Bao Yang, understand?

At 3 o'clock in the morning, Shen Fu cleaned the box he was in charge of.

Shi Ji and Yan Yiyin didn't know when they left. When they left, they didn't play a song, and didn't drink any water from their cups.Shen Fu remembered what Shi Ji said today, and his face blushed again.

He did know that some celebrities would bring their rich and beautiful fans here for drinks and parties, and even have some other relationships beyond fans and idols.It's just that he doesn't understand why Shi Ji has his eyes on him, and would say something like "support" to himself.

He used to think that an aloof person like Shi Ji must be different from those sensual stars.It seems that everyone is human and will have such and such needs.Although Shen Fu felt that the idol filter was a bit broken, fortunately, he also clearly understood that his favorite Shi Ji was just that shining star on the stage. As for his private life, as long as he did not violate the law, he was blameless.

Shen Fu even thought a little bit self-deprecatingly, this is another kind of "two-way running".

Shen Fu thought that life was difficult, but he didn't want to sink so quickly.

But it's not sure, he seems to be standing on the edge of a cliff now, if there is such a day, just one push, he may fall into the abyss at any time.

soberly fallen...

Shen Fu murmured these words.

When Shen Fu was distracted, the boss came over with a serious face and said he wanted to have a chat with Shen Fu.

Seeing his expression, Shen Fu's heart skipped a beat, there must be nothing good.

"Why didn't you stay and work overtime the other night?"

This is because Shen Fu asked for leave to go to Shi Ji's concert a few days ago.As soon as Shen Fu mentioned this, he still felt angry: "I want to watch the concert, I told you in advance before."

"What concert are you watching! You young people don't know how to work hard, but you know how to deal with these stupid things! Let me tell you, you left work early, and according to our previous contract, you will be deducted 200 bucks."

"But it was my off-duty time! I just didn't work overtime, you—"

"Then you haven't finished the work at hand. You are the boss and I am the boss! If you don't want to do it, get out! Don't force me here! There are a lot of people with two legs now!"

Shen Fu lowered his head and clenched his fist for a long time, but he didn't know what to say, so he could only swallow his breath.

Yes, there are many people with two legs now, college students who can recruit part-time jobs if they can’t recruit employees.

Fortunately, the manager didn't care too much, and left the deducted money on the account.With a sullen head, Shen Fu cleaned up the box, and went home with his bag on his back.

On the way, he put on the earphones bought at a convenience store for 10 yuan, and walked home listening to Shi Ji's singing.

There was no star or moon at night, and the hazy and impure black ruled the entire sky.

When he walked to the gate of the community, Shen Fu sighed. He planned to wear three layers of clothes when he went to bed tonight, so as to keep warm and protect his roommates.

When he was renting a house, he only cared about the cheapness. He thought that the so-called university dormitory had several people living in one room, so he didn't think much about it, and rented the same room with different beds.

I was thinking about what would happen to the two big men, but I didn't expect that my roommate often drank outside, and when he came back from drinking too much, he would touch himself.

Once when Shen Fu woke up at night and saw the other party taking off his clothes and sleeping in his bed, he was so frightened that he ran to squat in the corridor of the apartment all night.

He had nowhere to go, he was cold and hungry, and he wanted to find someone to complain about and talk about the tiredness of life recently.But he also knew that in this unfamiliar city, it was meaningless to complain. The experience that anyone shared could be compared to the whole night.What's more, the eternal listeners, the so-called parents, are just dispensable to Shen Fu.

Shen Fu pretended not to notice anything, but his behavior of swallowing his anger did not get his roommate's understanding, and the other party's verbal harassment towards him intensified.He often said in different ways that he was younger than a woman, or asked himself how much he paid for a night.

Shen Fu also thought about leaving, but he was penniless, so he couldn't really sleep on the street.He had asked roommates in other rooms for help, but everyone only cared about their own one-acre land and didn't want to offend others at all. They would just put a lock on their own door behind their backs, and then persuade Shen Fu to stop making trouble. Not to mention the police, if the police come and find that the house is partitioned and there are so many people living there, everyone will be driven away for fire safety reasons.

Dazedly, he walked downstairs to the unit building, checked the door control, but Shen Fu didn't have any joy of going home.

Rather, he never had any longing for the word home.

The childhood home is a gathering place for arguments, insults, and beatings.

Today's home is full of indifferent people and dangerous criminals.

He has nowhere to go.

Days will always get better.

Shen Fu took a breath.

This is always the case in fairy tales and those inspirational chicken soup.

Stepping into the elevator is like walking into a cage made of steel.

He once had a dream. In the dream, he was the little prince whom everyone admired.

His father is strict but gentle, and his mother is strong but confused.

They will love themselves very much, and every time they smile, it seems to be kissing their forehead.

He no longer has to suffer ignorance, no fear of loneliness, no more hunger.

It's a pity that Shen Fu would always wake up because his pillow was wet with tears.

If possible, he really wanted to drown in the dream.

Open the door and the hallway is dark.

This is not to say that no one is at home, but that the roommates who share the rent never turn on the lights in the corridor in order to save this little electricity bill.

Shen Fu held the doorknob of the bedroom, took a deep breath and opened the door.

Before he could react, he was hugged by his roommate.

"Where did you go, did you hook up with wild men outside?"

"roll!"

The roommate exuded a strong smell of alcohol, which gave Shen Fu a headache.

"What are you pretending to be! Aren't you short of money? I'll give you three hundred and you stay with me for one night."

"Go away, let me go!"

"Let go, let me cuddle for a while, why have you lost weight recently?"

Shen Fu didn't know where the strength came from, he pushed his roommate away and rushed out the door.

The sadness and unwillingness during this period came to my heart, and Shen Fu pressed the elevator button violently to escape from here.

He fled outside the community.

black sky.

Dim street lights.

Like a head hanging from an iron cage.

In a quiet world, a deep snow is about to fall.

Looking back, the elevator stopped on the first floor, and there was no sign of the roommate chasing him.

Breaking free from his anger and shame, Shen Fu plunged headlong into the night, which was so quiet that his breathing was noisy.

He doesn't know where to go?

Friends all have their own families, so asking for help will definitely trouble others. In this expensive city, staying in a hotel for one night is at least 200 yuan, but he has just been fined 200 yuan.

It was the desperation created by the countless 200 yuan piled up, which almost made him unable to breathe and walk on the street with a straight body.

It's snowing in the sky.

Whenever he thought his situation was miserable enough, fate would tell him that it could be even worse.

Bouncing back, but Shen Fu always wondered if there would be an endless abyss, and then there would be no hope of rebounding.

The weather was getting colder and colder, and I was wearing a down jacket I bought many years ago. After all, poor quality clothes could not resist the overwhelming cold and sadness.

As if holding the last glimmer of hope, he dialed the number at home.In the sound of sizzling electricity, he prayed for care and love, and prayed "Are you okay?".

But after the call got through, it was a sharp female voice: "What the hell are you calling in the middle of the night? Why did I raise you as a debt collector?"

Before Shen Fu could speak, an electronic beep sounded from the phone.

That mechanical and indifferent voice seemed to strike a rhythm in the dark night.

Every beat says: no one loves him.

And no one rescued him from the abyss.

In his life, he seemed to be wrapped in poverty and loneliness, falling continuously into the black abyss.

In fact, he had long been pickled to numbness.

He suddenly wanted a warm embrace, he really wanted to have a small but warm home, he really wanted someone to hug him and help him bear all the pain in his body, he really wanted someone to tell him "don't cry, you still have I".

It's just that he has always walked alone in this world.

Shen Fu ran out of the gate of the community by himself, leaned against the half-dead tree at the gate, and coughed hard several times.

He didn't know where to go, or to go somewhere darker.

Running too hard and inhaling the cold wind caused a sore throat, Shen Fu leaned against the tree and gasped for breath.

"Do you want paper?"

A stack of tissues was delivered to Shen Fu, he took the paper and looked up, an unexpected person appeared in front of him——

It's time.

The warm street lamps and snow outline his gentle silhouette.

He stands in the light.

"you--"

He stepped forward and stood in front of Shen Fu, using his tall body to shield Shen Fu from the cold wind from the northwest.

Shen Fu wiped the tears off his face, embarrassed and at a loss: "Thank you."

"What happened?"

Shen Fu was not ready to confide in his idol, but just asked why Shi Ji was nearby.

"I—" Shi Ji's eyes were a little flustered, "I just happened to pass by."

He couldn't say that he followed Shen Fu all the way and stood in the cold wind for a long time?

This kind of lie is self-defeating, but Shen Fu is now emotional, but he doesn't notice it.

"It's cold, you should go home quickly."

Shi Ji didn't know what happened to Shen Fu and reminded him to go back quickly.

"I don't want to go back!" Shen Fu recalled the disgust of his roommate hugging him, and quickly shook his head, "I don't want to go back."

Shi Ji frowned, he seemed to realize that Shen Fu had experienced some bad things just now.

"Tonight, you said you were willing to keep me?" Shen Fu stretched out his hand and carefully grabbed Shi Ji's clothes, "Is it true?"

"Can you take me?"

"Can you give me a place to live? I don't want money, I can support myself, I just need a place to live, I will be very obedient, cook for you, clean the house for you, I—"

I can do anything, as long as you take me to a place where I can stay this night.

Don't make me feel like I'm a kid who's been forgotten by everyone.

Shen Fu was a little bit speechless, with tears on his face, he was really embarrassed to show such a embarrassed side in front of his idol.

But he really hopes that Shi Ji can take him away from here, even if he is taken care of as a lover, even if he endures Shi Ji abandoning himself one day, such a choice is easier than death.

But what he didn't expect was that Shi Ji grabbed his arm and dragged him into his car.

The warm air in the car was turned on very loudly, just now Shen Fu was a little numb from the cold when he was standing outside, but now he was exposed to the heating, his tender eye sockets were sore again.

"Put on your seat belt, you go to sleep first," Shi Ji also got into the car, he untied his scarf and wrapped it around Shen Fu's neck, then helped him to fasten his seat belt, closed the car door, the little The space suddenly made people feel a little relieved, "I will call you when you get to the place, is it warm enough, and if it is not enough, I will turn the temperature higher for you."

"No, no, I—"

Shen Fu was a little speechless, this was the first time in his own memory that he was cared for so carefully.

"Then go to sleep, don't worry, everything will be fine."

He reached out and patted Shen Fu's head, the chill hidden in his hair was aroused, and finally swallowed by the warm atmosphere in the car.

Shen Fu fell into the abyss of sweetness, where the warmth was bottomless.

Shen Fu is 20 years old this year.

In the dull and gloomy life with no light in the past, Shi Ji was like a knife, breaking through the gloomy shell and driving away all the haze in his life.

In the long dark night, he is like a god, coming in light.