Prohibition of losing contact

Zhou Qingbai's reaction was extremely quick, and he got up from Pei You almost as soon as he heard the sound of the door.

Temporary situations often occur in the inpatient department. In order to facilitate the entry and exit of doctors and nurses, even the doors of single wards are not allowed to be locked.Zhou Qingbai has gotten used to this kind of "surprise attack" these days, so he didn't pay much attention to it at first, but when he raised his head, he was stunned.

Because he suddenly discovered that it was neither a doctor nor a nurse who entered the door, but Zhou Cangshan, who was supposed to be thousands of miles away.

Zhou Cangshan came in a hurry, he didn't have any luggage, and he didn't follow the secretary behind him. His suit jacket was hanging in the crook of his arm, and there was a very obvious wrinkle between his eyebrows.

His hand was still on the doorknob, and he maintained the posture of entering the door. His eyes looked around the room, and finally fell back on Zhou Qingbai.

Zhou Cangshan didn't speak, Zhou Qingbai was still in a daze, the subtle and awkward silence spread an inexplicable atmosphere in the air, like some kind of omen that the rain was coming, with a little ominous taste.

Zhou Qingbai's crisis radar suddenly sounded crazily, he subconsciously shifted his posture, subconsciously straightened his back, and hesitantly said after a few seconds: "...Brother?"

Zhou Cangshan hummed coldly.

Zhou Qingbai's work ability is average, but his ability to observe words and demeanor is excellent. Although he doesn't know why Zhou Cangshan traveled so far, he can tell by looking at it that he is definitely not here to "praise" himself.

And Zhou Cangshan came at the wrong time, Zhou Qingbai was not sure if he saw anything when he just entered the door, let alone if he saw anything.

Zhou Qingbai likes to play and play, but he is very measured. He clearly knows that the slapstick and teasing he just had with Pei You is not a normal "safe social interaction". Let alone being gay, even in the eyes of a straight steel man like Zhou Cangshan Here, I am afraid it will be difficult to fool the past with the term "good brother".

From the day Zhou Qingbai discovered his sexuality, he has never felt the pressure of "coming out" so closely.His heartbeat started to speed up, a thin layer of cold sweat leaked from his palms, his back stiffened, and he swallowed unconsciously.

Zhou Cangshan has accumulated a lot of prestige, and it would be a lie to say that he is not nervous.Zhou Qingbai licked the corners of his lips, and silently confronted this oppressive atmosphere for a while, but after a while, he suddenly smiled without warning.

"Brother, you came too suddenly." Zhou Qingbai said with a relaxed tone, as if he was unaware of the tense atmosphere in the air, and said with a smile: "Don't tell me in advance, so I can call a car to pick you up." you."

Pei You turned to look at him subconsciously.

Zhou Qingbai felt Pei You's gaze, but he didn't turn his head. He just smiled with his eyes bent, as if he didn't wonder why Zhou Cangshan appeared here.

But Zhou Cangshan didn't accept his temptation, he looked at Zhou Qingbai quietly for a while, and then closed the door behind his back.

"It's not 'sudden'." Zhou Cangshan bit the accent and said pointedly: "I've been standing at the door for a while."

That means you have seen it all, Zhou Qingbai thought.

Zhou Cangshan is a straightforward person, impatient to go around in circles, and disdain to whitewash the peace with others.He simply and roughly punctured the window paper, but Zhou Qingbai's heart was calmed down instead.

The sword of Damocles hanging above the head and falling are completely two concepts-the latter is only painful for a moment, but the former has to hang on the heart all the time, struggling with anxiety and doubt.

In fact, it was a good thing that Zhou Cangshan was willing to have a showdown with him so directly, Zhou Qingbai thought, at least he didn't have to rack his brains about how to fool him.

Thinking of this, Zhou Qingbai felt relieved. He pursed his lips and smiled, then suddenly turned his head and said to Pei You: "By the way, I want to eat bridge ribs."

Zhou Cangshan had just discovered the relationship between him and Pei You, logically speaking, whether it was to avoid suspicion or to appease Zhou Cangshan's emotions, he should not have such a natural communication with Pei You.But Zhou Qingbai really didn't want to be taught a lesson in front of Pei You, so he could only find a way to send him away.

Pei You didn't expect that he would suddenly mention this at such a time. Hearing this, he was stunned for a moment, then turned his head and looked at him with puzzled eyes.

Zhou Qingbai did not come out to his family, and Pei You knew about it.Although he is dull, he is not stupid. There are so many homosexuals in the country. Parents like He Ping are in the minority. Most of them are extreme conservative families who regard these three characters like a scourge.

Zhou's family has strict education, conservative and decent family style, even Zhou Qingbai will be chased and beaten when he goes to a bar, let alone being found out for being gay.

Although Pei You knew intellectually that it might be better if he wasn't there at this time, emotionally, he was still afraid that Zhou Qingbai would suffer.

"I……"

He wanted to say "I'll be waiting for you at the door", or "Then I'll be nearby", but Zhou Qingbai didn't give him this chance.

Zhou Qingbai seemed to see what he was thinking, so he interrupted him before he could speak.

"It's a combination of sweet plums and cumin." Zhou Qingbai said.

Again and again, Pei You also saw Zhou Qingbai's persistence, so he could only suppress his worries for the time being, and hummed lightly.

He stood up from the hospital bed, patted his crumpled coat, and walked out naturally. Before going out, he politely nodded to Zhou Cangshan to say hello.

Zhou Cangshan still doesn't know how to face this "sister-in-law" - from a personal point of view, he admires people like Pei You very much, but from an emotional point of view, it is difficult for him to accept the relationship between him and Zhou Qingbai. Relationship.

Good family education prevented Zhou Cangshan from being angry with Pei You, but he really couldn't get along with Pei You as usual, so he could only look away and ignore him.

Fortunately, Pei You didn't mind, he stepped aside Zhou Cangshan, and then walked out.

On the contrary, Zhou Cangshan couldn't help but look back at him. He followed Pei You's departure direction for a while, and only when Pei You turned the corner of the corridor did he look back at Zhou Qingbai with a complicated expression.

"He really listens to you." Zhou Cangshan said inexplicably.

After Pei You went out, Zhou Qingbai was more or less relieved. He moved his body, hung his injured leg over the edge of the bed, and changed to a more upright sitting posture.

"This is not obedient." Zhou Qingbai corrected: "He just loves me."

From the day Zhou Qingbai found out about his sexual orientation, he had thought about the scene where his sexual orientation was exposed countless times.In his imagination, all of those scenes might be turned upside down, with huge waves, and he wished that the sky would fall down.

The otherwise tight-knit family will be disappointed, resentful, and perhaps shy away from him.In this kind of subversion and sudden change, Zhou Qingbai thought that he would panic, be in a dilemma, and be defeated by the disappointed eyes of Zhou Cangshan and Zhou Jianguo, but when this happened, Zhou Qingbai suddenly realized that he was actually Much calmer than I imagined.

At least at this moment, when facing Zhou Cangshan, he didn't have the slightest thought of retreating from the bottom of his heart.

"But he really has always taken care of me." Zhou Qingbai said with a smile, and said: "After all, if you are in a relationship, you can't find someone who doesn't like you."

Zhou Cangshan didn't expect that he would have the guts to say that, so he took a deep breath, feeling a wave of evil fire rushing towards his head, instantly smashing his barely-maintained calm face into pieces.

"Zhou Qingbai, do you still dare to say that?" Zhou Cangshan gritted his teeth and said, "It's fine if you fool around, but now you're still imitating others and engaging in homosexuality, don't you want to be ashamed?"

"I didn't learn from others." Zhou Qingbai said lightly: "I have always been gay, I just didn't tell you."

Zhou Qingbai respected and feared Zhou Cangshan since he was a child, and it was the first time he spoke to him so tit for tat. Zhou Cangshan felt a kind of anger at being disobedient, and at the same time, he couldn't help feeling a little bit disappointed that he had grown up.

"I don't care if you like to play or something else." Zhou Cangshan took a deep breath, suppressed his anger and said, "Quickly break up with him, and I'll just pretend I don't know about it."

Based on Zhou Qingbai's understanding of Zhou Cangshan, this was already the biggest concession he could make, but for Zhou Qingbai, it was far from enough.

"I'm sorry, brother." Zhou Qingbai whispered: "I can't break up with him, because I really like him."

Zhou Cangshan couldn't understand. In his mind, what kind of sparks could be sparked between two men, whether they love each other or not, sounds incredible.

"Maybe you can't accept it, but I'm indeed gay." Zhou Qingbai paused and added: "Born."

His voice lowered, sounding a bit subdued, Zhou Cangshan choked in his throat, unable to tell whether he was angry or confused.

To be honest, when he learned about the relationship between Zhou Qingbai and Pei You, Zhou Cangshan's first reaction was fear.

In his concept, there is no love between men at all, even if two people kiss and hug together, this kind of relationship is deformed and wrong, and it is not the "right way" at all.

In his eyes, Zhou Qingbai has always been a child who has not grown up. He loves to play and make troubles. Zhou Cangshan is really afraid that if he makes a wrong step, he will enter the "wrong way", and he will never be able to escape.

He was afraid that Zhou Qingbai would go astray, he was also afraid that he would not have a "normal" life from now on, and he was even more afraid that he would be pointed at when he walked on the street in the future.

So he rarely put off all the work and came all the way here just to hear Zhou Qingbai say "he is not".

—Unfortunately, he was still disappointed.

The moment Zhou Qingbai softened, Zhou Cangshan felt sad, but his heartache was far from enough to make him compromise. Even the more lonely Zhou Qingbai looked, the more Zhou Cangshan felt that it was all caused by his distorted sexual orientation.

"You..." Zhou Cangshan was a little speechless. He took a few deep breaths and turned around twice like a trapped beast. He still seemed unwilling, and said with hatred: "What do men like? You are so big! Is it better to start a family and start a career, marrying a wife and having children is better than anything else?"

Zhou Qingbai knew that Zhou Cangshan had no ill intentions towards him. Although his elder brother was strict, he was always kind.Brothers in other families fought against each other, guarding against each other, for fear that the other party would take more than one star. Only Zhou Cangshan did the opposite, not only did not fight or grab, but he always wanted to put more money in his hands.

Zhou Qingbai knew he was good, so he was unwilling to confront him in many things - but only this matter, he couldn't compromise.

"I'm sorry." Zhou Qingbai whispered.

When he said this, Zhou Qingbai felt a bit of sour grievance belatedly—Zhou Cangshan didn’t understand, but Zhou Qingbai knew in his heart that he was born gay and hadn’t changed since his sexual enlightenment. The indelible part engraved in his bones cannot be changed by simply saying "change it".Zhou Cangshan cared about him, but in Zhou Qingbai's heart, every sentence of advice he said that he thought he was kind of was a denial of himself.

Zhou Cangshan didn't understand why Zhou Qingbai didn't eat oil and salt, and didn't eat soft and hard things. His anger that had initially subsided began to surge again, his chest heaved twice, and his tone became cold and hard.

"You just aren't going to change it, are you?" Zhou Cangshan asked.

Zhou Qingbai didn't speak, and simply answered with silence.

"I don't understand!" Zhou Cangshan scolded, "What's so good about it! Is it glorious!"

The more Zhou Cangshan thought about it, the more angry he became. He simply gave up trying to persuade Zhou Qingbai, walked over a few steps and grabbed Zhou Qingbai's arm, as if trying to pull him away.

"Forget it, come back to Beijing with me." Zhou Cangshan said: "Go back and talk about it."

Zhou Qingbai's leg was still hurt, he was suddenly dragged and knocked to the edge of the bed, he took a deep breath, his feet went limp, and he staggered a step forward.

Only then did Zhou Cangshan belatedly remember that he was still injured, and he stopped walking immediately, walking for a while, neither retreating nor retreating.

But fortunately, Zhou Cangshan made too much noise and alarmed the nurses station outside. Not long after, a nurse came in pushing a mobile cart and gave him a dissatisfied look.

"Please keep quiet in the inpatient department." The nurse said, "It's time to change the dressing. The patient lies back and pulls up his trouser legs."

In front of outsiders, Zhou Cangshan didn't want to embarrass Zhou Qingbai, so he let go of his hand and let him sit back on the hospital bed.

Zhou Qingbai's leg was seriously injured, and the anti-infection treatment had not been fully completed, and the edge of the wound was still red and swollen. Zhou Cangshan only glanced at it, then frowned and looked away.

"Brother, I can't go back for the time being." Zhou Qingbai knew Zhou Cangshan very well, and immediately seized the opportunity when he saw this, and said softly: "I still have to be hospitalized for three days."

Zhou Cangshan: "..."

Zhou Cangshan really wanted to take Zhou Qingbai home to "discipline him strictly", but he took a look at the wound being manipulated by the nurse, and couldn't bear it anymore, so he swayed from side to side for a moment, then gritted his teeth and let go.

"When you return to Beijing, go home first." Zhou Cangshan said in a cold voice, "I can't control you anymore. You can go and explain to your parents yourself when the time comes."

Hearing the word "Parents", Zhou Qingbai couldn't help but frowned.

But Zhou Cangshan obviously didn't intend to give him time to bargain, so he picked up his coat as soon as he finished speaking, turned his head and left without saying a word.

He came in a hurry and left in a hurry, leaving Zhou Qingbai with a thunder that could be exploded at any time. Zhou Qingbai sighed long and couldn't help feeling a little tired.

Within 2 minutes after Zhou Cangshan left, Pei You came back from the outside, but he was empty-handed and took nothing back.

"Where's the ribs?" Zhou Qingbai wondered, "Have you been robbed on the way?"

"I ordered takeaway for you." Pei You said honestly, "I'll be here in a while."

Although Zhou Qingbai wanted to push him away, Pei You didn't dare to go far. He just sat at the door of the nearby tea room for a while, watching Zhou Cangshan leave before he came back.

Fortunately, Zhou Qingbai didn't want to eat ribs too much, so he hummed and patted the hospital bed lightly, motioning for Pei You to sit down.

"Mr. Zhou didn't quarrel with you, did he?" Pei You sat on the edge of the bed and asked worriedly, "I vaguely heard you arguing in the corridor."

"It's okay." Zhou Qingbai leaned back, lay carelessly on Pei You's knee, and said in a relaxed tone: "I came out with him, and he just can't accept it for a while."

Zhou Qingbai had just finished debridement and changed the medicine, and now his face was still a little pale. Pei You wiped off the cold sweat from his forehead, and sighed softly.

"Say it directly?" Pei You asked.

"Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain. It's better to blow it up in one breath than to talk about it from time to time in the future." Zhou Qingbai lay on his back on Pei You's lap, took his hand and held it in the palm of his hand, repeatedly Rusting: "Actually, to be honest, when I was a child, I was very afraid of being exposed about my sexual orientation, because once it was exposed, I had to face the core differences with my family. We will have conflicts and disputes—and most importantly, I can't make concessions on this matter, I can only force them to accommodate me."

Pei You always knew that Zhou Qingbai looked like a rebellious boy, but he actually had a good heart and was very considerate of others.He didn't want to coerce others with family affection, and he didn't want to have irreconcilable conflicts with the closest people.

"After all, they raised me so well and treated me very well." Zhou Qingbai sighed for a long time, and whispered complainingly: "When I think of going to 'war' with my family and making them sad, I feel a little sorry. them."

"Actually..." Pei You said softly, "You don't have to be so anxious, you can take your time."

Pei You doesn't feel guilty about being in love with Zhou Qingbai, but he won't be very stubborn and immediately ask Zhou Qingbai to announce their relationship to the world.Different families have different ways of getting along, Pei You is willing to wait for Zhou Qingbai to solve this problem slowly.

But obviously, on this issue, Zhou Qingbai has a different idea from him.

"No." Zhou Qingbai unexpectedly refused: "Then what will you do?"

The relationship between him and Pei You is no longer a secret. If you say "take your time" now, it is actually tantamount to "handling it coldly". Pei You is not sensitive to this matter, but Zhou Qingbai can't. He doesn't want to treat Pei You like this, let alone Use this way of giving in at both ends to whitewash peace.

Zhou Qingbai squeezed Pei You's hand hard, and said dissatisfiedly: "You are my boyfriend, why do you act like a shameful person. It's fine if you didn't make it public before, but now they all know, you still want to Let me deny it?"

"No." Pei You quickly denied, "I didn't mean that."

Pei You licked his lips, as if he hadn't figured out how to say this sentence, so he hesitated for a while, and then said cautiously and slowly: "It's you who said, you don't want to make your family sad, so I'm thinking, yes Shouldn't-"

"Mr. Pei." Zhou Qingbai interrupted him, blinked in wonder, and asked in bewilderment, "Did you forget something?"

"What?" Pei You asked.

"You are also my family." Zhou Qingbai said.

The author says:

There are too many words in this chapter. It should have been divided into chapters halfway through, but after thinking about it, I posted all the plot points in one breath, and added revisions and revisions several times, so it was a little late, sorry~ But coming out of the closet is the last big plot point, and after that, it will be a small daily life of sweet love XD, I hope you all enjoy watching [Thank you for living in a dream, Yugui dog is not the fish food fed by rabbit yy, thank you very much~