Hanyu's dream of rebirth

An Keru flew back to South Korea the next day. He came to Japan on leave, and he had to make up for the work he left behind.

Yesterday was Christmas, that's why he thought about going there to have a reunion with everyone, but in the end he cried for most of the night. He really didn't know what to say. sigh.

In fact, he is also very busy during this period. The company is helping him plan his second album. Several of them are mainly shooting MVs, and there are special dance practice. If he has not handed in two songs written by himself, Park Donghao will His request for leave of absence will not be granted.

Li Xiuman has read the two songs he wrote and felt very satisfied, and has already selected them for recording in the album.

His Chapter 2 album is basically a relatively HIGH song style. Each song has a dance part. It is more difficult to sing and dance, so there are many places to practice, and the rest of the time is basically nothing. Time to contact TVXQ again, more than ten hours of practice every day has exhausted him.

In this kind of busyness, he spent the last day of 2005. When the bell rang, it was the arrival of the new year, but he was alone in this cold room.He just came back from practice in the company, Li Xiuyan and Park Donghao were driven home by him for a reunion, they are very close to home, so it is impossible to let them accompany him, An Keru thinks so.

He was the only one in the empty room. Even though the air conditioner was turned on and the temperature rose, he still couldn't hide the lonely atmosphere here. For the first time, he felt that the house was a bit big.

I called my aunt and uncle, said some auspicious words, and chatted about some homework, then hung up.

An Keru felt empty in his heart, he couldn't sleep, and felt that there was nothing to do, the whole house seemed to be eating it, fear and emptiness almost overwhelmed him, so he looked around and found that there was actually Dust piled up, got up immediately, went to the kitchen to bring out a basin of water, and started wiping with a rag.

Not one corner was spared, the sofa was wiped clean and tidy, but his heart was getting more and more empty, almost unbearable emptiness and loneliness, so he didn't stop, knelt on the floor and slowly and carefully cleaned the whole house. Every room was wiped until he fell to the ground exhausted, his wrists were sore, and his mind felt as if a needle was pricking him. The more and more painful touch made him faint.

He woke up at ten o'clock in the morning the next day, because today was the first day of the new year, and the company kindly had a holiday, so An Keru didn't have to go to the company today, he could arrange it freely.

Clutching his still throbbing head, An Keru felt very at ease. He would feel better only if he let himself be in so much pain that he didn't have the mind to think about anything else. Maybe he wanted to transfer the pain in his heart, maybe he wanted to Punish yourself for thinking that you shouldn't have.

After An Keru finished washing, he put on a warm down jacket, a camouflage hat and glasses, and went out. He asked Li Xiuyan to go shopping.

Li Xiuyan has done a lot for him all the time, quietly helping him with all the chores behind him, running around the country with him, and managing the support team for him. She still has her studies to finish, which is very hard.

But she didn't say any complaints or tired words.

An Keru was very grateful to her.

At this time, there were fewer people on the street than usual, because everyone was at home with their families, or went to relatives' homes, and only some young people went out for a walk in groups.

An Keruo and Li Xiuyan walked side by side, holding hot milk tea in their hands, looking at the festive colors everywhere, the shops were all covered with red coats, and the red ribbons looked very flattering.

"Sister Xiuyan, I'm so sorry that I called you out to go shopping with me on the first day of the new year." An Keru smiled faintly, looking at the busy surroundings boredly.

Li Xiuyan cast a blank look at him reproachfully, "What's so embarrassing, if it's inconvenient for me, I won't come out, I will accompany you only because I have nothing to do, and I won't accompany you if there is something to do, ha ha." She Said so on purpose.

"That's really thanks to Miss Xiuyan for being free today, haha." An Keru smiled lightly and said.

"You should thank me, but are we going to keep walking around like this today?" Li Xiuyan asked in confusion, she thought that An Keru asked her to come out to play.

"Sister Xiuyan, do you want to go play? I don't know where the fun is, let's let sister Xiuyan lead the way." An Keru said indifferently.

"Well, just listen to me today. Let's go to the amusement park first. I've wanted to go there for a long time, but no one has accompanied me." Li Xiuyan was born in Seoul, how could he not even have an amusement park? Been there?But this clumsy lie made An Keru feel very warm and warm.

An Keru finally smiled happily, "Okay, I haven't been there either, just the two of us together."

"Then let's go." Li Xiuyan said with a big laugh, pulling him to run.

"Shall we run over?" An Keruo asked.

"Of course not. If you run over, you will be exhausted."

"Oh."

Panting slightly, standing at the entrance of the amusement park, Anke looked at this beautiful place, "It's very big, it looks very fun."

"Of course, this is the most representative theme park in Seoul and even South Korea. Wait, I'll buy tickets." Li Xiuyan ran away.

Ankeru looked around here, full of leisurely style, joy and fantasy, full of thrill and excitement, poetry and romance, all kinds of amusement facilities, it looks really great.

Li Xiuyan bought the ticket and came back. Seeing that he was very interested, he introduced him while walking, "This is the most representative theme park in Korea-Everland. Everland consists of three theme parks. , Caribbean Bay, and Everland Speed ​​Road. In the "Celebration World", there are more than 40 kinds of amusement facilities, and the world's only comprehensive wildlife park, Rose Festival and Four Seasons Flower Festival; Caribbean Garden is based on Central and South America. The theme of the Caribbean Sea is an exotic comprehensive water park. Tourists can enjoy the fun of surfing in the artificial waves; Everland is an international resort that combines leisure, entertainment, education and culture. The 23-year-old Happy World has a colorful flower festival and the world's largest indoor and outdoor water park, Jialebi Bay, which makes people enjoy the sledding sled, tornado, eagle fortress, and twins as if they were in a childhood world. The sea salt boat and other exciting and cutting-edge recreational facilities, as well as the wild animal park, can make people feel unparalleled happiness and let go of all unhappiness or pain. No matter what kind of people they are, they can come to find their own Pure joy."

"It sounds beautiful and exciting."

"Ahaha, that's right, hurry up and feel it."

The fact is just like what Li Xiuyan said, this place can make people feel a kind of pure happiness and let people let go of all the pain. An Keruo had a great time here, and he loved all the good things he saw. They were all photographed and recorded. At this moment, he was happy and happy.

The two laughed loudly here, marveling and feeling, as if their hearts had been washed. The flower show full of ancient Korean flavor is An Keru's favorite, so many beautiful blooming flowers are clustered together, The delicate and lovely dolls are scattered among the flowers, giving a feeling of time travel.

"Sister Xiuyan, can I ask you a question?" An Keru, who had calmed down, missed that person all the time.

Now the two of them are sitting on a bench in the park and have finished visiting the amusement park. Although they haven't played all the thrilling games one by one, it is enough to feel happy.

"What? Of course you can ask." Li Xiuyan looked at An Keru's quiet side face in wonder, and she suddenly felt that An Keru's heart was a little restless or sad.

"If I fell in love with someone who shouldn't be loved, no one would accept...what should I do?" An Keru's eyes were already filled with tears unconsciously, and he looked at the girl in confusion and anticipation. Li Xiuyan, I hope she can give him a good answer.

What would be a good answer?He himself does not know.

"Should I give up and pretend nothing happened, or should I..." An Keru couldn't say what happened next, how could he say it?This is impossible. If he does this, it will destroy the future and dreams of many people.

Li Xiuyan was shocked when she heard the words, she looked at An Keru who was full of sadness and sadness, she was flustered and heartbroken, she calmed down, "You just said that you fell in love with someone you shouldn't love? who is it?"

"Sister Xiuyan, since it's someone you shouldn't love, it's better not to say it out, I just want to know, what should I do?" An Keruo looked down at her tightly clenched hands and said in a low voice.

"Since you know that you shouldn't love someone, you shouldn't fall in love! You are an artist, everything about you is under everyone's eyes, everyone is paying attention to you, you can't... In this circle, you don't have There are a lot of dark and cruel things that have been touched, and you are already lucky, you can't destroy yourself, you know?"

"That means you should give up, right?" An Keruo murmured as if he had no strength, "You also said to give up, maybe I really should give up... as if nothing happened , I am still the old me.”

Can he go back to the past?Can he still be the old man?He was not at all sure.