[Hunter] Reasons not to love you

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In addition to this episode, Xiba did not choose to let go, but chose to use family power to destroy Peerless, and then get the if route of Peerless

This chapter describes from Sheba's perspective

I accidentally wrote a lot of words about Xiba’s memories, so let’s just write about memories in this chapter, and continue in the next chapter. The next chapter is basically full of black mud. Poppy is a medicinal plant, but because it can be made into drugs|products , so the international control over opium poppy is very strict.

(One)

All Shiba's assassination skills were taught to him by his father Zeno since he was a child.He followed his father to carry out countless assassination missions, years of working together cultivated an extraordinary tacit understanding, and his father regarded him as the best work partner.

His father came up to him from the darkness at the end of the corridor, reminding him, "Shiba, it's time to make a decision."

Although his father didn't say it, he knew that not only he wanted to get the peerless world, but his father also hoped that the family could get the peerless world.

His father respects his personal wishes, because his father hopes that he will not have to regret it in the future. After all, beating the enemy chooses a spouse because he wants to be with him for the rest of his life.And there is another candidate, Ji Qiu, who can be married. Taking a step back, Ji Qiu's qualifications are actually very good.

Jue Shi knew this, so she said on the phone: "Don't be too greedy."

This is a choice between two, Peerless or Kiqiu?

Shiba doesn't dislike Kichu, but it's difficult to change the concept for a while.In his eyes, Kiqiu, who is four years younger than him, is proud and a little willful. His pursuit of him seems to be caused by his obsession that he failed to respond to when he was 10 years old, like a toy that has been quarreling over a toy that he did not get. A child with a child—could that kind of affection be called normal "love"?

What about Peerless?Jue Shi likes him, he likes him as a man, but what Jue Shi likes is him who is single, and he doesn't want to get involved in the family behind him.It's not that he hates his family, but that he hates the bondage of the family. Jue Shi likes to be alone and free.

Leaving aside the emotional aspect, what about the rational aspect?

"If we want to get her secrets, we need a formal meeting," Geno said.

Father has already given the answer, and his peerless aptitude is obviously higher than that of Kiqiu.

Shiba looked at the ball of metal he held in his palm, which was once the key to the "home" he and Jue Shi had built together.

At that time, she had put her key on the table so decisively, announcing her withdrawal from his life, announcing his total defeat.

Dark emotions surged in his heart, and the long-term education of killers made Xiba maintain his superficial calm.

He didn't want to take that key away, he didn't want to let it go easily, the three months of formal relationship made him care more, he lost, he lost completely.

But Jue Shi immediately caught up and reminded him to take the key away without leaving any room.

Years of feelings, after all, failed to shake her ruler.

This woman's heart is not generally hard.

Shiba thought of the engagement ring lying in his drawer, which was unilaterally discarded by Jue Shi before he could give it away.

Just when she was about to hold it tightly, she let go of the hand that she had been actively holding.

When we broke up, I left my business card for work, and hoped that she would call, no matter how small it was, or accidentally dialed the wrong number... I wanted to hear her voice again.In the name of work, the "transaction" doesn't involve feelings, it's just a money relationship, so it shouldn't cause her a psychological burden.

She doesn't need it?No, "needs" can be artificially created.

The world's number one assassination family has the most enemies in the world, and many of them are willing to get involved.

Let out a little bit of wind, and those people will flock to it.

"...Peerless." Sheba waited day after day, but still couldn't wait for her contact.

What was even more unexpected was that Jue Shi's hidden strength exceeded expectations, and those people couldn't do anything to her at all.

No, the effect is still there, she called.After hearing her voice for a long time, I felt that no matter what she said next, it would not affect my mood.

"Shiba, haven't you married Kiju yet?"

"Others probably think that your old relationship is over? As an ex, I am very troubled."

"Just complaining a little bit. Sheba, don't be too greedy."

Is this the end of the battle, or an ultimatum?

It's still too late, you can let go, and then become complete strangers with Jue Shi.

Want to let go?

(two)

Why did Jue Shi propose to break up?

It wasn't because the love disappeared, on the contrary, she was still full of love, and when she proposed to break up, there was reluctance in her eyes.

No one or external force forced her to break up.

Her explanations, her excuses, her actions, all of these add up, Sheba is very clear, and its essence can be summed up in one sentence: she pursues personal pleasure and does not want to take any responsibility.

Then she shouldn't have broken into his territory in the first place and planted poppies in his territory.

Before the official relationship, Jue Shi said: "I don't think about our future."

She doesn't want things to bear fruit, so she plants plants that shouldn't bear fruit.

Yes, the poppy, an exceptionally beautiful ornamental plant, bears the sinful fruit that leads people into the abyss.

Although the person who took care of the flowers left, those flowers grew in Sheba's heart, and Sheba could water them herself so that they would continue to grow until they bear fruit.

Xiba recalled his own childhood, starting from the age of three, the strict killer training that suppressed the child's nature. When being tortured, he was not allowed to shout pain, cry, or show any weakness. He continued to train until he passed the training. Yes, a silent killing machine.

I was already used to and accepted these things, and gradually realized that the world I live in is different from others. I didn't expect to meet her, the first person in my life who could arouse my interest.

Humans also have a chick complex.

Before encountering Peerless, Shiba actually lacked the concept of real women. The mother who can be the best model doesn't go home often and prefers to stay in her hometown.The main women Xiba came into contact with when he was growing up were the housekeepers at home. Most of them were cautious and respectful. Even if they stood right in front of him, the distance from him was basically as far away as that of outsiders.

Peerless is different, when Shiba saw her for the first time when he was a teenager, he was frightened by her eyes.

It was the look of "wanting to get it", which was so explicit that Xiba had goosebumps all over his body. At that time, Xiba thought she was a boy, but Xiba had never heard of it. Boys of his own age would have special interests in other boys. things like that.

"Date with me." Jue Shi said with a smile, "Then I will hand over the negatives to you."

The terms of exchange proposed by Peerless are very straightforward. Due to the good family education he received since he was a child, Xiba suppressed his inner unhappiness, and chose to be courteous before fighting, "I don't have that time. If you don't have any other suitable proposals, then I'm sorry, I have to grab it. "

Solve it quickly, don't delay the task.

Miscalculation, the other party is really not a simple person, time is limited, Shiba chose to complete the task given by the family first, and then complete the exchange conditions.

No wonder, it turned out that the other party was a professional hunter with a hunter's license, and the other party said that the photo was taken for news report work.

The work should be real. The other party was very serious at work, busy developing photos, completely leaving Shiba aside, and the explicit eyes when they first met seemed to be hallucinations.

Waiting for the other party to develop photos is not boring. Waiting is the most important part of a professional assassin's work, and Shiba has long been used to it.

However, it feels very fresh to be able to join the workflow and help develop photos.

"Maybe this photo will win the Pulitzer Prize." She said, pointing to a photo with great pleasure.

"what is that?"

"Photography in journalism. Events that could go down in history are good subjects."

She really won the Pulitzer Prize, and Sheba saw the photo on the front page of the newspaper, and thought that he helped to wash the photo, and couldn't help being a little proud of it.

Seeing him staring at the front page for a long time, his father asked him if there was anything he cared about.

He lied, saying he didn't care about anything in particular.

"Sheba, you look happy." His father knew him very well, and it was not easy to lie to him.

"The photographer's name is very funny." Shiba replied, "It's actually called 'a bowl of fried rice'."

Her pen name is actually "A Bowl of Fried Rice" - what a strange name!Without any taste or literary talent.

The strange thing is not only the pseudonym, Shiba didn't realize that she was a girl at all.Her residence is her workplace, with office supplies piled up everywhere, as if entering an office rather than a private residence.

I asked her to borrow a change of clothes, and took the opportunity to check her personal belongings, but found nothing that could prove that she was a girl.

Until she volunteered that she was a girl.

"!" Shiba immediately understood how bad she was, because Shiba borrowed her change of clothes and was wearing them.

She covered her stomach with laughter.

She didn't think it was funny to wear her clothes at first, but she reacted like this, and Shiba knew the meaning-she had some dangerous thoughts.

She is up to no good.

In exchange for handing over the negatives, the date she asked for was surprisingly simple. She invited Shiba to a restaurant for a meal and rewarded him with developing the photos, and the date ended.

At the end of the date, she wanted Shiba's contact information, and Shiba, who was continuously disrupted, seized the opportunity to reveal her identity as a professional killer, with a dangerous killing intent attached.Giving her a [-]% discount was just humorous, Shiba didn't believe that she had enough money to hire Dadike, after all, Dadike was the world's number one family of killers, and the fees were also the most expensive in the industry.

"...The discount is too little." She complained sincerely.

Well, she probably doesn't know the status of beating enemies in the industry.Moreover, she was completely unaffected by the killing intent, which made Shiba deeply frustrated.

(three)

Under her pseudonym, Shiba consulted all her published works.When she was 10 years old, she successfully published her first article, which was published in a little-known magazine. It was about a boy who met a wolf on a narrow road. The boy only had a toothbrush in his hand, and he used the toothbrush as a weapon to kill the wolf.

She has not changed her pen name, which has been used until now, and it is relatively easy to find her works.

In the first few years, she was in the groping stage, her creative direction was unstable, and she wrote a lot of strange stories. She was deeply impressed by a horror story about human anatomical models.

The story is that the human anatomy model will stop the students who stay at school at night, point to an organ on their body, and ask the students the name and purpose of the organ.If the answer is wrong, pull out that organ of the student, teach the student the correct answer, and then leave.If the answer is correct, put the organ aside and continue asking questions.One day, the model met an outstanding student who answered all the questions correctly.Because every time a question is answered correctly, the model will put the corresponding organ aside.So the model became empty, and in order to fill the void, the model pulled out all the organs of the student and put them in its own stomach.

Horror stories generally don’t pay attention to strict logic, but this story seems to want to express medical knowledge more. The appearance of each organ is described in detail, as well as the feel of the organ. The details are too real to create horror with realism.Shiba felt as if she had really touched it with her own hands.

So Sheba investigates her past.

She spent the first six years of her life in an orphanage before being adopted by a middle-aged, childless couple.When she was 6 years old, the couple was brutally murdered at home, and the house was burned down. The autopsy results showed that they were tortured inhumanely and died in pain.This appalling massacre made newspaper headlines that year, but the police have not been able to solve the case, and there are different opinions about the truth of the case.

The general public was unaware that the couple had adopted a child.The couple was a job intermediary, and they used false identities to bridge the relationship between the orphanage and the rich, buying and selling orphans. For some reason, the police did not disclose the real identities of the couple, and closed the case.

She did not leave any records between the ages of 6 and 9. She seems to have been living alone after the age of 9, with unknown sources of income and no criminal record. She attended some cram schools and continued to write and submit articles. Hunter license, and then used the license to go to various parts of the world, collecting local materials, and constantly writing and submitting articles. The content of life is relatively simple.

If it weren't for the fact that the intelligence network for beating the enemy is strong enough, Shiba would not be able to know and deduce the above information.

After finding out her itinerary information, Shiba "encountered" her again, observing her secretly among the glove boxes piled up in the abandoned factory.

"What are you filming this time?" Sheba asked in a low voice.

"A top-secret illegal trading site." She replied in a low voice.

When secretly filming, she was full of interest and relish.This type of hobby, Shiba can't compliment it.

She doesn't hide her hobbies very much, just like her conspiracy with Sheba, maybe she tried to cover it up, but Sheba's sense is very keen, and she always feels that her intentions are obvious.

That level of conspiracy is not a threat, not to the point where it needs to be kept at a respectful distance, but can be used as a flavoring agent for life-how can a professional killer be afraid of danger?

Rather, proper, manageable danger is good entertainment.

Hiding yourself and tracking your prey is one of the necessary tasks for a professional killer. Always be on guard against being discovered by your prey. This process is undoubtedly very tense.

But she enjoys doing similar work, treating it as an exciting game.Because she doesn't need to look for the fatal flaws of the prey, she just needs to hold the camera in her hand and do the recording work she wants to do.Not being noticed by the prey, and then leaving quietly, is the whole of her hunting job.

Xiba suddenly had a destructive intention, and made a hindrance to her, exposing her.

She escaped quickly, and afterwards she didn't blame her, but said amusedly, "So you can still play pranks."

Well, Shiba admitted that he was still an immature teenager at the time, because she said that he was naive, so he ignored her and turned away.

"Hey, don't go so fast!" She chased after her, "Shiba! Let me... treat you to dinner, okay?"

Shiba threw her away and hid, watching her try to find it for a few minutes, then she slumped her shoulders with a look of disappointment, walked slowly to the tree, and sat there with her knees hugged, as if she was very sad.

She sat there for a long time, and Shiba watched for a long time.

When she stood up, Shiba thought about it, and decided to show up and ask her to treat her to dinner.

"Ah?" She misunderstood this greatly, "Did you just find out that you didn't bring enough money?"

"..." That's not the case, but that's it.

(four)

Most of the time, her brain circuit is so unconventional, and she is particularly persistent about money-related issues. She always loves roadside stalls for dinner, and does not hide her stinginess. She calls it "thrifty and frugal."

Shiba was very suspicious of the extent of her plot, as if she was just thinking about it in her head and didn't particularly expect success, so when she said "I like you" seriously, she replied that she usually only regards her as a buddy.

Her expression suddenly became brilliant, Shiba almost laughed out loud, holding back very hard.

That answer really dealt a huge blow to her, she began to wear skirts more frequently, and her hair was not cut back to short, trying to pretend to be a girl in the popular sense.

In fact, it's okay if she doesn't do this, Shiba thinks that she is not a person who values ​​appearance, as long as she feels comfortable together.

But after she carefully dressed up, Shiba immediately became a little unrecognizable.

……very beautiful.So she can be so beautiful.

"How do you feel about me today?" she asked.

"The new clothes are very suitable for you." Shiba only looked at her for two seconds, and replied with a polite answer.

Shiba realized for the first time that he was also a superficial person, even if he turned his head away, he couldn't help but continue to look at her through the reflection of the glass.

Familiar things have changed too much, every tiny movement of her can affect Sheba's sensitive nerves, and Sheba feels extremely irritable.

"Shiba, are you unhappy?" Even she noticed something was wrong.

"No."

Then, feeling more and more uncomfortable, Shiba quickly found an excuse and left the place that made him irritated.

She didn't hold back.

That night, Sheba dreamed of being intimate with her, and when she woke up, Sheba felt extremely ashamed of her superficiality.

So I went to the training ground and devoted myself to training until I lay on the ground, exhausted.

"Shiba, are you unhappy?" Her father asked the same question as her.

"No." Shiba gave the same answer.

"Do you have someone you care about?" Her father knew Xiba better than her, after all, her father watched Xiba grow up.

Moreover, the father was once a boy.

"No." Shiba repeated.

"Go after what you like. No prey will stay in place forever." The father smiled slightly, "I believe in my son's vision."

"..." Xiba who was lying on the ground raised his arms, pretending to wipe his sweat, and covered his eyes.

(Fives)

The matter of finding a life partner is a bit ahead of schedule for teenagers, and it is a problem that has never been carefully considered.

Despite his father's encouragement, Sheba doubted his own judgment, feeling very confused because of the dream.

He didn't want to be swayed by impulsive emotions, so he gave himself a period of time to calm down.

When he finally regained his peace and was able to look at Jue Shi's new image objectively, he found that Jue Shi was not so beautiful as to be exaggerated, and it was still a little worse than the level of being on the cover of a magazine.

Shiba felt relieved.

Because even though Jue Shi is not as beautiful as imagined, Sheba still wants to "encounter" with her again, and even can't wait.

In the first place, she was plotting to do something wrong.

Now it's his turn to conspire.

No, she was still a little impulsive and her emotions couldn't be controlled. Shiba decided to observe her secretly for a while to calm himself down.

I hope to see her shortcomings and calm myself down.

I don't want to see too much and disillusion myself.

The teenager is troubled by his contradictory heart, but he doesn't realize that his behavior is called "stalker" in the popular sense.

Well, after all, the boy was trained as a professional killer since he was a child, and tracking targets is a very common thing for him.

He saw Jueshi lying on the pillow and drooling, seeing Jueshi getting up with messy hair and rubbing his eyes, seeing Jueshi yawning, seeing Jueshi eating bread with his eyes closed, seeing Jueshi tidying up. The appearance of the materials, seeing Jue Shi writing manuscripts at his desk, seeing Jue Shi eating instant noodles.

Jue Shi wrote the manuscript all day long, and when things went wrong, she would scratch her head with her pen.

First write the first draft of a page, then delete, modify, and re-transcribe, then check the words and sentences, and re-transcribe after correcting the problems.

She bought manuscript paper in units of "boxes". She used it very wastefully. After writing a line, she felt that it was not good, so she rubbed the manuscript paper and took a new one to write.

During this period, she was in a daze several times, probably thinking about how to write, and before she knew it, she wrote until late at night.

Not being discovered by prey is Shiba's proud professional skill. He is immersed in the "killer mode", and forgets that when he invades other people's private life, he will inevitably see content he did not want to see.

Shiba swears by his family's reputation that he didn't intend to watch the scene of Peerless changing clothes.

Because Jue Shi only wore a single shirt, and because his dynamic vision was too good, even though he closed his eyes immediately, the half-dressed picture was still clearly reflected on his retina and remained in his mind.

"..." He suddenly realized that he looked like a pervert at the moment.

The most embarrassing moment in this life is now. Fortunately, no one knows, and no one will know in the future.

The boy ran away in despair.

That night, the boy didn't dream, because he couldn't sleep all night, he thought over and over again, but he didn't find any shortcomings that could make him calm down.

The image of half-undressed lingered in his mind, and his brain uncontrollably helped him recall various details.

Too bad he's getting irritable again.

(six)

Learning the lesson from last time, it is obviously not a good way to secretly follow.

As the saying goes, beauty comes from distance. He decided to face the difficulties and approach the goal head-on.

Seeing Jue Shi again, she hid her hair with a hat and wore overalls, looking like a boy again.She is more skilled at playing boys than girls.

Shiba saw Jue Shi get into a ventilation duct, and then he got into the ventilation duct from the other side and "encountered" her.

"Meet you again." Sheba spoke first.

"...Are you a stalker?" She was a little surprised.

"Who is it?" Shiba asked back.

Later, Jue Shi would take the initiative to leave him a message on the phone, saying where she would go to collect materials.

So Shiba also began to pay attention to his task arrangement.

His father has always supported him, did not say anything, and acquiesced to his behavior.

(Seven)

Shiba knew which book Jue Shi was learning to try to tease him, and every time he defended perfectly, he liked to see Jue Shi couldn't help but feel annoyed.

Only once, the worst time, when Jue Shi kissed him with alcohol, he didn't avoid it.

Because his heart was beating so fast, his reaction was a beat slower.The lips exuding the aroma of fruit and alcohol were pressed together, the soft touch and the sweet aroma made the self-control he was proud of instantly collapsed.

He suddenly understood what was the cause of his unreasonable irritability before.

Because that comes from a completely foreign emotion called "like her".

Jue Shi's behavior was as proactive as ever, with insurance measures premeditated, and everything was under her control.

No, it's not okay to continue like this, the young man took back the initiative, and as a small revenge for being tricked by her, he used extra force maliciously, apologizing while making her make a sound of enduring pain.

The voice was mixed with more and more joy, and the boy was also deeply involved in it, pulling her ankle, wanting to continue.

So, it was out of control.

The night passed quickly, unexpectedly, the first thing Jue Shi did was to hope that he would not tell his family.

"I just want to sleep with you." Jue Shi said so.

"Well, I know."

But it doesn't matter, they are still very young, and when the relationship becomes deeper in the future, she should change her mind.

(Eight)

After years of dating, Jue Shi's love for him continued unabated, and he was very sticky when he was clinging to him, and he didn't want to let go of him.

Of course, he also likes this kind of intimacy, and sleeping with Jue Shi in his arms has gradually become his habit.

Shiba thinks that the worst case scenario is that Jue Shi Future, like his mother, spends most of his time pursuing personal freedom after marriage.

Due to the absence of his mother, his father assumed almost all the responsibilities. Xiba learned his father's strength and responsibility, and learned how to be a responsible man, but he did not expect that he would repeat the same mistakes as his father in the future and fall in love with a A woman who does not want to take on family responsibilities.

No, it's even worse, this woman doesn't even want to bear the responsibility of getting married and having children.

There was no sign, no retreat, and the notice "Let's break up" was issued directly.Obviously the love between the two hasn't disappeared, it's better to say that it's developing just right, but this woman is extremely ruthless, she wants to cut off the relationship neatly, and spare no effort to find Ki Qiu as a "more suitable" substitute, trying to escape .

The poppies bear fruit.

The engagement ring was all ready, and when it came time to propose to her, everything came to a screeching halt.

How could there be no reconciliation?

He also thought that he could accept Jue Shi's "freedom" like his mother's.

Unexpectedly, Jue Shi asked for more freedom than he could give.

Jue Shi doesn't want to get married, not at all.

(nine)

A difference of thought, yes, just a difference of thought.

What would the future look like if he had chosen to burn that patch of poppy instead of picking its fruit?

That doesn't matter anymore.

He chose to pluck the fruit.

The juice of the fruit is addictive.

get her.

Even if it means destroying her.

Let her be the spoils of war when his official successor beat the enemy Hakka master.

The dark side of the moon is crazy.

The ferocious beast in the dark night opened its shimmering eyes and firmly locked on to the target.

He is the most dedicated, best, and patient predator, and will not stop until he has dragged his prey back to the lair.