"Well, now let's settle another matter."

Shiina Yusheng turned his eyes to the operating room of this small clinic, and his smile gradually softened.

"Why would the cute Ji-chan, who should be in class, skip class at the port mafia boss?"

Boy Dazai who was eavesdropping behind the door: ...

Still in high spirits, Ogai Mori caught off guard when he realized that the children of his allies with golden thighs were skipping class to find suicide drugs: ...

For some reason, I suddenly felt guilty.

As a boy skipping class who was caught on the spot, Dazai quickly wiped off the discomfort on his face, jumped out confidently, pre-emptively strikes, and the villain is the first to file a complaint.

"Didn't you also sneak out alone! 50 billion! You only spent 30 billion when you bought me!"

When a bear child does something bad and encounters his parents and doesn't know what to do, he will cry first!

Of course, Dazai boy can't cry, he can only cry and complain about the hateful behavior of his parents!

"This is a normal investment in my business." Of course, Yousheng would not be lured into the ditch by this immature Osamu Dazai who was still wearing a school uniform and looked like a good student, "In addition, the 30 billion is mainly for Mr. Mori, you and Xiao Zuo Giveaway."

——Without the gifts from you two, the 30 billion transaction would not exist.

#This is a typical example of buying a broken hand for a gift#

The young man widened his iris-colored eyes, took a deep breath, and looked quite angry.

"Pfft." You Sheng couldn't help but look away and smiled.

Osamu Dazai: ...

So angry!

This person is actually speaking such a sad truth in a joking tone!But the other party's attention to oneself is also true!If you really think about it, you will get a lot of unsolvable puzzles, which will be very sad!

Yousheng poked Dazai's swollen cheek, and coaxed with a gentle smile, "Okay, don't be angry, it's only 50 billion. If you want, I will leave you a share from the inheritance."

"Is there only so little inheritance left for me!"

"Oh? I'm so glad you have the idea of ​​living longer than me, Dazai." Yousheng took out a pack of medicine from the boy's school uniform pocket, "Then throw away this painful thing Well, if you really want to die, I will make you painless and even comfortable until the end of ascension. After you die, I will also make you whole and beautiful, Dazai."

Suddenly received the long-awaited promise, Osamu Dazai looked at those serious red eyes that seemed to have been taken from their lives, and lost their warmth, but he couldn't feel the joy in his heart at all——

Even at this moment, he was overwhelmed by some kind of great panic and sadness.

[Do people really have a meaning to live? 】

There is a risk of losing anything the moment you get it - if you are panicking about losing it, will it become an important existence for others one day?

It is so important that you are afraid of losing, but no matter how hard you try, you can't stop the loss. Can you just ignore your own feelings and make the other person leave more happily and comfortably?

It is an emotion that fits so well that it almost violates understanding, and is so deep that there is no time to explain it - there is no one in the world who is more familiar with what kind of person he is than he himself, and the friendship between them is only a few months.This feeling of being seen through the essence made Osamu Dazai finally realize some kind of absurd possibility in panic.

"You..." At the same time, real anger rose in Dazai's heart, his eyes turned completely cold, "Who are you looking at... through me?"

"Eh? Do you think I'm looking at you through someone else?" About Dazai's closeness to the truth, Yousheng had already expected, "I'm sorry for misunderstood you, I did know someone who is very similar to you , and guess your preferences and wishes through his character, but I am also looking at you seriously, my dear Dazai-you are unique, I have never regarded you as someone else, I just refer to a It’s all about getting to know someone similar.”

The boy Dazai who was being coaxed looked a little pale.

However, Shiina Yusheng's gentle tone became a bit cold and self-deprecating.

"But you do look alike, don't you?"

Those red eyes stared at the stunned boy in bandages with a half-smile.

"The same talent, the same thirst for death - when I said that I would let you die comfortably, were you happy? Never thought that as my adopted son, I can devote all my resources to you , What does it mean to hold everything in the world and even my heart in front of you and let you drive me? You are very important to me, but what am I to you? Don’t you just die if you want to, and run away if you want to Go where no one can find it?"

"You're so smart...you can guess anything, you can do anything."

All the intimacy was stripped into a cold and inorganic strange gaze at this moment, Dazai Osamu opened his lips slightly, but he didn't know how to face the abyss-like distance that was suddenly torn between the two.

Perhaps this distance existed in the first place - the other party usually carefully concealed some terrible truths, but his own inquisitive behavior tore apart the disguise.

Until the door of the clinic was gently closed, Osamu Dazai was still standing there, looking at the back of Yusheng Shiina in a state of bewilderment.

"Dazai-kun, Mr. Shiina has left." Mori Ogai reminded softly, "Aren't you going to chase after it? Skipping classes is still a bad thing after all, you are living in a normal world now-although I appreciate it Your talents, but if you can live a normal life and have a family that loves you, it would be better not to come back here, right?"

Mori Ogai could see the darkness and emptiness of Osamu Dazai's nature, and how the other party's talent was suitable for living in the other world.

It's not an outbreak of conscience, but... He has already seen Shiina Yusheng's hope that Dazai Osamu can live well. Compared with dragging Dazai Osamu into darkness, it is better to sell Shiina Yusheng a favor, from the one that can be used immediately Golden thighs get more benefits.

Whether Dazai accepts the persuasion is Dazai's own business, and whether Mori Ogai reminds him—even if it is a hypocritical reminder, it is also morally reasonable.

Dazai boy didn't answer Mori Ogai, but came back to his senses, as if he was suddenly crushed by something, he sat down on the ground with his stomach churning violently.

Sensitive by nature and good at perceiving people's hearts, he has already guessed some facts.

No matter who the person who is similar to himself is... Shiina Yusheng's feelings for "someone" and even himself are unchanging "importance" - he turns all unbearable pressure to those "behaviors" The hatred, even the hatred is not intolerable - because someone who inflicted those psychological violence is an absolutely important person, and now that important person is him, the Dazai.

And he is doing the same thing—but death has always been what he is chasing and looking forward to, why should he be shaken?

It's okay to keep going.

Rather, it is right to continue.

It can be seen from the fact that Shiina Yusheng did not interfere with his own affairs at the beginning, no matter whether what he did would bring psychological shadow to that guy, as long as it was something he strongly wanted to do, the other party would unconditionally support it.

But, in this way... He can't do it fundamentally, right?

Because all important things will be lost, it will feel meaningless to live in the world.

Shiina Yusheng is indeed not considered "someone worth living" for him now, but... that strong feeling that will never deteriorate, unexpectedly attracts him so much, and even makes him jealous.

"The moment you get it, you will definitely lose it" - this absolute assumption is no longer established.

He also wants to get the feeling that will not deteriorate, whether it is love or hatred, friendship, family affection or love.

To imprint that strong emotion in the soul of a long-lived alien race who will never die...

"what."

How could he have such a strange idea.

"Dazai-kun?"

Osamu Dazai took a deep breath and finally got out of the trance-like state.

"No, it's nothing. Mr. Sen is right. Skipping classes is never something a student should do."

The bandaged boy stood up with a refreshing smile.

"Then, I'll go back to school first~"

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