Offensive change: superficial love

"Chu Ruxu, what do you like about me?"

After a long silence, Yan Ju sighed lightly, and firmly peeled off the other party's strong restraint from his waist: "We've only known each other for a month."

He reached out and turned on the porch light.

The pale yellow light sprinkled on the two of them softly, but the tone of Yan Jun's tone was still not gentle.

"I look very much in line with your aesthetics? My personality is in line with your orientation?"

Yan Yan smiled, pinched Chu Ruxu's face gently with his fingers, like an adult who had no choice but to face a cheating child: "To tell you something you don't like to hear, I even know your father better than you. "

"He is a very elegant man, a trustworthy partner, and a smart businessman who knows how to judge the situation. In the past two years, for some reason, he has gradually faded out of the public eye, and the direction of investment has become more cautious."

Yan Ju paused, and said uncertainly, "Maybe he is also a very good father?"

"After all, he raised you so well."

He was a little tired for some reason: "But who are you?"

"A good bed partner, a brother who is good at acting like a baby, the person who gave me a puppy, the roommate of my friend's lover, and the suitor who suddenly appeared in my life."

Yan Ju looked at Chu Ruxu affectionately: "I have no intention of abandoning you, nor do I have the right to abandon you."

"We have nothing to do with each other."

"Is not it?"

After talking with Ye Jue that day, Yan Jue actually thought carefully about whether he should try to be with Chu Ruxu.

Although he didn't really believe that a relationship could help him in the long labor pains caused by past experiences, but Chu Ruxu did bring him a new experience after all.

All the impulsive decisions made by Yan Ju in the past 25 years have not been met as many times as a month or so.

The habits he has developed over the years have caused him to have trust issues. Under the glamorous body, Yan Yan is conceited and inferior: "So what do you like about me?"

"How do I make you feel?"

"Did you feel love when I knelt down and kissed you?"

He should understand from the lessons of his parents that romance is an illusory thing, and being too obsessed with "feelings" will only continue to consume all the people around him.

After the passion and love are gone, a peaceful breakup seems to be the best ending.

Yan Ju thought, maybe he should meet someone of similar age, talk about a relationship that is sincere enough and balanced enough, and finally seek a stable state to spend his life peacefully and safely.

Instead of mustering up the courage to walk with Chu Ruxu for a while, or using the child's vain liking to deny the changeable characteristics of people.

Falling into a trap full of temptation because of repeatedly listening to "feelings", or pretending to be indifferent after the other party gets bored and withdrawing, filling his empty heart with short-term happy memories.

Yan Ji couldn't do it.

No one taught him what a good emotional relationship is, but there are countless examples telling him that he is the safest person alone.

He is just too fragile.

Therefore, it is not worth him to take a second look at anything that is vague.

"Like how I look on the bed?" Yan Ju went to the wine cabinet, picked out a bottle of chilled champagne, but only took a crystal glass, "I like the way I treat you in love Baishun?"

Yan Yan smiled, and while listing the things he thought Chu Ruxu might be interested in him, he walked towards the side hall: "Or do you mean that you virgins always have some fledgling plot?"

He turned his head and blinked at Chu Ruxu. This could be regarded as the most agile expression he showed in front of Chu Ruxu tonight.

"No way..." Yan Ju's tone was light and light, as if he was regretting, but he couldn't say that he was feeling sorry for someone, "I'm not as special as you imagined, these things... There will always be someone who can do it better than me. "

"You lack nothing, you are at your best age."

"I can't bet on your whim."

"I only have myself, and I have nothing else of value to exchange with you." Yan Ju lowered his eyes slightly, as if he was a little disappointed in himself.

Yao Chi's inadvertent reminder tonight helped him emphasize this point even more.

He is almost 26 years old, and Chu Ruxu just celebrated his 19th birthday.

Yan Jue's life has begun to stabilize as much as possible, but Chu Ruxu is still in a stage where he needs to constantly try and make mistakes.

When he started to step into the society at the age of 20, Chu Ruxu was still a child standing beside his father, ignorant and youthful, celebrating his 14th birthday.

Even going backwards, when he was 12 years old and experienced the biggest change in his life, Chu Ruxu was not yet qualified to go to elementary school.

Chu Ruxu was still a baby when he was hugged by Yan Ziyou, spinning around in the garden, and accepting the blessing of his parents that "Chang Chang will become the happiest child in the world".

If what Chu Ruxu likes is his most superficial things, then sooner or later, these things will dissipate.

He will age and lose the aura.

And Chu Ruxu lacked nothing, he was a child who was pitied by fate.

Yan Ju had nothing to sacrifice to the other party except himself.

He really didn't feel that he had enough to keep Chu Ruxu.

"I don't want anything else, and I can even give you everything I have." Chu Ruxu, who followed Yan Ju, said in a calm voice, "I only want you."

Yan Yan was leaning against the piano in the side hall. This was the only room without windows in the whole house, which was requested by Bo Lu during the renovation. It was said that it was because of this old antique that it needed less light to preserve it better.

For the time being, he didn't want to see the moon, nor did he want too much light, so this place became the best choice.

He smiled and waved to Chu Ruxu, and after the other party approached him, he stroked the other party's temples with his fingertips, and said in a whisper: "My good boy, then you are too greedy."

The image of Chu Ruxu embracing that beautiful boy keeps appearing before Yan Jue's eyes these days.

If the color on the opponent's body was a little darker, Yan Ji wouldn't feel so uncomfortable.

They are right.

It is more suitable than standing with Chu Ruxu.

I don't know if it's an illusion, but Yan Ju even thinks that their eyebrows and eyes are somewhat similar.

God's will.

A good person like Chu Ruxu shouldn't have been trapped in such a "secret" relationship by himself, consuming the reckless liking of young people, waiting for Yan Ju to give him a "title".

As far as Ju himself is concerned, he shouldn't be immersed in the emotions of worrying about gains and losses.

Under the premise of not being able to give the other party trust, everything else is a precarious castle in the air.

His doubts about himself and Chu Ruxu's feelings will make him doubt everyone who gets close to him.

Like his father, he will be consumed by the subconscious sense of inferiority, torn day after day by the fear of not being able to keep his lover, and finally fall into an irreparable abyss together with the accumulated anxiety and madness.

Yan Ji didn't want to do this.

This is the direction of life that he has been avoiding.

"You should go and try to have a normal relationship with a child of the same age." Yan Jue kissed his forehead, and said thoughtfully and cruelly, "Let you go while I'm willing."

As if masochistic, Yan Yan slowly lowered his soft kiss along the brow bone of the other party, his beautiful pupils were full of subtle paranoia: "Don't lie to me."

"Is there anyone else you like besides me?"

"It's okay to like it."

Yan Ju was grateful for the darkness of the surrounding environment, which allowed him to easily trace the eyebrows and eyes of the other party with his fingertips, but he couldn't see each other's expressions.

Because as long as Chu Ruxu could see the uneasiness fermented between his brows for three days at this moment, he would definitely feel his wavering.

Yan Ju doesn't like the feeling of being at a disadvantage.

Chu Ruxu put his hand on Yan Ju's waist reflexively. This is probably part of his muscle memory. They have hang outed too many times.

"No, only you." Chu Ruxu kissed Yan Ju's lips, and replied vaguely but firmly.

Yan Ju's toes stepped on the other's instep, as if he was not satisfied with the answer, he added: "I have no choice but to complain that he is not obedient enough, I will never harm him, I love him the most..."

"This is all like it."

After all, Yan Ju couldn't bear it anymore, and condensed the few words that had been hovering in his chest for the past few days, and squeezed them out of his sore heart with a light and careless attitude, without any concealment, Naked/naked was thrown in front of the two of them.

He was so out of control that he could indulge himself like a poor beg for love, accusing the other party of something that couldn't even be called ambiguous.

"Like" this kind of thing does not seem very healthy.

"What does this mean..." Chu Ruxu frowned, and was about to ask in confusion, but felt that these words were very familiar.

He paused, recalling the time when Yan Ju's attitude towards him began to change, and a guess suddenly popped up.

"You saw me and Qianqian that day—"

Before Chu Ruxu finished speaking, Yan Ju bit his lips hard.

Yan Ju really didn't want to hear the other party calling that name intimately, so he even forgot to hold back some strength.

A sweet smell similar to the smell of rust spread in the nostrils of the two.

Chu Ruxu let out a soft hiss, and a moment later, she firmly pressed Yan Ju's pillow with one hand, deepening the bloodshot kiss.

"Brother." After a long time, Chu Ruxu, who had finally vented her thoughts for many days, squeezed Yan Ju's neck like teasing a kitten, and asked in a soft tone, "Are you jealous?"

Yan Ji, who was breathing in a messy rhythm, didn't answer, but kicked the opponent's ankle heavily.

Chu Ruxu, who finally found the problem, finally felt relieved.

It's not because Yan Ji is tired of himself, nor is it something else inherently intractable.

Just a small misunderstanding.

A misunderstanding caused by a lack of information.

Chu Ruxu was even a little inexplicably excited.

Yan Ju is willing to be jealous about his own affairs, does it mean that the other party also cares about him a little bit?

He didn't dare to think about it carefully, and he didn't dare to create much hope for himself through brain supplementation.

Chu Ruxu took the champagne in Yan Jue's hand, felt the darkness, and slowly twirled the cork out by feeling.

There was a crisp "bang", as if celebrating something.

The refreshing citrus fragrance diffused into the air, and Chu Ruxu's answer was finally ready to come out.

"Brother, you just said a lot, can you let me say a few words now?" Chu Ruxu joked with a smile.

Yan Ji was noncommittal, but just took the half-full wine glass from his hand.

Chu Ruxu leaned over slightly, and kissed his eyelashes lightly: "Qianqian's full name is Chu Qianqiu, and he is my younger brother."

Yan Ju was slightly taken aback, but soon caught the other party's explanation, which was different from what he remembered: "Didn't Mrs. Chu die not long after giving birth to you?"

For so many years, I have never heard of Chu Jing marrying another, nor even heard that the other party has any lover, let alone the existence of the third child in the Chu family.

Chu Ruxu pecked at his Adam's apple: "As long as brother likes, you can get to know me little by little, from the inside to the outside, from the past to the present, I can tell you slowly."

"Don't be angry, and don't be angry with me." He gently hugged Yan Ji, like a child who has just been frightened and urgently needs comfort, his tone even contained a bit of grievance, "Don't even want me, I only have you... ..."

Chu Ruxu took Yan Ju's hand, brought the tulip cup he was twisting to her mouth, looked for the position that the other party had just used, and took a shallow sip: "Leave aside these things, obviously, you don't understand my father."

"Wen Yixu is not my mother either. Qianqian's mother and I have been hidden by Chu Jing for 20 years."

Yan Ju was a little surprised, he patted Chu Ruxu on the shoulder, didn't intend to ask anything, just listened quietly.

"I was an accident, and when I was born, Mrs. Chu had already had terminal cancer and could only undergo conservative treatment. In order to express her guilt towards his wife, Chu Jing declared that I was Wen Yixu's child and used her The word "Xu" gave me a name. "

"I haven't really understood the logic of this. It's not affectionate to say that it's affectionate, but it's quite disgusting."

"It's ridiculous." Chu Ruxu concluded, "My mother looks eighty-tenths like that Mrs. Chu when she was young, and Qianqiu also inherited my mother's appearance. The one most like Chu Jing."

"That's why he hates me the most."

"Before I was ten years old, I only met Chu Jing three times, but Chu Qianze always came to talk to me. He really thought that Chu Jing hated me because "our mother" lost her body because of me. "

"But probably I was born to conquer the Chu family." Chu Ruxu kissed Yan Ju's side face, and said nonchalantly, "On the day of my full moon, Mrs. Chu passed away, and on my 12th birthday, Chu Qianze also died."

"Oh yes, Chu Jing himself is not doing well now." Chu Ruxu blinked at Yan Ju, "Do you know why he has faded out of the public eye these two years?"

Yan Ju shook his head, hesitated for a moment, then rubbed Chu Ruxu's head affectionately.

"He has AD, which is dementia." Chu Ruxu said plainly, "Since the beginning of this year, he can't even take care of himself."

"Qianqian is just a little brat, spoiled by him and his mother so much that he doesn't know anything but playing every day. Of course, the task of inheriting the Chu family falls to me, a fake." Chu Ruxu shrugged, "He It requires me to formally take over after graduation, but with professional managers around, I don’t really need to do anything, just dawdle and learn slowly.”

After finishing speaking, Chu Ruxu paused for a moment, gently kissed Yan Ju who had been keeping quiet all this time, and asked teasingly, "Is there anything else you want to know, brother?"

"My story is meaningless. It's a very ordinary grievance between a wealthy family. A little unlucky guy with a bad name and a bad name. When he grows up, he relies on luck to easily counterattack. The script is not as thrilling as it is in a TV drama."

After being silent for a few seconds, Yan Ju stretched out his hand and pinched Chu Ruxu's earlobe, as if he was nervous, and asked tentatively in a low voice, "I don't quite understand what link this is."

"In exchange, do I also need to analyze myself with you?"

Chu Ruxu was taken aback by the question, but after a while, she laughed softly.

As if he was so cute by Yan Ji, he lowered his head and kissed each other, and after struggling for a long time, he gave the answer: "No need."

"Yan Ju, although I don't understand what you're upset about, what I want to tell you is." Chu Ruxu pinched Yan Ju's jaw with her fingers, with a bit of hoarseness wrapped in desire, but the lines between the words were full of tenderness "You don't need to do anything for me."

"You can lie to me, mistrust me, and hide anything from me that you don't want me to know."

"Just try to like me as much as you can."

Chu Ruxu picked up Yan Ju, lightly supported his legs, and carefully placed him on the piano cover like a delicate work of art.

"Or, it doesn't matter if you don't like me." Chu Ruxu's breath poured into Yan Ju's ear, making him want to dodge in the opposite direction.

But Chu Ruxu seemed to have expected it a long time ago, and put his hand on Yan Ju's fragile neck first, as if threatening, slowly tightened it tighter, but at the moment Yan Ju was about to be immersed in lust/desire, suddenly Relaxed.

Chu Ruxu probably liked Yan Ju's mesmerizing reaction to being treated roughly by him. He tore off the other's suit jacket, and slowly undid the bow tie and the top three buttons. The rewards were the same. Yan Ji's Adam's apple kissed all the way to the beautifully shaped collarbone.

"Allow me to stay by your side."

Chu Ruxu kissed Yan Ju indulgently, and a vague self-confession flowed from his lips and teeth, with the sincerity and enthusiasm of a young man, but also hidden the cunning of opportunism.

He knew that Yan Ju couldn't refuse him at this time.

He didn't want to be rejected either.

Whether it's to seduce, or win sympathy, or even say that he is taking advantage of others' danger.

Chu Ruxu only knows how to seize the opportunity at the right time.

His voice was hoarse, his tone was strong as if he was threatening, but his attitude was as humble as if he was begging for mercy: "Yan Ji."

"Try it with me."

"Don't want me..."

……

In a daze, Yan Ju remembered that he seemed to agree.

But he subconsciously felt that this was wrong, but Chu Ruxu didn't give him any chance to repent. Once he realized that he had a tendency to say something that the other party didn't like to hear, Chu Ruxu would take more drastic actions to get rid of his words. The remaining sanity was completely shattered.

"Brother, I've always wanted to ask." Chu Ruxu clamped Yan Ju's chin from behind, lifted his upper body slightly, and leaned close to his ear, asking in a low voice, "You don't know how to play the piano?" Bar?"

"Then whose is it, huh?"

After many times of practice, Yan Ju has learned to be smart.

In this way, Chu Ruxu knew clearly, but insisted on bringing up the question of pretending to be ignorant at this moment, in essence, it was just to torture him.

Seeing that Yan Ju remained silent, Chu Ruxu didn't intend to stop there.

"Oh——" Chu Ruxu pretended to have suddenly realized, and pretended to be emotional, "It's also his thing."

"Brother, I'm jealous again." Chu Ruxu lowered her head and bit the back of Yan Jue's neck, until a small purple-red ambiguous/ambiguous trace appeared on it, and finally gave up.

He turned Yan Ji who was in a daze directly, and kissed him softly, until Yan Ji groaned in a different tone, then he laughed and teased: "Are you acting like this in front of him too?"

"Who will make you happier, me or him?"

Yan Ju half-closed his eyes, shook his head with difficulty, and squeezed out a broken answer from his throat: "You."

"Don't ask..."

Finally satisfied, Chu Ruxu squeezed Yan Ju's ears, and joked lightly: "I really want him to admire you like this."

His voice was low and hoarse, as if bewitching: "He will definitely go crazy for you too..."

As soon as the words fell, Yan Ju was about to respond to the other party with a hazy consciousness, but the light in the living room suddenly turned on.

Yan Ju's body froze, and he woke up in an instant. He widened his eyes in a daze and panic, and patted Chu Ruxu's back as if to blame. His voice trembled, and he managed to condense into a complete sentence, but it was smashed into pieces in the next second.

Chu Ruxu pulled the velvet cloth that was used to cover the piano from the side, put it lightly on Yan Ju's body, held him tightly in her arms, and looked back vigilantly.

"Baby, are you home?"

A voice of inquiry mixed with the sound of leather shoes hitting the floor got closer and closer to them.

Yan Ju obviously recognized who the owner of the voice was, and immediately struggled to get up.

And Chu Ruxu also keenly guessed Yan Ju's identity from Yan Ju's reaction.

He was angry and funny, and even a little inexplicably excited.

Chu Ruxu bit the tip of Yan Jie's nose, and said softly, "We will not change the password when we break up."

"Brother, are you looking forward to this kind of scene?"

"I...I didn't..." Yan Ju's negative words were intermittent, the corners of his eyes were red, and he was shedding physiological tears unconsciously, with a pitiful appearance of being bullied miserably.

Chu Ruxu kissed him reassuringly, and then paused pretending to be thoughtful: "It's a pity, I knew I would be in the kitchen today."

"Let him see it as soon as he enters the door, the effect will definitely be better."

Before the words fell, the sound of footsteps had already arrived nearby.

Yan Ju was ashamed, angry and exhausted, unable to change the form in front of him at all, so he could only pretend to be an ostrich, and buried his whole face in Chu Ruxu's shoulder as if escaping from reality.

But Chu Ruxu was very excited, and even took some time to tidy up the messy hairstyle that was scratched by Yan Jue.

In the next second, the sound of a heavy object falling to the ground came from the door, followed by the sound of glass shattering.

The aroma of overripe grapes mixed with a strong smell of alcohol quickly diffused in the room.

"Yan, Yan Ji..."

Bo Lu's voice was uncommonly trembling, as if it was extremely unbelievable.

But Chu Ruxu was very at ease.

He tugged the dark red flannel covering Yan Ji's body again, turned his face to look at Bo Lu casually, raised the champagne glass next to him provocatively, and paid a far respect to the shocked Bo Lu.

Chu Ruxu gently lifted Yan Ju's chin with her index finger, forcing him to raise his head, and leaned over to his ear, and asked with a sarcasm in a voice that the three of them could clearly distinguish, "Brother."

"Who is this uncle?"

The helpless Yan Ju simply broke the can, and cooperated with Chu Ruxu to push the play to its climax.

He didn't even bother to lift his eyelids, half-closed his eyes, and pecked lightly on the tip of the other's nose: "It's just a partner who doesn't understand the boundary between public and private."

Yan Ju's soft tone was full of helplessness and deliberate spoiling: "Chu Ruxu."

"Get him out of here."

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The author says:

Come, come, come -3-

This chapter is two chapters in one.

Hmm... It should be regarded as establishing a relationship, but it still needs to be worked out slowly.

Kiss everyone -3-

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