After the top green tea is worn to the love

"Baby, all I want is you."

At this time, the night light is dim, and the warm yellow light of the desk lamp on the desk is soft, and small flying insects are hovering in front of the light, trying to get the light closer.

The soft light shone on little Qin Yue's side face, and her viscous and gloomy temperament was greatly relieved.

"I don't want anything else. You don't have to worry about me robbing you of something. On the contrary, I will give you mine."

"I will give you everything I have."

Little Qin Yue assured Meng Ziqing that her pure blue eyes were burning brightly, which contained her stubbornness towards Meng Ziqing. She was clearly still a teenager, but the appearance of her vowed promise was surprisingly beautiful—— In other words, it is very reliable.

People can't help being detailed, she just wants to treat you well.

Don't worry about her ulterior motives, don't worry about her causing you any negative emotions, she just wants to treat you well and give you all she has.

Let you be happy all the time under her protective wings, without worrying about anything.

"Doll, don't be afraid of me, I won't hurt you, never will." Little Qin Yue lowered her eyes, and unconsciously clasped her fingers holding the ballpoint pen, "If I can, I want to be like Ms. Song, warm, Someone who can protect you very well."

My wife is saying she wants to be my mom.

Is this human?

"Qin Yue, you..." Meng Ziqing opened his mouth, but he didn't utter a word for a long time.

Instead, Qin Yue looked at Meng Ziqing expectantly.

Meng Ziqing: ...

There were too many slots, and she couldn't find what to say.

And more importantly, Meng Ziqing was very uncomfortable hearing Qin Yue say that.

As a human being, one should not be selfless and tie all emotions to another person.If something happened to the other person, it was the day of her emotional breakdown.

An unexplained sense of congestion accumulated in my heart.

The temple also seemed to trigger some kind of mechanism, and the painful person panicked.

The two stared at each other for a long time, the air became solemn because of the wordless silence, and little Qin Yue's expectant eyes gradually dimmed.

——Even a little flustered.

"Doll, what do you not like about me? I can change it. Don't keep talking." Little Qin Yue pulled Meng Ziqing's hand as if seeking a sense of security, her voice full of indiscernible panic in her grievance.

She was really afraid that the doll would leave her.

At this moment, Meng Ziqing seemed to see the scarlet spider silk threads on little Qin Yue's body again.

They wrapped her tightly, almost like a package, desperate to hopeless, a huge cocoon, which felt suffocating at a glance.

When we first met in the afternoon, she was only half entangled, and now she was about to be swallowed.

Little Qin Yue is cocooning herself.

Nausea surged upwards.

Some are against Qin Yue, and some are against herself.

"Qin Yue——" Meng Zi took a deep breath, slightly overcoming the discomfort in his heart, but his temple throbbed even more painfully.

The strong soreness made her eyes moist, she raised her eyelids and looked at little Qin Yue.

The child's voice was immature, full of disgust, "Damn you are such a bastard."

The moment Meng Ziqing's words fell, she shook off Xiao Qinyue's hand, and Xiao Qinyue opened her eyes slightly in a panic, wanting to pull Meng Ziqing again, but she didn't wait for her to touch Meng Ziqing's hand , the body began to shatter.

"I've had enough of this dream, it's time to end."

The cold and tired voice was particularly abrupt in the quiet room. Not only did little Qin Yue start to shatter, but even the whole room began to disintegrate into pieces. The wall skin fell off, exposing a pure black shell with fine glitter.

"No, doll, don't go!"

"I can't live without you, I don't have my mother anymore, I can't lose your doll anymore."

Little Qin Yue showed despair, and couldn't help but shed tears in her eyes, begging to get closer to Meng Ziqing while ignoring her shattered body.

But the more she behaved like this, the more unspeakably Meng Ziqing looked at her.

Meng Ziqing had too many emotions in her heart, disgust, infatuation, longing, resentment... many emotions mixed together, intertwined into unspeakable exhaustion.

At the end of the shattered dream, she still couldn't help asking, "Qin Yue, do you really like me?"

Meng Ziqing: "You fell in love with me at first sight?"

"of course--"

"I don't like it."

"It's not love at first sight."

In reality, Qin Yue caressed Meng Ziqing's tightly furrowed brow lovingly, and at the same time answered the question asked by the cp system.

The doubts of the CP system deepened. It dangled its light ball body, which was a little undersupplied, and continued to ask, "Then why were you so kind to Meng Ziqing when you were young? You can give her everything that is good."

"It's not like what is it?"

When I said this, a thunder flashed outside the house, like a silver-white whip suddenly splitting the muddy sky, the house suddenly brightened, and suddenly returned to darkness.

In the second when the sky was bright, the CP system could clearly see the darkness in Qin Yue's eyes.

"I was nice to her when I was young, not because I liked her." Qin Yue responded slowly, smiling mockingly.

She turned her head and looked at the wind and rain outside the window, "I was a bastard at that time, and I didn't treat Meng Ziqing as an adult at all."

The cp system was surprised: "What?!"

"When I was young, I didn't regard Meng Ziqing as a human being at all." Qin Yue repeated it, as if recognizing his sin, "Do you hear clearly now?"

"No... You treat her so well, but it's not because you like her at all, and you don't treat her as a human being. What are you trying to do?" The cp system was completely confused now.

In its machine head, human emotions are very complicated.

But childhood is simpler than adulthood, with distinct hates and dislikes, likes are good, dislikes are bad.

It's good for Qin Yue not to like her, but she can't figure out the reason through data analysis.

"There are many things in the picture." Qin Yue replied, her slender eyelashes trembled slightly, and her eyes became far-reaching, as if she had gone back to the past through the blurred glass of the window, and looked at the 12-year-old Qin Yue.

"At that time, not long after I lost my mother, you also know that in that kidnapping, I saw my mother being tortured and killed with my own eyes."

Qin Yue's voice trembled slightly, but her tone was still narrating calmly, as if she was not telling her own story.

"You are a system with shallow feelings. You should never experience the powerlessness of watching your loved ones being tortured next to you, while you are tied to a chair and can't even move."

"I can't do anything but feel it."

"There was warm blood, which splashed onto my calf." Qin Yue tapped his calf, and then touched his snow-white cheek, "There is also minced meat, which splashed onto my face."

"Those are my mother's flesh and blood."

"Of course you can't feel the powerlessness of seeing your father collapse and being unable to do anything after you go home."

"He's already strong, as an adult, really strong already."

"But when he was crying for my mother, I didn't even dare to go up to him and give him a hug. Because I was afraid of the bloody mother, and I was also afraid of the father who described it like that."

Qin Yue took a deep breath, recalling that period of gloomy despair, "At the age of 12, I was really weak. I couldn't do anything, and I couldn't change anything. I could only accept everything. I didn't have the ability to protect others."

"I have severe persecution paranoia and a protective desire that can't be released." Qin Yue said, but suddenly smiled, "Until I met Meng Ziqing who came to my house and invited me to play in the greenhouse."

"I came across as a vessel for my inner emotional diversion."

At that moment, the cp system was so scared that the ball exploded.

Qin Yue compared, "Meng Ziqing was just seven years old at that time, and his height only reached my belly. He was fierce and delicate, like a Chihuahua."

"Chihuahuas are small dogs. Because of their size, they cannot protect themselves, so they are sensitive to their surroundings and have a bad temper."

"The moment she appeared, I had the illusion that maybe I could protect something."

"She's a Chihuahua that can protect even a waste like me."

Qin Yue said in a warm voice, with a strong possessive desire in it.

The cp system listened quietly, its back felt numb, it swallowed, and asked, "And then?"

"Then after my psychological problems improved, I didn't want to stay in the country, so I asked my father to take me abroad to settle down." Qin Yue answered as it should.

"What about Meng Ziqing? You just left her behind?" The cp system was surprised, "Are you a human being?"

Even though the child was young, he didn't know that his sister who had been playing with him for several months regarded him as a real doll, but at any rate, she gave her sincerely and enthusiastically. When her sister left, Xiao Meng Ziqing would cry for a while.

Isn't Qin Yue bullying children?

Qin Yue accepted the scolding: "So I said I was an asshole at that time."

"I understand! Meng Ziqing lost her mother in a car accident when she was 15 years old. She also felt the same way. When she grew up and met Lian Zong, she became bored and realized that you didn't treat her as a human being at all when you were young!" cp The system suddenly thought of this, "No wonder she treated you so badly at that time."

How can there be so many "I understand you" in the world, without the most tearful and tragic pain, even the empathy is light.

When Zhou Mu was 15 years old, Meng Ziqing experienced a tragic experience. He even tried to reproduce Qin Yue's practice, so that he could turn cold when he saw Qin Yue for the first time.

She was sick of Qin Yue at that time.

It also disgusted me who tried to imitate Qin Yue to find objects for psychological sustenance.

"Probably... right..."

Qin Yue shrugged her shoulders and laughed, she still remembered the night Zhou Mu Meng Ziqing saw her, she blocked her in the room directly.

The little girl smiled gracefully, but she revealed a little bit of cute and vicious underbelly. She said word by word, "I remember you."

"When I was a child, I was the change, state, sister, sister who treated me like a doll!"

"Wait, I won't make it easy for you for these three months."

This threat was a psychological warfare. Zhou Mu Meng Ziqing intended to scare Qin Yue, but he didn't expect that Qin Yue would feel excited.

Like an addiction, Junzi encounters his dream again after many years.

Qin Yue was excited that her doll still remembered her.

She hasn't forgotten her.

"So what you did in the first episode, you have to do it yourself." The cp system complained.

"What is self-inflicted?" Qin Yue asked back.

"Aren't you self-inflicted? In the beginning, Meng Xi cleaned up and slept in the corridor every night!"

Qin Yue denied, "No, if I didn't have the contact when I was a child, even if I met her when I grew up, I wouldn't be moved. If I only had the contact when I was a child and I didn't meet again when I grew up, then in my memory, she will always be just a once. "Therapy Dolls". "

"I was a jerk when I was a kid and did the wrong things, but I never regretted it."

"I don't regret what I did, and would do the same thing if I could do it all over again."

She paused, then added, "But I won't run away from the country again."

Unlike growing up, you can recall the right and wrong of your previous practices.

In fact, at that time, little Qin Yue didn't know what his feelings for Meng Ziqing were.

But strangely, after she got better, she wanted to stay away from Meng Ziqing.

Just like a blind man throwing away the crutch in his hand immediately after seeing the light, it was obvious that Meng Ziqing was the light of her gloomy time, but when she got better, she didn't dare to see Meng Ziqing again.

She panicked and wanted to run away.

The grown-up Qin Yue naturally understood that it was because the 12-year-old herself was ashamed, and she was ashamed of Meng Ziqing.

Because she regarded Meng Ziqing as a rope to save herself and escape the psychological whirlpool.

In this redemption, she was the one who caught Meng Ziqing.

The 12-year-old little Qin Yue didn't understand these things, she just felt that she should go, so hurry up.

He fled in a panic of rolling and crawling.

Then change to a new living environment, forget all the things that happened in the country, and devote yourself to the new life.

Even if his father suggested whether he wanted to go back to China, he firmly refused.

During the 12 years from the age of 27 to the age of 15, Qin Yue learned to paint, got in touch with art, and even became the executive of a high-end company like Ry in the end.

He has obviously forgotten about the person, but there is someone's influence everywhere.

She hasn't been back all these years.

Qin Yue's father understood his daughter's worries, and he once advised her not to be so afraid.

For Schrödinger's cat, you have to open the box to know the cat's life and death. It's just returning home, and maybe the psychological shadow will never reappear.

The country is changing rapidly. In the past 15 years, maybe City A has become completely different from before.

Then she will truly overcome the shadow of her childhood.

But Qin Yue insisted not to go back, no matter how the blue-eyed uncle persuaded him.

For the blue-eyed uncle, returning home is just Schrödinger's cat, but for Qin Yue, returning home is a Pandora's box.

In Pandora's box, there is a fierce Chihuahua.

The author says:

感谢在2022-08-0323:41:05-2022-08-0823:28:58期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦……

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: 1 Xiao Jiang;

Thanks to the little angels who cast mines: 4 Xiaojiang; 1 national first-level network literature appreciation, Qi Heyang, and Fengtian Chengyun;