Boss Su is so pretentious

"Miss Zhou, long time no see."

If other people greeted like this, Zhou Xiaohan would probably not want to pay attention, but the person who greeted was Qian Xiyang, so this kind of polite words carried a lot of sincerity in it.

So the woman with a gentle appearance nodded and said jokingly, "Uncle Qian, long time no see."

Qian Xiyang: "..."

He didn't want to talk, he picked up the coffee and took a sip, although it was extremely bitter, it dispelled a bit of the chill.

In a small city like theirs, there are not many places to go shopping. It’s freezing outside. It’s better to soak in a coffee shop. It’s different from the fast-paced life in Kyoto. Everything here is very slow, and pedestrians walk very slowly. , The car is also slow, and the coffee is also slow.

After all, there is no place to go, and spending the morning here is considered leisurely.

The two Beijing drifters were chatting about the burdens that life put on them, complaining about their boss, work, and colleagues, and talking about the rented house in Kyoto. Zhou Xiaohan asked him: "Being a celebrity makes a lot of money, do you want to make money?" Buy a house of your own."

Qian Xiyang shook his head: "I can only buy a house in the suburbs. I can't afford it in the urban area, and the suburbs are far away from the company. My savings of more than 30 years can buy a toilet in the first ring road."

Zhou Xiaohan smiled: "I'm better than you, I bought a loft not far from the city center."

Qian Xiyang raised his eyebrows: "Yo, rich woman, you're hiding something."

Zhou Xiaohan looked at him with a smile, and said with a pun: "How about it, do you still want to work hard?"

Qian Xiyang understood what she meant, and the rich woman stretched out her leg to him and asked him if he wanted to be raised by her.

Qian Xiyang didn't speak for a while, and quietly looked at the woman beside him while drinking coffee.

Her appearance is undisputedly excellent, which is the temperament of a mature sister, and the gentleness that has accumulated over the years has a strong charm. She is knowledgeable, understands etiquette, and is an extremely outstanding woman.Mature, virtuous, and intellectual, she has all of Qian Xiyang's favorite looks.

This person, Qian Xiyang, who had nothing in the past, did not choose to climb high, nor would he now.

However, he asked, "May I touch your hand?"

Zhou Xiaohan froze for a moment, nodded, put his hand on the table a little awkwardly, and moved towards the other party.Qian Xiyang's palms are soft and generous, while Zhou Xiaohan's palms are long and delicate.

Qian Xiyang only touched her for a moment, and then left.His voice was light and ethereal, but extraordinarily firm.

"I thought, I like men."

Facing Zhou Xiaohan, he did not hide.

"I'm sorry, but I can't hug a rich woman's legs."

He said, "I'm sorry for taking up half a day of your time."

He stood up and bowed to the opposite side. He thought, when he touched her hand, he thought of Su Jiashang. He wondered if Su Jiashang would be unhappy because of this. Even if they separated, Qian Xiyang would inevitably Think of that narrow-minded and childish man.

In addition to that deceptive face on Su Jiashang, there is also the cold personality he pretended to be.His whole person does not match Qian Xiyang's ideal type at all. He is childish and jealous, clingy and willful, even ruthless, and likes to say some scumbag quotes from time to time.

He is still a waste of housework, he can't do anything, and he doesn't live like a person who can accompany Qian Xiyang.

But at this moment, he clearly realized, just like what he said when he coaxed Su Jiashang before: [I like you no matter what you become, because you are Su Jiashang. 】

Thinking about it now, this sentence was actually his sincere words.

Su Jiashang runs counter to Qian Xiyang's view on mate selection, but his existence itself has become Qian Xiyang's new view on mate selection. Su Jiashang has a lot of problems. He is violent, narcissistic, and loves to make up his mind. There are flaws all over his body, but he is Su Jiashang, so he is fine no matter what, Qian Xiyang likes it no matter what.

Love is something that comes late and doesn't make sense.

It broke all of Qian Xiyang's plans and forced him to look directly at himself.

Facing Zhou Xiaohan's surprised eyes, Qian Xiyang rubbed his dry eyes, and said in a tired tone, "I didn't want to get married before, I always felt that I wasn't ready for it, now that I think about it, it's just an excuse, my mother The marriage was not happy, and she and my father broke up and divorced very early."

"Deep in my heart, I resist marriage. I have some Oedipus plots. I like mature and intellectual women, preferably older than me. I have always thought this way. I also think that marriage is the grave of love. How good it is In the end, the relationship will turn sour into worry, and after separation, you can't wait to eat each other's flesh."

"I don't like this and I don't want this."

"I always maintain a three-point rationality in my relationship. Before I realize that it has deteriorated, I leave first. I think nothing will happen like this. At least that's what I did before."

Qian Xiyang raised his eyes, and met Zhou Xiaohan's sincere eyes: "Now I find that these are some of the reasons why I resist marriage, and an important part is that I am a homosexual."

"I resist the marriage of men and women, I don't want to go on a blind date, and I just want to live alone. There is a certain reason because I am an unawakened closet gay, so when my family forced me to fall in love with a woman, I instinctively chose to escape. Later, I Don't like women at all."

"I was with a girl in college, and the loss she brought me when we broke up was no more than half of the loss that I might never see Bai Yueguang again."

"I'm about to turn 32, and I finally understand that I'm gay, and I reconcile with myself. I accept who I am. I accept everything that this identity will bring me."

After Qian Xiyang finished speaking, Zhou Xiaohan asked him after a while, "Does Auntie know?"

Qian Xiyang closed his eyes: "She will know soon."

The warm sun in the afternoon melted part of the snow, and the unique heating in the north made the room extremely hot. The snow melted faster in places a little closer to the residential buildings.

I don't know if this includes the snow on people's hearts.

"This unfilial son! I don't have a son like you!" Looking at Qian Xiyang, who was kneeling on the ground, who was silent, Qian Shupei slapped him again, "Homosexuality is a pervert! Do you know that! If you look like this decades ago, you would have been pissed!"

Just now, when her son came home, before she had time to ask about the result of the blind date, her son knelt on the ground and said that he liked men and was gay.

Although there were many speculations before, Qian Shupei still couldn't accept the moment her son told the truth, and she was on the verge of emotional breakdown.

She slapped Qian Xiyang's face again and again, and asked him crying, "Are you wrong? Talk! Say you're wrong!"

She became more and more excited. She knelt down opposite Qian Xiyang and kowtowed to Qian Xiyang: "Please, can I be wrong? Mom admits my mistake, so can you too?"

Qian Xiyang knelt there, silent like a mountain, his tears flowed down his red and swollen cheeks, he looked at the crazy mother with a pitiful expression, his heart was getting more and more snowy, he asked calmly: "How do you do this?" , It's useless, I like men, it's not something I can choose."

"You are always like this, retreating to advance, forcing your child to make a choice that suits your wishes. You always say that I am selfish if I don't do what you say."

"I don't care about my feelings and do what you say, aren't you selfish?"

Qian Xiyang's calm words gradually turned up the volume, and he said angrily with red eyes: "Aren't you selfish! What are you afraid of! Are you afraid of your son's unhappiness! Or are you afraid of gossip from neighbors! You don't care about them What to do! Can they live in my place!"

"He kept saying it was for my own good! He said that life without children would be incomplete! Could it be that the meaning of my existence lies in life!"

"Son, heh, what's the use of a child!" Qian Xiyang laughed sadly, "You and my father haven't really gone through divorce procedures yet, have you? We've been separated for decades, what are you procrastinating for?" Woolen cloth?"

"Every time I persuade you to divorce, you always say that it's for my own good that I can't leave. You say Xiyang, my life is all on you."

"I grew up, and after graduating from college, you said that you have lived for me all your life. The neighbors said that your blind date would not like single-parent families. You are almost [-]. For me, you will not divorce. "

"Hahahaha," Qian Xiyang laughed until tears came out, "You always say that it is for my own good, that your life is for your children, hahaha, do you know that your children will not be able to live anymore! He I can't live in your expectation!"

He stood up staggeringly, trying to help his mother on the ground, but she slapped his hand away heavily. He slowly withdrew his hand, stood up straight, and said, "I'm inferior and cowardly, and I can't live without you." This day-to-day careful teaching, your desire to control is too strong, have you ever thought that I am also a living person, I have thoughts, and I also have my own soul and preferences?"

"I don't want to be my mother's good baby anymore. I want to be myself. I am Qian Xiyang, followed by your son. Everyone has only one life. For the rest of the time, we don't care about other people's opinions. Don't live for the identity of son or mother, just for yourself, can't you?"

He said: "Mom, think about it carefully, and I will calm down too."

After finishing speaking, he turned around and walked towards the iron gate. Qian Shupei shouted heartbreakingly behind him: "What are you doing-!"

Qian Xiyang turned his head and showed a sad smile: "I'm going out for a walk to see the sea."

After he closed the door, he could hear the crying inside the house. His soul didn't know where he went or what he did, but his physical habit was still there, and his feet moved forward instinctively, sending him to the seaside.

Qian Xiyang stood there looking at the tranquil sea for a long time, until the sun set and the moon rose from the sea, he walked towards home with his numb legs.

He knocked on the door, and it was Qian Shupei who opened the door. Her eyes were red and swollen. hot."

That night, Qian Xiyang entered his mother's room with the quilt in his arms, and got into her arms. It seemed that decades had passed, and it seemed that it had only been a few days. He was still a young child, and his mother immediately Patting him on the back again and again, coaxing him to sleep.

He knew that the two of them reconciled.with the world.with each other.

"Son, you just want to be happy."

Qian Xiyang shook his throat, whimpering like a child in his mother's arms.

The author says:

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