Offensive change: superficial love

"This is the first time you have taken the initiative to find me." 21-year-old Bai Lu smiled and said to 19-year-old Yan Ji, "I am very surprised."

But his expression is not surprising at all, the sharp eyes behind the rimless glasses are slightly curved, and the arc of the lips is polite and alienated, giving people a shrewd feeling that he will always be calculated by him.

"Do you want to be with me, right?" Yan Ju looked at him frankly, but there was no usual brilliance in those beautiful eyes, as if they were covered with a layer of dim mist. "I'm not sure if I really like men, and I'm not sure if I really like you."

Yan Ju paused, then continued, "But I want to try."

"Try it with you."

The smile on Bai Lu's face was stronger, and he was even vaguely excited, but it didn't look like the joy that a loved one should have after responding to his heart, but it was similar to the sense of accomplishment after conquering an unattainable goal.

He jumped off the window sill where he was sitting, and walked slowly but firmly in front of Yan Ji.

Bo Lu bent down and kissed Yan Ju's forehead softly, whispered, and promised in a solemn tone: "It's okay."

"Like is too fluffy a word, I don't care."

"As long as you are willing to stay by my side."

A gust of wind blows the petals of white lilac outside the window, like a snowflake in early summer...

"Chang Chang, come out, it's snowing!"

The screen jumps instantly.

The 12-year-old Yan Ziyou came out of the house with his schoolbag on his back, and put a shawl on Yan Ziyou's body with a smile. Like his father, he gently helped Yan Ziyou tidy his temple hair, and reminded him intimately: : "It's cold, come out to paint when the sun is shining tomorrow."

Yan Ziyou was inexplicably dazed when he heard Yan Ji's strange hoarse voice during his voice change period, as if before that, he hadn't realized at all that his son was no longer the one with a milky voice who only softly called "Mom" kid.

But obviously they live together every day.

But Yan Ziyou didn't think about it to any extent because of this, she was just stunned for a moment, and after a while, she showed a bright smile again.

The falling snowflakes set off her delicate facial features particularly brightly.

Yan Ziyou lowered his head slightly, looked at Yan Ju's eyes that were almost exactly the same as hers, and sighed thoughtfully, with a bit of regret in his tone: "When did Chang Chang grow up so big?"

Yan Ju knew his mother's personality well, and he was no stranger to the other party's jumping off. He coaxed like teasing a child: "Yesterday, maybe this morning, it was too sudden, and I haven't reacted yet."

Yan Ziyou was amused by him and giggled, like a young girl in her prime.

"If mom is going to a far away place, would Chang Chang be willing to accompany me?" Yan Ziyou asked abruptly, but his attitude was as light as usual.

Yan Ji didn't think much about it, he just thought it was the most common of the countless strange questions the other party asked every day.

"It's enough for mom to always be with dad, I'm not that important." Yan Jue replied flatly, trying to hide his emotional loneliness with a nonchalant tone.

Yan Ziyou looked at him and smiled silently, as if with some inexplicable nostalgia.

"That's right." She gently stroked the top of Yan Ji's hair, showing a rare bit of mother's pampering attitude towards her child.

It seems to be stating the facts, and it seems to be making a happy wish.

Yan Ziyou took Yan Ju into his arms, and said softly and meaningfully, "We, Chang Chang, still need to grow up well."

"I still want to live freely and meet countless people who love you in the future."

"Mom doesn't need you to accompany her, so don't miss her..."

……

Yan Yu opened his eyes.

Consciousness gradually came back, but he was a little dazed.

Dreaming about Bo Lu is nothing but bad luck, after all, the other party has become the key word that triggers Chu Ruxu's "perpetual motion machine mode".

But why did he dream of Yan Ziyou?

Still such an inexplicable memory.

This is probably a few sporadic conversations between the two in the garden at home half a year before their mother passed away.

Nothing special.

Yan Ju is really a little strange, he rarely dreamed about the other party these years.

Maybe it was her mother's phrase "Don't miss her mother" that was really making a wish. Even when she just passed away, Yan Ji couldn't dream of her.

After so many years, he even thought that he would no longer be able to present that bright smiling face in front of his eyes without a photo reminder.

But dreams are a wonderful thing.

Yan Ju could even smell the gardenia in her hair.

……

"Why don't you sleep a little longer?" Chu Ruxu's vague voice came from behind.

Half-dream and half-awake, the other party increased the strength around Yan Ji's waist like a conditioned reflex.

Yan Ju was a little out of breath.

The steady and warm embrace quickly evaporated his uneasiness disturbed by the nightmare, Yan Ju couldn't help twitching the corners of his mouth: "I can't sleep anymore."

He raised Chu Ruxu's hand on his side, and after freeing up some space, he turned over and hugged him frontally.

"Chat with me." Yan Ju rested his chin lightly on Chu Ruxu's neck, like a feline hiding evil thoughts. When he is not sleepy, others should not think about resting.

The posture of snuggling like a couple always brings intimacy to each other.

As if there is no need to define the relationship between the two, they are still inseparable from anyone.

Yan Ju even felt that sticky sticking after passion was more ambiguous than sex/things going on.

The latter is only about short-term physical infatuation, while the former is derived from the latter and is similar to the illusion of love.

Yan Ju hasn't had a haircut for a long time, and the idle vacation doesn't require him to maintain that elite appearance all the time.

The broken hair behind the ear swept across Chu Ruxu's face with his movements, bringing a tingling itchiness.

Chu Ruxu slowly opened his eyes, stared at Yan Ju with half-closed eyes for two seconds, and then couldn't help laughing. He squeezed the other's waist as if punishing him, and then put his hand on Yan Ju's pillow, The distance between them shortened again.

"Are you satisfied with my performance?" Chu Ruxu kissed Yan Jun's forehead naturally, and joked lazily, "Why are you so active?"

Chu Ruxu, who has mastered what he likes, plays very crazy, with many tricks, probably because he just finished the exam and urgently needs to release the intensive pressure of the previous period. other side.

Chu Ruxu is so obedient, once Yan Ju shows real dissatisfaction, he will stop immediately in a panic, and apologize sincerely and pitifully.

Afterwards, recalling those details, Yan Ji suddenly realized that he didn't seem to have any aversion to it, and even enjoyed the low value of this particular situation.

It seems like this, he can temporarily escape from the tense life, and calmly indulge himself into the bottom desire.

There is no need to constantly think about being responsible for your own actions and the actions of others.

Yan Yan smiled and raised his eyes slightly, then lowered his head and bit his collarbone moderately, and replied in a provocative tone: "It's okay, I'm so bored that I fell asleep later."

Chu Ruxu, who was still very confident in himself, laughed out loud. He felt that Yan Jue was too attractive. His eyes were deep, and he slowly moved his soft lips down along the browbones and bridge of the nose of the other party, and finally twisted and twisted. After exchanging a long and deep kiss with Yan Jie, he restored the truth of the matter with a hoarse voice: "Did you fall asleep from boredom, or fainted from exhaustion?"

Yan Ju glanced at him, pretending to be casual and said: "I'm not tired, I'm physically strong."

"Oh——" Chu Ruxu raised his eyebrows as if suddenly realized, and then pecked Yan Ju's hair heavily, like a child who got his favorite toy and couldn't put it down, and couldn't like it enough.

There is a gentle smile between the lines of his words: "It's not tired."

"It's so comfortable that I'm dizzy."

Yan Ju was really dumbfounded.

Anything docile and well-behaved is false.

The adjective innocent boy has nothing to do with Chu Ruxu.

Except for the jerky feeling of being at a loss for the first time, this person is not at all like a child who has never had a first love, whether it is the skills to please him in love/things or the ease of flirting.

"Have you really never been in a relationship?" Yan Ju pinched his face and asked teasingly.

Chu Ruxu was good-tempered and let him rub and flatten, blinked her eyes, and pretended to be innocent: "Brother, do you want to talk to me?"

"If you promise me, then I have finally talked."

Yan Ju rolled his eyes, this time he didn't try to avoid it, but replied frankly, "I'll think about it."

Chu Ruxu, who did not expect to get a response, was unavoidably startled.

Apparently, being dazed and not daring to act rashly really made him a little silly.

Yan Ju pursed his lips unconsciously.

This look is a bit naive and ignorant of the meaning of male students.

Otherwise, I really don't have the real feeling of spoiling children.

Chu Ruxu was so handy that she looked like a club head who was quite adapted to adult games.

"Really?!" Chu Ruxu obviously sensed Yan Ju's loose attitude, exclaimed excitedly, and sat up instantly from the bed.

Yan Ju also propped up his weak body, leaning against the head of the bed, and after a "hmm", he replied lightly, "Just for a few days."

"I'll give you an answer soon." He raised his eyebrows, speaking as if teasing, but his tone was very serious.

Chu Ruxu was so happy that she didn't know how to behave well, she rushed forward to hold Yan Ji's face, and kissed kisses one after another without any desire, even annoying.

It's like going crazy with brownies.

But after all, Chu Ruxu was a little older, and she still had a certain ability to control herself, but she kissed and kissed dryly, not crazy enough to stick out her tongue to lick.

Yan Ju briefly thought about it, and couldn't help laughing again.

"I want to smoke." Yan Ju twirled his fingertips.

There are a lot of things recently, and he smokes a bit frequently, which has hooked up his sporadic addiction again.

Chu Ruxu didn't stop her, she was very obedient: "I'll call the housekeeper."

Yan Jue nodded in satisfaction, and commanded "with pride": "Pass me the phone."

Chu Ruxu pulled off the bathrobe on the bedside, wrapped it up in a disguised manner, then went outside and retrieved Yan Ju's cell phone.

While the other party was looking for the housekeeper's contact information, Yan Ju checked the news.

Bai Lu's dialog box shows that there are several unread messages, but Yan Ju doesn't intend to click on them.

If it was an important business matter, he or Assistant Kang would come to him directly. Since it was not an important matter, there was no need for Yan Ji to use the other party to affect his good mood.

Last night, he and Chu Ruxu started messing around before it was dark, and it might have been midnight when they finished falling asleep. Now that he woke up, it was only three or four in the morning. Outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, the misty sky over the mountains Dimly bright.

Ye Jue posted a circle of friends about taking Brownie to the park after ten o'clock.

In the private chat, I did not forget to extend my greetings to Yan Ji.

【Ye Jue: You and Xiao Chu can play for two more days, I get along really well with Brownie. 】

【Ye Jue: Oh, Brownie is closer to me than you are now, and looks more like me. I don’t think I will call you daddy anymore, just treat me as my son. 】

The accompanying picture is a group photo of a person and a dog, with similar bright smiles, almost identical crystal blue pupils, and Pei Yanqiu, who is obviously not friendly in the background and has the demeanor of a "vicious stepmother".

Yan Yan sneered, looked up at Chu Ruxu thoughtfully for a few seconds, and then said, "Hey, my son has a new father who doesn't want me anymore, what should I do?"

Chu Ruxu reacted quickly: "Brownie seems to really like Brother Ye Jue."

Yan Ju twitched his lips childishly, and muttered teasingly, "It's just not possible to adopt."

Chu Ruxu was amused by him, threw away the work in hand, walked up to Yan Jun again, and said in a joking tone: "Indeed, it's still reliable."

After finishing speaking, he bit Yan Ji's lips firmly, skillfully fiddled with the other's desire, wrapped in the salty smell that had not completely faded in the air for a long time, until the breathing of both of them became heavy again: "Stop smoking, let's work harder."

Chu Ruxu's tone was sincere and sincere, not as if he was joking, but as if he was really discussing a feasible plan with Yan Jue: "Can we get it in this time?"

"Otherwise, why don't you come with your own child?"

Chu Ruxu narrowed her eyes slightly, a hint of cunning flashed in her eyes, but her expression was clearly innocent.

His fine eyelashes trembled slightly, and his eyes shone with anticipation, like a child who is trying to please his parents. If he didn't know the bad intentions hidden between the lines, no one would be able to see it based on the surface. He's making such bastard demands.

Yan Ji was also a little dazed by his appearance.

But before the order of refusal was output from the rational brain structure, his pampering child instinct took the lead and gave Chu Ruxu a satisfactory answer.

"Row."

"Anyway, I can't afford it."

The author says:

Come, come, come -3-

A new chapter of PTSD is coming soon.

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