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Lei Shao was looking forward to reuniting with Mu Zixing day and night, but he never expected that the little boy he loved in the past would stand before him again covered in blood and crime.

At that time, there was no resentment in his heart, only pure anger.

He was extremely angry that Ji Baichuan gave Mu Zixing such a path, and also angry that Mu Zixing chose this path on his own.

At the same time, he also felt distressed for his boy to make such a choice.

"I want to stand by your side and be your knife." Mu Zixing said.

But I don't need it, Lei Shao thought to himself, anyone in this world can have their hands stained with blood, but you can't.

The final outcome of the "knife" is to perish, and it is also destined to be stained with the blood of innocent people.

Mu Zixing shouldn't be like this.

When they first met again, after seven years, they felt strange to each other because of the change of appearance and identity, but the beautiful memories of their childhood that have not faded in the slightest made them very close to each other.

When Lei Shao hadn't recovered from such a weird state, Mu Zixing dared to grinningly rub against Lei Shao after experiencing the first few days of discomfort, calling him brother like he did when he was a child.

At that time, seeing that Mu Zixing's personality remained the same as before as an adult, Lei Shao had a glimmer of hope in his heart. He felt that his little boy would not become a ruthless executioner. He believed that Mu Zixing had a bottom line and moral principles. .

However, it turned out that he was wrong.

Mu Zixing directly obeyed Ji Baichuan, and he would do whatever the latter asked him to do. Lei Shao found that Mu Zixing was cute and cute only in front of him, but outside, he was a frightening person. demon.

Watching the other party walk into the abyss step by step, Lei Shao's heart sank day by day.

"Mu Zixing, I don't like you like this." He finally couldn't help opening his mouth once.

At that time, Mu Zixing had just returned from Ji Baichuan's mission. Lei Shao saw him wiping the dirt off his face and smiled at himself, saying, "Brother doesn't like it, so I won't be like this in the future."

But I don't know when Mu Zixing's words lost any credibility. He agreed with his mouth, but secretly he would continue to carry out Ji Baichuan's order.

Lei Shao not only has to worry about his comfort every time, but also has a deep sense of powerlessness.

It was Mu Zixing who was injured, and the night he brought him back, in the hospital, Lei Shao couldn't bear it and got angry at Mu Zixing.

"Mu Zixing, they are not numbers on your task list, they are a person, can you feel it?"

Mu Zixing's expression was very confused at the time, and he asked Lei Shao like a child who did something wrong, "Brother, are you angry?"

"Don't be angry, I won't do it next time."

He came over a little fawningly, and rubbed his soft lips against Lei Shao's.

Looking at Mu Zixing's expression, Lei Shao knew that he didn't know where he was wrong. Under Ji Baichuan's guidance, human life might really be no different from a cat or a dog on the side of the road in the eyes of the other party.

But facing Mu Zixing, he still softens his heart. He thinks that as long as Mu Zixing listens to persuasion, even if he has no sense of right and wrong, and no moral bottom line for being a human being, he can teach him slowly in the future.

He kissed Mu Zixing back, it was the first time they kissed, with deep affection for each other.

Whether it was when they were young or since the reunion, no one said they liked each other, but they knew each other well and they had each other.

On the small bed in the hospital, Lei Shao avoided Mu Zixing's injury and carefully kissed his beloved boy bit by bit.

Mu Zixing's eyes gradually became blurred, but when Lei Shao's hand reached into his clothes, the former's cell phone rang.

Ji Baichuan called Mu Zixing over.

"Don't go." Lei Shao said, continuing to kiss him.

But Mu Zixing had already escaped from the confusion. He stood up and stopped Lei Shao from continuing. Then he straightened his clothes and said, "Mr. Ji must have something important to do, so he must go."

And three hours later, a confidant leaked the news to Lei Shao, and Mu Zixing went to perform the mission again.

At that moment, Lei Shao only felt tired.

After that, Lei Shao went to find Ji Baichuan, but Mu Zixing was disobedient, so he could only ask Ji Baichuan to stop him.

But Ji Baichuan said, "Do you know how much effort I put into cultivating him? He always has to contribute something to Rongxing, and Mu Zixing is already an adult, he has his own choice, and I didn't force him. He went on his own, I just told him what he needed to do."

Ever since he knew that Ji Baichuan had cultivated Mu Zixing into a sword against his will, Lei Shao had had a big fight with him, and the relationship between father and son had taken a turn for the worse.

When he heard the other party's words, Lei Shao, who would not easily reveal his emotions in front of others, was angry again because of Mu Zixing, and he said in a deep voice, "But foster father, don't forget, Mu Zixing is my man." , What he should or should not do, should be decided by me!"

"Yes," Ji Baichuan did not deny, and followed his words, "He is your man, as long as he listens to you, I will not assign him, but Shao Er, can you manage him now?"

Lei Shao's voice was choked up, and finally he returned to his residence in embarrassment like a defeated beast.

Yes, Mu Zixing didn't listen to him, and it was useless to say anything.

After that, Mu Zixing would still go out to perform missions, and every time he watched the other party come back with blood, Lei Shao felt that the little boy he used to be was dying in his heart little by little.

As the future heir of the Rongxing Group, he secretly cultivated his huge power, but he couldn't stop Mu Zixing from getting further and further away from him.

Not only did Mu Zixing become a mindless tool that only obeyed orders, but he also killed the innocent, lively, clean and pure self when he was a child, and watched him go farther and farther in the darkness, unable to hold his Lei Shao's heart was also lingering.

Finally one day, the powerlessness and anger all turned into disappointment.

Lei Shao can't accept and face Mu Zixing who treats human life like nothing. At the same time, he fears that Mu Zixing will die outside one day and never come back.

In such torment, he finally couldn't bear it anymore and took the initiative to push the other party away.

However, it became Lei Shao's most painful period since the two reunited, and the break with Mu Zixing did not make him feel any better.

On the contrary, in the dead of night, he always lay in bed with insomnia all night long.

During the years when Mu Zixing was away, Lei Shao had imagined countless times in his mind what his beloved boy would look like when he grew up——

His Xingxing personality may change a bit, maybe he is not naughty when he was a child, and of course he may be more noisy than when he was a child, but no matter what, the other party is definitely clean, upright and sunny, not like he is now.

The boy he loved became unrecognizable, and Lei Shao was in great pain, and the more he suffered, the more attached he was to the Mu Zixing he imagined in his mind.

After a long time, he felt in a daze that the one he loved was either Mu Zixing or such a pure and clean boy.

He found Yan Yi.

During the most tormented period, Lei Shao really hoped that someone could replace Mu Zixing in his heart.

Therefore, he dotes on Yan Yi in every possible way, and speaks coldly to Mu Zixing.

But he soon realized how ridiculously wrong he was. No, Mu Zixing had already taken root in his heart, and no one could replace him.

The pain in his heart was not less.

Later, Mu Zixing seemed to finally realize the reason why Lei Shao was getting farther and farther away from him.

He began to try to change.

Lei Shao didn't care about it at first, but he was disappointed again and again, and his trust in Mu Zixing had already been exhausted.

But after a long time, Lei Shao's heart was unstoppably shaken.

Lei Shao remembered that once Mu Zixing was still called away by Ji Baichuan, and when he came back, his arms and chest were wrapped in bandages, so he happened to meet him.

If it had passed, Mu Zixing would have stuck to him and hung on his body, and then moaned, "Brother, it hurts so much."

But because of Lei Shao's deliberate indifference and alienation for a long time, Mu Zixing no longer dared to get close to him like in the past.

Lei Shao saw him standing there at a loss, and explained to himself in a low voice, "I...I didn't harm anyone this time, so don't be angry."

At that time, Lei Shao didn't say anything on the face, but his heart softened a little.

He saw the change in Mu Zixing.

There was a glimmer of hope in my heart again without principle.

Maybe Mu Zixing will really get better this time?

However, it didn't take long for him to usher in Yan Yi's death.

Disappointment is painful enough.

It is the cruelest thing to give hope after being disappointed, and to be completely crushed by someone again.

As calm as Lei Shao, when faced with such a fatal blow from Mu Zixing, he almost went crazy and collapsed.

He even turned from disappointment to hatred towards Mu Zixing.

Mu Zixing relentlessly ruined the most precious little boy in his heart.

At that moment, Lei Shao finally realized soberly that Mu Zixing had really turned into a cold, bloodthirsty, emotionless "Murder Blade".

Perhaps it is impossible to bear such a predetermined result.

Or maybe love hurts too much and it becomes hate.

After that, for quite a long time, Lei Shao's hatred and disgust towards Mu Zixing reached its peak.

He wanted to separate the current Mu Zixing from the little boy in the past in his heart, and finally couldn't suppress the rotten resentment in his heart, and began a long period of torture and revenge against him.

He told him that the little boy he liked had died the day he left him at the age of 12, and the grown-up one was just someone with the same name as him.

But this is too self-deceiving.

He couldn't make himself forgive Mu Zixing and he couldn't stop thinking about him.

Lei Shao fell into endless pain again, and Mu Zixing's life was worse than death because of his revenge.

In the first two years, Lei Shao sometimes hoped that Mu Zixing would really die so that he could end this torture.

But he was the one who wanted the other party to die. When Mu Zixing was in danger outside and might not be able to come back, his heart was tightened instantly.

Once, he received a call from the other party at three o'clock in the middle of the night.

"Brother, I'm going to die." That's what Mu Zixing said on the other end of the phone. He didn't explain what danger they encountered, but said in a hoarse voice, "I may not be able to go back, can you call me again? ?”

Lei Shao heard Mu Zixing's choked sobs and despair at that time, and his Adam's apple slipped with difficulty, and then he opened his mouth, but he couldn't say the word "Xing Xing".

This intimate nickname and Mu Zixing in his youth became a taboo in his heart at some point, and he couldn't even recall it.

In the end, Lei Shao hung up the phone without saying a word. He sat in the dark and closed his eyes very slowly, and then tightly clenched his trembling hands into fists.

After waiting all night, Lei Shao saw Mu Zixing covered in blood in the private hospital under Rongxing the next day.

He still didn't say anything, just stood silently outside the operating room for a while, and then went home again.

Mu Zixing always felt that Lei Shao was indifferent to his life and death because he hated him too much.

Only Lei Shao knew that he hated Mu Zixing and wanted him to die but was also afraid of his death.

He was afraid that the door of the operating room would open and he would hear an answer he could not accept.

Later, when Mu Zixing encountered danger and felt that he might not be able to come back, he stopped calling him, and Lei Shao became even more afraid.

He once felt that only when Mu Zixing died could he be freed.

But the facts made him discover that if Mu Zixing really died one day, what he would get would definitely not be relief, but more severe pain.

Even if such a situation happens, he is not sure whether he can survive in this world alone.

For this reason, Lei Shao put Mu Zixing by his side and stopped letting him go outside to encounter danger.

With the passage of time, Mu Zixing's original sharpness and enthusiasm no longer disappeared. Under his torture, the other party became taciturn and cautious.

Seeing him like that, Lei Shao's heart became unstable again.

But the bloody lessons he had learned time and time again made him timid.

He was afraid of repeating the same mistakes, but he couldn't control his heart that was pulled by Mu Zixing.

In the endless torment, he not only hated Mu Zixing, but also began to hate himself for his weak mind.

He knew that for Mu Zixing, no matter how much he struggled in his heart, he was slowly sinking into it again and again uncontrollably...

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