can you stop thinking about it

After promising Lin Hui, Ruan Yu worried that Gu Xiuhan would not allow him to go out to play.

After all, this person has been so dizzy from smoking fish recently.

If it wasn't for the fear of making Ruan Yu cry, Gu Xiuhan would probably have done the perverted thing of keeping Ruan Yu in his arms from morning to night, reviewing official documents and smelling them endlessly.

Whether to do it or not is another matter. I think about it, and I can read it clearly in Ruan language.

Ruan Yu imagined how Gu Xiuhan, who had completely torn off the abstinence disguise, would react if he told Gu Xiuhan that he was going to a party and didn't plan to bring him.

I will probably be imprisoned in my limbs, unable to move.

An arm that is out of proportion will cause a little pain in the body, but you can't cry out the pain, because if you shout, Gu Xiuhan will become more scary.

The pupils were so dark that one glance would make one's skull numb, and the eyes slowly and coldly traced from the eyebrows to the chin.

……

This appearance can obviously stop the cubs from crying at night, but the heart sound is unexpectedly fragile and pitiful.

He will call Ruan Ruan repeatedly.

Sometimes I call him baby.

Obviously his appearance is so cold and solemn that he has nothing to do with this kind of sticky address, but he still calls it like this.

It seems that the cherishment and love in my heart have overflowed to the point where I can't help it, and I'm so fascinated that I won't be able to bear it if I don't express it in this way.

As a result, Ruan Yu couldn't do anything about Gu Xiuhan, as soon as he was coaxed by him, he turned into a puddle of soft fish cakes, so soft that the fish tails couldn't even flop.

In this way, when the time comes, Gu Xiuhan can only say what it is, and at most he will groan and say no, but in the end he has to release Lin Hui's pigeon with tears in his eyes.

Ruan Yu had indeed been bullied by Gu Xiuhan these days to the point of stress and dizziness. She rehearsed it in her head without authorization, and angrily concluded that "Gu Xiuhan is no longer the one who treats me well." Brother Xiuhan who is always obedient and obedient, and he is very unreasonable and won't let me and sister Xiaohui go out to play" The conclusion of the mystery...I don't know who is more unreasonable.

As a result, Ruan Yu sneaked out to attend the party this afternoon while Gu Xiuhan was leaving the residence.

It was a rare rebellion under Gu Xiuhan's eyes. Ruan Yu was half cowardly and half arrogant, hesitating to raise her tail and rebel to the end, and stopped the waiter to ask for the cocktail from last time in a low voice before the sofa was warm.Before the words finished, Lin Hui, who considered herself a single mother of Yu Baobao, stepped forward to obstruct Ruan Yu mercilessly, stuffed a glass of zero-alcohol juice drink into Ruan Yu's hand, and pinched her face contentedly.

"Be good, baby, I don't dare to let you make a mistake." Lin Hui directly seized the position next to Ruan Yu, occupying the favorable terrain for sucking fish, and said carelessly, "If you drink like a little drunk fish with me, you Brother, why don't you kick me and my brother into the sea to pick up garbage..."

[Speaking of which... Admiral Gu's desire to possess and protect my cub is absolutely absolute. ]

[The affectionate energy that stared at Ruan Ruan when I participated in the ball last time, ouch~ and that precious energy, Ruan Ruan in the whole world didn't realize it...Pfft...]

[But I'm not stupid anyway!My pup's little head is just slippery! ]

[Wait... what am I thinking in front of him. ]

[grass. ]

[......]

[Did you hear that? !Ahhhhhhhhhh!sorry I forgot! ]

"Brother Xiuhan is very reasonable, he won't punish you for picking up trash..." Ruan Yu retorted subconsciously, his ears moved slightly, and his face suddenly flushed, "Miss Xiaohui, can you think of something else?"

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!" Lin Hui blushed and yelled, "I thought I could control it. This head is disobedient. I'll help you teach it a lesson. I'll punish myself with three brains, okay..."

"No, it's okay, Miss Hui, that," Ruan Yu was so ashamed that steam came out of his ears, wishing he could dive into the sea and find a giant clam shell to get in, trying to calm down and comfort Lin Hui in a low voice, "Let's play something , just to distract you..."

He is really not angry. After all, he has long been used to the strange brain circuits of human beings, and when his ability is advanced, he can also control the ability to read brain signals to a certain extent. Listen, it's not a problem.

He just felt a little troubled.

Because the key words in Lin Hui's heartbeat were echoing non-stop in her ears, as stubborn as if they had grown in her ears.

That baby is strong.

deep feeling.

What……

Gu Xiuhan's deep eyebrows flashed in Ruan Yu's mind.

The pupils are like a thin shell of ice covered with ink, cool but bright, when the eyes are quietly fixed on Ruan Yu's face, it is indeed... affectionate.

Very precise description.

It's a good thing to be liked so sincerely, but Ruan Yu seemed to be bullied, the corners of his mouth drooped slightly.

Because my heart was so sad that I felt like I was pinched by that word.

"..."

Ruan Yu lowered his eyelashes and chased after the pure juice version Bobo balls at the bottom of the suction cup. He suspected that what Lin Hui gave him was a special version for small ingredients.

But not as good as the drink on the day of the dance.

Sour and not sweet at all.

Most of the people who came to the party were students from the same college as Lin Hui. Anyone who could be invited by Lin Hui to play was good. There was nothing to say strange things with their heart sounds. They are all like Lin Hui, who accidentally took a few sips of their thoughts and realized that the Lord is right in front of them, so they hurriedly cleaned up the waste... These people taught Ruan Yu a few small party games, and Ruan Yu cooperated carefully and played very well I am happy, but half of my mind is always wandering elsewhere in a trance.

He obviously wanted to escape for a day to cool down his brain.

How could he miss Gu Xiuhan after only sneaking out for an hour?

Is there any hope for Ruan Yu?

Because she was absent-minded all the time, and her mental state was comparable to sleepwalking, Ruan Yu didn't realize that it had been several hours since the sunset until the end of the show.

He usually comes out to play and returns home shortly after dark.

Ruan Yu bid farewell to the new friends, and walked back quickly while checking several communication software on the brain, fearing that Gu Xiuhan would send a message to scold him, but it turned out that there was no scolding but no other news. The apprehension value suddenly doubled several times.

The arrogance of sneaking out is gone now, only cowardice remains, Ruan Yu tentatively sent a message to Gu Xiuhan asking what he was doing, but Gu Xiuhan didn't reply.

It's over, he must be angry that he went out to play until almost midnight without saying hello.

Back at the residence, Ruan Yu anxiously unlocked the door with her fingerprints. She wanted to open the door to take a peek at the situation, but as soon as she got close to her face, she was staggered by the strong smell of alcohol in the living room.

The lights in the whole house were not turned on, only the dim cold light cast by the satellite outside the floor-to-ceiling windows barely outlined the slender figure on the sofa and a pile of wine bottles standing or lying on the low table, making the atmosphere extraordinarily desolate and lonely.

Ruan Yuren was dumbfounded.

He stood outside the door in a daze for a while, not daring to make any big moves, and walked quietly sideways, squeezing in through the crack of the door like a small crab, and then carefully closed the door, his face tensed in panic.

Gu Xiuhan has always been synonymous with self-restraint and self-denial. He never touches alcohol, which can damage his rationality, and it is even more impossible for him to be so decadent that he smells of alcohol all over his body.

How come... drank so much wine.

In fact, there was no need to ask, no matter how stupid he was, he would know that it was because he was still out drinking and drinking in the middle of the night, so he was in a bad mood—although he was not allowed to drink without flowers.

Ruan Yu looked ashamed, curled his fingers tightly, and the palm lines were sweating.

After a period of tormenting silence, Gu Xiuhan finally spoke.

"Going to play."

It is a question, but it is very firm.

Maybe the guards called to report.

"Well, that's with Sister Xiaohui and the others..."

Ruan Yu was about to say some cheerful nonsense to ease the atmosphere, when he caught two deep and gloomy heart sounds.

[Grow up and have friends. ]

[Ruan Ruan...]

[Stay away from me. ]

"how come!"

Ruan Yu shook his head desperately in astonishment, and was preparing to discuss the manuscript when Gu Xiuhan stood up and walked over to him.

Strange to say, the smell of alcohol in the room was dissipated after Gu Xiuhan got close, as if no amount of wine could cover the cold frosty smell on his body.

"Ruan Ruan..." Gu Xiuhan lowered his eyes, the dark environment made those black eyes darker, more dangerous, and deeper.

With just one glance, sweat broke out on Ruan Yu's back.

"Hate me?"

[Hate enough to sneak out. ]

[Just because I like you. ]

[Are you... annoyed when you see me? ]

"I didn't, I really didn't, don't guess by yourself..."

Being hated because he likes the other party, Ruan Yu just needs to think about this kind of thing for a second, and he is so hurt that he wants to cry.

He stood on tiptoe anxiously, trying to coax the big wolfhound whose ears seemed to be drooping, rubbed his hair and put it against his face, but he was afraid that Gu Xiuhan, who was obviously not in the right state of mind, dragged him to the sofa Arched and fiddled, so I had no choice but to back off, asking out of words, "Are you drunk?"

"No."

Gu Xiuhan took another step closer.

"Then you are...jealous."

Ruan Yu wanted to take advantage of the situation and explain that there was no need. Most of the people we played with today were girls. Although there were boys, they were all good students. No one thought anything strange about him, at most they murmured "so cute" in their hearts Like that, how can there be any vinegar that tastes good.

Gu Xiuhan lowered his head and stared at Ruan Yu, was strangely silent for a moment, and then said "Mmm".

And in that few seconds of silence, a series of images invaded Ruan Yu's mind.

First, a pair of white and tender wrists tightly bound by the military belt.

The other end of the belt was knotted on the pillar, because the owner of the wrist was struggling constantly, but without much strength, the wooden bed frame knocked slightly against the wall, making a rattling sound.

It wasn't until those red wrists were exhausted that they sank deep into the goose down soft pillow accompanied by delicate sobs.

Ruan Yu's face froze with fright.

[Read it? ]

Gu Xiuhan didn't even twitch his brows, and let him read as if he had broken a jar.

[Very jealous. ]

[Are the boys I met new good-looking? ]

[They should be around your age. ]

[I can't wait to catch you back. ]

[......]

Heart sounds bursting out one after another, and I was so jealous that I was confused.

"Don't think about it anymore..."

Ruan Yu avoided looking at each other in panic, trying to turn his face away, but his jaw was clamped after turning a slight angle.

Gu Xiuhan's palm was very big, and he held Ruan Yu's chin and half of his face like holding a small handful of snow. It looked so arrogant that he lost his mind, but in fact, the strength was like a caress.

The blue veins on the forearm and the back of the hand exploded, and it was just wrestling with oneself.

I don't want to hurt people anyway.

No matter how angry and sour, I can't bear it.

Ruan Yu was both shy and frightened, her face turned white and red and she raised her head, pitifully being pinched.

"...I'm sorry, Ruan Ruan." Just when Ruan Yu thought that Gu Xiuhan might really want to bully others cruelly this time, the shackles on his cheeks suddenly loosened.

"I lost my temper again."

Gu Xiuhan withdrew his hand, his voice hoarse.

[I'm just afraid that you will leave me. ]

[I know it's selfish to think like that. ]

[I don't want to scare you, but every time I do... I'm sorry. ]

[Those things are really just thinking about, not doing. ]

[......]

"Don't bother you anymore, go and rest."

Whether it's heart sounds or spoken words, every sentence is pitiful.

Ruan Yu almost imagined a wolfhound whose wound was so painful that he couldn't help whimpering, and who was gritting his teeth and pretending to be tough.

Wanting to comfort and explain a few words, Gu Xiuhan has already returned to the room.

Ruan Yu was originally soft-hearted and easy to empathize with, but after being so aroused, she didn't calm down for a while, her eye circles and nose tip were red.

Although it was midnight, it was impossible to sleep, so I could only lie on the bed and spread fish cakes over and over again.

I always feel that Gu Xiuhan's whole person is different today, there is something unspeakable... not right.

But the heart sounds were read clearly, that's what Gu Xiuhan thought.

No matter how strong Brother Xiu Han's concentration is, he won't even be able to fake his heart sounds.

Thinking of this, it seemed that some memory fragments from the infancy flashed through his mind, but Ruan Yu was so confused that he couldn't catch it. Instead, he remembered the words that Lin Hui was thinking in the afternoon.

- very affectionate.

— very precious.

Perhaps since the moment the iron giant manipulated by Gu Xiuhan was picked up from the ocean, Ruan Yu never swam out of that gentle and huge palm.

Has been carefully and cautiously held in the palm of the hand.

The inexplicable sadness in Ruan Yu's chest surged again, it was not strong, it was as soft as a spider's silk, but it was all afternoon and night, and it was still entangled and could not be shaken off.

Maybe it was because she was feeling sad for Gu Xiuhan who secretly and deeply liked him for a long time.

Sad for Gu Xiuhan's bitterness, bitterness, longing, and forbearance.

This turbulent emotion wave after wave, like a rising tide, gradually drowned out all other hesitation and fear.

I don't want Gu Xiuhan to show that kind of eyes that he tried to be calm even though he was injured.

Ruan Yu hoped that Gu Xiuhan would be sad, jealous, unhappy, and whatever he wanted... be able to tell him openly.

He wants to respond to love, and he will work hard to understand, bear, and adapt to those disappointments.

He wanted to accept Gu Xiuhan little by little.

It's just that there are a few details that need to be negotiated before the formal relationship, Ruan Yu slowly straightened out his thoughts, and slipped down to find Gu Xiuhan.

Ruan Yu obviously looks like a giant when he thinks, but he is not only a dwarf when he acts, he is a dwarf at all. Just knocking on Gu Xiuhan's door has exhausted all his face, and he pretends to be steady and lifts his foot to Gu Xiuhan's bed. When I had a long talk with others, my feet were so soft that I tripped over the slippers on the ground, and fell on Gu Xiuhan's lap with an ah.

Ruan Yu: "..."

Even the ears and collarbone were red.

There was a moment of embarrassment that made me want to lie and say I was sleepwalking.

"What's wrong."

Suddenly, Ruan Yu's ribs tightened, and Ruan Yu was caught by his hands, and he was picked up like a cat and placed on his lap. When he raised his head, he was facing Gu Xiuhan's deep and quiet black eyes and slightly frowned eyebrows. very close.

"Brother Xiuhan, I'm here..."

Ruan Yu licked her lower lip nervously.

The thin breath became moist and fragrant.

"I'm here to confess to you."

Gu Xiuhan's breathing became heavy, and his eyes changed.

"But we need to negotiate first." Ruan Yu couldn't bear the scorching gaze, turned his face a little, and the earlobe not covered by the silver hair was as red as a coral bead.

You have to promise me that you can tell me what you want in the future, you can do whatever you want, but you can't be too impatient or excited, let me get used to it slowly, and you can't force it.

——This is the content of the negotiation.

But it may be that excessive nervousness caused intermittent bouts of stupidity. Under Gu Xiuhan's oppressive gaze, Ruan Yu hurriedly picked the most outrageous sentence from the carefully written manuscripts in his stomach.

"Actually, you..." The beautiful little mermaid sitting on her body was pure and shy, her snow-white skin was burned to a passionate pink, but she still mustered up her courage and said in a trembling voice, "Do you want to treat me like this?" Anything can be done.”

……

……

What is this nonsense.

Knowing that Ruan Yu probably didn't mean that.

But Gu Xiuhan still clearly heard a loud buzzing coming from the depths of his mind.