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Zhou Yin didn't know how Ruan Wei explained to the teacher that he stayed in the hospital for a day and a night, during which the head teacher called once and told him to take a good rest, and didn't mention anything else.

So he asked the head teacher for another three days off, the reason being that he wanted to recuperate at home.In fact, he was not seriously injured. Although the three of them struck ruthlessly, when he was beaten, he instinctively arched his body to protect his head, and the wounds were all superficial.

The mother felt distressed and blamed him at the same time. She didn't ask him the reason for the fight, but only said that she would take him back when he recovered.

That evening Ruan Wei came to see him, carrying a basket of fruit, and volunteered to peel apples for him.Zhou Yin sat on the bed and looked at Ruan Wei with a smile. This picture was really pleasing to the eye. The girl with picturesque features was holding an apple with her pale fingers. Even if her movements stumbled, it did not affect the beauty of her posture.

"I brought the things here for you. I didn't look at them. I'm waiting for you to explain them to me." Ruan Wei handed the apple over and looked back at him with a half-smile.

Zhou Yin took a bite of the apple, pretended not to hear what she said, and continued to overturn the magazine on the bed.The pages of the magazine are full of pictures, and he reads very slowly, staying on each page for nearly half a minute.

Ruan Wei was not annoyed when she saw his slow-moving appearance, she held her chin and said, "Eat slowly, we will talk after you finish eating."

"Aren't you going to study by yourself at night?" Zhou Yin glanced at her, and Ruan Wei muttered: "Escape, you can take such a long time off if you don't care about me."

"I have nothing to say. Things are just as you see." Zhou Yin threw away the apple he had eaten a few bites, took out a paper towel and wiped his hands. He yawned and pulled up the quilt. Down pose.

Ruan Wei tugged at the corner of his quilt, and said dissatisfied: "Don't sleep, how can you sleep when there are guests around."

"I am a patient."

"You didn't tell me what's going on, don't sleep."

"It's okay to tell you, but you have to promise me that you can't tell others."

Ruan Wei said bluntly, "Who are they referring to? Li Qing?"

Zhou Yin was noncommittal, and he smiled slightly: "It's actually very simple. If things go well, you won't be able to see me next semester."

"What do you mean? You want to transfer?"

"I can transfer to another school, or the school can expel me."

Ruan Wei stood up abruptly and stared at him in astonishment, "Don't tell me that you put the camera on purposely, you recorded it just to make the school expel you?"

"Almost." Zhou Yin nodded approvingly.

"Are you crazy, can't you just drop out of school?"

Zhou Yin didn't answer.

"Do you have to use that method? You can skip school, fight, fight, or even steal, but you have to abuse yourself like this," Ruan Wei became more and more emotional, she turned her head suddenly, avoiding the eye contact with Zhou Yin, "I asked Those three people, they said you found them first, and you know the reason."

Zhou Yin said with a smile: "I'm not involved in the fight now."

"Don't play stupid."

Zhou Yin's face was calm, and after a long silence, he said softly: "I want to make myself unable to stay in this place, and I want everyone to despise me when they see it."

"Why?" Ruan Wei still frowned, her voice was a little aggrieved, "Why?"

Zhou Yin sighed inaudibly, "I don't believe you haven't heard about my family."

Ruan Wei was speechless for a moment, and her eyes became averted, "I still don't understand, since it involves your family, I won't ask, sorry."

"No need to apologize, you helped me that day, I should thank you."

Ruan Wei walked to the window, watched the potted plants on the window sill for a while, and said nonchalantly, "It's a small matter, by the way, have you contacted Li Qing these days?"

Zhou Yin changed the subject, "How did you tell the teacher about that day?"

"They called me over to understand the situation, and I kept crying, but they had nothing to do with me, so they let me go back," Ruan Wei turned her head and smiled, "I didn't say anything, but they seemed to understand, probably thought it was just feelings dispute."

"Thanks."

"Is there anything else I can help you with?"

Zhou Yin shook his head, "No more, thank you."

Ruan Wei finally looked at him and said, "I hope you can think about it clearly and don't do things that make yourself regret or make others sad."

After Ruan Wei left, Zhou Yin lay on the bed for a long time.

He is not asleep.The night was falling, he dared not close his eyes, he forgot to close the window, and the night was close at hand.He suspected that as long as he closed his eyes, the night would roll over his face and nail him to death in this boundless night.

He opened his eyes like this last night, staring at the night sky framed by the window.Can't turn on the light because Li Qing is outside.

In the past few days, he didn't answer Li Qing's calls, and he also ignored the new messages that popped up frequently on WeChat. He expected that Li Qing would come to his door, so he sent his mother to say that he was sick and needed to rest.

This reason cannot stop Li Qing, he knows it.

He also knew that Li Qing came to look for him twice, and Li Qing was standing outside the garden fence, looking at his room from a distance.

He was afraid to see him, couldn't turn on the lights, couldn't sleep, and kept his eyes open all night and all night.

His mother asked him if he had quarreled with someone, but he didn't know how to answer.Mother said, accept it as soon as it is good, and it will break his heart if he is so cold.

You don't object to me being with him?he asked his mother.

My mother smiled and patted his head like when I was a child. When did I say no, as long as you really like it, how could my mother object.

That's right, his mother has always supported him in everything and given him the most free and relaxed environment to grow up.When he was a child, he was wronged outside, and when he got home, his mother used different tricks to coax him.

He has grown up and still feels aggrieved occasionally, what about his mother?In the nights that he didn't know, how many times she couldn't fall asleep and cried until dawn.

He couldn't let the endless and hopeless waiting ruin his mother. He went to such lengths to make it happen, just for a simple wish.

He wants to leave here with his mother.

Others may think that he is making a fuss out of a molehill, but this task that seems easy to others is as difficult as climbing a mountain to him.

It was a mountain that was pressing on my mother's heart and could not be overcome or moved. It was a mountain formed by years of trauma, hope and disappointment.

Mother can't cross this mountain.

He can't force his mother to wake up, it's up to her to decide to leave.Sobriety always suffers a greater blow, and it is only after the whole person is destroyed and rebuilt that he barely achieves it. He does not want his mother to go through these pains again.

He can only find an excuse for his mother to do it as a last resort, create the illusion that he has to leave, and reduce pain and stress.

In order to realize his wish, he is willing to use himself as a target, and it doesn't matter if he is riddled with holes.Because he always remembered what Zheng Wenliang said, even though his mother rarely expressed similar expressions after he grew up.

But he knew that his mother still loved him very much.

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Xiaoyin's purpose is to take his mother to move out of this house, and change the environment to treat her mother's illness. Her mother's obsession is too deep, and Xiaoyin can't see any hope for her to take the initiative to move, so he will find a way by himself.His method is based on the fact that his mother loves him very much. As long as his reputation is so bad that he can't stay in school, the school will expel him.What Xiaoyin did was also a gamble.He could try to get into a fight, but those were too mild to get expelled from school, much less sober mother.Because of his sexual orientation and family background, Xiaoyin has a bad reputation in school. He wants to take advantage of this to choose this extreme method that others think is too extreme.

I don't always like to explain the motives of characters' actions. Everyone can have different interpretations, but Xiaoyin's misunderstanding is too deep, and I have to argue for him. 8.11 stay

Damn you, no one is begging you to watch 9.19 stay