I'm pregnant after the regent loses his memory

Returning from Xiao's house to the palace, Yan Sui suffered from insomnia that night, and Jing Yun still drinks?Still preoccupied after drunk?

Is that still my nephew who is smiling and carefree?

Although in Xiao's house, Yan Sui saw the so-called farmhouse's self-brewed wine, which was cloudy and light in taste, not considered strong wine. Even Xiao Yaoniang——Xiao Yu could drink a little, but Yan Sui still couldn't imagine smiling face all day long. My nephew is melancholy after drinking.

How could Jingyun feel that her parents didn't like him?If it is said that he is not loved by his parents, there will be no beloved children in the world.

Does Jing Yun miss her parents?Is it because of these two children that I have neglected him in the past few months?

Yan Sui couldn't sleep at night, so without disturbing Shuangshun, he put on the fox fur and got up to take a stroll.

In the middle of the night, Yong'an Palace was silent, except for the guards hidden in the night, only the moonlight swayed, casting shadows on the bamboo and cypresses.

Yan Sui thought of the sentence "1" written by the predecessors, "algae and weeds in the water are covered with shadows of bamboo and cypresses". In the past, it was only elegant and interesting, but not realistic. Now it seems true, and the description is amazing.

It's a pity that we can't have a night out with Xu Jiashi. Yan Sui raised his head, brushed the fox fur, put his palms on his stomach, raised his head to share the beautiful beauty, and bowed his head to meet the shadow of the baby in his belly... six people.

Since she was pregnant, Yan Sui, who was already gentle, has become more and more compassionate, and her love for children has been extended to love for all people, and she really feels that being an emperor has a heavy responsibility.

On the one hand, the east tour was to hide the childbirth from the sight of the important officials of the aristocratic family in the capital, and on the other hand, it was indeed to take care of the rivers and mountains.

It is too heavy a responsibility to be the emperor.

Long-cherished and sleepy at night, dare not waste a day.

The hard work of the prison will not be much lighter.

Yan Sui reflected, did he really push his nephew too hard?He is still a child.

But what does hard work have to do with parental love?Is Jingyun's reluctance to be the crown prince related to his saying that his parents don't like it?He also said, my brother is sorry for my sister-in-law, how could it be?

Many questions hovered in his mind, and Yan Sui couldn't figure it out over and over again. He still wanted to talk to someone. After thinking about it, only Pei Liangfang - although he was unmarried and childless, after all, he lived to be 30 years old, he could always give some advice.Even though it was midnight, Pei Liangfang probably wasn't in bed yet, so it was a good time to find him.

Yan Sui walked slowly outside Pei Liangfang's bedroom. Sure enough, the lights were still on. Before Yan Sui could speak when he knocked on the door, the room suddenly became dark.

"Doctor, are you asleep?"

"Sleep!" Pei Liangfang's voice was a little anxious, accompanied by the rustling sound of tables and chairs bumping against clothes.

"Can you talk while asleep?" Yan Sui pushed the door open, "I can't sleep, I want to tell you something. Are you in?"

At the same time Yan Sui pushed the door, Pei Liangfang opened it from the inside. The two faced each other. There was no light, and it was difficult to see each other's faces by the moonlight alone. Yan Sui vaguely saw Pei Liangfang in pajamas with disheveled hair: "Really asleep? The genius doctor sleeps without turning off the lights of? Don’t let me go in and sit down?”

Pei Liangfang blocked the door, but Yan Sui held his stomach in a stalemate, so he could only let people in: "Your Majesty stays up late at night, it's not good for the fetus."

"Once in a while, it's okay. You pay attention to health preservation, don't you sleep?" The room was dark, Yan Sui stepped on something, and almost tripped over the stool across the room, but fortunately Pei Liangfang had quick eyesight and hands to help him sit still.

"Light the lamp, I want to chat with you." Yan Sui was so frightened just now, he pressed his stomach, took a few breaths, slowly calmed down his breathing, and stretched out his hand to light the lamp.

Pei Liangfang grabbed the lamp and said in a deep voice, "Your Majesty, go back and rest."

Yan Sui sensed that something was wrong, and stared at Pei Liangfang's mixed face in the dark room: "What's wrong with you? I entrusted my life to you, what do you have to guard against me? Pei Xin, I thought I had nothing to say to you Friends who don't talk about it."

Pei Liangfang was silent, and after a while, he moved his hand that was pressing on the oil lamp.

Yan Sui took the fire pocket and lit the lamp, and at the same time when the room was lit up, Yan Sui saw Pei Liangfang's cheeks flush——

Maybe it's because of embarrassment, but you can see the color of the rouge carefully.

On the bed not far away, the quilt was bulging, as if things had been randomly stuffed in, and the corners of the women's clothing were leaking out here and there.

Looking at Pei Liangfang's disheveled hair, it's clear that the bun has just been removed, and there is a hairpin tied at the end of the hair.

Yan Sui instantly understood why Pei Liangfang didn't turn on the lamp and didn't let him in. The dignified Master of Medicine King Gu hid in the bedroom wearing women's clothes and putting on rouge, which was indeed not very humane.

But in life, there is always a bit of a hobby, which is understandable.

Yan Sui was also a little embarrassed, and got up by supporting the table: "I remember, you said that women's clothing is also for saving lives and healing wounds, so I will go back first..."

Pei Liangfang suddenly grabbed Yan Sui's arm: "Your Majesty, we are friends who talk about everything. Talk to me, I think I'm sick."

Yan Sui's heart thumped, Pei Liangfang's voice was hoarse, he was completely different from him who spoke humorously during the day.The night will completely expose the fragility, and the person with the best medical skills in the world is extremely haggard, too thin, and the brilliance in his eyes has disappeared.

A doctor does not heal himself, he is indeed sick.

"It's still because of him, isn't it? You seem indifferent these days, but you haven't actually let go, have you?" Yan Sui sat down with his stomach supported, but his heart was still in suspense.

Pei Liangfang twisted the veil, wiped the rouge on his face one by one, his movements were stiff and slow, different from his usual leisurely and calm, but the whole figure was like a walking dead whose soul had been taken away.The shame and panic receded, leaving only numbness.

"Your Majesty, do you know what he said to me that day?"

Yan Sui nodded and shook his head, he felt that what Xie Ju said that day was not all, but it was enough to make people angry.

What other hurtful things did this little bastard say?

Yan Sui put his hand on the back of Pei Liangfang's hand: "No matter what he says, it's not your fault. If you feel comfortable saying it, I'll listen; if you don't want to say it, I'll sit with you for a while."

The night flowed, and insects chirped occasionally. Pei Liangfang sat upright for a long time, like a clay sculpture, opening his mouth many times and making a hoarse voice, but Yan Sui didn't rush him.

Pei Liangfang said suddenly: "He said that he loves me more than I love him, and I am the one who is really betrayed. There will never be anyone who loves me like him. If I give up on him, I will end up alone forever."

Yan Sui was stunned, how could Xie Ju have the face to say such a thing?Is he crazy?

Pei Liang's expression was dazed and painful: "He said, if I really love him, I will think of him and not drive him to a dead end. If I can develop a cure for broken sleeves, I can let each other go; Or if there is a male fertility drug, we can be good. It's me who doesn't love him enough and incompetent, so we torture each other, and he finds other women. If I can have children, there will be no one else. But even so , I am still the most important thing in his heart. But I put him in danger again and again for the sake of worldly fame and fortune. He said that even if I betray him, he is still willing to have me, and there will be no one else Give me more than he did."

Every word and every sentence was sharp and hurtful, Yan Sui's heart ached like it was being torn apart, and it was as cold as falling into an ice cellar.The bystanders are still so sad, let alone the parties.

Yan Sui recalled that Pei Liangfang had a smile on his face when he came back from seeing Xie Ju, and he smiled every day afterwards, but his heart was already full of holes, right?

The advent of what love is--

No, it's not love anymore, it's hurt, it's torture.

Pei Liangfang closed his eyes and exhaled slowly: "I began to reflect on whether I was really ruthless and incompetent. Should I really put down my dignity and the reputation of the entire Yaowang Valley for him? Should I obey him if I love him? If I really Her medical essence is absolutely omnipotent, so I don’t have to worry about giving Your Majesty a dissection. If I can develop a medicine to treat broken sleeves, or allow myself to have children... everything will be different. But I can’t do it, and I can’t do it day and night .Maybe I'm really incompetent. I have too many unsolvable difficulties...if only I were a woman."

Yan Sui had tears in his eyes, he really couldn't bear to listen, but Pei Liangfang was still exposing his scars, peeling off his self-esteem together, he grabbed the overturned wine bottle on the table and drank it up: "I don't wear women's clothes to save lives, I'm not that noble. In fact, Your Majesty, I feel that I'm extremely humble. Even if he did the most unbearable things to me, I still can't let him go. I even think about his words over and over again, and I begin to feel that he is right and I am sorry. Him. I can't do anything else, I can't develop birth control drugs, I can't go back to him, I can't do anything...It seems that only wearing women's clothes can stop me from thinking wildly...Your Majesty, I made you laugh..."

Pei Liangfang was drunk, and shook Yan Sui's hand tremblingly: "I know I'm sick, but I don't know how to cure it. Your Majesty, help me!"

The tall, light and thin man is now thin and thin. He is less than 30 years old and has sporadic gray hair on his sideburns.

Yan Sui tried his best to search for comforting words in his mind, fearing that the words would not express his meaning and worried that the words would be sharp, and he was afraid that he would not be able to save him if he was hurt anyway.

The quagmire is deep, how to get out?

There is only self-crossing, only self-extrication.

Yan Sui shook his hand instead, looking earnestly: "Do you know why our country taboos about cutting off sleeves?"

Pei Liangfang raised his head, with sweat on his forehead and bloodshot eyes: "It's against the yin and yang rules for a man to fall in love. Not only Chen Guo, but the whole world is equally intolerable."

Yan Sui shook his head: "Jingguo is not as secretive as our country. As long as it does not commit crimes and hurt others, it often turns a blind eye. In fact, nearly 200 years ago, Kangguo—— When Jiashi’s family was in the world—it was more open, and some emperors even married male queens.”

There was a faint light in Pei Liangfang's eyes.

"Although the two were not in love with each other, it was the emperor's lustful desires, which caused a lot of ridicule at the time, but in the end it worked out. At that time, the public's attitude towards men's love/things was indeed much more open than it is now."

Pei Liangfang pinched the wine bottle and listened quietly to Yan Sui's narration.

"The male empress was dedicated to Mingzong by Kang Guoyingzong—the father of the last emperor. The male empress is actually Yingzong's companion, and the two have long been in love with each other. But Yingzong dedicated his father to the emperor in order to stabilize his power. Lover, after his father passed away, he ascended the throne as emperor, and his beloved became empress dowager, yet they were called mother and son in the same palace, it is sad and ridiculous."

"So Yingzong forbade men to fall in love?"

Yan Sui shook his head: "That's not the case. I've also heard about what happened back then. At first, there were many things that were difficult to figure out. Now that I've changed my mind, I suddenly understand——

The Yankang battle back then turned into a Jingkang battle.It was a fierce battle. Although Yingzong kept the territory intact, the vitality of the Kang Kingdom was also severely damaged.

During this process, the Empress Dowager Kang was exiled in Yasukuni and never returned for the rest of her life.It wasn't that Yasukuni didn't let her go, it was that the queen mother herself refused to go back - she would also be the emperor's queen mother, and it was even more torture.

The deeper Yingzong's yearning, the deeper the resentment. The Queen Mother is an untouchable rebellious scale. But at that time, there was a high-ranking official in the court who would rather abandon everything and resign for the sake of his beloved man. This hit Yingzong's pain point.So Yingzong went on a killing spree, killing the one he loves most, and even more so the one who raises a male favorite. For a while, everyone in the court was in danger.

Yingzong himself took in a concubine who looked exactly like the queen mother and gave birth to the last emperor.

The last emperor knew that his biological mother was a substitute and victim of Yingzong's love and could not comfort himself, so he also hated the matter of cutting off his sleeves. It fell to our Yan family.

The ancestors of the Yan family took this as a lesson and strictly forbade the matter of cutting off sleeves.Accumulated from generation to generation, so Chen Guo formed the current atmosphere. "

Pei Liangfang was immersed in the story. He knew a lot about the affairs of the Yasukuni royal family, but he knew little about Chen Guo, let alone Kang Guo.I vaguely heard from the master that the Emperor Kang and the Queen Mother went to the valley to seek medical treatment, but I don't know the details.

Now I am even more sad after listening to it: "Sure enough, he and I are destined to be impossible if we lose our sleeves and harm the country."

Yan Sui frowned tightly, and pressed his shoulder: "That's not what I want to say. You should think about it again."

Pei Liangfang looked up at him.

"What he said is wrong, it's not your fault. Just like the queen mother in the story is not wrong, it's all Yingzong's fault."

Yan Sui threw the wine bottle on the table out of the window, and poured a cup of tea for Pei Liangfang: "I remember you said that doctors don't drink too much, so as to avoid unstable hands and inaccurate acupuncture."

Pei Liangfang pressed his trembling right hand: "Your Majesty, I'm sorry... I won't drink anymore. I won't let you have any mistakes during the caesarean section in the future."

Yan Sui stuffed the teacup into his hand: "No one can guarantee that nothing will go wrong. I just need you to do your best. Life and death are life and death. No one can guarantee it. Even if something happens to me, no one will hurt you at all."

Pei Liangfang shook his head: "Your Majesty, you are the emperor of the Chen Kingdom, so nothing will happen to you. I will practice more and make no mistakes—"

"There is nothing that cannot be done. Maybe it's because I have not fully adapted to the throne, and I often feel in a trance that I am left alone in the cold palace. From the emperor to the beggar, there is no one who must not be absent, even if it is gone. I, Chen Guo and Jingyun, will not collapse. I know you want me to be safe, on the one hand because of the benevolence of the doctors, and on the other hand because we are friends. But you don’t have to push yourself to a dead end, nothing is certain , and sometimes things backfire.”

"It didn't work out as expected..." Pei Liangfang repeated, and suddenly choked up, "Your Majesty, I seem to understand what you mean."

Yan Sui nodded: "I'm telling you the story of Yingzong, not to let you know how difficult it is for a man to fall in love, nor is it to treat the addiction of broken sleeves. For example, Xie Yi was the Yingzong back then, and he was a heartless person. , and you are the one who has been betrayed. A betrayed person will say a thousand times of fickleness, but he still has no deep affection, and a betrayed person will not become a sinner if he is accused a thousand times. Although it is difficult to distinguish right from wrong in love/love, But the principles of heaven and justice still exist, and those who have not been betrayed have to confess to the betrayer the principle of atonement.

Letting go isn't easy either.It is your right to choose to forgive or to remain decisive.You may never forget him for the rest of your life, but this is not mean, on the contrary, it shows that your affection is sincere and precious, and he is not worthy.He has no right to criticize you anymore, life will inevitably backfire, it is he who can't see through and can't let go, it is he who is messing around.

You are not incompetent.Man is not a god, but you, as a doctor, have done your best to save lives and heal the wounded with sincerity.However, there must always be defects in medicine, and the world will respect the preciousness of life more.

Have a child...do you really have to have a son?He wants too much and is too greedy, no wonder you can't give it.Even if his family has an heir to the throne, after all, the whole world is not begging him to take the throne, it must be him.In the final analysis, it is his own ambition and personal conflict, so why should you make the sacrifice?Why does he want imperial power and sincerity at the same time, but he can't ask for it and blame you instead? "

Yan Sui said a lot in one breath, and his voice was a little hoarse: "Too many things in this world have gone against our wishes, so there is the word "willing". Wrong, you just use your affection too deeply. If affection is a disease, you may never heal for the rest of your life, and you don’t have to force yourself to heal. But remember, you are right, you are not incompetent, and you are not the one who betrayed you .Don't be fooled by him."

"Your Majesty..." Pei Liangfang sniffled, suppressing the sourness that a 30-year-old man shouldn't have, "I think I am the best in the world in curing people's diseases; if it is about curing heart diseases, Your Majesty is much better than me."

It's dry to say, but it works.

Yan Sui smiled gently: "Does Miracle Doctor Pei want to worship me as a teacher?"

Pei Liang was embarrassed: "Your Majesty is joking... But Your Majesty is indeed a good material for studying medicine. I don't have any apprentices yet. If—"

Yan Sui raised his hand and called to stop: "Don't think I don't know, all the heirs of Yaowanggu have to change their surname to Pei. I have such a big family business, I can't change my surname."

After some banter, Pei Liangfang finally laughed.

Yan Sui went back to what he said to himself before: "It's good to be able to laugh. Since you want to take in apprentices, wait until Wuzhou and look for children with potential. It's not easy to raise children, and a Jingyun will make me feel happy again. It's hard work being a father and a mother, and when you have an apprentice, you won't be thinking about it."

Pei Liangfang nodded, and soon thought: "Your Majesty can still keep a distance from the officials in Yongzhou, but when you go to Wuzhou, you will inevitably have close contact with the King of Wu. When the time comes, His Majesty's stomach—"

Yan Sui said seriously: "I just want to let King Wu know."

The author says:

Your Majesty's anti-PUA class has started, Your Majesty is a good lover and a good friend;

"1" Algae and midges in the water, covered with shadows of bamboo and cypresses - quoted from "Journey to Chengtian Temple at Night"