Survival countdown
Chapter 93 [Revision]
Xie Shi and Zhao Boyong were so dazed by the news that Zhao Baiyu was willing to see them that they couldn't react for a while.
Xiao Huangmen urged: "Master Zhao? Zhao Zaizhi? Mrs. Zhao!"
"Oh...oh." Mrs. Xie came back to her senses, took off the bracelet and stuffed it into Xiao Huangmen's hand, "Thank you, Eunuch."
Both Xie Shi and Zhao Boyong laughed.
"Thank you, Eunuch, for your kind words."
After saying that, the two stepped up the steps quickly and came to the gate of the side hall.
Xie suddenly stopped as if thinking of something, arranged her hair, straightened the crooked hairpin, rubbed her face vigorously with a handkerchief, making her look a little bloody, then straightened her clothes, and said to herself: "You can't Goro misunderstood that I was selling miserably, and he would be embarrassed."
Xiao Huangmen felt strange, why did this happen?
If his biological parents had been the Zaizhi of the court, he would have scrambled and crawled to recognize his ancestors and returned to his clan. Besides, how can there be children who do not recognize their parents in this world?
Zhao Zaizhi also nodded, started to tidy up his appearance, and asked if Xiaohuangmen could catch his eyes, and he felt a little relieved when he got an affirmative answer.
After being uneasy for a while, the two mustered up the courage to step into the side hall. When they saw Zhao Baiyu, their eyes were glued to him and they couldn't move away.
Memories about Zhao Baiyu are so rare, even if you rack your brains, you can’t think of Zhao Baiyu as a child, or Zhao Baiyu as a teenager. The only few clips are not good. Now the aftertaste is nothing more than repeatedly poking the heart, which makes the blood dripping from the heart, and the pain is too painful.
Mrs. Xie quickly wiped away the tears from her eyes, "Xiao Linnu," she paused, then she remembered that Zhao Baiyu didn't know his nickname when he was born, so she changed her words: "Wulang, you've lost some weight."
When I didn’t see anyone, I was full of passionate emotions, but when I saw someone, I was so timid that I couldn’t speak, I thought twice, hesitated, and I was always afraid that if I said something wrong, it would make Xiao Erlang sad.
Zhao Boyong tugged at Xie Shi's sleeve, motioning her to say something else, but he kept his words in his mouth like a gourd sawing its mouth, unable to utter a single word.
Xie pulled back his sleeves, took two steps forward, and looked carefully at Zhao Baiyu, especially his eyes.
Among the four children, only Zhao Baiyu's eyes are like hers, and she can recognize it after a few glances, even the old and dim-sighted aunt can recognize it at a glance, she can even recognize Wulang and Zhao Yuzheng before she has seen it, why do you favor her? Blind and blind? Can't see?
Younger is right under your nose for 20 years, 20 years!
She still needs others to point out the truth, she is the most failed mother in the world!
Xie felt sad, looked at Zhao Baiyu with tears in his eyes, took another two steps forward, reached out his hand to touch Zhao Baiyu's face, remembering that he might not know his life experience, he asked cautiously and expectantly: "Does Wulang know?" -"
"I know." Zhao Baiyu interrupted her.
His calm was in stark contrast to the excitement of the two.
Xie's eyes lit up: "It's mother's fault. Mother didn't protect the little Linnu well, didn't recognize the little Linnu, and...had treated you harshly for 20 years, but Wu Lang gave mother a chance to redeem her sins, okay? "
Zhao Boyong hurriedly said: "Give... a chance to atone for Dad." As soon as the words came out, he hesitated whether his face would be too stiff and his tone too cold, so he deliberately softened his expression and voice, showing stiffness Yes, with a flattering smile unconsciously: "I have already told the truth about the change of sons back then, but I didn't mean to force you to recognize your ancestors, no, I didn't expel you from the genealogy before, what I mean is , to rectify your name to the outside world, all the officials in the court and inside and outside the capital know that it is our fault, and they will not blame Goro. I..."
His voice became smaller and smaller, and he was always suspicious of what he did not do well, and he didn't dare to call himself father, for fear of Zhao Baiyu's reaction.
"I have discussed with my relatives some time ago to remove Zhao Yuzheng from the family tree. I know it is too ruthless to do so... I have treated you like this for 20 years, but my father really can't tolerate Zhao Yuzheng's name. Continue to stay in the family tree, it is unacceptable to have his name next to yours, as soon as I see him, I will think of what happened to my little son Lang for 20 years."
Zhao Boyong choked with sobs, and the dignified prime minister could only pick his fingers helplessly at this moment, wanting to express his remorse and eagerness to make amends, and afraid that Zhao Baiyu would think of the past 20 years when he saw his cruelty to Zhao Yuzheng. Treat him coldly, but if you don't say it, you will worry that Zhao Baiyu will mistakenly think that they don't love him, whether they suspect that they still want to keep Zhao Yuzheng, and whether they want to raise the two children together.
But no.
Such a contradictory mentality destined Zhao Zaizhi to be unable to be as confident as usual. Right now, he is just a father who is full of remorse but doesn't know how to make up for it.
"Goro don't have to worry about others accusing you of being domineering and merciless, and don't have to be afraid of others criticizing you for being unfilial, saying that you can't tolerate Zhao Yuzheng. No one will say it. They all know that I am merciless and cruel. And Changping That poisonous woman, father has already found out all the crimes she committed, all of which are fatal, she must be beheaded for public display, and the whole body will not be left. Others, there are other things..."
Zhao Boyong stammered, he was ashamed to say the two things that prevented Zhao Baiyu from scientific research and forced him to marry the king of Lin'an County, he felt angina when he thought about it.
Wulang and the king of Lin'an County are deeply in love, and they are already real husband and wife. What can they do to remedy it?
The purpose of the scientific examination is to become an official. Goro is already a third-rank official, an important minister in the court, and the blue sky in the hearts of the common people. Why do we need to go to the examination room again?
The teaching resources prepared by his relatives, the number of Guozijian students, and the DPRK-China relationship he has managed for 25 years are all of no help. For Yu Goro, it is just a waste of money.
Zhao Boyong was desperate, and he had to admit that no matter whether it was them as parents, or the Zhao family's relatives and connections, Zhao Baiyu was dispensable.
Goro doesn't need them anymore.
Xie's hands were trembling, and she was clearly aware of this, but she still looked at Zhao Baiyu without giving up hope: "The courtyard you used to live in is being enlarged and refurbished, and there is The Mid-Autumn Festival will be in a few days. The mansion will prepare melons, fruits and family banquets early in the morning. Can Wulang come? You don’t need to stay overnight, and you don’t need to stay too long. It’s okay to stay for half an hour. The king of the small county can also come, and Yan Bing , Nurse Xiu and the others can come to the mansion anytime..."
She asked cautiously, "Goro, what do you think?"
Zhao Baiyu stared at them quietly. In this life, he was born as parents. It is rare that Zhao Boyong is in a high position and has no concubines. The husband and wife are loving, the brothers are harmonious, and he especially dotes on his youngest son.
Zhao Yuzheng was weak and sick, so Xie took care of him day and night, decocting and feeding the medicines without anyone else's hands, and there were traces of her kowtowing and kneeling in temples inside and outside the capital.
Mrs. Xie is a loving mother, and Zhao Boyong is a strict father.
He is a typical patriarch in the feudal era, but he is different from the old-fashioned parents who don't know how to adapt. He can teach each child in accordance with his aptitude, so that he can cultivate the number one scholar Zhao Erlang and the imperial guards Zhao Changfeng and Zhao Sanlang.
He is also selfish because of partiality. He is extremely pampering and pampering his youngest son. He can give some bottom line for him, lift him above his head, play horse riding games with him, travel far away on errands, and send home letters. I will definitely say hello to Xiaoerlang.
If Princess Changping didn't do evil, and there was no change of sons, they would indeed be called doting parents in this era. I don't know how many boys and girls in Kyoto Prefecture would envy Zhao Changfeng and them for having parents like Zhao Boyong and Xie.
Zhao Baiyu is the soul of another world, like a wandering weed without roots. At first, he didn't feel much when he came through the womb. He rejoiced at the healthy body in this world and was grateful for the second life bestowed by God. He also had feelings for this era. Curious and exploring.
As time goes by, I also feel lonely, and I miss my relatives and friends in the past life, but I can face my parents in this life calmly, and I also feel curious.
The acquaintance and blind date of parents and children requires a process of exploration. He watched Zhao Xie and Zhao Xie from the sidelines. Maybe it was because they were born with a blood relationship, or maybe it was because the soul of another world was too lonely, so he wanted to find the fetters that would allow him to land.
There is no doubt that family affection is the best choice, not one of them.
At first, he didn't know the grievances between Changping and the Zhao family, and wondered why his parents didn't want to come to see him. Later, when he learned of the grievances and grievances, he also thought about whether to give up the fetters with the Zhao family.
But at that time, he was still the cheerful and optimistic Zhao Baiyu in his previous life, who was always kind to others. Born in a peaceful and civilized era, he was loved by his relatives and friends, gained countless goodwill, and grew up in deep love, so he became an overly naive Zhao Baiyu.
A few years ago, Nanny Xiu was the only one in the dilapidated courtyard, but Nanny Xiu treated him a little coldly, and he was too young.
Small arms and short legs can't get out of Zhao's mansion, sometimes across the courtyard wall, sometimes in the back garden of the mansion, across a pond or hidden behind a rockery to see Mrs. Xie holding Zhao Yuzheng, seeing their family being happy and harmonious , laughter continued.
He would tell himself that whether it was his envy or the indifference of the Zhao family, it was justifiable.
When he is looked down upon, ignored, or bullied excessively, he will comfort himself openly, it doesn't matter, the actions of his biological mother are indeed unforgivable, even in modern times there is the concept of parents' debts and their children's repayment.
What's more, it is human nature to vent one's anger. Seeing that Zhao Yuzheng was dying of illness, if his child suffered such suffering, maybe he would also resent it.
When he was forced to give up the scientific examination and was forced to marry, he also excused Xie and Zhao Boyong. He said that Xie and Zhao Boyong had treated him well enough, but they were just ignoring and reprimanding him coldly. It was when facing Zhao Yuzheng that he would choose to give up on him, at least not let him die in the back house.
The child mortality rate in this era is too high.
The back house is even more filthy, and most of them are ways to let a child die quietly. Even if he is born with the memory of his previous life, he can't escape a cold or smallpox that has no cure.
At least he had a few bouts of wind and cold when he was a child, and when Aunt Xiu went to ask for instructions, Mrs. Xie still ordered a doctor and did not stand idly by.
He looked for the fetters of heart and soul in this world in the Zhao family, trying to find family affection from them, but he forgot that even ordinary relatives have parents resenting their children, or children hate their parents, not to mention that they are still in conflict with each other. With a Changping.
In his previous life, Zhao Baiyu didn't have a healthy body, but grew up in love and light. Even if he was well-read, active and open-minded, even if he could understand a lot of truths, he would still be like a general who talks about war on paper, soft-hearted, blind, and naive. I always think that giving enough can change the perception of others.
It's like he doesn't think he can change this era by himself, but he still clings to the ideal of great unity from the bright and splendid era and refuses to let go. Inequality, try our best to give justice and freedom to the best of our ability.
Zhao Baiyu was not strong, calm, and so smart that everyone admired him from the beginning. He was also naive, stupid, and defeated. He stumbled in this era, knocked his head to pieces, and his body was covered in scars. Only then did he grow into the current Zhao Baiyu.
So if you fail, you can't complain, you can't wait, Zhao Baiyu is willing to accept any result.
The kinship that he had been obsessed with, turned around after he finally let go, but the original book told him that even if his life was revealed, it was still a kinship that he couldn't ask for. His kindness and friendship he released to the outside world still didn't get a response, just as he tried his best to embrace This era has always been excluded——
That was the cruel and helpless ending that Zhao Baiyu, who broke his head and was able to break through the world of mortals, woke up.
After he accepted his fate, the Zhao family gave a completely different response, but he really didn't need it anymore.
Since he was forced to marry on behalf of him, and since he broke his head to know the truth, that little obsession was extinguished like water.
With a chirp, a wisp of white smoke curled up without a trace.
Maybe it's because of the shallow relationship between parents and children, maybe it's because the blessings of cultivation in the previous life were not enough, and it's exhausted to be reincarnated in Zhao's family in this life, and there is no chance to continue the life.
There is no reason.
Zhao Baiyu sighed inwardly: "I don't hate you guys."
Xie Shi and Zhao Boyong showed surprise expressions, but they quickly realized that something was wrong, how could they not complain or hate?
The opposite of neither resentment nor hatred is neither love nor expectation, how can we not resent nor hate?
"No... It's okay for Goro to resent us. If you do something wrong, you should be punished. It's okay. You can resent and hate us. Parents will not be sad. Parents will suffer." Seeing that Zhao Baiyu wanted to speak, Mrs. Xie hurriedly blocked her. Listen to his words: "Is it getting late? The little county king should be in a hurry, we won't delay your leaving the palace, we will talk about other things later."
She turned her head and asked Zhao Boyong: "Let's talk later, okay?"
Zhao Boyong nodded again and again: "There will be more time in the future. If Wulang can't accept it for a while, we will try to reduce the chances of meeting. Take your time, it doesn't matter, your mother and I should live a few more years, work harder. If you live for more than ten or twenty years, you still have a lot of time... It's really getting late, so let's not talk about it, let's go first."
Anyone with a discerning eye can see that they are eager to escape.
Zhao Baiyu suddenly said: "During the time of Liangjiang, Changping moved out as a mother and pressured me. I told her that I knew it from birth."
There was a thunderous bang, which made Zhao Boyong and Xie's body stiff. They looked at each other with blank expressions, and they all looked at Zhao Baiyu: "What?"
What did Goro say?
Did they get it wrong?
"Born to know it?" Xie's voice was very small, and she suddenly laughed, tears welled up in her eyes, and she couldn't help shaking her head: "Wu Lang blamed me for hating me, so he lied to my mother, right? You were born knowing it... Isn't it this way?" You have known your life experience for 20 years? Didn’t you suffer unfair treatment from everyone when you knew your life experience? Didn’t you, didn’t you torture your heart every day for 20 years?”
Zhao Baiyu shook his head, "I don't know whether it is God's mercy or God's will. Although I know it from birth, I don't remember many things when I was born."
A newborn baby already has weak five senses, drowsiness all day long, and the poison in the womb makes it even weaker. He didn't even know that Wei Bo fed him the marrow washing pill. Which family knows the grievances between the Zhao family and Changping, and how can they think that he was reincarnated in a novel that was only described by a nurse?
As time goes on, I have long forgotten the novel I heard in my previous life.
"I broke my head on the day I was forced to marry, and suddenly remembered—"
Suddenly, I remembered very clearly what the little nurse said indignantly. She said that it was indeed a sweet and sweet article, but the male supporting role in the article was so pitiful that it made people feel sympathetic, and I really couldn't hate it.
She said that the vicious supporting actor was called Zhao Baiyu, and the protagonist was called Zhao Yuzheng.
"Remembering that I should have known I had been swapped at birth."
Xie choked with sobs, and asked in a low voice: "When Li Daitao was forced to freeze, you knew it? Lin'an County King was notorious at that time, and it was rumored that someone died in bed, and the corpse was collected by the officials of the Kyoto Prefecture, and you handled it yourself... ...you, you should be afraid of him, but you'd rather marry than tell us—"
The truth is so cruel, how can it break people's hearts into thousands of pieces?
Her little son Lang, her little slave, discovered the truth at the most desperate time. It turned out that his parents, brothers, and all the favors that should have belonged to him had been shifted to Zhao Yuzheng, and he was still held by Zhao Yuzheng. Relatives forced to clean up the mess Zhao Yuzheng caused, and found that the resentment he had suffered had nothing to do with him, and found that all the injustices and injuries he had suffered in the past 19 years came from blood relatives?
How desperate should he be when he found out the truth?
How can it be so cruel?
How could you do this to him?
How much pain must he feel when he sees his biological parents doting on Zhao Yuzheng, who takes his place, and being coerced by his parents and brothers?
But the heart is cut like a knife, but a thousand arrows pierce the heart?
Zhao Boyong's expression was blank, and he asked instinctively, "Why didn't you tell us the truth?"
Zhao Baiyu was very calm: "I have no evidence."
Evidence is needed to debunk the truth, what evidence can he produce?Who will believe what he says?
What's more, the Zhao family's protection and love for Zhao Yuzheng made him daunting, and the "Zhao Baiyu", who died after the truth of the original book was revealed, also made him afraid.
He was afraid.
He was afraid that if he told the truth, he would be packed and sent out of the capital overnight, and he would only pay a little compensation, so as not to make Zhao Yuzheng sad by his existence.
It is probably because the number of times of sadness and disappointment has accumulated too much. When it reaches the peak, it is like a magnificent volcano that is about to erupt but fails to erupt in the end. It was quiet.
The moment he learned the truth, he was relieved. How many mistakes caused him and the Zhao family to miss each other, and made him admit from the bottom of his heart that the relationship between each other is superficial and should not be extravagant.
Zhao Boyong said tremblingly: "If you said it directly, I didn't believe it at all."
Although absurd, he has a suspicious and cautious character, and he also believes that with Changping's viciousness and paranoia, he can do anything.
Even if he won't believe it easily, he will make people investigate, as long as everything is done, it will never be perfect, even if it is a tiny bit of clues, he can find out.
"I can find it out." He looked at Zhao Baiyu, his eyes were red, and he begged, "I will definitely find it out."
But after saying this, looking at Zhao Baiyu's calm expression, Zhao Boyong suddenly understood that it was 19 years of prejudice and deep-rooted hatred, which had already wiped out Zhao Baiyu's trust in them.
How did Goro, who has always given kindness, sincerity and sincerity to his relatives and friends unconditionally, be forced to dare not trust them anymore?
"Maybe." Zhao Baiyu laughed, not used to it and unwilling to tell his mood at that time. "In this incident, I am a victim, and you are also victims. When you think about it carefully, there are too many erratic mistakes and too many accidents, which made us miss the possibility of continuing our relationship."
He simply attributed the Zhao family's forcing him to give up the scientific examination and Li Daitao's stiff marriage to "accidents", giving the two of them enough respect.
"Kindreds and kinsfolks, there are relatives and karma, the sound of the sheng and chime is the same. There are relatives but not the same, and the house is the same." Zhao Baiyu took three steps back, lifted his robe, knelt down and kowtowed three times: "Mourning for my parents, for giving birth to me."
Kneel twice and kowtow three times: "Master Zhao, Mrs. Zhao, I, Zhao Baiyu, are destined to save my life. I have bad luck. No wonder you guys."
Kneeling three times and knocking three times, his forehead touched the ground: "When Zhao Baiyu agreed to marry into the Prince's Mansion of Lin'an County, he and Zhao's grievances and grievances will be resolved from then on, and they will be clean for the rest of their lives."
The sound of kneeling three times and knocking nine times knocked on Zhao Xie's hearts, breaking their hearts.
"Mother was wrong, it was mother who did wrong, so it's not my son, and I shouldn't have cut off your future and forced you into a tiger's den for Zhao Yuzheng!" Mrs. Xie rushed to Zhao Baiyu and wanted to help him up, sobbing: " Don't kneel to me, don't kneel to me, you can't settle, you can't, you never owed us, how can you get rid of both grievances and grievances?"
Zhao Boyong slowly leaned over and said: "If there is...if there is a fate, the fate can continue."
Zhao Baiyu quietly covered the wound that seemed to be open, raised his head and said, "It has nothing to do with each other, each is safe."
Why bother?
Both Xie Shi and Zhao Boyong noticed Zhao Baiyu's pale face, and when they looked at his hand covering the wound, they felt despair again, and would rather hold back forcefully than say the pain in front of them.
When Zhao Baiyu learned the truth and would rather marry into the county prince's mansion than tell the truth, they knew that there was no possibility of reconciliation in this life.
Perhaps for Zhao Baiyu, no resentment, no hatred, no love, no expectation is the reconciliation between him and his relatives in this world, and for the Zhao family, it is a lifetime of heartbreak.
Kneeling three times and kowtowing nine times, repaying life's favor together with all kinds of debts in the past, is no less than forcibly digging out the hearts of Xie and Zhao Boyong, cutting their flesh, and breaking their bones. Muscles, so painful that no matter how hard it is to feel at ease in this life.
Even though they were unwilling in every possible way, they couldn't keep Zhao Baiyu.
It was they who broke the relationship with their own hands. From the moment they forced Zhao Baiyu to marry, the tacit understanding between each other was eliminated. Now that they have regretted it and want to redeem it, how can there be such a cheap thing in the world?
***
Zhao Boyong and Mrs. Xie supported each other, walked out of the side hall with their backs bent, they had been waiting outside the small yellow gate, and wanted to say a few nice words, but unexpectedly the two of them seemed to be mourning, their faces were ashen and defeated.
Even if they are separated by a few steps, even if they don't say a word and have no expression on their faces, they can still feel the lifeless and majestic sadness.
Xiao Huangmen was so frightened that he stopped in his tracks, did not dare to go forward, and watched them pass him by as if there was no one else around, and walked towards the bottom of the steps. The fourth step was so painful that I couldn't move.
Fortunately, when he fell down, he quickly let go of Xie Shi and did not take Xie Shi down.
Xiao Huangmen ran down anxiously to help him up, and shouted: "Call the imperial doctor!"
Inadvertently caught sight of Xie Shi, and found that her expression was indifferent, indifferent to Zhao Zaizhi's fall, not like the affectionate couple who are well-known in Kyoto.
The imperial physician arrived soon and diagnosed that Zhao Boyong had just injured his leg, which may have injured his muscles and bones, not to the point of breaking his leg, and he will be able to recuperate for two or three months.
I muttered in my heart that the steps are wide and wide, how can I fall down?
***
Lin'an County Prince's Mansion.
As soon as Zhao Baiyu returned to the house, Uncle Hai and others immediately put a brazier and grapefruit peels at the door, let him step on them, then sprinkled some grapefruit water, tapped him three times on the back with peach wood, and then stuffed him with a purse containing Three copper coins to exorcise evil spirits.
Zhao Baiyu wanted to say it was unnecessary, but Uncle Hai and the others retorted very seriously: "You kid doesn't understand."
Ms. Li and the others are also here, and their young and beautiful faces are full of superstition.
Zhao Baiyu was speechless, turned to look for Huo Jingtang, found that the other person looked thoughtful, and was surprised that he was the biggest superstitious leader.
Zhao Baiyu supported his forehead: "Forget it."
Let them go.
Aunt Xiu said to him, "Come in quickly. A few days ago, the aunties rushed to several markets in the mansion to grab more than a dozen plump autumn crabs. It would have been better to wait a month or two, but At this time, if you look carefully, you can find crabs that are as good as the end of autumn. They have been kept in the kitchen for several days. I heard that you came back today and cooked them specially. There are crabs stuffed with oranges, drunk crabs, steamed, crab pots and braised fried. ...keep you eating to your heart's content."
Miss Li also said: "Wu Lang opened his arms to eat, and Dr. Xu said that eating crabs will not hinder the healing of the incision."
At this moment, the taciturn Wei Bo came forward and said: "Crabs ward off evil spirits and eliminate darkness."
Zhao Baiyu was surprised, but he didn't expect Wei Bo with thick eyebrows and big eyes to fall too.
... But eating crabs can ward off evil spirits?
It's the first time I've heard of it.
All the people in the county palace surrounded Zhao Baiyu and talked lively.Zhao Baiyu stepped into the threshold of the front hall with one foot, stopped suddenly, and turned to look at Huo Jingtang who was quietly following behind him.
He didn't speak, Huo Jingtang knew that he wanted him to accompany him, sighed pretendingly, stepped forward to push the others away, and held Zhao Baiyu's hand very artificially: "I can't do anything about you." Turning his head, he said to others: " Can't leave me."
Miss Li, Yan Bing, Mother Xiu and others: "..."
Uncle Hai and the other old people in the county palace turned their faces away silently, not wanting to admit that this was their little county king.
The whole crab feast was said to be only a dozen or so, and each person could share one crab. As soon as Zhao Baiyu invited them, everyone found excuses and ran away, leaving him and Huo Jingtang to eat alone.
Huo Jingtang helped him remove the shell and remove the meat, as if feeding a pig.
As soon as Zhao Baiyu was about to put down his chopsticks, Huo Jingtang could attack with eyes like "Xiao Lang doesn't hurt me, I don't love me". He didn't understand what changed Huo Jingtang during this time, he was a bit shameless How could he use such tricks so innocently?
While eating the crab meat picked out by Huo Jingtang solicitously, Zhao Baiyu was worried, wouldn't there be tricks of crying, making trouble, and hanging himself in the future?
Thinking of Huo Jingtang crying, Zhao Baiyu couldn't help shivering.
Huo Jingtang: "Is it cold?"
Zhao Baiyu: "No." He quickly grabbed the bowl and ate it.
***
After eating, it is natural to take a walk, rest for a while, and wash up when the sky darkens.
Zhao Baiyu hadn't taken a bath for a long time. To prevent wound infection, he always wiped his body with wet towels. After asking Doctor Xu if he could enter the water, he happily came to the open-air bath in the mansion.
As soon as Zhao Baiyu's belt was pulled off, he looked hesitantly at Huo Jingtang who seemed to be strolling behind him, "You want to take a bath too?"
Huo Jingtang held his hands behind his back, and said after hearing the words: "You go get yours."
After saying that, he pulled out the chaise longue, put it beside the bathtub and lay down to watch the stars.
Zhao Baiyu turned his back to Huo Jingtang, although he had done everything, logically there was nothing to be shy about, but when there was no such atmosphere, it would still be embarrassing and ashamed to be naked.
With only one coat left, he heard Huo Jingtang's low humming sound behind him. He listened attentively and hummed a libretto: "The love is so unbearable to look back on, let's share it with Dongfeng..."
It's a love song, the tune is pleasant to the ear, Huo Jingtang can also sing with a bit of posture, and the tone of the voice is low and hoarse, and if it is lowered a bit, it will show a bit of depression and obsession, which makes the ears itchy.
Zhao Baiyu unconsciously turned his face to the side, just in time to see Huo Jingtang looking at him with a smile, beating time with his hands on his thighs, and changed the libretto: "...I am of the same mind with you, and wish to be a hundred-year-old minister." Follow along, do not leave for a while in this life.”
Huo Jingtang's face was there, his long hair was loose under his eyes, his wide-sleeved gown was open, and he was unrestrained. But he wears Buddhist beads on his face, and between his fingers, besides the cocoons ground with a knife, there are also cocoons ground from copying Buddhist scriptures.
Being a human butcher and a Buddhist at the same time, such a contradictory combination combined with Huo Jingtang became a bewitching thing.
A person like Huo Jingtang will probably spend his whole life being violent, with strong wine and knives, with the fire of a prairie fire, and with the scorching sun. Most of the time, she cried... So far, I have only seen Zhao Baiyu when he escaped death.
No matter when you are serious or serious and want to seduce someone, you really can't sit still.
Zhao Baiyu swallowed his saliva, and murmured, "I'm not fully injured. If it's too intense...it will burst."
Huo Jingtang's eyes suddenly became strange, and he was silent for a long time before he sighed: "In fact, I just want Xiao Lang to see that I am also a somewhat arty and sour scholar. I didn't expect Xiao Lang to take a liking to me."
He opened his hands and opened the skirt of his clothes a little, and he could see the wonderful abdominal muscles: "I'm lighter."
Zhao Baiyu should scold him for being unscrupulous, but he blurted out: "Can it work?"
Huo Jingtang: "Trust in my arm strength."
The couple, who hadn't had a skin-to-skin contact for a year, looked at each other. One straightened up his upper body, and the other walked over with a soft leg. The cooperation was quite tacit.
***
The wound was still open, whether they couldn't help it or not, the two of them lowered their heads in the room to accept the scathing criticism from Doctor Xu, and sincerely reflected on it.
"It's not that I said that you, Xiaojun Wang, are usually calm. In the past twenty years or so, you were as pure and ascetic as a Bodhisattva. I thought you were not very interested in the love and love in the mortal world, so I can rest assured that you are alone. I think you must have a sense of proportion. Of course, I also understand that you have been married for less than two years, and you have been separated for a year. It is not unusual for a man to love a woman... the love between a man and a man is the same. But be sensible! Be restrained!"
Zhao Baiyu bowed his head: "I was also at fault."
"Otherwise? Master Xiao Zhao thinks that my words exclude you? Who doesn't know that the prince of the little county is full of temper in the Northwest? Who knows when his temper will change! But you are different, you are light The gentleman of Feng Jiyue, the bodhisattva who came down from the sky, those who are not familiar with you will think that you drink dew to fill your stomach, who knows that you can be so greedy and indulgent!"
The most reasonable saying throughout the ages is not to offend the doctor, no matter how honest, sincere, reverent and even grateful he is at ordinary times, as a matchmaker and wife and life-saver, you can catch whoever disobeys the doctor's advice.
The words he said were full of ridicule ability.
Zhao Baiyu lowered his head in shame, revealing the marks on his neck.
Huo Jingtang caught a glimpse and shook his feet triumphantly.
Doctor Xu caught a glimpse of his shaking his feet, and the cold air in his body suddenly increased.
There is no rule of law!
***
After eating and drinking in the mansion for a few days, it will be the Mid-Autumn Festival in a blink of an eye.
Appreciating lanterns and worshiping the moon for reunion dinner is a routine activity in the Mid-Autumn Festival. At dusk, delicious delicacies are prepared for a full meal, and then dusk falls.
Chen Shidao booked a seat in the largest restaurant in the mansion to watch the moon tonight, and invited Huo Jingtang and Zhao Baiyu to go together, and they both agreed.
But before the appointment, Huo Jingtang took Zhao Baiyu to Hongfu Temple first.
***
Hall of Ten Thousand Buddhas in Hongfu Temple.
Tens of thousands of bright lights cover the sky and cover the sky, as if piercing the sky and the earth. The faintly bright candlelight forms a prairie fire, which is spectacular and grand, especially shocking. Loneliness, and the sense of vastness that there are gods and Buddhas in the world.
Zhao Baiyu asked softly, "Is this the Lantern Offering Ceremony?"
Huo Jingtang: "Do you know who the [-] offering lamps inside and outside the Hall of Ten Thousand Buddhas are praying for?"
Zhao Baiyu had a vague answer that broke through the ground.
Huo Jingtang pulled him, picked a row of praying lamps nearby, pointed to the sticker on the lamp body and said: "All the Buddhas rectify the Dharma, may the blue sky and Zhao Baiyu be free from disaster and pain." Pointing to the next row, "Thousands of prayers Yes, resolve all the troubles in Zhao Baiyu's life." Then came to the next row, "The Great Merciful and Great Compassionate Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva, may the blue sky Zhao Baiyu eliminate disasters, save karma, be satisfied, and all wishes come true."
Zhao Baiyu was shocked in his heart: "The lights here... are all for me?"
He remembered vaguely hearing it when he was in a coma, but he thought it was an exaggeration so he didn't take it seriously, but it was more grand and sincere than he imagined.
"Not only Hongfu Temple, but also Baohua Temple. Liangjiang and Huainan have received your favor, or thank you for your righteous words to seek justice for the people. There are more than [-], [-], and millions of lights...the people all over the world remember you. There is also one from Chen Shidao, one from Yan Bing and the others, one from Du Gongxian, one from Fan Wenming, as well as He Guangyou from Huainan and Chen Fangrong from Shandong. This Hongfu Temple asks for a blessing lamp for you."
"The hair-combing lady and Li Yiru you rescued, and the injustice cases you vindicated such as Deng Wen'an, Huang Qingshang, Kuang Fuwei, Yang's... Everyone remembers you, and everyone cares about you."
Huo Jingtang hugged Zhao Baiyu from behind him: "If one day I can't keep you anymore, you can stay for a little longer for the sake of the common people in the world."
Zhao Baiyu begged to die so frightened that Huo Jingtang still had no self-confidence. Even if Zhao Baiyu woke up and showed that he needed him all the time, even if he said that he came back because of Huo Jingtang, Huo Jingtang would still be afraid.
Zhao Baiyu lowered his eyes and held Huo Jingtang's hand, "Okay."
***
They stayed in Hongfu Temple for a while, and the two of them hurried forward, and it was still [-]:[-] when they arrived at the restaurant. At this time, the moon was in the sky, the silk was boiling, the market downstairs was crowded with people, and the river was decorated with tens of thousands of lights. The scene was shocking.
In the restaurant, apart from Chen Shidao, there are also Du Gongxian, Mrs. Kang Wang, the Deputy Envoy of the Ministry of Household Affairs, the Minister of the Ministry of Industry, Gao Tongzhi... More than half of the court officials came, all dressed in ordinary clothes, lying or sitting or reclining. Baiyu all waved their hands to show their kindness.
The two walked into it, chatted for a while, and then they both took advantage of the moon to compose poems, or drink orders, and had a great time.
Next to Zhao Baiyu was Gao Tongzhi, who raised his wine glass and said to Zhao Baiyu, "I respect Mrs. Zhao, for the sake of justice."
Zhao Baiyu was slightly surprised, he picked up the wine glass and wanted to pay back, but was pushed down by Gao Tongzhi's hand, and the other party made a second toast.
"The old man respects Mr. Zhao again, and lives for the people."
After pouring the third cup, Gao Tongzhi lifted it up, looked straight at Zhao Baiyu and said, "I respect Mrs. Zhao three times, but I have to say sorry."
I'm sorry that he, as a Sangong and Jiuqing, failed to set an example and was an official in vain.
Zhao Baiyu was moved, then he pursed his lips and smiled, and drank a glass of wine: "I don't dare to take the first two glasses, but I have to reciprocate the third one, you can't stop me." After speaking, he drank the wine in the glass.
Gao Tongzhi was stunned for a moment, and then laughed heartily.
Others don't know it, and just take it as an interesting thing, so they are more devoted to playing and admiring the moon.
Zhao
Xiao Huangmen urged: "Master Zhao? Zhao Zaizhi? Mrs. Zhao!"
"Oh...oh." Mrs. Xie came back to her senses, took off the bracelet and stuffed it into Xiao Huangmen's hand, "Thank you, Eunuch."
Both Xie Shi and Zhao Boyong laughed.
"Thank you, Eunuch, for your kind words."
After saying that, the two stepped up the steps quickly and came to the gate of the side hall.
Xie suddenly stopped as if thinking of something, arranged her hair, straightened the crooked hairpin, rubbed her face vigorously with a handkerchief, making her look a little bloody, then straightened her clothes, and said to herself: "You can't Goro misunderstood that I was selling miserably, and he would be embarrassed."
Xiao Huangmen felt strange, why did this happen?
If his biological parents had been the Zaizhi of the court, he would have scrambled and crawled to recognize his ancestors and returned to his clan. Besides, how can there be children who do not recognize their parents in this world?
Zhao Zaizhi also nodded, started to tidy up his appearance, and asked if Xiaohuangmen could catch his eyes, and he felt a little relieved when he got an affirmative answer.
After being uneasy for a while, the two mustered up the courage to step into the side hall. When they saw Zhao Baiyu, their eyes were glued to him and they couldn't move away.
Memories about Zhao Baiyu are so rare, even if you rack your brains, you can’t think of Zhao Baiyu as a child, or Zhao Baiyu as a teenager. The only few clips are not good. Now the aftertaste is nothing more than repeatedly poking the heart, which makes the blood dripping from the heart, and the pain is too painful.
Mrs. Xie quickly wiped away the tears from her eyes, "Xiao Linnu," she paused, then she remembered that Zhao Baiyu didn't know his nickname when he was born, so she changed her words: "Wulang, you've lost some weight."
When I didn’t see anyone, I was full of passionate emotions, but when I saw someone, I was so timid that I couldn’t speak, I thought twice, hesitated, and I was always afraid that if I said something wrong, it would make Xiao Erlang sad.
Zhao Boyong tugged at Xie Shi's sleeve, motioning her to say something else, but he kept his words in his mouth like a gourd sawing its mouth, unable to utter a single word.
Xie pulled back his sleeves, took two steps forward, and looked carefully at Zhao Baiyu, especially his eyes.
Among the four children, only Zhao Baiyu's eyes are like hers, and she can recognize it after a few glances, even the old and dim-sighted aunt can recognize it at a glance, she can even recognize Wulang and Zhao Yuzheng before she has seen it, why do you favor her? Blind and blind? Can't see?
Younger is right under your nose for 20 years, 20 years!
She still needs others to point out the truth, she is the most failed mother in the world!
Xie felt sad, looked at Zhao Baiyu with tears in his eyes, took another two steps forward, reached out his hand to touch Zhao Baiyu's face, remembering that he might not know his life experience, he asked cautiously and expectantly: "Does Wulang know?" -"
"I know." Zhao Baiyu interrupted her.
His calm was in stark contrast to the excitement of the two.
Xie's eyes lit up: "It's mother's fault. Mother didn't protect the little Linnu well, didn't recognize the little Linnu, and...had treated you harshly for 20 years, but Wu Lang gave mother a chance to redeem her sins, okay? "
Zhao Boyong hurriedly said: "Give... a chance to atone for Dad." As soon as the words came out, he hesitated whether his face would be too stiff and his tone too cold, so he deliberately softened his expression and voice, showing stiffness Yes, with a flattering smile unconsciously: "I have already told the truth about the change of sons back then, but I didn't mean to force you to recognize your ancestors, no, I didn't expel you from the genealogy before, what I mean is , to rectify your name to the outside world, all the officials in the court and inside and outside the capital know that it is our fault, and they will not blame Goro. I..."
His voice became smaller and smaller, and he was always suspicious of what he did not do well, and he didn't dare to call himself father, for fear of Zhao Baiyu's reaction.
"I have discussed with my relatives some time ago to remove Zhao Yuzheng from the family tree. I know it is too ruthless to do so... I have treated you like this for 20 years, but my father really can't tolerate Zhao Yuzheng's name. Continue to stay in the family tree, it is unacceptable to have his name next to yours, as soon as I see him, I will think of what happened to my little son Lang for 20 years."
Zhao Boyong choked with sobs, and the dignified prime minister could only pick his fingers helplessly at this moment, wanting to express his remorse and eagerness to make amends, and afraid that Zhao Baiyu would think of the past 20 years when he saw his cruelty to Zhao Yuzheng. Treat him coldly, but if you don't say it, you will worry that Zhao Baiyu will mistakenly think that they don't love him, whether they suspect that they still want to keep Zhao Yuzheng, and whether they want to raise the two children together.
But no.
Such a contradictory mentality destined Zhao Zaizhi to be unable to be as confident as usual. Right now, he is just a father who is full of remorse but doesn't know how to make up for it.
"Goro don't have to worry about others accusing you of being domineering and merciless, and don't have to be afraid of others criticizing you for being unfilial, saying that you can't tolerate Zhao Yuzheng. No one will say it. They all know that I am merciless and cruel. And Changping That poisonous woman, father has already found out all the crimes she committed, all of which are fatal, she must be beheaded for public display, and the whole body will not be left. Others, there are other things..."
Zhao Boyong stammered, he was ashamed to say the two things that prevented Zhao Baiyu from scientific research and forced him to marry the king of Lin'an County, he felt angina when he thought about it.
Wulang and the king of Lin'an County are deeply in love, and they are already real husband and wife. What can they do to remedy it?
The purpose of the scientific examination is to become an official. Goro is already a third-rank official, an important minister in the court, and the blue sky in the hearts of the common people. Why do we need to go to the examination room again?
The teaching resources prepared by his relatives, the number of Guozijian students, and the DPRK-China relationship he has managed for 25 years are all of no help. For Yu Goro, it is just a waste of money.
Zhao Boyong was desperate, and he had to admit that no matter whether it was them as parents, or the Zhao family's relatives and connections, Zhao Baiyu was dispensable.
Goro doesn't need them anymore.
Xie's hands were trembling, and she was clearly aware of this, but she still looked at Zhao Baiyu without giving up hope: "The courtyard you used to live in is being enlarged and refurbished, and there is The Mid-Autumn Festival will be in a few days. The mansion will prepare melons, fruits and family banquets early in the morning. Can Wulang come? You don’t need to stay overnight, and you don’t need to stay too long. It’s okay to stay for half an hour. The king of the small county can also come, and Yan Bing , Nurse Xiu and the others can come to the mansion anytime..."
She asked cautiously, "Goro, what do you think?"
Zhao Baiyu stared at them quietly. In this life, he was born as parents. It is rare that Zhao Boyong is in a high position and has no concubines. The husband and wife are loving, the brothers are harmonious, and he especially dotes on his youngest son.
Zhao Yuzheng was weak and sick, so Xie took care of him day and night, decocting and feeding the medicines without anyone else's hands, and there were traces of her kowtowing and kneeling in temples inside and outside the capital.
Mrs. Xie is a loving mother, and Zhao Boyong is a strict father.
He is a typical patriarch in the feudal era, but he is different from the old-fashioned parents who don't know how to adapt. He can teach each child in accordance with his aptitude, so that he can cultivate the number one scholar Zhao Erlang and the imperial guards Zhao Changfeng and Zhao Sanlang.
He is also selfish because of partiality. He is extremely pampering and pampering his youngest son. He can give some bottom line for him, lift him above his head, play horse riding games with him, travel far away on errands, and send home letters. I will definitely say hello to Xiaoerlang.
If Princess Changping didn't do evil, and there was no change of sons, they would indeed be called doting parents in this era. I don't know how many boys and girls in Kyoto Prefecture would envy Zhao Changfeng and them for having parents like Zhao Boyong and Xie.
Zhao Baiyu is the soul of another world, like a wandering weed without roots. At first, he didn't feel much when he came through the womb. He rejoiced at the healthy body in this world and was grateful for the second life bestowed by God. He also had feelings for this era. Curious and exploring.
As time goes by, I also feel lonely, and I miss my relatives and friends in the past life, but I can face my parents in this life calmly, and I also feel curious.
The acquaintance and blind date of parents and children requires a process of exploration. He watched Zhao Xie and Zhao Xie from the sidelines. Maybe it was because they were born with a blood relationship, or maybe it was because the soul of another world was too lonely, so he wanted to find the fetters that would allow him to land.
There is no doubt that family affection is the best choice, not one of them.
At first, he didn't know the grievances between Changping and the Zhao family, and wondered why his parents didn't want to come to see him. Later, when he learned of the grievances and grievances, he also thought about whether to give up the fetters with the Zhao family.
But at that time, he was still the cheerful and optimistic Zhao Baiyu in his previous life, who was always kind to others. Born in a peaceful and civilized era, he was loved by his relatives and friends, gained countless goodwill, and grew up in deep love, so he became an overly naive Zhao Baiyu.
A few years ago, Nanny Xiu was the only one in the dilapidated courtyard, but Nanny Xiu treated him a little coldly, and he was too young.
Small arms and short legs can't get out of Zhao's mansion, sometimes across the courtyard wall, sometimes in the back garden of the mansion, across a pond or hidden behind a rockery to see Mrs. Xie holding Zhao Yuzheng, seeing their family being happy and harmonious , laughter continued.
He would tell himself that whether it was his envy or the indifference of the Zhao family, it was justifiable.
When he is looked down upon, ignored, or bullied excessively, he will comfort himself openly, it doesn't matter, the actions of his biological mother are indeed unforgivable, even in modern times there is the concept of parents' debts and their children's repayment.
What's more, it is human nature to vent one's anger. Seeing that Zhao Yuzheng was dying of illness, if his child suffered such suffering, maybe he would also resent it.
When he was forced to give up the scientific examination and was forced to marry, he also excused Xie and Zhao Boyong. He said that Xie and Zhao Boyong had treated him well enough, but they were just ignoring and reprimanding him coldly. It was when facing Zhao Yuzheng that he would choose to give up on him, at least not let him die in the back house.
The child mortality rate in this era is too high.
The back house is even more filthy, and most of them are ways to let a child die quietly. Even if he is born with the memory of his previous life, he can't escape a cold or smallpox that has no cure.
At least he had a few bouts of wind and cold when he was a child, and when Aunt Xiu went to ask for instructions, Mrs. Xie still ordered a doctor and did not stand idly by.
He looked for the fetters of heart and soul in this world in the Zhao family, trying to find family affection from them, but he forgot that even ordinary relatives have parents resenting their children, or children hate their parents, not to mention that they are still in conflict with each other. With a Changping.
In his previous life, Zhao Baiyu didn't have a healthy body, but grew up in love and light. Even if he was well-read, active and open-minded, even if he could understand a lot of truths, he would still be like a general who talks about war on paper, soft-hearted, blind, and naive. I always think that giving enough can change the perception of others.
It's like he doesn't think he can change this era by himself, but he still clings to the ideal of great unity from the bright and splendid era and refuses to let go. Inequality, try our best to give justice and freedom to the best of our ability.
Zhao Baiyu was not strong, calm, and so smart that everyone admired him from the beginning. He was also naive, stupid, and defeated. He stumbled in this era, knocked his head to pieces, and his body was covered in scars. Only then did he grow into the current Zhao Baiyu.
So if you fail, you can't complain, you can't wait, Zhao Baiyu is willing to accept any result.
The kinship that he had been obsessed with, turned around after he finally let go, but the original book told him that even if his life was revealed, it was still a kinship that he couldn't ask for. His kindness and friendship he released to the outside world still didn't get a response, just as he tried his best to embrace This era has always been excluded——
That was the cruel and helpless ending that Zhao Baiyu, who broke his head and was able to break through the world of mortals, woke up.
After he accepted his fate, the Zhao family gave a completely different response, but he really didn't need it anymore.
Since he was forced to marry on behalf of him, and since he broke his head to know the truth, that little obsession was extinguished like water.
With a chirp, a wisp of white smoke curled up without a trace.
Maybe it's because of the shallow relationship between parents and children, maybe it's because the blessings of cultivation in the previous life were not enough, and it's exhausted to be reincarnated in Zhao's family in this life, and there is no chance to continue the life.
There is no reason.
Zhao Baiyu sighed inwardly: "I don't hate you guys."
Xie Shi and Zhao Boyong showed surprise expressions, but they quickly realized that something was wrong, how could they not complain or hate?
The opposite of neither resentment nor hatred is neither love nor expectation, how can we not resent nor hate?
"No... It's okay for Goro to resent us. If you do something wrong, you should be punished. It's okay. You can resent and hate us. Parents will not be sad. Parents will suffer." Seeing that Zhao Baiyu wanted to speak, Mrs. Xie hurriedly blocked her. Listen to his words: "Is it getting late? The little county king should be in a hurry, we won't delay your leaving the palace, we will talk about other things later."
She turned her head and asked Zhao Boyong: "Let's talk later, okay?"
Zhao Boyong nodded again and again: "There will be more time in the future. If Wulang can't accept it for a while, we will try to reduce the chances of meeting. Take your time, it doesn't matter, your mother and I should live a few more years, work harder. If you live for more than ten or twenty years, you still have a lot of time... It's really getting late, so let's not talk about it, let's go first."
Anyone with a discerning eye can see that they are eager to escape.
Zhao Baiyu suddenly said: "During the time of Liangjiang, Changping moved out as a mother and pressured me. I told her that I knew it from birth."
There was a thunderous bang, which made Zhao Boyong and Xie's body stiff. They looked at each other with blank expressions, and they all looked at Zhao Baiyu: "What?"
What did Goro say?
Did they get it wrong?
"Born to know it?" Xie's voice was very small, and she suddenly laughed, tears welled up in her eyes, and she couldn't help shaking her head: "Wu Lang blamed me for hating me, so he lied to my mother, right? You were born knowing it... Isn't it this way?" You have known your life experience for 20 years? Didn’t you suffer unfair treatment from everyone when you knew your life experience? Didn’t you, didn’t you torture your heart every day for 20 years?”
Zhao Baiyu shook his head, "I don't know whether it is God's mercy or God's will. Although I know it from birth, I don't remember many things when I was born."
A newborn baby already has weak five senses, drowsiness all day long, and the poison in the womb makes it even weaker. He didn't even know that Wei Bo fed him the marrow washing pill. Which family knows the grievances between the Zhao family and Changping, and how can they think that he was reincarnated in a novel that was only described by a nurse?
As time goes on, I have long forgotten the novel I heard in my previous life.
"I broke my head on the day I was forced to marry, and suddenly remembered—"
Suddenly, I remembered very clearly what the little nurse said indignantly. She said that it was indeed a sweet and sweet article, but the male supporting role in the article was so pitiful that it made people feel sympathetic, and I really couldn't hate it.
She said that the vicious supporting actor was called Zhao Baiyu, and the protagonist was called Zhao Yuzheng.
"Remembering that I should have known I had been swapped at birth."
Xie choked with sobs, and asked in a low voice: "When Li Daitao was forced to freeze, you knew it? Lin'an County King was notorious at that time, and it was rumored that someone died in bed, and the corpse was collected by the officials of the Kyoto Prefecture, and you handled it yourself... ...you, you should be afraid of him, but you'd rather marry than tell us—"
The truth is so cruel, how can it break people's hearts into thousands of pieces?
Her little son Lang, her little slave, discovered the truth at the most desperate time. It turned out that his parents, brothers, and all the favors that should have belonged to him had been shifted to Zhao Yuzheng, and he was still held by Zhao Yuzheng. Relatives forced to clean up the mess Zhao Yuzheng caused, and found that the resentment he had suffered had nothing to do with him, and found that all the injustices and injuries he had suffered in the past 19 years came from blood relatives?
How desperate should he be when he found out the truth?
How can it be so cruel?
How could you do this to him?
How much pain must he feel when he sees his biological parents doting on Zhao Yuzheng, who takes his place, and being coerced by his parents and brothers?
But the heart is cut like a knife, but a thousand arrows pierce the heart?
Zhao Boyong's expression was blank, and he asked instinctively, "Why didn't you tell us the truth?"
Zhao Baiyu was very calm: "I have no evidence."
Evidence is needed to debunk the truth, what evidence can he produce?Who will believe what he says?
What's more, the Zhao family's protection and love for Zhao Yuzheng made him daunting, and the "Zhao Baiyu", who died after the truth of the original book was revealed, also made him afraid.
He was afraid.
He was afraid that if he told the truth, he would be packed and sent out of the capital overnight, and he would only pay a little compensation, so as not to make Zhao Yuzheng sad by his existence.
It is probably because the number of times of sadness and disappointment has accumulated too much. When it reaches the peak, it is like a magnificent volcano that is about to erupt but fails to erupt in the end. It was quiet.
The moment he learned the truth, he was relieved. How many mistakes caused him and the Zhao family to miss each other, and made him admit from the bottom of his heart that the relationship between each other is superficial and should not be extravagant.
Zhao Boyong said tremblingly: "If you said it directly, I didn't believe it at all."
Although absurd, he has a suspicious and cautious character, and he also believes that with Changping's viciousness and paranoia, he can do anything.
Even if he won't believe it easily, he will make people investigate, as long as everything is done, it will never be perfect, even if it is a tiny bit of clues, he can find out.
"I can find it out." He looked at Zhao Baiyu, his eyes were red, and he begged, "I will definitely find it out."
But after saying this, looking at Zhao Baiyu's calm expression, Zhao Boyong suddenly understood that it was 19 years of prejudice and deep-rooted hatred, which had already wiped out Zhao Baiyu's trust in them.
How did Goro, who has always given kindness, sincerity and sincerity to his relatives and friends unconditionally, be forced to dare not trust them anymore?
"Maybe." Zhao Baiyu laughed, not used to it and unwilling to tell his mood at that time. "In this incident, I am a victim, and you are also victims. When you think about it carefully, there are too many erratic mistakes and too many accidents, which made us miss the possibility of continuing our relationship."
He simply attributed the Zhao family's forcing him to give up the scientific examination and Li Daitao's stiff marriage to "accidents", giving the two of them enough respect.
"Kindreds and kinsfolks, there are relatives and karma, the sound of the sheng and chime is the same. There are relatives but not the same, and the house is the same." Zhao Baiyu took three steps back, lifted his robe, knelt down and kowtowed three times: "Mourning for my parents, for giving birth to me."
Kneel twice and kowtow three times: "Master Zhao, Mrs. Zhao, I, Zhao Baiyu, are destined to save my life. I have bad luck. No wonder you guys."
Kneeling three times and knocking three times, his forehead touched the ground: "When Zhao Baiyu agreed to marry into the Prince's Mansion of Lin'an County, he and Zhao's grievances and grievances will be resolved from then on, and they will be clean for the rest of their lives."
The sound of kneeling three times and knocking nine times knocked on Zhao Xie's hearts, breaking their hearts.
"Mother was wrong, it was mother who did wrong, so it's not my son, and I shouldn't have cut off your future and forced you into a tiger's den for Zhao Yuzheng!" Mrs. Xie rushed to Zhao Baiyu and wanted to help him up, sobbing: " Don't kneel to me, don't kneel to me, you can't settle, you can't, you never owed us, how can you get rid of both grievances and grievances?"
Zhao Boyong slowly leaned over and said: "If there is...if there is a fate, the fate can continue."
Zhao Baiyu quietly covered the wound that seemed to be open, raised his head and said, "It has nothing to do with each other, each is safe."
Why bother?
Both Xie Shi and Zhao Boyong noticed Zhao Baiyu's pale face, and when they looked at his hand covering the wound, they felt despair again, and would rather hold back forcefully than say the pain in front of them.
When Zhao Baiyu learned the truth and would rather marry into the county prince's mansion than tell the truth, they knew that there was no possibility of reconciliation in this life.
Perhaps for Zhao Baiyu, no resentment, no hatred, no love, no expectation is the reconciliation between him and his relatives in this world, and for the Zhao family, it is a lifetime of heartbreak.
Kneeling three times and kowtowing nine times, repaying life's favor together with all kinds of debts in the past, is no less than forcibly digging out the hearts of Xie and Zhao Boyong, cutting their flesh, and breaking their bones. Muscles, so painful that no matter how hard it is to feel at ease in this life.
Even though they were unwilling in every possible way, they couldn't keep Zhao Baiyu.
It was they who broke the relationship with their own hands. From the moment they forced Zhao Baiyu to marry, the tacit understanding between each other was eliminated. Now that they have regretted it and want to redeem it, how can there be such a cheap thing in the world?
***
Zhao Boyong and Mrs. Xie supported each other, walked out of the side hall with their backs bent, they had been waiting outside the small yellow gate, and wanted to say a few nice words, but unexpectedly the two of them seemed to be mourning, their faces were ashen and defeated.
Even if they are separated by a few steps, even if they don't say a word and have no expression on their faces, they can still feel the lifeless and majestic sadness.
Xiao Huangmen was so frightened that he stopped in his tracks, did not dare to go forward, and watched them pass him by as if there was no one else around, and walked towards the bottom of the steps. The fourth step was so painful that I couldn't move.
Fortunately, when he fell down, he quickly let go of Xie Shi and did not take Xie Shi down.
Xiao Huangmen ran down anxiously to help him up, and shouted: "Call the imperial doctor!"
Inadvertently caught sight of Xie Shi, and found that her expression was indifferent, indifferent to Zhao Zaizhi's fall, not like the affectionate couple who are well-known in Kyoto.
The imperial physician arrived soon and diagnosed that Zhao Boyong had just injured his leg, which may have injured his muscles and bones, not to the point of breaking his leg, and he will be able to recuperate for two or three months.
I muttered in my heart that the steps are wide and wide, how can I fall down?
***
Lin'an County Prince's Mansion.
As soon as Zhao Baiyu returned to the house, Uncle Hai and others immediately put a brazier and grapefruit peels at the door, let him step on them, then sprinkled some grapefruit water, tapped him three times on the back with peach wood, and then stuffed him with a purse containing Three copper coins to exorcise evil spirits.
Zhao Baiyu wanted to say it was unnecessary, but Uncle Hai and the others retorted very seriously: "You kid doesn't understand."
Ms. Li and the others are also here, and their young and beautiful faces are full of superstition.
Zhao Baiyu was speechless, turned to look for Huo Jingtang, found that the other person looked thoughtful, and was surprised that he was the biggest superstitious leader.
Zhao Baiyu supported his forehead: "Forget it."
Let them go.
Aunt Xiu said to him, "Come in quickly. A few days ago, the aunties rushed to several markets in the mansion to grab more than a dozen plump autumn crabs. It would have been better to wait a month or two, but At this time, if you look carefully, you can find crabs that are as good as the end of autumn. They have been kept in the kitchen for several days. I heard that you came back today and cooked them specially. There are crabs stuffed with oranges, drunk crabs, steamed, crab pots and braised fried. ...keep you eating to your heart's content."
Miss Li also said: "Wu Lang opened his arms to eat, and Dr. Xu said that eating crabs will not hinder the healing of the incision."
At this moment, the taciturn Wei Bo came forward and said: "Crabs ward off evil spirits and eliminate darkness."
Zhao Baiyu was surprised, but he didn't expect Wei Bo with thick eyebrows and big eyes to fall too.
... But eating crabs can ward off evil spirits?
It's the first time I've heard of it.
All the people in the county palace surrounded Zhao Baiyu and talked lively.Zhao Baiyu stepped into the threshold of the front hall with one foot, stopped suddenly, and turned to look at Huo Jingtang who was quietly following behind him.
He didn't speak, Huo Jingtang knew that he wanted him to accompany him, sighed pretendingly, stepped forward to push the others away, and held Zhao Baiyu's hand very artificially: "I can't do anything about you." Turning his head, he said to others: " Can't leave me."
Miss Li, Yan Bing, Mother Xiu and others: "..."
Uncle Hai and the other old people in the county palace turned their faces away silently, not wanting to admit that this was their little county king.
The whole crab feast was said to be only a dozen or so, and each person could share one crab. As soon as Zhao Baiyu invited them, everyone found excuses and ran away, leaving him and Huo Jingtang to eat alone.
Huo Jingtang helped him remove the shell and remove the meat, as if feeding a pig.
As soon as Zhao Baiyu was about to put down his chopsticks, Huo Jingtang could attack with eyes like "Xiao Lang doesn't hurt me, I don't love me". He didn't understand what changed Huo Jingtang during this time, he was a bit shameless How could he use such tricks so innocently?
While eating the crab meat picked out by Huo Jingtang solicitously, Zhao Baiyu was worried, wouldn't there be tricks of crying, making trouble, and hanging himself in the future?
Thinking of Huo Jingtang crying, Zhao Baiyu couldn't help shivering.
Huo Jingtang: "Is it cold?"
Zhao Baiyu: "No." He quickly grabbed the bowl and ate it.
***
After eating, it is natural to take a walk, rest for a while, and wash up when the sky darkens.
Zhao Baiyu hadn't taken a bath for a long time. To prevent wound infection, he always wiped his body with wet towels. After asking Doctor Xu if he could enter the water, he happily came to the open-air bath in the mansion.
As soon as Zhao Baiyu's belt was pulled off, he looked hesitantly at Huo Jingtang who seemed to be strolling behind him, "You want to take a bath too?"
Huo Jingtang held his hands behind his back, and said after hearing the words: "You go get yours."
After saying that, he pulled out the chaise longue, put it beside the bathtub and lay down to watch the stars.
Zhao Baiyu turned his back to Huo Jingtang, although he had done everything, logically there was nothing to be shy about, but when there was no such atmosphere, it would still be embarrassing and ashamed to be naked.
With only one coat left, he heard Huo Jingtang's low humming sound behind him. He listened attentively and hummed a libretto: "The love is so unbearable to look back on, let's share it with Dongfeng..."
It's a love song, the tune is pleasant to the ear, Huo Jingtang can also sing with a bit of posture, and the tone of the voice is low and hoarse, and if it is lowered a bit, it will show a bit of depression and obsession, which makes the ears itchy.
Zhao Baiyu unconsciously turned his face to the side, just in time to see Huo Jingtang looking at him with a smile, beating time with his hands on his thighs, and changed the libretto: "...I am of the same mind with you, and wish to be a hundred-year-old minister." Follow along, do not leave for a while in this life.”
Huo Jingtang's face was there, his long hair was loose under his eyes, his wide-sleeved gown was open, and he was unrestrained. But he wears Buddhist beads on his face, and between his fingers, besides the cocoons ground with a knife, there are also cocoons ground from copying Buddhist scriptures.
Being a human butcher and a Buddhist at the same time, such a contradictory combination combined with Huo Jingtang became a bewitching thing.
A person like Huo Jingtang will probably spend his whole life being violent, with strong wine and knives, with the fire of a prairie fire, and with the scorching sun. Most of the time, she cried... So far, I have only seen Zhao Baiyu when he escaped death.
No matter when you are serious or serious and want to seduce someone, you really can't sit still.
Zhao Baiyu swallowed his saliva, and murmured, "I'm not fully injured. If it's too intense...it will burst."
Huo Jingtang's eyes suddenly became strange, and he was silent for a long time before he sighed: "In fact, I just want Xiao Lang to see that I am also a somewhat arty and sour scholar. I didn't expect Xiao Lang to take a liking to me."
He opened his hands and opened the skirt of his clothes a little, and he could see the wonderful abdominal muscles: "I'm lighter."
Zhao Baiyu should scold him for being unscrupulous, but he blurted out: "Can it work?"
Huo Jingtang: "Trust in my arm strength."
The couple, who hadn't had a skin-to-skin contact for a year, looked at each other. One straightened up his upper body, and the other walked over with a soft leg. The cooperation was quite tacit.
***
The wound was still open, whether they couldn't help it or not, the two of them lowered their heads in the room to accept the scathing criticism from Doctor Xu, and sincerely reflected on it.
"It's not that I said that you, Xiaojun Wang, are usually calm. In the past twenty years or so, you were as pure and ascetic as a Bodhisattva. I thought you were not very interested in the love and love in the mortal world, so I can rest assured that you are alone. I think you must have a sense of proportion. Of course, I also understand that you have been married for less than two years, and you have been separated for a year. It is not unusual for a man to love a woman... the love between a man and a man is the same. But be sensible! Be restrained!"
Zhao Baiyu bowed his head: "I was also at fault."
"Otherwise? Master Xiao Zhao thinks that my words exclude you? Who doesn't know that the prince of the little county is full of temper in the Northwest? Who knows when his temper will change! But you are different, you are light The gentleman of Feng Jiyue, the bodhisattva who came down from the sky, those who are not familiar with you will think that you drink dew to fill your stomach, who knows that you can be so greedy and indulgent!"
The most reasonable saying throughout the ages is not to offend the doctor, no matter how honest, sincere, reverent and even grateful he is at ordinary times, as a matchmaker and wife and life-saver, you can catch whoever disobeys the doctor's advice.
The words he said were full of ridicule ability.
Zhao Baiyu lowered his head in shame, revealing the marks on his neck.
Huo Jingtang caught a glimpse and shook his feet triumphantly.
Doctor Xu caught a glimpse of his shaking his feet, and the cold air in his body suddenly increased.
There is no rule of law!
***
After eating and drinking in the mansion for a few days, it will be the Mid-Autumn Festival in a blink of an eye.
Appreciating lanterns and worshiping the moon for reunion dinner is a routine activity in the Mid-Autumn Festival. At dusk, delicious delicacies are prepared for a full meal, and then dusk falls.
Chen Shidao booked a seat in the largest restaurant in the mansion to watch the moon tonight, and invited Huo Jingtang and Zhao Baiyu to go together, and they both agreed.
But before the appointment, Huo Jingtang took Zhao Baiyu to Hongfu Temple first.
***
Hall of Ten Thousand Buddhas in Hongfu Temple.
Tens of thousands of bright lights cover the sky and cover the sky, as if piercing the sky and the earth. The faintly bright candlelight forms a prairie fire, which is spectacular and grand, especially shocking. Loneliness, and the sense of vastness that there are gods and Buddhas in the world.
Zhao Baiyu asked softly, "Is this the Lantern Offering Ceremony?"
Huo Jingtang: "Do you know who the [-] offering lamps inside and outside the Hall of Ten Thousand Buddhas are praying for?"
Zhao Baiyu had a vague answer that broke through the ground.
Huo Jingtang pulled him, picked a row of praying lamps nearby, pointed to the sticker on the lamp body and said: "All the Buddhas rectify the Dharma, may the blue sky and Zhao Baiyu be free from disaster and pain." Pointing to the next row, "Thousands of prayers Yes, resolve all the troubles in Zhao Baiyu's life." Then came to the next row, "The Great Merciful and Great Compassionate Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva, may the blue sky Zhao Baiyu eliminate disasters, save karma, be satisfied, and all wishes come true."
Zhao Baiyu was shocked in his heart: "The lights here... are all for me?"
He remembered vaguely hearing it when he was in a coma, but he thought it was an exaggeration so he didn't take it seriously, but it was more grand and sincere than he imagined.
"Not only Hongfu Temple, but also Baohua Temple. Liangjiang and Huainan have received your favor, or thank you for your righteous words to seek justice for the people. There are more than [-], [-], and millions of lights...the people all over the world remember you. There is also one from Chen Shidao, one from Yan Bing and the others, one from Du Gongxian, one from Fan Wenming, as well as He Guangyou from Huainan and Chen Fangrong from Shandong. This Hongfu Temple asks for a blessing lamp for you."
"The hair-combing lady and Li Yiru you rescued, and the injustice cases you vindicated such as Deng Wen'an, Huang Qingshang, Kuang Fuwei, Yang's... Everyone remembers you, and everyone cares about you."
Huo Jingtang hugged Zhao Baiyu from behind him: "If one day I can't keep you anymore, you can stay for a little longer for the sake of the common people in the world."
Zhao Baiyu begged to die so frightened that Huo Jingtang still had no self-confidence. Even if Zhao Baiyu woke up and showed that he needed him all the time, even if he said that he came back because of Huo Jingtang, Huo Jingtang would still be afraid.
Zhao Baiyu lowered his eyes and held Huo Jingtang's hand, "Okay."
***
They stayed in Hongfu Temple for a while, and the two of them hurried forward, and it was still [-]:[-] when they arrived at the restaurant. At this time, the moon was in the sky, the silk was boiling, the market downstairs was crowded with people, and the river was decorated with tens of thousands of lights. The scene was shocking.
In the restaurant, apart from Chen Shidao, there are also Du Gongxian, Mrs. Kang Wang, the Deputy Envoy of the Ministry of Household Affairs, the Minister of the Ministry of Industry, Gao Tongzhi... More than half of the court officials came, all dressed in ordinary clothes, lying or sitting or reclining. Baiyu all waved their hands to show their kindness.
The two walked into it, chatted for a while, and then they both took advantage of the moon to compose poems, or drink orders, and had a great time.
Next to Zhao Baiyu was Gao Tongzhi, who raised his wine glass and said to Zhao Baiyu, "I respect Mrs. Zhao, for the sake of justice."
Zhao Baiyu was slightly surprised, he picked up the wine glass and wanted to pay back, but was pushed down by Gao Tongzhi's hand, and the other party made a second toast.
"The old man respects Mr. Zhao again, and lives for the people."
After pouring the third cup, Gao Tongzhi lifted it up, looked straight at Zhao Baiyu and said, "I respect Mrs. Zhao three times, but I have to say sorry."
I'm sorry that he, as a Sangong and Jiuqing, failed to set an example and was an official in vain.
Zhao Baiyu was moved, then he pursed his lips and smiled, and drank a glass of wine: "I don't dare to take the first two glasses, but I have to reciprocate the third one, you can't stop me." After speaking, he drank the wine in the glass.
Gao Tongzhi was stunned for a moment, and then laughed heartily.
Others don't know it, and just take it as an interesting thing, so they are more devoted to playing and admiring the moon.
Zhao
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