kinda straight me

The author has something to say: Some children's shoes reported that they didn't see any injuries from the fight between the two of them, so Yanzi checked it again and found out that because of carelessness, one chapter was missed, it really deserves a beating.Now it has been added and pasted in Chapter 11, turning it into a magnificent [-] words!Let’s revisit the children’s shoes you want to see!It's an important chapter, why did it miss it? ! !Pig head!

Wu Jingan sighed and turned to the kitchen to prepare dinner.

Before the shredded potatoes were cooked, the phone rang again. Wu Jingan looked up and saw that it was Jiang Lu calling.

Wu Jingan took a deep breath and answered the phone, "Hello?"

"Where is it?" Jiang Lu's voice was not as cheerful as usual, but rather strangely serious.

"At home, cooking."

"Come out and eat, my treat."

"So good? Are you rich?"

"It's not thanks to you, Anzi, you're good enough, why didn't you call me for the black hand? So that I can have a good time too."

Wu Jingan smiled, "You know."

Jiang Lu sighed, "Zhang Qi called me in the morning and said that the trustee had transferred 5 yuan to my account. He also said that you - An Zi, are you okay?"

Wu Jingan walked out of the kitchen, leaned on the sofa, pressed his thumb and index finger between his eyebrows, "It's okay."

The other end of the phone was silent for a long time before speaking again, "Anzi, come out, I want to see you."

Wu Jingan hung up the phone after saying hello, got up, took the wallet and keys, changed his shoes and opened the door, only to see a tall man standing at the door.

With a blank face, sad eyes, and a mobile phone in his hand hanging by his side.

"Jiang, Jiang Lu?"

Wu Jingan looked at him in surprise, "Why are you here?"

Jiang Lu stared at him with complicated eyes, without any response for a long time.

Wu Jing'an said: "What are you doing, what's the big deal, do you care about it?"

Jiang Lu still didn't speak, just looked at him silently, and there was gradually something in his eyes that he didn't dare to read.

Wu Jingan lowered his head, his eyes flickered, "Okay, don't say anything, aren't we brothers? This matter, it should be. If it were you, you would also--"

Before Wu Jing'an finished speaking, he was hugged into a firm embrace.

Wu Jing'an's eyes widened, his breathing was stagnant, his hands were in the air, and he didn't know where to put them.

Jiang Lu hugged him tightly, wrapped his arms around his body tightly, and pressed against his warm face, he said, "Anzi, don't let me, don't let me fall in love with you again, okay?"

"I've almost forgotten it, and I've put you in the bottom of my heart. I've hidden it very well, and I definitely won't let it show up, but why do you insist on finding it out? An Zi, I really Yes, I really want to be friends with you forever. I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

There were words that were too shocking for Wu Jingan, but when they came out of Jiang Lukou, they were extremely gentle.

Wu Jingan loosened his frown, and slowly lowered his eyes. This time, he was speechless.

The dinner was eaten at a food city near his home, and this was the most dull meal he had had since he and Jiang Lu met.

He ordered a basket of beer, Wu Jingan just drank it, Jiang Lu accompanied him to drink, and the dishes on the table rarely moved.

Wu Jing'an said: "You and that Zhang Qi, are you really broken? Have you broken cleanly?"

Jiang Lu said: "Well, it's all like this, can it continue?"

Wu Jing'an said: "What are you looking for in him? He only spends your money, and he didn't even notice that he was a liar."

Jiang Lu said: "Okay, don't bury me, it's depressing enough, a 30-year-old is still like this."

Wu Jingan said, "I'm not much better than you."

Jiang Lu stopped talking, but the wine became more and more fierce.

It was eleven or twelve o'clock in the evening when we came out of the small restaurant. There were no pedestrians on the street, only a few cars roaring past occasionally.

On a hot summer night, without a breath of wind, Wu Jingan walked in front, followed by Jiang Lu who was shaking slightly.

Suddenly having a cigarette craving, Wu Jingan took out a cigarette from his pants pocket, turned around and asked Jiang Lu, "Do you want to smoke?"

Jiang Lu waved his hand, his head was still dizzy, and his eyes were so tired that he could barely open them.

He has been busy with company affairs for the past few days and has no time to rest. Coupled with this drunkenness, he must be sleepy enough.

Walking to the side of the road, Wu Jingan looked towards the other side of the road, wondering if it would be a good time to take a taxi.

Jiang Lu lowered his head and swayed unsteadily, Wu Jingan was really afraid that he would fall down in a second.

"Can't drink and drink so much."

Jiang Lu laughed "hehe" twice, and said, "Anzi, I'm happy today, so happy."

Wu Jingan glanced at him, "Don't get drunk!"

Jiang Lu continued to smirk, took two steps forward and hung on Wu Jingan's body, lying on his back, Jiang Lu said, "Honey, did I tell you about my first love?"

Wu Jing'an gritted his teeth and cursed: "I'm dead, get out." He didn't have the heart to listen to someone's sour first love story in the middle of the night.

Jiang Lu ignored his protest, still leaned on his back, and slowly and leisurely told the love story that was lingering for him.

"My first love, he lived next door to my house. We grew up together, went to school together, played horses together, and did all kinds of bad things together. At the age of 17, in the first year of high school, he told me that he liked me, and then kissed me Me. At that time, I also liked him, how much I liked him. Not long after, we were together. At that time, I felt that I could do anything for him, even die for him. But he, he is so strange, While talking about love, I love me, and I did all the things I shouldn’t do, and at the same time fell in love with several girls. I asked him what he really wanted. Guess what he said, he asked me what I wanted, he Saying that two men are together, isn’t it just for fun, let’s forget it after playing, what else can I do, and pointing to getting married and having children? That was my first love, the best time in my life, 17 years old , was completely ruined by that bastard."

Wu Jingan stopped breaking his hand, and Jiang Lu's voice was so soft that it made people feel distressed.

"The second man is a classmate of a third-rate university. Damn, why am I so obsessed with my classmates! He slept on my upper bunk, guess how he confessed to me, he said that he could see me every day when he got down from the top The way he sleeps is very charming and sexy. He pestered me for half a year, and I finally agreed to him. During that time, I was quite happy. He pampered me like a child every day, cooked for me, and I was doing laundry, and he said that he would be good to me for the rest of his life, and let me just do one thing and love him forever. The words are so beautiful! I was also drunk by his misty soup, and I only felt pain when I woke up To die. His love lasted less than two years, and his love was given to another boy, younger than me, more charming and sexy than me. He cried and confessed to me, saying that boy was his true love, he The last love in my life, let me let him go and forgive him. Oh, what a fucking dog."

Wu Jingan called him softly, "Jiang Lu."

Jiang Lu closed his eyes and leaned against the warm back, hot liquid slipped from his eyes.

"Since then, I have been spending money. I thought, there is no love in this world, it's all a trick to deceive people. So, I have a third, fourth, fifth man, I was deceived and at the same time I lied to others. I remember that one year I paid a boy who was seven or eight years younger than me. He just went to college and his family was very poor. But he was so obsessed with me that he even gave me all the tuition fees he had prepared, just because I said I fell in love with a watch. Haha... I still remember his eyes, so clear that I can even see how dirty I am from it. I threw the money on his face and said that I would break up and change the number. Cut off contact with him. Zhang Qi, Zhang Qi gave me the feeling that he was very similar to him, very beautiful and innocent, even if the innocence was pretended, I wanted to deceive myself. The money given to Zhang Qi was also bought A childish idea of ​​Xin An. An Zi, my life is so boring. An Zi, do you think people like us can find a true companion?"

Wu Jing'an also wanted to ask this question, can people like them really find a partner?Isn't it ridiculous to even have such an idea.

There are a few dumb uncles and Zhang uncles in this world, but there will never be a shortage of Zhang Qi and Xu Hui in this world.

At the end of the day, is there still a little space for people like them to breathe.

Is it wrong? Is it his fault that he can't change his sexuality?

Or is it the biggest mistake to have such a physique and still dream of having an ordinary and perfect family life like heterosexuals.

Wu Jingan pursed his lips, suppressed the unceasing depression in his heart, and turned around.

He slightly pushed Jiang Lu away, and raised his eyes to see him clearly.

Jiang Lu has a fair face with fine white skin and long and dense eyelashes. If he was a few years younger, someone would mistake him for a woman when he dressed up and walked on the road.

Such Jiang Lu is also aging day by day, 30 years old, not too old, but their hearts are already too old.

Jiang Lu also wants to have a home, a lover who knows what's cold but what's hot, and a dinner to go home.

They have the same goal, but they have never been together.

Time, how many things can change

He also wants to try to change.

He stared at Jiang Lu's somewhat confused eyes, and said slowly and seriously: "Jiang Lu, we are not young anymore, you put away your playful temper, and I will change my temper too, let's try again."

Jiang Lu's half-closed eyes slowly widened, looking at him in disbelief.Fearing that he would have auditory hallucinations from drinking too much, he tentatively asked, "Did you say anything just now?"

Wu Jingan smiled, lit the cigarette that had been in his hand, exhaled lightly, and said irresponsibly, "If you didn't hear it, just pretend I didn't say it."

Jiang Lu frowned, and carefully asked word by word: "Are you, are you..."

Wu Jingan said, "Yes."

Jiang Lu's eyes widened and his mouth opened slightly, unable to digest the bomb declaration that Wu Jingan had just dropped.

He said, he said, let's try again.

The man he had liked in his heart for several years silently told him to try again.

Jiang Lu was a little agitated, he cried and laughed several times, Wu Jingan was worried about waking up the residents upstairs opposite, so he threw a cigarette in a panic and stroked his mouth.

"Okay, what kind of drunken madness is going on in the middle of the night, wanting to be thrown eggs!"