Manhattanhenge

The urban area of ​​Reykjavik is very small, and the two of them held hands, walked and stopped, and walked around in a day.

There are all kinds of souvenir shops and bookstores here and there, Su Hui thought in his heart, if it was a manic period, he might spend a lot of unnecessary expenses in these places, for example, there are more than a dozen series of books about sea creatures here. Books, or handmade sweaters, everyone here seems to be good at knitting.

Su Hui looked at the aunt who was knitting a sweater at the door of the store, and also had the idea of ​​knitting a pair of gloves for Ning Yixiao, but he felt that he was clumsy, and there was a high probability that he would not be able to learn it in a short time.

It is better to go back and learn from the videos on the Internet, so as not to trouble others.

Back in the dining area of ​​the hotel, they sat by the window and were the quietest guests in the entire restaurant.

Ning Yixiao ordered lamb chops and salmon for him, but Su Hui didn't have much appetite, and he hardly touched the main course. He only ate some side dishes and a small half piece of chocolate cake.

Some negative images began to appear in his mind again, his eyes stayed on the gorgeous twilight outside the window, the berry-colored sunlight fell on the colorful eaves, and scattered on the blue sea in the distance, but Su Hui did not feel happy because of it. point.

For many moments, Su Hui felt that a whole mountain collapsed in his body, but his surface was as calm as the sea.

In a daze, a young man with an Asian face walked towards them and asked tentatively, "Are you also Chinese?"

Su Hui was a little wary of approaching strangers.

Ning Yixiao nodded, "Yes."

"Great!" The other party looked very happy, "Can I ask you a favor? A little trouble."

He explained that his mobile phone was out of battery and could not contact other companions. He didn't know if they had arrived at the hotel, and wanted to borrow his mobile phone to make a call.

Ning Yixiao agreed, and returned it shortly afterwards, "Thank you so much, they are almost here."

"You're welcome."

After a while, there was another group of tourists in the hall. Among them were all different races. It felt like they were friends from all over the world. The big team joined the man just now and started a lively conversation.

Ning Yixiao and Su Hui finished their meal and planned to go back, but that person just came to invite them, asking if they would like to hike and climb the glacier together.

"It's safer if there are more people. I just told them that I didn't expect to meet my compatriots here. It's really a coincidence! I thought that those who came to Iceland also wanted to go hiking around the island. Some tour groups are very tricky and travel by themselves. It's also a bit dangerous, if you want, you can follow us, we have a few very experienced hiking friends, everyone can take care of each other."

Ning Yixiao was a little hesitant. He wasn't sure if Su Hui would like to get along with other people. After all, he was very sensitive at this period, so when he heard the other party's invitation, Ning Yixiao first looked at Su Hui.

But Su Hui said in a low voice, "Then...can we stop driving?"

Only then did Ning Yixiao realize that he was worried about herself, and holding his hand, said softly, "Do you want to go with everyone?"

Su Hui glanced at the people over there, they all looked enthusiastic, it seemed safer to hike with them, and Ning Yixiao would not be too bored.

So he nodded.

Seeing him like this, Ning Yixiao also agreed to the other party's invitation, "Then thank you all."

"It's okay, I'm away from home." The other party gave his contact information with a smile, "You can call me Xiao Wang."

Ning Yixiao also exchanged contact information, "Ning Yixiao, this is my boyfriend Su Hui."

Su Hui didn't expect him to be so direct, and he was not used to it. Obviously, Xiao Wang was too. He paused, glanced at the two of them, and then smiled.

"No wonder, you guys match so well, I just saw them from afar and thought they were two celebrities!"

His tone was sincere, and the compliments he said were not flattering, but rather simple.

Hearing this, Su Hui glanced at Ning Yixiao, and under his encouraging eyes, responded to Xiao Wang's compliment, "...Thank you."

The hiking plan of Xiao Wang and his party is not tight, they only go to one place a day, and there are better places where they can stay and camp, sit and chat together, even if Su Hui sleeps in the tent, no one will disturb him. It made him relax a bit.

He likes Iceland very much. Now the days here are very long. Even if his day and night are upside down and his work and rest are disordered, it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter even if he sleeps during the day and suffers from insomnia at night.

They took the bus and came to the black sand beach on the fifth day.The wind is strong here, the waves are white, and the sand is deep black.

Su Hui squatted down, grabbed a handful in his hand, raised his head and asked Ning Yixiao, "Why is it black?"

Ning Yixiao also squatted down next to him, "Because these are volcanic lava particles, not sand."

Su Hui nodded and asked softly, "Have you been here last time?"

Ning Yixiao said, "I drove by, but I didn't get down."

"Why?" Su Hui rested her head on Ning Yixiao.He was wearing a white jacket, like a white dove nestled beside Ning Yixiao.

Ning Yixiao's reason was simple, "It looks too lonely here."

At that time, he parked the car on the side of the coastal road, got out of the car and took a look from afar, thinking that this should be a place that Su Hui would like, but he was not there.

So Ning Yixiao couldn't take a single step, and even felt that his breathing was stagnant and he couldn't move.

But now it's different.

Su Hui reached into Ning Yixiao's coat pocket and held his hand.

"It's like the end of the world here."

Ning Yixiao smiled, lowered his head and kissed Su Hui's hair, "Then we have walked to the end of the world together."

Su Hui raised her head with pure eyes, "Yes."

The accompanying troops stood not far away, shouting to them, "One night, Xiao Su, come and see!"

Ning Yixiao responded, "Here we come." Then he pulled Su Hui up and called him after others, "Xiao Su."

Su Hui left Heisha, thinking, this person really likes to call him all kinds of names, he can build a library.

"puppy."

When Ning Yixiao heard it, she thought she had heard it wrong, "What did you call me?"

Su Hui shook her head, pretending that she hadn't spoken.

But Ning Yixiao was not reluctant, and even reached out to touch his sensitive waist, "Say it quickly."

Su Hui was so tormented by him that he couldn't help it. He tried to escape but was grabbed back and hugged him. He had no choice but to admit, "It's... a puppy."

Ning Yixiao pinched his waist, "Is it because I called you a kitten and you retaliated against me like this?"

Su Hui retorted softly, "That's not true."

"what is that?"

Su Hui didn't say anything, but Ning didn't give up all night, and replied after being bored for a long time, "Because I like you."

Only then was Ning Yixiao satisfied, "Then I reluctantly accept it."

The two followed the pace of the large army and saw the wreckage of the plane left on the black sand beach. A person in the team said that the wreckage was a U.S. Navy plane in 1973. It was forced to land here after an accident. It was a miracle that all the members of the plane survived the wreckage.

The word miracle is full of hope.

Su Hui stared at it from a distance, and squeezed Ning Yixiao's hand tightly.

Their separation seems to be like a crashed plane. If they are not careful, they will be cut off forever. However, after six years, they can still meet safely and fall in love again. It is also a miracle.

They have all survived the impasse in the past.

When everyone else was taking pictures, Su Hui squatted down alone and wrote the names of himself and Ning Yixiao on the black sand with his fingers. He wanted to draw a big heart, but he thought it would be ugly. Simply give up.

Just about to erase it, Ning Yixiao also squatted down and stretched out her finger.

Su Hui held his index finger, "Dirty."

"It's okay." Ning Yixiao wrote [Kitten] and [Puppy] under the name he wrote.

The two names, which were originally lonely, became more lively with the addition of two words.

Su Hui couldn't help suggesting, "Let's write our real puppy too."

As he spoke, he wrote [ice cream] in the center of the bottom row.

"It feels a bit crowded after adding it." Ning Yixiao commented.

Su Hui unexpectedly discovered a surprise, "I suddenly discovered that the acronyms for puppy and ice cream are the same."

Ning Yixiao said it silently in his heart, it was true.

"What about Icelandic ice cream? It's the same as what?" This is how he named the ice cream in the first place.

Su Hui paused, thought for a moment quietly, and then looked at him.

"Stupid puppy."

Ning Yixiao smiled, smiling like an adolescent boy, very rare.

Seeing him smile, Su Hui felt a little sweetness in her heart.

The longer you stay in Iceland, the longer time itself is stretched.

Ning Yixiao didn't mention when to go back, and Su Hui didn't ask either, greedily wasting time on hugging, kissing and walking hand in hand, leaving their traces at the end of the world.

Ning Yixiao also didn't mention the glacier that he promised to go together, but in the plan of other people traveling with him, that glacier was naturally put on the agenda.

The journey was long, and it took a long time for them to finally reach their destination. Su Hui's thoughts were chaotic, and when she got off the car, she was even a little confused, not knowing where she was.

But soon they put on thick clothes, gloves and hats, and got on off-road vehicles one after another. In the violently shaking field of vision, the clear blue glacier broke in without warning.

Su Hui's mood fluctuated, and she held Ning Yixiao's hand tightly, pointing out the window.

"Yeah." Ning Yixiao leaned against his ear, "Sweena Mountain Glacier."

Both of them were wrapped up thickly, squeezed into the back seat of the off-road vehicle, full of security, just like Su Hui's heart at this moment, there is no gap.After getting out of the car, they took their equipment and slowly followed the others to a flat snow field to put on crampons.Su Hui wasn't very good at it, and watched others learn, but Ning Yixiao quickly got his own, and leaned down to help Su Hui wear it.

"Did you climb the glacier last time, didn't it go well?" Su Hui asked in a low voice, thinking of the letter Ning Yixiao had given him later.

Ning Yixiao dressed him up, got up and held his hand, "It's cold, I didn't wear enough clothes to keep me warm, and I fell down due to lack of energy, but fortunately, someone helped me up. So this place is really not suitable for me. .”

Su Hui was very sad and stayed close to Ning Yixiao.

"We'll be together wherever we go from now on, okay?"

"of course."

Appreciating the scenery here with the naked eye is not similar to what you see in the movie. Although it is a desolate ice and snow territory, the glaciers here are crystal clear ice blue, without decoration, like huge gemstones that accumulate and overlap. Shining brightly, the beauty is dazzling.

They went deep into it and walked hard on the glacier.Su Hui originally thought that with his current state, even if he saw this, it would be difficult to arouse enthusiasm, and it would only waste the beautiful scenery.

But really immersed in this glazed world, he seems to have really regained the innocence when he expressed his wish six years ago, and it is rare to feel the fulfillment of his dream come true.

Ning Yixiao was holding his hand all the time, holding his mobile phone in the other hand, and seemed to have turned on the GPS map, as if walking in a certain direction purposefully, and gradually separated from the main force.

Su Hui was relatively slow, and didn't notice anything unusual, but followed carefully every step of the way, trying not to cause trouble for him.

Until they came to a slit, two towering blue glaciers sandwiched a cramped space, with endless glaciers on the back and vast snowfields on the front, like a paradise.

Ning Yixiao stopped in his tracks, looked at the overlapping marks on the electronic map, and said softly, "This is it."

Su Hui heard it and looked up at him, "What?"

Ning Yixiao shook his head, turned off the map in the phone, opened the photo album, and passed the phone over, "Su Hui, please help me take a video, to commemorate it."

Su Hui doubted whether he could do a good job, but still nodded, took the phone, and was about to ask him how he wanted to shoot, but found that the screen of the phone was playing a video, and the scene in the screen was exactly the same as now, all blue The glacier is a little shaky, and it looks like it was shot while walking.

The photographer didn't say anything, just walked silently, but Su Hui vaguely heard a slightly heavy breathing, very similar to Ning Yixiao's voice.

Knowing that she had a task to do, Su Hui couldn't help but read on.

[Just here, make a mark, it will be easier to find next time. ]

It was him.

Su Hui's breathing was stagnant, and his brows could not help but frown.

The camera in the video flipped to meet Ning Yixiao's face. He was wearing a thin black jacket, his nose was red from the cold, and his eye circles were also red.

[Mistake. ]

As he muttered to himself, the camera flipped back again, only his legs and the blue glacier were in the shot, and the picture shook because he freed up a hand and bit off the glove with his teeth.

The slender left hand was exposed, but he didn't make any further steps, it just stayed in the wind for a moment.

His fingers trembled a little.

[it's too cold……]

Su Hui suddenly thought of what he had said in the past, and understood the meaning of staying for more than ten seconds.

Ning Yixiao murmured to himself in a low voice, retracted his hand, and put on the gloves again.

His breathing was heavy, like a sigh, and his voice trembled unconsciously.

[His hands will freeze. ]

[Move faster...]

Tears dripped on the screen and the video stopped. Su Hui only felt heartache and couldn't breathe, but he reached out with a hand and gently wiped away his tears.

In the violent wind, Ning Yixiao's voice was gloomy and possessed a calming magic power.

"This was recorded when I was hiking here six years ago. At that time, I thought this location was good, so I marked it first and tried it out."

"At that time, I heard from passers-by that because of global warming, the glaciers here will melt and disappear in a few decades. Fortunately, at least now, the place I marked is still here."

He took a step closer and took out the gift he had prepared. Six years ago, it was just a rough drawing, but six years later it turned into a small velvet box.

"Su Hui, the real world has no chance to restart and recycle. We are in the only time unit. This unit may be 50 years, or 40 years, or 30 years. No one can be sure. The glaciers will melt little by little. It may disappear completely, and if we haven't met by then, the wish will never come true."

Fortunately, we reunited in each other's lives just in time.

"Time won't stop for anyone. I can't afford to miss one more time. No matter what happens, I will never let go of your hand. You must be by my side."

Standing in front of Su Hui, Ning Yixiao opened the small box and took out the platinum rings inside. The main stones of the two rings were specially cut marquise-shaped blue diamonds, just like the blue glacier at this moment. Dazzling.

"I ordered this with the first money I earned a few years ago."

Su Hui's eyes were full of tears, looking at everything in front of her like a dream, as if she was in a hallucination.He was very touched, but he couldn't help feeling the pain. This is such an important step in life, but he was nothing, surrounded by negativity, controlled by the disease, and it was extremely difficult to dispel the rotten thoughts and phantoms in his mind.

To spend a lifetime with someone like him, the pain may be greater than the joy.

He even started to be afraid of hearing Ning Yixiao speak, all the gloomy future that he might have created turned into hideous scenes, all stuffed into his mind, trying to drag him into the abyss of loneliness.

"But I... I am now..." Su Hui broke down in tears, and could hardly utter a complete sentence.

Ning Yixiao touched his forehead with a gentle voice, "Little cat, I'll give you the initiative." He put both rings in Su Hui's palm.

"If you think the timing is wrong and want to refuse, then this pair of rings is at your disposal. If you accept it, you can wear it on my hand."

Su Hui held the ring tightly, it was so small and hard, the tighter he held it, the more real their existence became.

The wind was so strong that it was about to overturn everything. Ning Yixiao was very patient and did not urge him. He just used his body to block the wind for him, and also tugged the brim of the woolen hat for him, and said in a low voice, "Don't cry anymore, don't cry anymore. Crying for a while will give you a headache."

When Su Hui heard this sentence, she cried even harder.

In the slow beating heart, there is a yearning and desire for beauty, like a ray of light entering the darkness, trying to squeeze out all negativity and negative emotions.

He is really bad, but he also really loves Ning Yixiao.

As if trying to escape from that mental hospital, Su Hui stepped out of the black room with madness, shutting all the voices of self-denial behind the door.

Panting, he spoke with difficulty, "Ning Yixiao..."

"Ok?"

"I..." Su Hui worked hard to speak fluently, "I have a mental illness, I am always capricious, I often hurt people around me, and I have hurt you too, and I am immature and unreliable , Sometimes I do impulsive things, and then regret it, and often I can’t do anything..."

He emptied himself of everything, raised his eyes, and looked at Ning Yixiao timidly.

"So... are you willing to be my husband?"

Ning Yixiao laughed.

"Su Hui, you are the most talented, empathetic, and beautiful person I have ever met in my life. You appeared at my darkest time and gave me happiness and hope for the future. You He is the one person I fell in love with at the first sight, and the only one, who cannot be replaced by anyone.”

"I am very willing to be your husband, and I am very eager to spend every day with you in the future."

He took off his gloves and stretched out his hand, "Put them on for me."

Su Hui wiped away her tears, fearing that he would be cold, and anxiously wanted to put it on for him, but the more anxious her hands became, the more she trembled, and she took several deep breaths before putting the ring on Ning Yixiao's ring finger.

After putting it on, he looked up at Ning Yixiao, "Is it cold?"

Ning Yixiao said with a smile, "Fortunately, summer doesn't seem to be that cold, it seems that we came at the right time."

As he spoke, he took off his gloves for Su Hui, and put the ring on his ring finger.

"Does it look good?"

Su Hui nodded, "It looks good."

Ning Yixiao looked at these glaciers, then looked down at Su Hui, "Little cat astronaut."

Su Hui was a little unfamiliar with this title, "...Huh?"

"I am a puppy astronaut. We have successfully landed on Dr. Mann's extremely cold planet, and the planned surface operations have also been successfully completed."

Su Hui was stunned for a moment, and it took two seconds for her to react.

The first job of the puppy astronaut and the kitten astronaut on the alien planet is to exchange each other's rings.

Ning Yixiao wanted to say another sentence, but Su Hui suddenly tiptoed and leaned up to kiss him lightly on the lips, which caught him off guard and forgot the next sentence.

"you……"

Su Hui rubbed the tip of her nose and whispered, "This is a celebration ceremony."

Ning Yixiao smiled, "Yes, the celebration ceremony."

He also bowed his head and kissed Su Hui, but this kiss was longer.

After a while, Ning Yixiao moved away a little and looked into Su Hui's eyes, "Little cat astronaut, should it be time to return to Earth?"

"Go back...what to do?" Su Hui blinked.

Ning Yixiao kissed his eyes that were red from crying, "Marriage registration."

The trip to Iceland is like a long and grand blue dream, full of silent warmth, miraculous beauty and regrets.

But Su Hui knew that he would come again, so even regrets turned into expectations.

It landed in New York on the afternoon of May 5, and the weather was exceptionally clear and cloudless.Su Hui and Ning Yixiao sat in the back seat of the car, holding hands. Along the way, he saw bands singing on the street, and classic British rock was blowing in the early summer wind.

The car drove into the crowded streets of Manhattan, and started to get stuck. Su Hui was a little dizzy as it went section by section. He leaned his head on Ning Yixiao's shoulder and whispered, "I'm a little motion sick."

"Let's go down for a walk."

Just like that, they dragged their hands into the crowded street, this scene was so familiar that Su Hui was in a daze for a second.As they walked, the people on the street stopped and stood in the middle of the road.

The huge buildings on both sides of the road are only silhouetted in the backlight. In this vertical gap, the rich orange is a little bit westward. Tilting, the twilight burns, the dust dances, and the light floods into every corner of the street in an instant , Embrace everyone equally.

Everyone is bathed in the generous twilight, drenched in happiness by the sunshine, and the chaotic, crowded city and hot but lackluster summer seem to be saved in an instant.

Su Hui also froze in place, his hair and his originally pale face were coated with a light layer of gold, looking soft and beautiful.

"It's Manhattan..." he muttered.

"Yeah." Ning Yixiao said with a smile in his voice, "What a coincidence, we met again."

His tone sounded as if what he met was not the hanging sun that he could only see twice a year, but an old friend, a witness of the love that was once engraved in their lives.

The hanging sun gradually moved to the highest point and began to tilt to the right. This process was so beautiful and seemed so short.

The setting sun reflected amber light in Su Hui's pupils, and the abundant sunlight fell on the blue diamond on his ring finger, dazzling and dazzling, like the miraculous intersection of glaciers and hanging sun.

The blue glacier will melt, but the hanging sun will reappear and be owned by the world again.

In the golden ocean, Ning Yixiao turned his head.

"Su Hui."

Su Hui looked over and met his silent enthusiasm. In Ning Yixiao's eyes, it seemed that there was a burning plane in the crash, a miracle that needed him to complete.

"If you are going to die in the next second, what is the most regrettable thing?"

The scenes are similar, but the questioning side is reversed.

Su Hui laughed.

He summoned up his courage, stood on tiptoe in the sea of ​​people, put his hands on the back of Ning Yixiao's neck, and kissed her.

As they backed away, the last rays of light scattered behind them and turned into a long afterglow.

Su Hui looked at Ning Yixiao with endless tenderness in his eyes.

"No regrets."

——End of text——

The author has something to say:

This is the end, there will be extra episodes later, and it will be updated daily, so I can't say goodbye to everyone (hhh)

In fact, this ending is a picture I conceived relatively early, so it is a great satisfaction to write it here smoothly. After all, the entire writing experience of this book is actually quite emotional. This may be the one I cried the most when I wrote it. A book (there is no one so far) Ning Yixiao and Su Hui are too difficult, and they are very emotional when writing the last chapter.

I put a lot of pen and ink into their reunion and the restoration of this relationship after their reunion (that is, Chapter N). In fact, I think the mirrors of the two people are not broken, but were taken away by fate. But because of this I have lost it for a long time, so after I got it back, I cherish it even more and take care of it in every possible way.

Bipolar is a very painful mental illness. I did not choose a fairy tale script of "true love saves everything". By the end of the main text, Su Hui's illness has not been cured, because the "end" here does not mean the end of their story. The end is just an ordinary time node.

In reality, many people suffer from bipolar affliction. Only through persistent drug treatment and psychological counseling, as well as the careful company of family and friends, can recovery be achieved, all of which are indispensable.The same is true for Su Hui. One day in the future, he will also be able to get rid of these diseases. That is the story of him and Ning Yixiao in the future.

Chapter N starts with Su Hui’s depressed period, so Chapter N also ends with Xiaohui’s depressed period, Chapter P starts with the manic period, Su Hui is also in the manic period at the end of chapter P, and the structure can be regarded as a certain A closed loop in a sense.At the beginning, after some struggles, I chose the interlude. In fact, part of the reason is that I think the interlude can better have the sense of substitution in the reading experience of jumping between mania and depression, and I can better understand the capriciousness and volatility of the character Su Hui. Although I know that interludes are actually very discouraging readers, I am very grateful to everyone for accompanying me to read this chapter. This book is really lucky to be read by everyone, and to have everyone's support and company.

More postscripts are still in accordance with my previous habits, and I will finish it after the end of the episode, thank you, and see you in the episode~