish eat fish

Boyfriend: Big fish eat small fish

Boyfriend: This store is not bad, I will bring you there next week

Like fish: good

Likes fish: likes thinly sliced ​​salmon

Boyfriend: Why are you so honest today?

Boyfriend: I want to be thinly sliced ​​salmon

Like fish fish: will be eaten in one bite

Boyfriend: let's eat

Boyfriend: I just want to be eaten by you

They chatted about the most common and most unnutritious conversation between ordinary couples, killing the time they couldn't stay together.

Boyfriend: Do you want to sleep together tonight?

Boyfriend: I will go to your room to find you [Yuyu Tweaking.jpg]

Gu Yuan thought for a while, then typed: I'm going back to school, I want to hurry up and study

But the other party was very sensitive, and asked: Have you had a conflict with your parents?

Gu Yuan knew that he couldn't get around him, so he briefly talked about being found out in a part-time job.

Boyfriend: About ten o'clock, I will go back to the dormitory

Boyfriend: When my beloved Yuan Yuanxue is hungry, what do you want for supper?

That night, Chi Yu brought back sweet tinfoil powder and bought all kinds of fried skewers.

Just as he opened the bedroom door to enjoy a night alone with his boyfriend, he found that all his roommates were there.

So, everyone ate all the food that Chi Yu brought back together, and even the neighbors smelled it.

In front of everyone, Gu Yuan only ate a small piece of Longkou vermicelli and a small piece of roasted cabbage.

Chi Yu jumped up anxiously, snatched the roasted pork belly from Qin Huaijiu's mouth, and stuffed it into Gu Yuan's mouth.

Qin Huaijiu looked at the two of them in bewilderment, not understanding the situation.

After that day, Gu Yuan stayed in the school all the time.

He came back with vigor, and he was more focused on studying than ever before, and he would stay until the last moment for self-study every night.

The lights in the classroom will be turned off at [-]:[-], and almost all the students will go back to the dormitory one after another at this time, but Gu Yuan will stay behind, turn on the portable desk lamp, and continue to do problems and read books.

The latest time, the big iron gates on the third floor were closed, and he jumped from the flower bed on the second floor.

When Gu Yuan was studying like this, Chi Yu followed him the whole time, adjusting his actions and rests in sync with him.

The whole class respected and admired them. They felt the power of the two gods of learning to sprint before the exam, and they were also driven to work hard. The learning atmosphere in the class was unprecedentedly strong, and everyone felt full and satisfied at the end of each day. That "too late" feeling from before.

Wan Dongfang was very relieved when he saw it. He felt that his children were running towards the goal, and every breath of air was happy.

Only Chi Yu felt something was wrong.

Although when Gu Yuan was not studying, he was still as usual, gentle and loving, trying every means to stick together with him, hugging him and saying that he wanted to eat ice cream in the cold spring days.

But he just felt uneasy.

Other people's efforts are to tighten themselves and concentrate all their attention; but Gu Yuan seems to be tightened more and more, making people breathless.

He would stare at a wrong question for a long time, and after forgetting a physics formula, he would repeat it thirty times.

But Gu Yuan didn't realize these things, he only had the intention of "getting the best grades" in his heart, so he ran as hard as he could every day, as if he wanted to get rid of the gnat that was biting him and was deeply buried in his flesh. The pliers named Gaokao.

Then, on the way to the cafeteria one evening, the symptoms that seemed to be dying appeared again.

Chi Yu happened to be away, his heart was beating fast, as if he was about to fall to the ground at any moment, his dizziness and weakness made him suspect that he was about to die suddenly.

Looking back, he did not sleep very much recently, he was too busy studying and had no time to exercise. All the horrible news flashed through Gu Yuan's mind, and he finally rushed into the nearby infirmary.

When the school doctor saw his pale face, he stood up quickly, thinking that something serious happened to another student.

It turned out that Gu Yuan himself was panting slightly, and said in the chaos: "Teacher, I'm not feeling well."

The school doctor asked him to sit down, and first checked his temperature. Gu Yuan became more and more restless during the process, and finally smiled and said to the school doctor: "I feel better, thank you."

After speaking, he quickly left the school infirmary, ran up, and reached the dormitory as fast as he could.

Chi Yu was not there, and Qian Yiding said that he was called to carry the bottled water.

After running, Gu Yuan's heart jumped into his throat, he pushed open the French door connecting the bedroom to the balcony, went to the sink to fetch himself a handful of water, and wet his face.

He felt that his sanity and calmness were coming back little by little, and this time lasted for about half an hour like the previous two times.

The last mock exam for the senior year came after the one-day Labor Day holiday.

The crabapple blossoms in spring are extraordinarily brilliant, its branches and leaves extend from the outside of the railing to the inside of the railing, and the morning sun at 08:30 makes it warm.

All students, one by one, took their own test admission tickets and transparent pencil cases, and accepted the inspection of the invigilator.

The atmosphere in the corridor was lively. On such a pleasant spring day, everyone could smell the breath of a long holiday.

Chi Yu leaned against the railing, without a book in his hand, waited for Gu Yuan to come out of the bathroom, and went to the examination room together.

This time they were assigned to the same examination room, but the seats were at opposite corners.

Gu Yuan laughed when he saw him, walked over quickly, and sprinkled all the water on his face on his face.

Chi Yu looked at him for a moment, the other party had already put on a short-sleeved white shirt, he was still tall and handsome, there was not even a pleat on his clothes.

"I always feel a little hungry." Gu Yuan said, "Can I have curry fish ball powder for lunch?"

"Yes." Chi Yu looked at him, "Why are you hungry from now on?"

"It's time to grow my body, and I've grown another centimeter recently." Gu Yuan was a little proud, and looked at Chi Yu as well.

In order to avoid suspicion, they seldom stand together and chat like this. Now Gu Yuan is smiling at him without any scruples. This is what Chi Yu desires most during the years of conflict with Gu Yuan.

"Gu Yuan," Chi Yu took a deep breath and asked, "Have you been forcing yourself recently?"

Gu Yuan shook his head.

"Then are you unhappy?" Chi Yu asked again.

Before he could answer, the invigilator began to urge them to enter the examination room. Another teacher blamed them for not taking the exam seriously, and they were all laughing.

They had to queue up to pass the metal detector, Gu Yuan fell behind Chi Yu, and Chi Yu heard him say, "Fish, I want to hug you."

Chi Yu, who was opening his arms to be tested, stopped.

"Hey, what are you doing, I haven't finished scanning yet!" the invigilator shouted.

Unexpectedly by everyone, Chi Yu turned around, gave Gu Yuan a hug, and said, "Come on for the exam."

All the eyes in the corridor were attracted by this hug, but Chi Yu's hug was very short, so you can understand it however you want.

"Come on for the exam." Gu Yuan said.

They entered the examination room one after the other, and walked to two opposite corners of the classroom, just like when the third year of high school just started.

Chi Yu sat down for the exam, but his mood did not calm down. He repeatedly thought about all kinds of things about Gu Yuan, the gentle smile he showed when he looked at him, and the slightly trembling fingertips when he swung the water just now. .

Every minute and every second in the examination room seemed to have sound. He kept writing on the answer sheet, thinking of Gu Yuan to him, it was a test paper that could never be finished.

Because there is never a so-called correct answer.

He wrote faster and faster, and when he finished the last line of the composition, he heard the sound of pulling out the chair from a distance behind him.

He looked back and saw Gu Yuan stood up, opened the back door of the classroom amidst the shouts of the invigilator, and left the examination room quickly.

"Has he finished?" one of the invigilators asked.

The other had already walked to the desk where Gu Yuan sat, and was surprised to see the test paper and answer sheet with only his name written on it.

Before they could be confused, Chi Yu had already left his seat and hurriedly chased him out.

The author has something to say:

Poor Yuan’s symptoms are called panic attacks, which are prone to occur when he is in a state of high pressure and tension for a long time. This situation is usually accumulated over many years, and the main reason is that Yuan himself is not aware of it. He always laughs and is tired. I didn’t know how to hide in the quilt and cry like a fish, and I didn’t even know how to refuse various classes in my childhood. My parents thought he was relaxed and stress-free, so a vicious circle began-

感谢在2022-09-2700:51:02~2022-09-2801:34:09期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: Yuefeng Chayue 2 bottles; thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!