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He won't, he lied.

He lied, he lied to Chu Yi.It's ironic, he finally used such an advanced method of deceiving Chu Yi, but when he least wanted to and least wanted to deceive Chu Yi.He wants to answer this sentence with fanatical and passionate love like an ordinary person. He cares whether Chu Yi likes him or not, just like Chu Yi cares whether he loves him or not.

But the reality has always been cruel to him. He actually doesn't know how to like, let alone love.He doesn't understand, even if liking and love are put in front of him, he is just like a person without five senses, unable to touch, smell, hear, see, how can we talk about how to care?

But he cares about Chu Yi.

There is a huge gap between him and the world. He is always an outlier. He doesn't want Chu Yi to see it, even if it is a lie.

"I will care." Qin Rui repeated.

Chu Yi tightly grasped the wine bottle, Qin Rui's caring did not bring him a sense of security, he was only more excited, he suppressed it for too long.All his favorites once poured out, but he was rejected by others. He warned himself countless times to come out of this failed game and shadow, to be open-minded and mature.But it's not a fucking project, it's not a battle, it's not a loss or a failure, it's just giving!

What he pays is the emotion that entangles the blood and connects the soul!If you pay, you can't get it back. There is no winner or loser here, let alone success or failure.What he needs is not to stand up again from the ruins of his soul, but to tell him that he can continue to love without fear of hardships and dangers, and he can also give courageously!

Tears with body temperature slid down the cheeks, and every time they touched a section of skin, the temperature dropped a little, and when they fell to the ground, they were already icy cold.

Qin Rui was speechless, he couldn't say anything, he couldn't say anything.Every neuron in his body was sending the same message right now, and he hated himself.How hateful he is, he has heard people say it, but those people's desperate or crazy words have never been a mirror for him to witness himself.

Is he hateful?No, rather than saying that he is hateful, it is better to say that this world is even more hateful. He is just the darling of this world.

However, he is not a darling, he is a truly hateful person, a person abandoned by the world, he wanders outside the world.Those tears were a hateful accusation and testimony against him.

If you hate him, you can be hateful, if you are different, you can be different, if you are abandoned, you can be abandoned. If this allows him to bear all the pain alone, it is probably the most wonderful thing.To him, what is the difference between suffering and not suffering? They are all suffering.If the torment can heal the wounds and pains he left for Chu Yi, he would have nothing he would not like to enjoy.

He can't give ordinary people love, so please give him a chance to endure the suffering is also good.

"Chu Yi, I want to go on with you, ten years, 20 years, 30 years, I will not leave no matter how far you want to go. If you want to go slower, then I will take a smaller step. If you want to go faster Some, I can run with you."

Even if the world has opened a gap, I can fill it up.

Even if I can only struggle on the edge of the world, but let me hold your hand, you can feel my presence all the way along the way.

Even if I don't know how to love, I can give you everything, what is love, what is love, tell me, teach me how to do it.

"Chu Yi, I want to go on with you. Whether it is control or equality, in fact, you are firmly in your hands. You don't need me to give it to you, and you don't need me to let you. You are doing well enough , don’t you want to know my hole card? In fact, it’s always just a 2 of diamonds, so no matter which card you draw, you will always be bigger than me.”

Giving up control is an extremely painful thing for Qin Rui, but it is probably the only most romantic thing he can do for Chu Yi.Whether this is love, he doesn't know, it seems to be no different from offering popcorn and kisses, but more pain is buried, and this romance is also imprisoned.

But he wanted to do it, even if it was out of control or insane.Even if it is always different from ordinary people in essence, at least what it shows can more or less flow into the vast world.

Like love, enough is enough.

For half a lifetime, he couldn't even give Chu Yi such a simple and vulgar love.Isn't he hateful?Really hateful.

Just being like love is enough.

"Chu Yi, I love you."

Fu Ming was not polite to Qin Yinglie. There was only strict discipline and iron blood in the army. There was no respect for the old and love for the young. There was no age on the battlefield.Especially old man Qin, who has survived cancer for so long and still hasn't gone, why should he show such a little mercy.

He had gone through the documents in his hand several times, and he had already guessed half of the old man Qin came to him in person.

so what?This pile of documents is like waste paper.

"I don't like your Qin family. When Fu Yu died, he couldn't see Qin Rui even if he wanted to. What do you think your Qin family is like, but in my eyes, it's a mass of rotten meat. Who is unlucky. So why do you think I will agree to your marriage request?

If it wasn't for Qin Rui's presence, the Fu family and the Qin family would have turned their heads long ago. "

Qin Yinglie didn't even shudder. He was able to come here because he had made perfect preparations.

"It's normal for you not to think about the Qin family, but don't you think more about Qin Rui? Fu Yu left early to a large extent because of me, but you also know that she has severe schizophrenia, and she is not alive. It's still painful. The past has passed, but her son Qin Rui is still alive, you have read the information, if I die, if Qin Rui keeps getting worse, the Qin family will not be able to keep it in chaos, do you think Qin Rui can still do it? Are you alive? I just want to help Qin Rui pave the way as much as possible before I leave. On this point, we are in agreement."

Fu Ming gritted his teeth and laughed, "Help Qin Rui? The only thing you want to protect is your Qin family, and there is no Qin Rui in it. So what if the Qin family collapses? Fu Ming is still in this position, so no one dares to move Qin Rui. We disagree on this point."

"I'm telling the truth. Schizophrenia is very hereditary. You know Qin Rui's situation. Even if he is not schizophrenic, he is not far behind. It is even worse than schizophrenia. He committed a serious crime in country C. As for the case, at least this one is well-documented. As for the ones that I can't characterize, I don't know how many there are.

What good does it do him if the Qin family collapses?Once the Qin family collapses, will the Fu family not be implicated in politics?At that time, no one could protect Qin Rui. Not only could he not, but he was also the first victim. Are you sure that you are willing to protect a lunatic named Qin and let the Fu family fall into a deep pit?

You dare not, Fu Ming!There is no better backer behind Qin Rui than the Qin family, because his surname is Qin, not Fu! "

Qin Yinglie stood up, picked up the document and threw it to Fu Ming, "Look carefully, he committed murder, definitely more than once. He doesn't care about these things, whether it's the Qin family, the Fu family, or human life, he doesn't even care about his life." I don't care about it myself. I also had expectations for him, otherwise I wouldn't hand over the Qin family to him. But my decision was wrong, Mo Lingdong is dead, Qin Rui won't hold back."

"If you die, you die. If you die, these documents are just waste paper." Fu Ming slapped the documents on the table, "He killed a person, the evidence is solid, but you and I both know the situation at that time, Mo The kid at home is addicted to drugs and took a man to kidnap Qin Rui, Qin Rui is self-defense. What are you trying to prove with this matter? Prove that he is a murderer? It's too far-fetched, you know?"

Qin Yinglie's black lips trembled, and his eyes suddenly became cloudy. At that moment, he seemed to have changed from alive to dead.

"I raised him with one hand, and I know what kind of person he is. That man was not shot to death, but the blood was drained, the skin was peeled, and the bones were taken out. You tell me this is self-defense?"

"No, so what? You raised him single-handedly, and you taught him to be like this! He has met Fu Yu several times, no more than three times! He's crazy. He started seeing a psychiatrist when he was three years old. Do you think I didn't know you used drugs for him? He didn't have a normal life. You kept instilling your stuff in him until he was 16 years old. It's a fucking miracle that he's alive today!"

Qin Yinglie closed his eyes and said hoarsely, "Because he is Qin Rui, he is the future of the Qin family."

"Then why did you come to me today and want to match Qin Yao and Funing? Take Qin Rui out of the picture? Re-divide the Qin family's power circle? Do you think Qin Rui is still three years old?"

"I want to leave a way for him to retreat."

Fu Ming laughed so hard that tears almost came out. He stared and tore up all the documents in his hand. "Qin Rui will never have a way out in this life. Once he retreats or hesitates, his whole life is over. He has done good and bad things. If he didn't dare to live as a different kind, he would have died long ago.

I'm ashamed that Fu Yu didn't survive.

Her son only needs to live in this world for one day!As an uncle, I am always ready to clean up the mess for him.

If you want to get married, you can.As long as Qin Rui says something, no matter who you are named Qin, I will absolutely agree without saying a word. "

Qin Yinglie wiped his eyes, his back seemed not so straight, and his crutch became trembling.He got the result he wanted, but he was dying, maybe Qin Rui would visit him when he died, maybe not.

He hoped that he could look at Qin Rui before he died, that was the future of the Qin family.

He hoped that Qin Rui could come to see him. Qin Rui didn't see him when his mother died, and Qin Rui didn't see him when his father died. If possible, he hoped that as Qin Rui's last direct blood relative, Qin Rui could see him off. grandfather.

He raised Qin Rui, and when he is gone, maybe Qin Rui can live like an ordinary person, and it will be fine in a while.Live like a person.

After the huge roar, the plane gradually raised its head and began to climb slowly into the sky. Looking down, it was the bay, the beach, and the palms that were fading away.Pass through the clouds, break through the airflow, and slowly stabilize after bumps.

The golden sunlight came in through the window and fell on the face, body, and legs of the person.Even the eyelashes became light and transparent in the sunlight, Chu Yi raised his head, fell asleep, and let out a slight breathing sound.

Qin Yao took a straw and stuffed it into Chu Yi's mouth. He unpacked a bag of popping candy that he had prepared earlier, and poured it in along the mouth of the tube.

Chu Yi felt a little numb in his mouth, then it seemed to be numb, and then he drool a lot.