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"I think your kid is pretty good."

Lu Shengkuo felt familiar with a man's voice. When he saw the mustache under the nose of the man in front of him, he was sure that it was the director who let him enter the acting career when he was a child.

but……

Lu Shengkuo looked down at himself, the little leather shoes, student socks, and the school uniform he wore in elementary school...

Back to my old self...

He blinked a little blankly, and murmured the thought in his mind.

The director smiled very friendly and said the same words as before, asking him: "Your name is Lu Kuo, right? Do you want to come and play with the crew?"

The young woman smiled like a flower, and put her hand on his shoulder: "Director, isn't our crew short of a child? When I got home, I asked Lu Kuo to accompany me to speak with me. He has the foundation."

The person next to him joked: "You want your son to debut early?"

Everything was exactly the same, Lu Shengkuo looked down at his shoes, speechless in a trance.

He wanted to refuse, starting from this point, to change his life in the future.

But no, he couldn't say what he wanted, he was bored for a while, and when he tried to open his mouth, he uttered the word "um".

The woman was very happy, hugged him and said good boy, and asked for leave that night to send him home.

"I'm going to communicate with the teacher," the woman's red lips with matte lipstick kept hooking, "don't worry about not being able to catch up with homework, I will also hire a tutor."

Lu Shengkuo sat in the back seat with his lips pursed, watching the woman gradually become joyful, with a happy tone of voice.

In the end, it turned into a soliloquy: "We, Lu Kuo, will definitely have great prospects in the future, and we were spotted by the director at such a young age."

When he was young, he felt happy when he heard this sentence, and he also had a sense of pride that sprouted in advance, but now, his facial muscles are not in control, and he is smiling, but his heart is very restless.

The woman sent him to the door of his house, but didn't come in. She told him to finish his homework and go to bed early, and would pick him up to the set in a few days.

Lu Shengkuo nodded obediently, and fell into a long emptiness after closing the door.

The woman gave him the phone, and now Lu Shengkuo typed out an address with his small hands, then stopped suddenly, deleted each word, and it became the name of a hospital.

The hospital was a few stops away from home. He went to the jar in the room to get a few coins, and went out to the bus stop.

Lu Shengkuo got into the car with an old lady, tiptoed to quickly insert coins, got close to the old man, and then quickly ran out of the car when he arrived at the station.

He remembered that Shen Nanxing had said about his mother's ward. If it was correct, his mother would be in the ward, and maybe he could see Shen Nanxing.

But as soon as he got to the elevator, there was a cry of a little boy behind him.

A gentle female voice also sounded one after another: "You cry so hard just after getting an injection? Didn't you say that you are a little man in the ward and can't cry?"

The tone was a little mocking, but still very gentle to help the child on his shoulders wipe away the tears.

Lu Shengkuo raised his head and saw that the woman was wearing hair. The hair color was a very gentle pink and flaxen color, which made her skin white, but it might be due to a long illness, she was a little thin, and she was also thin, and there was also a hemostatic patch on the back of her own hand. , it looks like he just finished the infusion.

His eyes were a little dazed, the woman was weak and weak, but she was no different from the person in the photo in the cemetery.

The child lying on her shoulder crying so hard that he couldn't open his eyes was Shen Nanxing, his nose and cheeks were red, and there was a fever-reducing patch on his forehead.

"Shen Nanxing, don't cry anymore," Kang Yu followed Shen Nanxing's back, "Look at the kid who is the same age as you is watching. Later, he will tell his good friend that he met a crybaby today."

Lu Shengkuo kept looking at Shen Nanxing, but before the man opened his eyes, he seemed very embarrassed, his crying became quieter, and he buried his face in his mother's arms sobbing.

When the elevator arrived at the ward floor, Lu Shengkuo watched them go out and followed them himself, but he didn't dare to get close.

It was the first time he saw the real Kang Yu, who was a little different from Shen Nanxing's description, more gentle, and had a strong vitality even when he was sick.

Make him unable to walk away.

After they entered the ward, they never came out again, until Shen Linghe rushed over to pick them up, Shen Nanxing was reluctant to part with his mother, and took a long time to get off Kang Xin's body.

Kang Yu hooked the tip of his nose with her index finger: "Come back tomorrow, don't cry anymore."

The child's eyes were always red, and he turned his head every three steps.

Lu Shengkuo ran to the end of the corridor, lay down and watched Shen Nanxing being pulled into the car, feeling a little uncomfortable, a little distressed, and a little bit reluctant.

"Are you still here?" Kang Yu's voice sounded again, holding an apple in her hand, "Are you also visiting your family? Are you going to stay overnight in the hospital?"

Lu Shengkuo looked at her up and down for a while, his vision became more and more blurred, and he nodded heavily.

The smile on Kang Yu's face disappeared, and she said "ah" belatedly, expressing her apology: "I forgot to bring my knife, would you like to come in and sit down? Peel apples with me?"

So he went into the ward.

There are many things in it, including flowers, fruits, books, and some small daily objects. She seems to have lived here for many years, and she is about to settle down into a family.

It was getting dark outside, and there was only the sound of the peel leaving the flesh in the ward. Lu Shengkuo could smell the aroma of the apple, and by its appearance, he could tell that it was very crisp and sweet.

Kang Yu shaved without haste, her thin five fingers were clean and delicate.

She asked, "Who are you who is sick?"

Lu Shengkuo's breath was stagnant, and he bit his lip: "...Mom."

Mom, he's lying and calling people.

Never thought that he could get in touch with this mother so close, the blood in his heart was about to melt.

Kang Yu's knife paused, and her eyes were a little concerned: "Is it serious?"

Lu Shengkuo's eyes dodged, the end of his eyes became redder, and he nodded slightly.

"I'm sorry to make you sad again." The gentle woman cut off a piece of fruit and handed it to him. "My husband bought this for his son. That kid is too stingy, so he has to go away and eat it secretly."

Lu Shengkuo stopped biting the flesh.

Kang Yu laughed immediately, her hair moved slightly: "I'm kidding you."

He pulled the corner of his mouth with difficulty, blew a little from his eyes, and a bean-sized tear burst out.

A tissue with the smell of jasmine splashed on her face, and Kang Yu spoke again: "I just praised you in front of that boy Shen Nanxing, why are you also a little slug?"

Lu Shengkuo felt that he couldn't take it anymore, his heart was constricted and he couldn't relax.

Kang Yu sighed: "You guys are really worrying."

The wail lasted for a split second. I don't know if it was because he was a child now, and his emotions were very direct. Lu Shengkuo couldn't control himself anymore, and tears and nose flowed together. Finally, when Kang Yu hugged her, she was a little at a loss: "Oh! , don’t, if your family hears about it, you’ll have to say that I’m child abuse.”

She has the breath of Shen Nanxing, and also has a faint fragrance of roses, which Lu Shengkuo feels very comfortable.

Kang Yu patted him on the back: "I'm going to be a man in the future, how can I let a girl comfort you?"

Only then did Lu Shengkuo laugh, but his expression was a little distorted, and he managed to make Kang Xin laugh.

Apples were sweet and salty, and he ate them all.

Kang Yu took out a small robot from the drawer, it was a kind of finely crafted robot that could deform, she showed a little clumsily, turning the robot into a car, and stuffed it into Lu Shengkuo's hands.

"This is for you," she said with a generous look, and immediately became very serious, "Then you really can't cry, I can also watch cartoons with you, my son likes watching cartoons the most, yes When you look at it, you will ignore me."

Lu Shengkuo blinked, Kang Xin took out the iPad and tapped it, and several chickens of different colors appeared on the screen.

Kang Yu gave him popular science: "He often reads this, it's called "Chicken Rainbow", each of them is the color of the rainbow, and the stories in it are also very healing and loving."

I don't know if there is love, and Lu Shengkuo doesn't know what stories were told in those episodes. It seems that he saw some cakes and fruits, and everything else was Kang Xin's voice and laughter.

Until 08:30, Kang Xin turned off the iPad and asked him to go back to his ward.

Only then did Lu Shengkuo realize Shen Nanxing's reluctance to look back three times after every step.

"Come again tomorrow," Kang Yu coaxed him, "Tomorrow my son will come too, you can watch it together and play with him, now the kids should go back to sleep, otherwise they won't grow taller."

Kang Yu sent him to the door and asked, "Can I find my ward?"

Lu Shengkuo was afraid that she would find out, so he nodded, and Kang Xin patted his forehead: "Look at my memory, what's your name?"

Kang Yu asked the question while squatting down, looking straight at her. He could see her thick eyelashes, as well as her slightly amber pupils.

Lu Shengkuo grabbed the hem of his clothes beside him: "Lu... Lu Shengkuo."

"Lu Shengkuo," Kang Yu repeated, stretching out her hand, "How did you write it?"

He raised his small hand and wrote carefully stroke by stroke.

"Such a complicated name?" Kang Yu was a little shocked. Such a young child could write his own name, but he tasted it, nodded with a smile, "Your name is really good, and the song is broad all the way."

She nodded again and stood up: "It's really a good name."

Kang Yu started to laugh, but it became more and more blurred. Lu Shengkuo suddenly felt his heart tremble, and the smiling faces in his eyes gradually became lifeless, and they were even pulled away quickly.

Finally, as if he had fallen to the bottom, he staggered unsteadily and almost sat on the ground.

There were noisy sounds, crying, the crashing sound of the treatment car, and the violent beeping of the ECG monitor.

With the sound of panicked footsteps, the door of the ward was suddenly closed.

Lu Shengkuo could suddenly see through the small square glass window on the high place the scene of busy nurses and doctors, as well as Shen Nanxing crying hoarsely.

He is always crying.

Shen Linghe finally carried him out of the corridor, and Shen Nanxing almost screamed miserably.

Until suddenly, Shen Nanxing's voice stopped abruptly, even the tears stopped, and everyone in the ward stopped.

The whole world is dark, there is no sound or sound, only endless sadness and parting that cannot be escaped.

At some point, Lu Shengkuo changed back to his current appearance. He was in his twenties, with long legs, and ran to Shen Nanxing in two steps.

"Brother Shen, don't be sad," he wanted to help the little child wipe away his tears. In the past, he had his mother coaxing him to wipe away his tears, but now there is no more, he has to help him dry, "Brother Shen, don't be sad."

His voice was trembling, and his crying was ugly, but he couldn't touch Shen Nanxing with his hands, watching the tear-stained pupils gradually fade away.

"Brother Shen...Brother Shen...don't be sad..."

"Brother Shen..."

"Go south carefully!"

Lu Shengkuo woke up with cramps, only to realize that he was shaking from crying, Shen Nanxing stared blankly, and pressed his hands on his eyes.

Shen Nanxing woke up frightened by his appearance, couldn't stop crying, and finally called him, but didn't dare to wake him up for fear of accidents, and the more he dreamed, the more he cried.

"Have you had a nightmare?"

Lu Shengkuo leaned close to him, kissed his eyes repeatedly, and called his name again and again.

Shen Nanxing was dumbfounded by the kiss: "???"

Lu Shengkuo: "Brother Shen, I will always be with you."

Shen Nanxing opened his mouth, thinking that he was really frightened by the nightmare, so he patted his back: "Okay."

Lu Shengkuo kept looking at his face: "I want to eat apples."

Shen Nanxing: "I'll go buy it tomorrow."

Lu Shengkuo touched his eyes again: "Don't be sad, and don't cry."

Shen Nanxing couldn't help but find it funny, and couldn't help it: "Student Xiaokuo, is it you who are crying? What did you dream about?"

Lu Shengkuo seemed extremely tired, hugging him against his chest, rubbing his head and shaking his head.

That is my dream, Lu Shengkuo thought, but that is the childhood you experienced.