see you when Lin Shen

It seemed to be raining outside for a while in the middle of the night, and the sound of raindrops hitting the window glass was as pleasant as the sound of clear water coming from my ears.

Sang Yunzhi is a quiet person. She has loved all kinds of books and prose since she was a child. She has read many famous poets and writers who used extremely beautiful words to describe the things between lovers. The words are far from enough to describe how beautiful the other party is in my eyes at the moment.

The alcohol he drank was impacting the brain and stimulating the senses.

Everything that happened tonight was unreal, vague, but absolutely real.

They tirelessly demand each other.

Sang Yunzhi vaguely remembered what Lin Lu said in her ear, but she was emotional at that time, her eyes were full of the other party's begging for mercy, and no matter what she said, she just responded with the word "yes".

What should I do?

She tried to remember, but couldn't remember.

In the end, the sour tiredness mixed with the effect of alcohol swept over, and both of them fell into a deep sleep.

Maybe someone unfamiliar came to the house today, and the smell was strange. Mao Mao didn't enter the bedroom all night, let alone lay at the foot of the bed as usual.

But Sang Yunzhi dreamed of the kitten he once raised for the first time.

About two years ago, Sang Yunzhi once raised a "cat" that was not a cat, named Xiaomi. This cat was the same as Maomao in terms of size and breed.

Perhaps because of this, Sang Yunzhi had such a dream.

Things that have been forgotten come through dreams, making people unprepared.

About two years ago, under the persuasion of her friends, Sang Yunzhi found that her subconscious avoidance of a stable relationship had developed to a particularly serious level, so she was introduced to a psychological counseling institution.

Like most hospitals, this psychological counseling institution has doctors, nurses, and front desk assistants.

Doctors wear white coats that symbolize professionalism, and just looking at them will make people feel at ease.

The doctor who saw her was surnamed Li, and Sang Yunzhi usually called him "Doctor Li".

Ren is a middle-aged man with a benevolent smile, at least he will not bring a heavy sense of oppression.

It's just a pity that the treatment was suddenly interrupted, so she deleted the other party's contact information completely.

The first time I met Dr. Li, the other party was not in a hurry to formulate a treatment plan. Instead, he took Sang Yunzhi to chat for two hours, from life anecdotes to social anecdotes. Unintentionally mentioned Sang Yunzhi's debut novel.

It was an instant hit, and was considered by readers and even Lin Lu as a very warm and uplifting book.

Perhaps it is a professional relationship, coupled with the family background disclosed by Sang Yunzhi before the treatment, Dr. Li can see at a glance that this is not only a realistic novel about the awakening of feminist consciousness, it also carries a large part, the author himself inner longing.

The perfect hostess has a happy family, loving parents, cheerful, sunny and positive, and many friends.

No matter which point has nothing to do with Sang Yunzhi, the creator himself.

It can even be said that this character and Sang Yunzhi experienced two completely different lives that are diametrically opposed.

"Is this the perfect life you long for but can't get?" Dr. Li asked.

It was the first time someone asked herself this question several years after the work became popular, and Sang Yunzhi began to have hope. She felt that the avoidant mental disorder that had plagued her for many years might be corrected by Dr. Li.

Then there was weekly psychotherapy.

Sang Yunzhi has free working hours, and every time he comes to the institution for treatment, he chooses a working day, rain or shine.But there is one thing, if the day is not sunny or rainy and it is a cool cloudy day, she will definitely reject the appointment and choose the next time.

Probably because when my parents died in a car accident, it happened to be a cloudy and clear autumn day.

The first few treatments focused on counseling. From the fifth session on, the doctor began to perform hypnotherapy. He slowly guided Sang Yunzhi to gradually correct his avoidance in the illusory dreams when he came over every week.

The cat named Xiao Mi was raised by Sang Yunzhi in his dream.

Every week when he came here, Sang Yunzhi would meet the kitten in his dreams. They became familiar with each other from the state of vigilance at the beginning. Day after day, Sang Yunzhi felt as if he had really raised a cat.

The kitten will cling to her, lie at her feet, nestle in her arms, and meow at her.

Doctors try to let patients and small animals establish a stable relationship first, and then transition to people and all aspects of life.

It is undeniable that such a hypnotic treatment has a significant effect, and Sang Yunzhi began to look forward to the weekly treatment, looking forward to meeting the cat in his dream.

It's just that such a treatment had an accident one day about half a year later.

Sang Yunzhi's "cat" ran away.

The development of the dream began not to be guided by the doctor's hypnosis. The kitten ran out and never came back. The companionship that seemed to be "stable" just now collapsed in an instant.

The explanation given by Dr. Li was that the patient bottomed out and rebounded, and maybe he could try a few more times, but Sang Yunzhi felt that this kind of treatment method of "repeatedly tearing and healing the wound" was unacceptable. Unilaterally announced the interruption of treatment.

until today.

Every time Sang Yunzhi came to Lin Lu's house and saw Maomao, he couldn't help but think of the "kitten" he had raised.

But coincidentally, it was after meeting Lin Lu that she came up with the idea of ​​picking up treatment again, even though it has not been implemented so far.

A single dream seemed to be pressed on the cycle button, disturbing Sang Yunzhi for a whole night.

Coupled with the various discomforts caused by the hangover, Sang Yunzhi didn't sleep particularly comfortably this time, her brain kept releasing the message of "very sleepy", until... she tossed and turned, and turned over again.

At this time, a soft voice suddenly came from beside the pillow: "Sang Yunzhi, are you awake?"

Lin Lu woke up.

Sang Yunzhi didn't know how long the other party had been awake, probably because he drank too much wine last night and couldn't sleep well.

A pair of long eyelashes trembled slightly, and after a long silence, she opened her sleepy eyes, which were misty, and it could be seen that she was still full of sleepiness.

The sky outside was still dark, and the sky turned pale when looking at the horizon. As soon as she opened her eyes, she saw Lin Lu's smiling eyes.

Obviously there was a lot of coming and going last night, but at first glance this morning, Lin Lu was much more energetic than her, so it seemed that she was a bit "not good".

But sleepiness is sleepiness. When the heavy sleepiness is overwhelmed, people have no time to think about other things.

"what time is it now?"

"are not you sleepy?"

Sang Yunzhi asked, her voice was lazy, she was so sleepy that her eyelids were shaking, and she was in a very erratic state.

Lin Lu belatedly realized that the time might really be too early: "It's just after six o'clock, so...do you want to sleep again?"

"En." Sang Yunzhi replied vaguely when he heard the words, and fell back into a deep sleep.

Just in a daze, she felt a soft kiss from Lin Lu on her forehead.

After returning to the cage, I fell asleep unexpectedly soundly, and was no longer troubled by those heavy dreams.

When he finally woke up, he didn't wake up naturally, but felt that something heavy was stepping on his body quickly. Sang Yunzhi propped up his upper body with his eyes wide open, only to realize that it was Maomao who used her as a backing board to get out of bed. She stepped on it.

Cats are just cats, and they never take anyone seriously, including their owners.

The clean clothes were neatly folded by Lin Lu and placed on the other side of the bed.

Sang Yunzhi's old clothes were taken to be washed, and he didn't wear anything after taking a shower last night. The clothes in front of him were probably Lin Lu's clean clothes.

She hesitated for a moment, but chose to pick it up and put it on.

Originally, he wanted to go downstairs and go home, but whoever opened the bedroom door heard a slight movement from the living room.

At the same time, there was a burst of fragrance in the air, making Sang Yunzhi, who hadn't eaten all night, raise his hand to cover his lower abdomen unconsciously.

Lin Lu quickly noticed the figure at the door of the bedroom, and his face that should have no expression suddenly smiled: "Are you awake?"

"I remember that Saturday should be a day off. Don't you want to go to work?" Sang Yunzhi was a little surprised when he saw the approaching figure.

"You forgot that I didn't have much rest on May Day." Lin Lu said as she walked, and after a while, she reached the kitchen door. She held the door and looked back at Sang Yunzhi. "Breakfast for you? The pumpkin bought at the gate of the community." Porridge and fried dough sticks.”

The scheduling of the hospital is very flexible, which is not like an ordinary unit.

Sang Yunzhi, who had been drinking last night, was still a little dizzy, she raised her hand and wrinkled her eyebrows and said "OK" weakly.

"I'll go wash up first." She informed Lin Lu and walked towards the bathroom.

The clear water gushing out of the faucet was cool, and when it was slapped on the face, the remaining sleepiness quickly disappeared, and people became more energetic.

Back at the restaurant, the good-looking porridge and fried dough sticks have been neatly arranged on the table, and you can enjoy them when you sit down.

Lin Lu played the role of the waiter in the restaurant and opened the chair for Sang Yunzhi.

"Sit." She made a gesture of invitation with a smile on her face.

Sang Yunzhi was a little curious about how happy she was so early this morning: "You seem to be in a good mood today."

"A little bit." Lin Lu pinched the pulp of his index finger with his thumb, and gestured the so-called "a little bit" with Sang Yunzhi, his eyes shining brightly.

The corners of her lips that could not stop rising, Jiu Du had already betrayed her mind.

The aroma of the porridge in the bowl kept wafting up, Sang Yunzhi quickly picked up the bowl and began to enjoy breakfast with the porcelain spoon.

After she ate breakfast, Lin Lu went around the table and sat down at the opposite seat, looking at her with his chin in his hand.

As Sang Yunzhi just said, Lin Lu is in a particularly good mood today and talks a lot.

She pulled Sang Yunzhi and chatted without saying a word, and somehow the topic fell on the other party's face: "Your eyes are a little blue, didn't you sleep well last night?"

"Still too tired?"

Lin Lu asked, but his teasing tone could not conceal his intentions.

Such a question made Sang Yunzhi stop eating porridge, she closed her eyes, and looked at the person across the table meaningfully: "Lin Lu, you ask the question knowingly."

Did you sleep last night? Tired or not, don’t you know?

After finishing speaking, she continued to lower her head to drink the porridge, but her mind was already elsewhere.

During these days, the relationship between the two of them can be said to be quite intimate, and even the number of times they met has increased, and the topics of chat have begun to expand.

At the beginning, Sang Yunzhi set a very clear position and boundary for this relationship in her heart, but Lin Lu has frequently crossed the boundary recently, and she herself does not know what kind of psychology she has, and she has repeatedly acquiesced to the other party's behavior .

Thinking of this, Sang Yunzhi frowned slightly.

It was a strange development, but why didn't she stop it?

There must be something wrong in some link, but she didn't notice it.

While she was in a trance, Lin Lu pulled her thoughts back with one sentence: "Sang Yunzhi, have you finished eating? If you eat well, I have something to ask you."

"Huh?" Sang Yunzhi raised his eyes.

Seeing her look, Lin Lu suppressed the joke on his face, put down the hand holding his chin, and became serious: "Is what you promised me last night still count?"

This question made Sang Yunzhi startled: "What's the matter?"

For some reason, seeing the serious expression on Lin Lu's face, Sang Yunzhi's heart skipped a beat, and he had a vague premonition.

She put down the porcelain spoon in her hand, not in the mood to eat anymore.

Sang Yunzhi vaguely remembered that she did answer Lin Lu's words last night when she was in a state of confusion, but she couldn't remember exactly what it was.

But she knew that Lin Lu would remember for herself.

Sure enough, as soon as such a thought flashed across the table, the person across the table said, "Don't you remember?"

"It's okay, then I'll ask again..." Lin Lu's awkward expression flashed across his face, and he suddenly became serious, "Sang Yunzhi, do you want to try dating me?"

Lin Lu quietly held his breath, curled his fingertips slightly, nervous and expectant.

She asked this question last night, but she was equally nervous again.

The four eyes met, and there was only the faint sound of breathing in the whole room, and the world fell silent.

After listening to Lin Lu's words, Sang Yunzhi felt as if he suddenly lost his voice, unable to speak a word for a long time.

In other words, she didn't know what to say.

Every second spent in silence was excruciating.

"Did I promise you this last night?" After an unknown amount of time, Sang Yunzhi finally broke the silence. Under the table, her hands on her lap began to tighten gradually, "I'm sorry, I... can't remember clearly gone."

Sang Yunzhi stared at Lin Lu's beautiful eyes, restrained all the emotions floating on the surface, and returned to his previous cold appearance, but a trace of unconcealable guilt flashed in his eyes.

After struggling repeatedly, she still chose to answer Lin Lu like this.

The light in Lin Lu's eyes quickly dimmed.

"That's it, then just pretend I didn't say it." She forced a smile, touched the phone at the side and pretended to look down, avoiding Sang Yunzhi's gaze.

The dignified atmosphere was not relieved. Sang Yunzhi saw Lin Lu's random swiping of the phone, hesitated to speak, and finally couldn't hold back: "Lin Lu, is it not good for us to do this?"

After saying this, Lin Lu's men didn't stop moving, but rowed even faster.

Seeing her like this, Sang Yunzhi frowned slightly, and continued: "I asked you before if we have been like this, and you promised very well, you..."

Before finishing speaking, Sang Yunzhi suddenly stopped.

She saw Lin Lu flip the phone over suddenly, and there was a sudden "pop", which was harsh and full of emotion.

Lin Lu slowed down, looked up at Sang Yunzhi, a little at a loss: "So that's what you meant when you asked me last time?"

If it was justifiable to say the last sentence of sorry, then the following sentence became the last straw that crushed Lin Lu.

That afternoon at Sang Yunzhi's house, on the sofa in the living room, the feeling of lingering, throbbing and rapid heartbeat became a knife pierced into her heart at this moment.

She thought it was intimacy and lingering words of love for each other, but it turned out that this was what Sang Yunzhi meant.

Lin Lu clenched his hands tightly, even clenching his teeth.

Eyes full of hurt and disbelief.

Seeing Lin Lu Sang Yunzhi like this suddenly became hoarse.

She realized that she might have said something wrong, and also realized that her and Lin Lu's thoughts might never have converged.

But it is too late to make amends. Words spoken are like water poured out, which cannot be recovered.

Silence equals acquiescence, and this time Lin Lu wisely did not wait for Sang Yunzhi's answer.

She backed away from her chair and stood up, looking down at the person across the table: "So you never thought about being with me in your heart, did you, not even for a moment, never."

She tried her best to suppress the vibrato, blinking her eyes constantly, fearing that the accumulated tears would fall out.

However, all that came was Sang Yunzhi's words——

"Feel sorry."

Sang Yunzhi lowered his eyes, his voice was hoarse, but his fingertips were trembling.

She bit her lip and sat on the chair stiff, at a loss for what to do.

For some reason, she really never thought about establishing a stable relationship with Lin Lu.

Sang Yunzhi knew that what he should do at this time was to explain and apologize, or to say some soft words to persuade him to stay, but he couldn't say a word.

Lin Lu's sudden idea of ​​wanting to confirm the relationship caught her off guard, and trapped her like a terrible shackle.

Animals seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, and human instinct drives Sang Yunzhi to refuse.

At this moment, she would only repeat the words "sorry", but it completely chilled Lin Lu.

The last light in Lin Lu's eyes completely dimmed.

"Don't be sorry, I crossed the line."

"It's me who doesn't know how to sleep with you."

The redness at the end of the eyes is no longer due to tenderness.

Lin Lu spoke in a heavy tone. She held back her tears and straightened her back and walked to the entrance, but she didn't leave immediately. Instead, she stood at the door and waited for a second, two seconds.

The last point of hope that Sang Yunzhi would speak up to persuade her to stay was finally ashes.

She held the doorknob and was about to press it to open it.

suddenly--

"Lin Lu." Sang Yunzhi's voice came from behind, calling her name.

Lin Lu has always liked Sang Yunzhi calling him by his name.

She pursed her lips tightly and did not look back until the sound of footsteps approaching behind her, a pair of catkins stretched forward and pressed her hand that was about to open the door.

Lin Lu's hand fell down like this, empty and helpless.

But Sang Yunzhi's voice was still clear and pleasant to hear: "This is your home, I should be the one to leave."

The author says:

Hahahaha Our author threw a hidden weapon [throwing knife] at you, did you catch it?

I finally wrote the plot that ended for the first time. You can look forward to Niu Hulu Lin Lu. The next time I see you is when Concubine Xi returns to the palace! ! !

Tell me that tomorrow's update will be postponed until twelve o'clock in the evening, that is, in the early morning of Wednesday, and the three-in-one V chapter will be released.