Brother Hungry Wolf

"Han Yilin, no one wants it! Han Yilin, no one wants it!"

"Han Yilin, you are an orphan, you were abandoned!"

"Han Yilin is a poor guy, Han Yilin is a poor guy!"

These uncomfortable voices kept echoing in my mind, reminding me of my childhood from time to time.

"No, I'm not! I'm not! I have a family, I have parents, I have! I have!" The young Han Yilin squatted on the ground with his head firmly buried in his legs.He has, he is not an orphan, he has a family.

"Han Yilin, you're stupid. Han Yilin, you're stupid."

"Let's go, everyone, ignore Han Yilin. He doesn't think he is an orphan, so don't play with him anymore."

It was like this in the orphanage when I was a child. Everyone is a lamb abandoned by God, so as long as someone does not agree with their views and does not consider themselves an orphan, they will be isolated.

In the silent courtyard, there is only the sound of the wind, the wind blows the leaves, and the leaves are scattered down.Some circled in the air, and some landed on Han Yilin's hair.The child buried in his legs let out a low cry.

"Yilin, be good, don't cry, are you hungry?"

"What's wrong with this child? He keeps crying."

"I guess I'm hungry, I'll make milk powder for him."

"Yeah. Be good, Yilin. Mommy is going to make milk powder for you now. Be good, don't cry."

The tenderness of the man when he coaxed him not to cry, and the tenderness of the woman when she hugged him.

You see, I have parents, I am not an orphan.How much he wanted to tell his friends in the orphanage that he had parents, that he was not an orphan, that he wasn't, wasn't, wasn't.

But why is it so fleeting?

"Mom and Dad, where are you? Where are you?" Han Yilin lay on the ground, his tears seemed to have dried up, and when he finally fell down, he was still muttering to himself those words that had been repeated eleven thousand times.

……

"what----!!"

The sound in the early morning was terrifyingly silent, but the sudden shout seemed extraordinarily abrupt.

"Tick tick tick."

Inside the room, a handsome man was half lying on the bed, leaning against the head of the bed, gasping for breath.Sparse cold sweat broke out on his forehead, showing how unsettling the dream he had just had was.

"It's this dream again?" Han Yilin wiped the sweat off his forehead, then sighed.Ever since his serious illness in the summer vacation, he has been sitting in the same dream. The blurry figure in the dream speaks a very clear language.They were clearly right in front of them, but they couldn't see the couple's faces clearly. Every time they woke up, the voice was the one they remembered most clearly, but their faces seemed to have been cut off, so they couldn't remember them at all.

But only this dream let him know that the ideas he has insisted on over the years are not wrong.He was not an orphan, never was!Although he was rejected and isolated by the children in the orphanage because of this idea, he did not give up the idea.

Although he wanted to find his parents when he grew up, he gave up this unrealistic dream because of the pitiful few clues he had.

Han Yilin regained his composure, looked at the empty pillow beside him, and checked the clock on his phone, it was 0:12.

"Why didn't you come so late?" Han Yilin thought worriedly, then picked up the phone again and dialed the number on it, but it was always turned off.

"The number you dialed is powered off, please try again later."

"The number you dialed is powered off, please try again later."

……

After going back and forth, Han Yilin gave up calling Lin Haoran, but got up and walked out of the room.

The empty room looked extraordinarily cold, even though he turned on all the lights, Han Yilin still couldn't feel any warmth.

He couldn't remember how many times Lin Haoran didn't come back here.

twice?three times?Or four times?The corner of Han Yilin's mouth raised a self-deprecating smile, perhaps he was used to Lin Haoran's indifference towards him.

He walked to the sofa with bare feet and sat down slowly. Only the coldness on the stone bricks could calm him down.Immediately, the whole person slumped on the sofa as if he had been evacuated, looking at the ceiling, the white tone made him a little dazed.

Why would he choose white, which he doesn't like?Han Yilin slowly lowered his eyes, quietly thinking about why.Because that is the color that Lin Haoran likes, the whole "home" is the keynote that Lin Haoran likes, because Lin Haoran likes high-end houses, so he worked five jobs before renting this high-end apartment.

But when he happily said to Lin Haoran, there was only a slight ripple on his face, followed by a simple "um".

"Maybe in his opinion, everything he has done is insignificant?" Han Yilin muttered to himself, his white and clean hands became rough due to the non-stop doing rough work.And this also made Lin Haoran even more dissatisfied with him, even though it was because of him that he became like this, Han Yilin still didn't say anything.

The clock in the living room was ticking and ticking, one circle, two circles, three circles...

"Maybe you didn't like me from the beginning? Then why didn't you break up with me?" Han Yilin dared to say this sentence only when he was alone.But if he was really asked to say something to Lin Haoran, he couldn't say it.

He took out his phone again, and the time was fixed at [-]:[-] in the morning.

Han Yilin held the idea of ​​'call again, and sleep if he can't get through again', and called Lin Haoran again, and this time he got through miraculously.

The moment the connection was made, Han Yilin said excitedly, "Haoran, where are you now? Why are you still here so late..."

But before he could finish speaking, he was interrupted by the voice on the other end of the phone.

"Sorry, I'm not Lin Haoran. If you're looking for Haoran, I'll call him."

A gentle female voice came from the other end of the phone, why is a woman, why is she with Haoran, and what is the relationship between her and Haoran?For a while, all the questions were concentrated in Han Yilin's mind, so that when Lin Haoran answered the phone, Han Yilin was still in a daze.

"What's the matter with you? If you have something to say, go to bed early." Lin Haoran's slightly angry voice came into Han Yilin's brain, waking him up suddenly.

Han Yilin listened, and immediately said: "Yes, yes, yes." He didn't want Lin Haoran to hang up the phone, and it was hard for him to get through the phone.

"Talk quickly, don't call me all the time, I'm getting bored to death!" Lin Haoran made no secret of his current disgust.

A woman's voice came from the other end of the phone, "Hao Ran, don't be so fierce, just talk about things."

Hearing the woman's voice, Lin Haoran breathed out, and said with some willingness, "Understood." Then he said coldly to Han Yilin on the other end of the phone: "Tell me, what's the matter!"

It's just that Han Yilin at this moment has already been knocked out by the conversation between Lin Haoran and the unknown woman.He had never seen Lin Haoran listen to a person like this, let alone a woman.Now, his mind is filled with "What is the relationship between this woman and Lin Haoran?"

The words came to my lips but I couldn't ask them.

Seeing that Han Yilin did not answer for a long time, Lin Haoran asked impatiently, "Han Yilin, are you there?"

"I... am here." He has always been there.

"Then what's the matter with you?"

"I...I want to ask you, when are you coming back today?"

"Today? I'm not coming back." Lin Haoran said calmly, but Han Yilin's eyes were dead silent.Muttering in his mouth, "Aren't you coming back again?"

After a few seconds of silence, Han Yilin opened his mouth and said slowly: "Lin Haoran, if I want to break up with you, what will you do?" Will you refuse?Han Yilin was expecting to hear Lin Haoran's rejection, but...

"Break up?" Lin Haoran said frivolously, "Well, it's fine if we break up. My parents have helped me find a girlfriend again. Breaking up is good for both of us. So, just follow your Come on, let's break up."

Let's break up... let's break up... let's break up.

Time seemed to stop suddenly, until Lin Haoran got a little impatient, Han Yilin said again: "Well, let's break up. From now on, we don't know each other, just be strangers .You still have to eat on time in the future, and don't kick the quilt when you sleep. That's it, I'll hang up."

The calm voice echoed in Lin Haoran's mind, and there was a momentary emptiness in his heart, as if something important had disappeared, but after a while he said to the woman beside him: "Let's go to sleep. "

The woman nodded slightly and turned off the light.Immediately there was a heavy groan in the room.

On the other side, Han Yilin was surprisingly calm.He thought he would cry, but in fact, it seemed that the tears had already flowed out long ago.There was a hole in the heart, even if the blood flowed out, it would not heal.

The words that have been on the lips for a long time have finally been said today.Perhaps it should have been said earlier?

Han Yilin knew that Lin Haoran was not gay from the beginning, he was bent by him.It is because he was straight before that Han Yilin cherishes him very much.Han Yilin has been in love with Lin Haoran since college.At that time, Han Yilin was also not gay, and he had no interest in others, but only Lin Haoran, for some reason, fell in love with a man.

So he always likes to say, "I'm not gay, I just happen to like a guy."

Although the two did not go to the same university, Lin Haoran went to the best university in Kyoto—Kyoto University, while Han Yilin only got three poor ones because he failed the college entrance examination.But because the two schools are adjacent, Han Yilin fell in love with Lin Haoran when he first met when he was in college.It wasn't until work that Han Yilin launched a love offensive towards Lin Haoran, and finally made Lin Haoran fall in love with him.

But does he really like himself?

Han Yilin was suddenly a little uncertain.Does Lin Haoran really like him?Looking back now, it seems that Lin Haoran never said the words "I like you" to him, even when they confirmed their relationship, Lin Haoran just nodded.

"It turns out that I was the only one singing the show from the beginning to the end." Han Yilin suddenly felt that all these years had been wasted, and all his efforts had been wasted.Because he doesn't love him.

"How wonderful it would be if we never met from the beginning~!"

That night, Han Yilin got very drunk. It was the first time in his life that he drank alcohol, and he almost got alcohol poisoning in the end.When I woke up in the morning, I rarely overslept, but because of this, I was fired by the boss.

"Forget it, let's resign if you resign." Han Yilin patted his head, stretched his neck, and then slowly stood up.

Looking at the full wine bottles on the ground, he had a headache on his face.

After tidying up briefly, Han Yilin thought, since he was resigned, he might as well give himself a vacation.He suddenly wanted to go back to the orphanage where he stayed when he was a child. He looked at all the furnishings in the house. Since Lin Haoran was not coming back, he didn't need to live in this house.Slowly closing his eyes, and slowly opening them again, he went out the door.

By the time they arrived at the orphanage, it was already deserted.He pushed open the old door and stood in front of the wall with a picture of a family in a daze.On it are his father, mother and himself that he drew when he was a child.But it was ruined because of other children.

Thinking about it now, I feel that I was so stupid and cute at that time.Maybe he is the only one who praises himself like this!

Han Yilin wiped the wall lightly, and slowly touched it with his hand, feeling like returning to his childhood.

"Where are you, Yilin? The child's father, have you found Yilin?"

"I haven't found it yet, and I'm trying to search it now."

"My Ilyn, my poor Ilyn."

……

The woman's cry still echoed in Han Yilin's mind.Why is his head suddenly heavy?

For a while, Han Yilin lost consciousness, and his body slowly slumped, leaning against the wall quietly.

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