My millet has turned into a man

Because, she doesn't like her surname, but she doesn't want to tell others about it... So the name she has always told others is just "Xin Lanye". the same as myself.

It seems that only the name Lan Ye refers to herself.Although even this name was chosen casually when they didn't care - it was just because she was born on the Qixi Festival, and the word Lan Ye happened to be another name for the Qixi Festival.

That's why she directly told Kenji Hagiwara that her name was Lan Ye at the beginning, which may be regarded as selfishness, because she knew that Kenji Hagiwara would not know exactly how the name here was formed, and even if she knew, she wouldn't do it because of it. And ask her more.

Until just now... Her surname was called out.She originally thought that such concealment would lead to unimaginable consequences, but nothing happened.This feeling seems to be pampered, as if... In fact, I did nothing wrong in those things before.

Maybe she really didn't do anything wrong, she was telling herself like this, but she was also hesitating, just because of the sense of security that she had never been able to obtain.

She still looked at Kenji Hagiwara hesitantly, her eyes were still a little red, she opened her mouth and didn't know what to say, so she picked up her chopsticks in a panic, thinking that as soon as lunch started, she would be able to Get away from this embarrassing situation.

And what about Hagiwara Kenji?He had no choice but to shake his head silently. He was roughly guessing what he knew at this moment, and then decided to say something.

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After spending this period of time together, Kenji Hagiwara has a rough idea of ​​Lan Ye's life.

Living alone, with no other people to associate with her, can be regarded as a wealthy life. She obviously owns a house but would rather earn living expenses by herself than reveal her surname.And the ones I see the most in normal times are probably those millets.

——She usually has no close people, and her parents don't pay much attention to her. She is probably a worthless daughter abandoned by a wealthy family, so she has been ridiculed all the time, and... it seems that she can only immerse herself in the fictional world because of this.

And those who would ridicule her are probably just jealous of her talent, so they unscrupulously vent their malice, because ah, they can't do those things themselves, so they want to slander others for no reason to find a sense of superiority .

If it wasn't for such an incredible miracle, he would be resurrected in this world and appear beside her, and the situation would only continue to get worse.

Maybe one day... this lovely lady will completely give up all hope, and just disappear into this world helplessly, even when others are ignorant.

If he thought about it this way...he just felt that, as expected, it seemed like God's will.

Whether it was that he came here, or that the two became friends by accident, or the things he saw...

In fact, what he has to admit is that maybe there was some drawbridge effect at the beginning, the feeling of relief after the tension dissipated at that moment.But what made him gradually adapt to life here was her enthusiasm and innocence and her consistent sense of trust—it seemed that even if he appeared here, there would be nothing unreasonable about it.

So, he has always wanted to be grateful to her, no matter what...Those have become facts, so he doesn't mind helping a little more.

After all--he has become a friend, he can't help him with anything.

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"Although I don't know exactly what happened before, but now that I'm here, those things won't happen again."

He wouldn't say that he had guessed it. Lan Ye probably also knew the truth that he had already noticed, so he just guaranteed it.

Kenji Hagiwara just looked at her quietly, his expression as soft as ever, while Lan Ye stared at him blankly.

All of a sudden, those grievances and sorrows that seemed to be able to endure before seemed to surge up again, tears rolled in her eyes, she had no choice but to turn her face away, trying to hide these fragile expressions.

The chopsticks in her hand were put down unknowingly - because it was obvious that she was not in the mood to eat at this moment.

Because only by being patient before, could she struggle to continue walking.As long as you live like yourself, this is what she has been telling herself and she has been trying, so - even a little patience is okay, right?

She's always telling herself that.

"It's okay..." Her voice was muffled, she obviously wanted to suppress it, but she seemed to be able to vaguely hear a feeling of grievance.

Hagiwara Kenji had no choice but to sigh silently: "If you want to cry... it doesn't matter if you cry now, although it's time to enjoy lunch, if you have any emotions, you must vent them first. Otherwise, that heart will only sink in the deep sea forever, and I will also feel sad because I am worried about you."

Otherwise, just eating with this emotion, what if tears dripped into the plate?And... I have been suppressing these emotions, although I won't have any reaction now, but sooner or later, they will explode, right?

Instead of being like that, it's better to vent some of it now.

"I'm not sad..." She was still denying it, but she was just deceiving herself, telling herself not to show her emotions so obviously.

Of course she was aware of Hagiwara Kenji's worried mood, and she was just affirming a little bluntly—ah, it seems that she finally has a friend who doesn't care about her predicament.

The estrangement that she was still embracing that she was unwilling to let go completely, and that awkward sense of distance were completely let go, and everything was wiped out, and the rest seemed to be the spreading spring.

So she finally let go of the shackles she had on herself, and just sobbed softly, but there was still a smile on her face, and she was also happy because of it—even though she still didn't dare to look at Kenji Hagiwara's expression at this moment .

Well... In this case, it probably doesn't matter if you go a little bit over the top, right?Hagiwara Kenji thought helplessly, stretched out his hand, and gently stroked Lan Ye's head twice.

And Lan Ye felt the warm and cautious touch on the top of her head in a daze, and those tears seemed to flow out uncontrollably.

She obviously wanted to talk about something, but in the end she just closed her mouth tightly and said nothing.

She thought, what else could she say?Is it really necessary to confide everything before?Obviously—for her, she would still feel timid.It's not that I'm afraid that other people will hear it, but I'm worried that if I say it, it will be regarded as a naive reaction...

She always seems to be worried about some inexplicable things, as if these things are very important-maybe for her, they are indeed very important.

"Xiao Lanye can do whatever she wants, you don't have to say it, as long as you can feel happy, that's enough. So... just let out those uneasy emotions, okay?" Hagiwara Kenji is actually very happy Don't do such things, even before he would often appease girls, but he has never met a girl like this before... most of the time, just saying something to amuse them is enough up.

But, it's not difficult for him, it's just——it's indeed a little strange feeling.

"Ah... Is this like this?" She murmured, swallowing all the hard-to-speak past that she wanted to confide.

In fact, Lan Ye also knew... Even if she didn't say it, just the things that she usually didn't hide were enough for Kenji Hagiwara to be keenly aware of part of the real situation.

And it is because of this that I feel more and more at ease now. It seems that the sense of security that has been lacking all this time has been fully replenished at this moment.

This is... a thing that is hard to notice.But she only felt that the cold feeling of being soaked in cold water from the time she met her past classmates had completely dissipated, and the rest was warm, as if wrapped in some warm light.

Hagiwara Kenji just didn't say anything, stretched out his hand, and touched her head carefully again.

They were sitting by the window at this time, and Lan Ye saw each other in the direction of the backlight, but it looked like that... Her vision became a little hazy due to the invasion of tears, so it looked like Kenji Hagiwara was Shiny in general.

Ah, so she thought, maybe these inexplicable things happen, they are all sudden and beautiful gifts from this world.

Even if it is like a dream, even if the reason why it is so has not been found yet, even if it may disappear completely one day, it doesn't matter.

Because she also has a past, because she seems to be able to live on these memories.

So - this is the gift she has received from her heart over the years, and it is also the best gift.

She covered her face to prevent her expression at this moment from being seen by more people, and wiped her tears in embarrassment.

But Lan Ye is still smiling, those tears are the grievances and unwillingness that have been simmering in her heart all of a sudden to vent one day, but the smile that still looks bright, as always, is an increasingly sincere smile, showing that The joy and joy in her heart at this moment.

"Anyway... thank you, Kenji." Her voice was still muffled, full of wetness, and it looked like she was crying.

That's right, from the very beginning, she had to thank the other party, right?Because if it wasn't like that, maybe during this decadent period, she would not be able to rely on herself to support herself after all, and maybe after dealing with these things at hand, she would just "disappear forever".

"In this way, I have to thank Xiaolan Ye all the time. If it weren't for Xiaolan Ye, it would be difficult for me to live in this world? So, don't thank me--this is what I should Just like I said, it's normal for friends to help each other. No matter what the reason is, I don't need Xiaolan Ye's thanks."

He just said that, as if he wanted to emphasize some facts—maybe even Hagiwara Kenji didn't figure out which point he wanted to emphasize for a while.

Of course, what he was thinking at this moment was just to find an excuse to help Lan Ye reasonably in the future.

Maybe he was looking for an excuse for himself.

Maybe it's because I haven't noticed anything wrong until now, or maybe I just ignored it-because these things are still very common among friends, right?

It's just that he never had a real female friend before.

And Lan Ye finally wanted to stop crying, but her shoulders were still shaking.She heard the words and looked at Hagiwara Kenji with some hesitation, but saw the smile on his face that could not be refused.

Ah... is that so?She couldn't understand all this in a daze.

"Is that so..." She shook her head, still a little puzzled, and was still pondering what Hagiwara Kenji said just now, but before she had time to think about it, Hagiwara Kenji interrupted her thoughts.

"Since we've almost finished venting, let's finish our lunch first? Otherwise...the dishes will be cold, right?" Hagiwara Kenji said, forcing the chopsticks into Lan Ye's hands.

Lan Ye's movements were a little stiff, and she was a little absent-minded. Although the dishes were still as delicious as the ones she had tasted in the past, even though they had been left there for a while, there was still not much difference, but the two of them seemed to be thinking about their own thought.

Hagiwara Kenji was thinking about what to do next, so that Lan Ye could get rid of those shackles in the past.

And Lan Ye was thinking about the words that Kenji Hagiwara said just now - what did they mean?

It is impossible for her to accept the other party's help without any psychological burden.

She has always been cautious, afraid that what she did was not satisfactory, but this time someone told her not to care too much about other people's opinions?It seems so.

Hmm - it's not bad if you think about it that way, right?Although she will still care about Hagiwara Kenji's thoughts, and ah, she will always be grateful to him.

In that case—as long as this kind of life can be maintained forever.

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