Deep Sea Contract

01.

I am Pei Lang.

I haven't seen my father since I was born. The most fragments in my childhood memories are my mother holding me and telling me bedtime stories.

My mother is a gentle and beautiful woman. In that small apartment, she loved to tell stories, then kissed me good night, and called me baby over and over again.

I looked at my mother ignorantly, and only felt that this title was kind.My mother laughed, and after carefully pulling the quilt for me, she got up and walked out of the bedroom.The bedroom is connected to the living room. Before the door was completely closed, a dim light came in. Through the light, I saw my mother in a water-green cheongsam and looked back at me.

Many years later, when I saw Shuo Xun, I realized what was contained in that look.

It was guilt, helplessness and deeply hidden nostalgia.

02.

When I was ten years old, I was carried into a car as soon as I came out of the school gate.Sitting in the car was a teenager who was a few years older than me, with indifference written all over his delicate face.He looked me up and down and asked me, "Are you Pei Lang?"

I was so frightened by him that I could only nod desperately, and then told him if he could let me go back. My mother was still waiting for me at home.

The young man frowned, and finally there was a slight change on his expressionless face, and he said to me: "My mother is dead, and you are her illegitimate child. From now on, you must listen to me."

I stared at him blankly, my mind blank.The boy's words were inexplicably convincing, and I ran out of the car frantically while tears were streaming down my face.

I want to go home.

The boy caught up with me in stride, he grabbed my neck and picked me up, as easily as if he were carrying a pet.He seemed a little disgusted with me who was crying so hard, and said with a gloomy face:

"Mother entrusted you to me, don't cry, I will let you live."

After these words, I was completely separated from that small apartment.

That boy took me to a big mountain villa.My mother was not rich, and I had never been to such a beautiful place, nor had I seen so many people bowing to one person.

They were bowing to the young man, whom they called the young master.

I was taken to a separate two-story building in the villa. When the boy turned to leave, I grabbed his clothes and asked, "Who are you?"

The young man looked at me condescendingly, and after a while he said calmly: "I am Li Sheng, you are my half-brother, and you usually call me Eldest Young Master."

After speaking, the boy left.

I stood there at a loss, watching this man who claimed to be my brother leave.I suddenly realized that I had just gained an older brother whom my mother had never mentioned.

Frightened, I grabbed a passing maid and asked where her mother was.

The maid patted my head pitifully.

It took several months for me to learn from other people that what that boy named Li Sheng, who is also my elder brother, said was true.

Mother had really died.

I finally understood all my mother's sufferings these years, but it seemed too late.She left in a hurry and decisively, and the Li family buried her in the Li family's cemetery.I didn't hear her last words, didn't see her will, and I didn't even see her last face. future rulers of the country.

What a strange arrangement.

I'm sure, if it wasn't for his mother's entrustment, Li Sheng would never have known that there was a brother like me in his life.

Sometimes on my way to school I'd see him get off a black Bentley and ride off in another Army Jeep.Li Sheng was four years older than me, but he had already shown his sharpness at that time.

My brother and I are very different, and I never called Li Sheng my brother until half a year later, Li Sheng suddenly appeared in front of me and asked me to go to the airport immediately to study in the United States.

I got into the car with my bag.Just as the car was about to start, Li Sheng walked over.I thought he was going to say goodbye to me, and my heart got hot, and I was about to call my brother, but before I could speak, he strangled me in my swaddle.

Li Sheng said: "A weak person like you will die sooner or later in the Li family, wasting mother's hard work for nothing."

I bowed my head and fell silent.

This is what I have learned in half a year.The car started, and Li Sheng's figure was thrown far behind me. I lay on my back and looked at him, and my tears couldn't stop falling.

03.

During those years of studying in the United States, Li Sheng treated me well.

He arranged for me to be top-notch teachers, and I tried my best to learn every subject. Finally, when I got the admission letter from Yale University, I breathed a sigh of relief, raised my head, and had a brief meeting with Alex in mid-air. kissed.

Alex is a Chinese-American, my classmate in the United States, um... at least a former classmate.He should be my boyfriend now, and he has been sticking to me since 10 minutes ago. At this moment, he is leaning his face towards me like a big cat, with the tip of his tongue sliding gently on the bridge of my nose and lips, "Your husband, I still I didn't receive the notification, please comfort me."

I smiled and pushed him away, before I took two steps, Alex rushed over, he was tall and tall, I fell to the floor, he rolled over and pushed me down, and he hit my forehead.

"Honey, shouldn't we celebrate tonight?"

To be honest, if it wasn't for his hand to lift the corner of my shirt and pinch my waist with ease, with that handsome face like a Hollywood star, I might have agreed to him.

"Honey~ come on~" Alex still rubbed against me unwillingly.

It so happened that the doorbell rang.

I pushed him away, Alex stood up with a face full of regret, sighed while sitting on the sofa, and didn't notice the sudden change in my face when I went to open the door.

There are people from the Li family at the door.

I took the heavy package, smiled at Alex, opened it and found a brand new suit inside, and the string of zeros on the tag made me suspect that it was written by Li Sheng.

I told him a few days ago that I was going to Yale to study medicine.

Alex leaned against the wall, almost burning his new suit with his hot gaze.When I was cleaning up the rubbish on the table, he suddenly came over and hugged me from behind, saying, "Honey, sometimes I really can't see through you."

I smiled and tried to pull him away, but he didn't succeed, but was carried onto the sofa by him.

He kissed my lips and asked me to touch him, pinched my waist before entering, and rubbed against my ear with ambiguity, "You are so gentle, you will spoil me."

I hugged him tightly, but in my head was the USB flash drive that I hid when I unpacked it.

04.

The USB flash drive is Alex's real identity.

My boyfriend's original name was He Ren, and he was the young master of the Li family's rival He family.

Obviously, Li Sheng already knew about our relationship that just started.

I stood on the flyover, looking at the Mississippi, trying to talk myself into breaking up.However, half an hour doesn't work.

He Ren was the first person I fell in love with in so many years.

The wind is getting stronger on the bridge.

He Ren called me and asked where I was. I was about to answer when I saw a thin figure.

The man passed me by, and he glanced at me, and I saw a pair of blue eyes clearly reflecting my appearance, with the usual non-aggressive smile.

This stranger became my reason for breaking up.

I said to the other end of the phone: "Let's break up, I have someone I like."

The other end of the phone beeped.

I thought that would be the last phone call between me and He Ren, and the last meeting with this stranger, but I didn't expect that fate would take away all the last things a few years later.

05.

I studied at Yale for six years, got a double master's degree from Yale, and returned to Lijia.

After half a year in Lijia Hospital, I saw those blue eyes again.

Holding the owner of those eyes, Li Cheng strode into the hospital.He had a bad complexion, but there was a hint of worry in his eyes.He bowed his head and called the man in his arms Ah Xun, which sounded very intimate.

I saw those eyes and decided to be the doctor in charge of this merman.

I was very popular in the hospital, and this merman seemed like a hot yam, so I easily became his doctor, and then I got to know his name.

His name is Shuo Xun.

The next name is someone Pei Lang likes.

06.

Shuo Xun was always looking in one direction, he said very little, and never frowned when changing medicines, but he was afraid of injections.

I was in charge of giving him an injection.When the needle stuck into his blood vessel, he trembled so obviously, I couldn't help but patted his back, he didn't resist my movement, just lowered his eyes with a sleepy expression.

I can't think of any adjectives to describe the moment when he bowed his head.

That was probably the long-lost heartbeat.

This morning, Shuo Xun and I told some odds and ends. Before leaving, I slowed down and asked him if he remembered. He nodded. He straightened his collar.

Shuo Xun looked at me with an unclear expression.

I smiled and turned to leave the ward. I heard the chirping voices of the nurses. While defending Shuo Xun, I also laughed at myself.

How can I fall in love with someone who seems to have no results?

07.

Shuo Xun asked me to take care of his younger brother before he was discharged from the hospital, and I agreed.

When he was in Japan, I showed him a short video of Shuobai. He said that when he came back later, I worked overtime all night to study the medicine for him. When he came back, I took Shuobai to the United States to take care of him as much as I could. he.

... Although these small actions completely exposed the identity of my illegitimate child, I was arrested by the elders and almost died.But I think it's worth it.

Whose feelings can be paid for nothing without asking for anything in return?

Shuo Xun trusted me a little more.

I got along more and more harmoniously with him, and he didn't seem to notice my intentions at all.I couldn't help becoming anxious, and it happened that Shuobai sneaked back to China, and I also came back from the United States.

I confessed to him.

I wish I could go to the end of the road that day, but in reality, no matter how slowly you walk, a road always has an end.In the rare embarrassment of Shuo Xun in front of that small hospital, he took a step back.

I asked him, "Why did you back off?"

He looked at me with moonlight in his eyes.

I suddenly couldn't bear to embarrass him anymore.Even if he said that it is impossible to like me and there is no future between us, I smiled and told him that this love has nothing to do with him from now on.

He looked at me and hesitated to speak, I turned around and went downstairs chicly.

08.

Love, for me, is willing to gamble and admit defeat.

09.

Shuo Xun and Li Sheng had been entangled for a long time.Everyone said that Li Sheng was not good to Shuo Xun, but occasionally, when I watched them pass in front of me, I would feel grateful.

I'm glad that my ruthless brother didn't realize that he had fallen in love with someone else. At the same time, I was glad that I clearly understood that the reward for all I did was that the person I loved could live a good life.

It is life, not living in vain, let alone living in vain.

So, after hearing that Shuo Xun was imprisoned by Li Sheng, I went to find He Ren.

10.

My first love has become the boss of the He family, and finding him has become difficult.

Walking in the alleys of the red light district, the sound of love makes me a little nauseous, but I can only go on, even if someone has already stretched out his hand to my ass.

In the next second, that person was kicked over.

He Ren Shiran put down his legs, he was a few steps away from me, his eyes were a little drunk, and he walked over lazily and frivolously, as soon as he came in front of me, he slid into my arms.

"Yo, where is the beauty from, come home with me?" He Ren wrapped his arms around my neck like a baby, cutting off all the possibility of my escape.

I looked at He Ren with a smile, and found myself in his eyes.He lowered his head to cover my lips, stuck his tongue in to tease me unscrupulously, and made an ambiguous tsk-tsk sound.

Not counting the hasty meeting in the hotel, I officially reunited with him in the seventh year after we broke up.

Out of the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of the female companion who was walking with him. The woman had one shoe on and the other naked, probably because she wanted this unruly man to help him pick it up.

I pushed He Ren away, bent down to pick up the shoe, and returned it.

The woman fled in despair.

He Ren looked at me, stretched out his hand suddenly after a while, and hugged me by the waist, "Honey, let's get back together."

I obeyed his move and moved into He Ren's house that night, signing the childish cohabitation contract.

He Ren kissed my earlobe, with his hand all the way down, and then withdrew his hand at a critical moment, sat aside and lit a cigarette, his eyes were so brightly lit by the sparkle.He looked at me intently and asked, "You came to me because of Shuo Xun?"

I nodded.

"My dear, you are so sincere." He lifted my chin and kissed me bloody.

I snorted, and opened my body little by little after seven years.

11.

A person's meanness needs to be graded.

Possessiveness is despicable, self-confidence is despicable, and being like me is even more despicable.

I know, He Ren likes me.Few people will forget their first love, it was the joy of youth, and youth cannot be repeated.

But now, standing in front of him, I frankly gave him a chance to do it all over again, watching him take the bait without hesitation, and finally use him clearly.

...how can someone be so stupid?

The aftertaste of the orgasm hadn't faded, I pressed the hand that lingered on my chest, and asked softly, "You won't regret it?"

He Ren laughed loudly, he was naked in the darkness.The naked, strong upper body was covered with sweat, and it came to bite my neck, like a big cat.

"In the past few years, I have had quite a few bed partners, and many of them are better than you. They can lick and howl," his voice was vague, and I snorted in pain.

There was blood on the neck.

He Ren licked off the blood stains on his lips, and said with a smile: "Fucking with them. Sex. Fucking. Cannon. Sex with you. Love."

12.

According to He Ren's later explanation, it's called being with someone you love.like.

"It's not about doing anything. Dating for the purpose of love is just playing hooligans." He Ren said with a smile.

13.

Closer to home.

He Ren is very reliable most of the time.With his influence, I started to survive in the He family.I killed people, calculated people's hearts, and seized power recklessly. I successfully responded to Li Sheng's words: [We all shed the same blood in our bones. ]

The same scheming.

The same desire grows stronger.

Also love someone.

... If I hadn't lost that memory, I think that relationship should be called love.

I can't remember when Shuo Xun and He Ren formed an alliance, and I can't remember why they cooperated to bring down Li Cheng.After being stabbed twice by Han Xian, I was in a coma for several months and lost part of my memory when I woke up.

I have never been able to retrieve this part of the memory.

He Ren sat by the bed and babbled to me about the blank year. I noticed that he had sparse stubble on his chin, and dark circles under his eyes, as if he had taken drugs.

I couldn't help but laugh.

He Ren looked at me blankly, then hugged me and laughed too.His arms are very strong, I leaned on them with confidence, buried my face in his arms, but my eyes were red for some reason.

I know I'm forgetting something very important, and it feels like I'm almost suffocated when I wake up.

14.

I voluntarily applied to send Shuo Xun to court, and He Ren agreed.On the day I went to the court, I went to find Shuoxun first, and when I looked at him, I was afraid that I would miss any second of being alone with him.

He is still the same as I remember, cold and indifferent to make people happy.

I sent Shuo Xun to the court, and when we were about to say goodbye, Shuo Xun suddenly turned his head. I looked at him, and the dusk cast a fine light in those blue eyes.

Shuo Xun said. "Pei Lang, you are the best person I have ever met since I went ashore, I hope you will be happy and free all your life, you deserve it.

Time seems to be stretched infinitely.

I sat in the car and couldn't hold back my tears.

15.

On the day Shuo Xun went to court, I was watching TV all the time.I saw him and Li Sheng look at each other, and I knew that I had lost.However, as a friend, there is something else I can do to reassure him.

For example, leave He's house.

16.

In the seventh year of being with He Ren, I broke up.

In the sixth year, I had already resigned from the position of CFO of the consortium, and at the beginning of the seventh year, the power in my hands was basically returned to the He family.

He Ren stared at me, I have never seen him furious, this is the first time.

He fucked fiercely while scolding me for being cheap. After scolding me, I finished venting, and then started scolding himself again: "I'm the world's most fucking badass."

I wanted to laugh a little bit, but it hurt too much, so I had to lie on the bed exhausted, watching him slam the door and walk away with a violent face, slowly got up and called Gu Jing.

17.

Gu Jing is a rare gentle scum, with a good skin, he has done all kinds of bad things. I have known him for several years, and it was the first time I called him to ask him for help, and his promise went smoothly.

Later, I found out that he and Shuo Xun were also friends.

Shuo Xun is a kind-hearted mermaid, and during the five years in Iceland, he has donated a few packs of blood every year without hesitation.Don't ask me why I know this, I also know his address.

In that small town in Iceland, I once looked at him from a distance, and watched him light up and close the door before I felt relieved.

It is enough for me to know that he is doing well.

As a price for helping, I promised to work for Gu Jing for five years. He asked me to be in charge of the follow-up treatment of that man named Han Huan. He Ren, thinking of the warm hugs he and I once had, yearns for each other as eagerly as if suffering from skin hunger.

...I don't know what happened to this guy.

Gu Jing said that my heart is quite big, pretending to be two people is not too much at all.

I can't refute him, I can only interrupt to resolve the embarrassment.

18.

In the sixth year, after working for Gu Jing, I became a doctor again and opened a small clinic in New York.

I have never been to Iceland again, and I occasionally returned home to present a bouquet of flowers to my mother. When I was about to get off the plane one year, I was blocked by a man holding roses.

"This beauty, come home with me." He Ren took off his sunglasses, he was still as young as I remembered, but I already had fine lines at the corners of my eyes.He kissed the corner of my eye with tenderness.

"My father is waiting for you to maintain the gun."

We were so close that I seemed to hear He Ren's heartbeat.He lowered his head to kiss me, but I pushed him away.

"Disgraceful." I scolded him, and was angrily dragged back to the car by him.

19.

I'm Pei Lang, a doctor with blood on my hands.

I once met a person who gave me the wind in the valley and the snow in the deep sea. He said that my life is related to him, and he said that love has no end.

I remember.

So, as he wished.

Joy in life.

after the end

This is the end of this article. Some readers left a message saying that this article seems to have deviated from the theme of rebirth, so what exactly is rebirth?

The rebirth of Shuo Xun is not a counterattack in the traditional sense.Love is willing to gamble and admit defeat, but losing life is undoubtedly painful. Shuo Xun is lucky to be able to do it all over again, but it is difficult to truly reconcile with the past.But only when he is reconciled and relieved, can he really be freed from his status as a LOSER to welcome a complete rebirth, which can also be called a new life.This is the starting point of this article, rebirth is a new life.

Of course, it is impossible to let go easily, and it is also impossible to forgive casually. If the right person is right, then the rest of life is still very long and we can live together, otherwise we can still be separated (laughs)

This article has been written to 30. It has been several months, and there are not many comments and complaints. I am really curious how you feel when you read it.

Thank you to every reader for your perseverance.

Huge rivers and lakes, see you in the next article on the street? ('???')