kinda straight me

Wu Jingan's life was not going so smoothly.

He also had a complete and happy family when he was very young, and his parents didn't quarrel every day at that time.Dad would bring some delicious food to their mother after get off work every day, and mother liked to kiss him sweetly on the face every day, and called him "darling baby" tirelessly.

But this kind of happiness only lasted until he was in the fourth grade of elementary school.

One day my father brought back a child who he said was his younger brother.The shocked mother naturally couldn't accept the child she called "illegitimate child", so they spent every day in quarrels.

And he, and that strange brother, have a bad relationship.

Both people naturally repel each other, and even if they sleep in the same room, they hardly say a word or look at each other.

This kind of life has passed for several years. After he entered high school, he really didn't want to hear his parents' quarrel anymore, so he chose to live in school.

It was also at that time that he learned of his unusual sexual orientation.

In the past with Jing Cheng, sweetness and pain accounted for equal weight.

After being forced out of the closet, he was kicked out of the house by his parents. After graduating from high school, his mother sent him to high-tech with tears in his eyes. It was also on the day he entered school that his parents filed for divorce.

Wu Jing'an only heard about it a year later. It was his mother who told him, because she met a suitable and good man again and planned to get married.

He attended his mother's wedding. In another city, that man was seven or eight years older than his mother. He had a kind face and always smiled.

Maybe he is a good man, he wished his mother from the bottom of his heart.

After returning from his mother's new home, he visited his father once.

Said it was a visit, but in fact I didn't even see each other.It was his half-brother Wu Chang who opened the door. As soon as he saw him, he yelled into the room with a cold face, "It's Xu Hui."

In the past, people under the same roof knew to call him brother, but now they call him by name directly.

The father in the room didn't know what he was doing, and when he heard it was him, he yelled angrily, "Let him go, don't even think about stepping in this door when I'm here, damn thing, don't embarrass my Wu family, I Wu Haozhong doesn't have a son like him."

Wu Chang turned his face to face him, with a slight smile on his expression, as if to say: "Look, I knew it was like this."

Wu Jingan turned around and left, and he never came again for the next eight years.

It was also during that decadent period that he met Uncle Dumb, which gave him hope in life again.

At that time, he and a group of friends went to the Internet cafe outside the school to play games all night, and only slipped back at dawn.Uncle Dumb's breakfast stand was placed at the school gate, a bowl of hot noodles, topped with mustard and green onion, he snorted and slipped into the dormitory to catch up on sleep, and absenteeism became a common occurrence.

One day he came out of the Internet cafe with a terrible headache, and finally moved to the school gate, and fell to the ground unconscious.

When he woke up, he was in the hospital, and it was the dumb uncle who brought him here with another man.

He had a high fever of 40 degrees, but he didn't know it at all, and he was able to fight monsters in the Internet cafe all night.

The dumb uncle was so excited that he "danced and danced", but he didn't understand a word. It was the man next to him with a scar on his face who had been silent all the time who explained it to him.

"He said that as soon as your fever subsides, he will beat you hard."

Wu Jing'an was startled and thought to himself, did I not give you money for a meal?As for what, for a few bucks, you want to beat me up?

The dumb uncle stayed in the hospital and watched him drink water, and after hanging up the two bottles of water, he followed them back home in a daze.

The dumb uncle and the man rented a room in a large courtyard. The house is not small and the rent is not expensive, but it is a bit far from the city.

The dumb uncle made the bed and ordered him to go to bed and rest. Wu Jingan looked at the two suspiciously, and finally lay down on the bed.

He asked the school for three days off, and for the next two days, the dumb uncle accompanied him to fetch water, and the man was left alone to sell breakfast at the stall.

The dumb uncle is not dumb, although he can't speak, his expression and hands are like a noisy mouth, so noisy that he can't even think about resting for a moment.

Gradually, he could also understand a little bit what Uncle Dumb meant.

The dumb uncle is not deaf and can hear him talking, so he tugs on his sleeve to signal him to keep talking.

Wu Jingan was a little annoyed, "What's there to say!"

The dumb uncle gesticulated and compared again. Seeing his impatient face, he simply took out a pen and paper and wrote it out.

"Just talk about why you didn't learn well at such a young age. You hung out all night and night, and you didn't come back until dawn. You didn't even know you were sick. What about your family? Does no one care about you?"

Seeing the word family, Wu Jing'an became angry, "You are too strict!"

When he got emotional, he was about to pull out the infusion tube. When the dumb uncle saw this, he punched him anxiously. He was still a little dazed when he fell onto the chair.

Uncle Dumb was really angry this time, panting non-stop, looking at him as if he was going to eat him.

In the following time, the "dumb uncle" became a complete "dumb uncle".

When they got home, Wu Jing'an said he wanted to leave, but the dumb uncle didn't say anything, but the man who had been silent all this time spoke, let's go after dinner!

After dinner, the dumb uncle washed the dishes, and the man sent Wu Jingan back to school.

Along the way, he said many things.

Uncle Dumb was born dumb, and he didn't realize that he was different from others when he was a child, but only when he grew up did he realize that he was different from others amid the children's ridicule.

Uncle Dumb has a brother who is six years younger than him. He loves this brother very much. He was very happy when he heard his brother called "Mom" for the first time, because his brother is different from him and can talk.

Because he is a mute, the dumb uncle has never been to school for a day, and every day he either cuts pigweed or works in the fields with adults. When he gets home, he pulls his younger brother and teases him to keep talking.

Uncle Dumb loves to listen to people talking.

After his younger brother went to school, he often sneaked to the door of the classroom to listen to the teacher's lectures, carefully wrote down what he had learned, and when he came home, he used twigs to write over and over again on the dirt.

The test papers brought back by the younger brother always had a lot of "XX" drawn with red pens. The dumb uncle used an eraser to smear everything written on his test papers, wrote it himself, and showed it to the big brother next door.

The man was stunned for a long time after seeing it, and muttered to himself, what kind of teacher is misleading his children? He obviously did everything right, so why did he slap so many crosses.

My younger brother's grades are not good. After graduating from high school, he went to a high-tech university in the city.

The dumb uncle also went with him, and rented a house near his brother's school to set up a breakfast stall.

Unexpectedly, my younger brother was like Wu Jingan later, he only knew how to go to Internet cafes and fight with people all day long, and finally died at the school gate one day.

Uncle Dumb seemed to be going crazy for a while. When he arrested someone at the school gate, he asked who killed his brother. He was so frightened that the school called the police before driving him away.Fortunately, the younger brother's case was quickly found out. It was some gangsters in the society. Because his younger brother had a girlfriend with a small boss and provoked that person, he was blocked at the school gate. He wanted to teach him a lesson. , Who knows that the stick has no eyes, it hit the back of his head, and he died like this.

The dumb uncle's family took his younger brother's body back, but left the dumb uncle there.

It must have meant to vent his anger on him!

The dumb uncle didn't cry or make trouble, and stayed quietly in the city struggling to survive.

The man glanced at Wu Jing'an at this point, and said slightly sadly, "He probably regards you as his younger brother, and he doesn't want you to follow this path in the future."

After Wu Jingan listened to the story silently, he said goodbye to the man and went back to school.

That night, he lay on the bed in the dormitory and thought a lot.

On the weekend, he went to the house of the dumb uncle again, and said with a smile on his face that he was coming to eat, but the dumb uncle didn't give him a good look, so he didn't get annoyed and refused to leave, so he just sat down here.

Uncle Dumb's house is quite simple to say the least, with two rooms, one for the bedroom and the other for the living room.Apart from a table and some miscellaneous things for business, the living room is not furnished.

Wu Jing'an, who was active in his mind, noticed that there was only one bed in Uncle Dumb's bedroom.

So when he was eating, he looked at the two of them differently.

After dinner, he chatted with "Uncle Dumb".

He said, Uncle Dumb wrote.

"You guys, are you that one?"

The dumb uncle glanced at him, thought for a while, and wrote on the paper, "Yes."

Wu Jing'an didn't expect him to admit it so directly, and the routine that he planned to say next got stuck in his throat like that.

He paused for a long time before restarting the conversation, "How long have you been together?"

"We've known each other since we were young, we entered the city together, and gradually we became together."

Have you known each other since childhood?Wu Jingan thought it's no wonder the man knew so much about the dumb uncle's past. It turns out that they are also bamboo horses.

"Are you, together, happy?"

The word happiness is quite boring to say.When someone said he was happy, he didn't expect that it was just a moment.No one can be happy for a lifetime, and all kinds of hardships brought by time will deform this word, and finally break into powder and blow away with the wind.

Even if it is placed on heterosexuals, happiness will not last long, let alone homosexuals who are not accepted and recognized by others.

But Uncle Mute insisted on writing the word "happiness", with force piercing the back of the paper, extremely firm.

Uncle Dumb really feels happiness, which is reflected in every moment of every day.

The man's surname is Zhang, and he lives in the same village as the dumb uncle. When he was a child, he always saw other people bullying the dumb uncle, and he fought with other children every day.When he was injured, Uncle Dumb would go to the mountains to pick some common herbs and apply it on him.

When the dumb uncle came to the city with his younger brother, he also followed, saying that his cousin in the city helped him find a job.

The scar on the man's face was scratched for helping the dumb uncle's younger brother, and since then the dumb uncle has always felt that he owes him favors.

After the dumb uncle was thrown in the city by his family, the man moved in to live with the dumb uncle.

Feelings may have arisen at that time!Now they are a bit like a couple who have lived for many years, they are used to each other and recognize each other.

From dawn to dusk to run a breakfast stand, the man wiped the sweat off the dumb uncle's face, and the dumb uncle handed the man ginger tea in a thermos.

When he was free in the afternoon, the man beat the back of the dumb uncle, and the dumb uncle massaged the man's shoulders.

In the evening, the man and the dumb uncle went for a walk in the nearby small park. The man liked to jog for a couple of laps, and the dumb uncle was practicing slowly on the fitness equipment and waiting for the man.

Happiness lies in every bit of life.

Wu Jingan was somewhat shocked by this little happiness.

Tossing and turning in bed at night, all I could think about was the life of the dumb uncle and that man.

Although he was young when he was with Jing Cheng, he also had this idea of ​​staying with one person until he grows old.

After being forced to separate, he gradually forgot about this feeling.

How could same-sex lovers last for a long time? With this kind of thinking, he had some games in his life.

Live a casual life, date a few lovers, break up within two or three months, and then continue to meet another person who is destined.

When he didn't have a lover, he spent all night in Internet cafes, and the days slipped by in his wanton indulgence.

If he hadn't met Uncle Dumb, he thought maybe he would continue to live like this, not believing in life or love, and enjoying himself in time.

It was the matter of Uncle Mute and that man that made him come to his senses, so with the thought that maybe he could really find such a person who is willing to go on with you, he changed a little.

Call him dumb uncle, in fact he is not old, just in his early thirties.It's just ten years older, Wu Jing'an said I should call you brother, dumb uncle refused, and insisted on calling him uncle.

Since then, Wu Jing'an has often gone to the dumb uncle's house, sometimes to eat, sometimes to help them.

Later, after graduating from high technology, he was assigned to this small power plant on the W Mine. The salary was not high, but fortunately the consumption level here was also very low, and his life was not bad.

When he was off duty, he would take a two-hour car ride home and visit Uncle Dumb and Uncle Zhang by the way.

Fast forward another seven years, and now Wu Jingan is still alone.

People in small places are relatively simple and traditional. It is estimated that many people will never know that there is such a thing as homosexuality in the world.

Sometimes he would be irritable and depressed, and the dumb uncle would pat his hands and make gestures such as "Don't worry, you will always find your other half".

Wu Jing'an didn't know whether to believe such fairy tales or not.

A year ago, a very beautiful female college student was assigned to the factory, so many male colleagues rushed to squeeze outside the factory building to see her graceful figure as she came out.

Wu Jingan was squeezed outside the group of men, lit a cigarette, held it between his fingers and smoked it slowly, and looked at their extremely funny appearances boredly.

Originally, he and that beauty shouldn't have any interaction, she was a technician when she came here, and he was just an ordinary water treatment worker.

Later, something happened in the factory. During that time, the water quality was always unstable. Since she had no practical experience, she couldn't find out the reason for a while, so she took the initiative to ask Ying to work in the workshop for a while.

The factory asked her to choose which value to choose, but she chose Wu Jingan as a partner.

The male compatriots in the factory were all jealous, wishing to eat him and replace him.

Wu Jing'an walked into the duty room without taking away a cloud, patting his sleeves amidst the blood-eating lights.

Wu Jing'an is also a sensible person. Lin Jiajia chose him because she had never seen him among the crowd of monkeys who regarded her as an animal animal.

He didn't care about her, and she didn't care about him.

After two months, all is well.

Until one day, shortly after he took over, Lin Jiajia had just left to take samples from the boiler when the glass sliding door of the duty room was opened, and he raised his head.

A handsome man who looked like an idol star on TV walked in, with an elegant and charming smile on his face.

Wu Jingan just stared at him blankly, his heart skipped a beat.

At that moment, he felt that he was going to be confused by this face.