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Chu Yi licked the edge of his lips, and the slightly astringent wine juice attached to it soaked into his mouth. This little bit of alcohol seemed to be more pungent than the full glass he just swallowed, and it burned even his esophagus.All the words in his stomach were blocked in his throat, and those invisible words still carried the heavy pressure of the deep sea, making him unable to control his pronunciation.

Chu Yi involuntarily reached out and touched his pocket, his movements were too uncertain and hectic, like an elderly patient with Alzheimer's disease, trying to find the only thing to prove his identity from his body .Finally, he took out a pack of cigarettes from his trouser pocket.

"Don't mind, I won't light it." Chu Yi stuffed one into his mouth, and put the cigarette case under the table, because his fingers trembling a bit, maybe because he drank alcohol, he made such a fine motor nerve The reaction is not flexible, Chu Yi thought to himself.

The moment the cigarette touched his lips, he seemed to have finally recovered a little bit of his backbone. When he was stressed, he would smoke a few cigarettes for relief. Over the years, this was the only way he could maintain the pressure. .Chu Yi remembered the time he drank beer with Qin Rui. If Qin Rui was willing to provide independent psychological decompression guidance now, he would definitely agree without saying a word.

"Do you remember this thing?" Chu Yi pushed a round chip under his finger to the middle of the table. It was won back in He Lin's underground casino. Chu Yi kept one and kept it in his wallet. At that time, he was trying to remind himself of Qin Rui's greed hidden behind his gentleness, and he couldn't use such cheap things to exchange for the precious feelings of Young Master Chu.But now, this little bargaining chip is laughing at the stupid consequences of Chu Yi's arrogance. His self-righteous true love is actually the cheapest thing in the world, because feelings have never cost.

Qin Rui leaned his body and said: "What's the matter? Chu Yi. If you have any difficulties, you can tell me. I will try my best to help, and I will do it."

"You said three years in exchange for all my trust."

Qin Rui's eyelids twitched, he probably expressed the same meaning, but hearing such words from Chu Yi's mouth unexpectedly made him feel extraordinarily complicated.In the blink of an eye, even Qin Rui felt a sense of anxiety for no reason. It wasn't that things were out of control, but that there seemed to be a dislocation that he expected, and soon this dislocation expanded dramatically.

"It won't take three years." Chu Yi grinned and took back the chip. He took the cigarette from his mouth, stood up and bent down, and handed the cigarette with the smell of alcohol to Qin Rui's mouth together. : "I exchange all my trust for your heart. Qin Rui, do you dare?"

Qin Rui pushed Chu Yi's hand away. One thing he thought was wrong. Chu Yi is definitely not a boring person, at least not to him.For example, like now, seeing half of his body sinking in the quagmire, he still wants to bet aggressively on the future of the Jedi's counterattack with the remaining half.What did he think Qin Rui was?philanthropist?

Qin Rui is not a philanthropist, and Chu Yi is not a fool.Both sides knew the helplessness behind this sentence.What Chu Yi wanted was an opportunity that was so shallow that it couldn't be any more shallow. Perhaps in Qin Rui's view, this opportunity was just a turning point for the game to become more exciting.

"I don't dare." Qin Rui pursed his lips and smiled. He smoked the cigarette and threw it into the ashtray, "I don't need it either. Frankly speaking, if you can say such a thing, I think many things are just time. Question. Although the siege battle is generally difficult, as long as the besieging party has enough armaments and food, it can delay the defense even if it is delayed. Besides, Chu Yi, you have already opened the city gate, and I still need to do it with you exchange?"

"Qin Rui, can't you really let me once?" Chu Yi sneered, cleared his throat, and continued: "Maybe you don't need it, and I don't want to go around in circles."

He was silent for a moment, looked up at Qin Rui and said, "I like you very much, and I hope we can have a future. Maybe this kind of idea has existed for a while, but I am clearly aware of this and I am determined to do it It didn't take too long to make a change.

I know that the relationship between us is very bad. From the beginning to the present, the feelings brewed by such a relationship may make you laugh at me. It's embarrassing, right?But it does exist, no matter what, I hope I can work hard to maintain it, even if it is my unilateral change and hard work, I hope you can give me a chance.

Qin Rui, I don't know if I am really different in your heart, but you are different from anyone else in my heart.With your status, I am afraid that what I can give you is very limited, but I will work hard. "

Chu Yi suddenly felt that his tongue was stiff, hard work, the poorest words, and the most useless promises. He just wanted to try his best to express the limit he could give Qin Rui, but this limit seemed to be too little, and suddenly he almost began to hate the past. The arrogance, the profligate tenderness even if those tenderness is not necessarily true.He began to think in trepidation, if he was more gentle and let go of those indifferent faces, would the distance between them be closer, wouldn't it be that when he sat here and said these words today, he would not Will be so afraid and worried, won't he look ridiculous and humble even if he says love?

But he did his best.

He may be a poor person in front of Qin Rui, and he needs great courage to say love to a rich person.The huge gap from arrogance to inferiority gave him pain and haze that aggravated as the relationship deepened, because what he was facing was not a normal relationship, but a unilateral product born out of a deformed relationship. His inferiority complex not only Not only because of his penniless reputation, but also because of that humiliating opening game.

He has lost completely, but he has to pick up the shame and self-esteem for love, face the other party's indifferent eyes and tear open his blood-filled chest, point to the beating heart and tell the other party that this is the only thing he can afford, the only thing he can afford, The only thing that is willingly given away.

But even so, it is not enough.

He was afraid, he was afraid that Qin Rui would think that the bright red blood would dirty his hands.He was afraid that all his enthusiasm would not be enough to move Qin Rui's cold heart.He was afraid that the other party would not even give him the chance to play.

This is probably the paradox of love. The more you want to prove, the more cruel you are to yourself, and the more you are cruel to yourself, the more you are afraid of the other party's rejection.But obviously I want to get close because I like and have fun, but because I can't bear the separation, I feel very depressed.

Qin Rui was a little startled when he saw Chu Yi's deep and blurred gaze, and the other party's unspeakable pain just soaked into his blood openly.Since such a decision is so difficult, why does he continue to jump into the quagmire if he doesn't understand Chu Yi?Since he clearly knows that this road is not joyful, then what force is driving him to make such a confession?

It seems that he should expect Chu Yi to continue jumping a few times under his oppression. Perhaps under stronger despair, Chu Yi can still bring a little bit of cruel fun to this relationship.But this speech that smelled of blood and gunpowder also made him extremely frustrated. No one would say such words to him, let alone dare to say such words to him.

Qin Rui's precise and tight brain can think of a possibility or a consequence, and there will never be another person who will say a little bit of love to him with blood dripping pain.If you miss it, it will never appear again.Under his high-handed policy, there will only be uprising resistance and fleeing without armor and armor, and there will never be reckless reckless follow-up.And this person is Chu Yi, he doesn't want to admit Chu Yi who has been indulged.

He had never tasted such a taste before, and he was amazed at the seedlings that sprang from the corners of his barren and gray besieged city, which was unexpected.Even Qin Rui couldn't know what to do, whether to keep it or get rid of it?How to keep and how to remove?

And his ten-year-old powerful inertial thinking mechanism actually couldn't stop the car at this moment. He could only watch helplessly as the hands covering the chessboard submerged it with an indomitable and turbulent momentum according to the established strategy. A group of white chess pieces, after this, like every time they manipulate the game and control the game, the whole game is full of evil.

Chess pieces are chess pieces after all.Seedlings are just seedlings.

"Chu Yi, it's right to be ambitious. But I don't like you taking my idea. I did give you the right to negotiate terms, but you are not qualified for this matter." Qin Rui sighed, he was cold and straightforward The refusal obviously brought a lot of shock and disappointment to Chu Yi. The trace of shrinking from the blow of enthusiasm really made him feel lifeless again. Immediately ending this relationship is the best choice, and it is also his purpose today. But when the words came to an end, they changed again.

Qin Rui thought, maybe he was more cruel than he imagined, and after today, maybe this game will really start.As for Chu Yi and his confession, everyone is only responsible for themselves, "Isn't it good to maintain the status quo? I think we are all mature enough to understand the scale."

Chu Yi nodded, he only thought of one thing in his chaotic mind, at least the relationship has not ended yet.

However, a huge sense of loss still enveloped his whole body, and the feelings mixed with pain have not been liberated in any way, and tossing and turning is actually suffering.

He drank a lot of wine, and while drinking, he thought that if Qin Rui stopped him, he would not pretend that he didn't hear him like before, and he would stop in a proper manner. Is this called obedience?He thought mockingly, soft ears are not so bad, he got used to it after a few times.But Qin Rui didn't make a sound to stop him, Qin Rui just sat and watched him drink one cup after another.

Chu Yi has been waiting, as if stubbornly waiting for an expectation.However, the alcohol gradually paralyzed his consciousness, he only felt the burning gastric juice and alcohol in his stomach mixed with him.His painful brain seemed to be torn around by a hand, he had never been so drunk before.

Qin Rui looked at the hand that couldn't even hold the wine glass steadily, and couldn't get into the glass at all when pouring the wine, and spilled a large amount on the table and clothes.He frowned and took the wine bottle away, and got up to help Chu Yi. The other party was already dead drunk, and the whole person was particularly heavy on him. This kind of pressure that required strength to support it made Qin Rui feel a little Feeling at ease, he took the square towel and wiped the liquor flowing from the corner of Chu Yi's mouth, stared blankly at the side face leaning on his shoulder for a while, "Are you okay? I'll take you home, okay?"

He knew that Chu Yi was unconscious, so he couldn't answer him. He just asked casually, with his usual considerateness, and it made no difference whether he was drunk or not.What if it wasn't so hypocritically gentle?

Qin Rui faintly felt unwell, the smell of alcohol was too heavy and pungent.