Manhattanhenge

Su Hui's running away from home was not a temporary intention. He wanted to escape a long time ago, but he didn't know where he could go.

His attitude towards life has always been evasive, and his resistance in the past was short-lived with little effect. At most, he wandered out for a night, and then returned home to be punished honestly. Only this time, Su Hui did not intend to go back.

Ning Yixiao gave him belonging and courage, allowing him to rebel without hesitation.

Even though he had been away from home for half a month, every time the lights were turned off and in the dark, Su Hui would still think of the quarrel that day, it was the biggest one in his memory, grandma was not there, grandpa said almost all the important things that could be said, Even my mother was involved.

[You have been pampered since you were a child, do you know that the power of the Ji family is not as good as before?I am old and have retired a long time ago. When I am away from home, others are just selling me this old face. Do you really think that I am still calling the wind and rain like before?

I will plan everything for you, with an old bone and a licking face, I will pick a well-established and promising girl for you, how about you?Just shake out all your illnesses, because you want the whole world to know that I have a crazy grandson?

A useless child like you can't support a family at all!I only hate that Ji Tailu didn't give birth to a son, and I have no successors! ]

Originally, Ji Yanan also had a headache because of Su Hui's hasty actions, but when he heard what his biological father said, he just felt chills.

When she went to college and chose to go into politics, Ji Tailu didn't support her at all, just because she was a girl.She chose a partner independently, against her father's wishes, and was also not recognized. Later, when her husband passed away, she took over the company left by her late husband, and was even described by Ji Tailu as not doing business properly.

The child born was obviously talented and intelligent, but it happened to have such an illness, which became a pain in her life.

She has never been praised by her father, and she is not even as highly regarded by him as her second husband.

Su Hui also found it ridiculous. He originally thought that this forced "blind date" was because Ji Tailu was worried about his life, and he wanted to trick someone into marrying a mental patient like him. He didn't expect that it was just for him to maintain the honor of his family. political marriage.

I can only blame Su Hui for being too naive. In fact, when my grandfather poured all his resources and contacts into Xu Zhi, he should know that family affection and blood relationship are not important to a person like him who values ​​reputation. A proud son-in-law.

So he told his grandfather very directly that if he had a choice, he would not want to be born in this family at all, nor would he want to be his grandson at all.

Su Hui is a soft person, this is almost the heaviest thing he uttered.

The details of these quarrels were engraved in his mind, but Su Hui didn't tell Ning Yixiao in detail. First, he felt that Ning Yixiao's work and study were very hard, and he didn't want to burden him any more. I plan to go back, and feel that these things that have happened cannot be changed and are no longer important.

The time spent with Ning Yixiao was almost the most relaxed part of Su Hui's life in the past 20 years.

He can embrace and fall asleep with the person he likes every day, work hard together for a certain future with him, and wake up together every day and say good morning to each other. This is a good thing that Su Hui in the past could not even imagine.

Ning Yixiao wakes up very early in the morning, makes some simple breakfast, and then washes up with Su Hui, and huddles in the small bathroom. Occasionally, the roommate next door will pass by, and the two who were originally intimacy will suddenly separate. Pretending to be immature, each washes his own.

They will squeeze the subway together, Ning Yixiao's arm is the safest barrier, Su Hui likes to stand face to face with him, watching Ning Yixiao smile.

Ning Yixiao would tilt his head and ask him in a low voice, "What are you laughing at?"

Su Hui stood on tiptoe, put it close to his ear and whispered, "Your shirt is not buttoned properly, you can see hickey marks."

Ning Yixiao buttoned the top button helplessly, and said to him only after leaving the subway, "Didn't I remind you last night not to put it in such an obvious place."

"What are you afraid of?" Su Hui was very indifferent, "Anyway, a fool like you knows that it is impossible to be single, just to block the love of a handsome guy."

Ning Yixiao only thinks that this is all his fallacy, "Others will only think that I am too energetic, and I still have time to do these things after working overtime every day."

Su Hui smiled, leaned over and whispered, "You are."

Friday night is their shopping day, and the nearby supermarkets will have discounts after [-]:[-], plus the Friday membership day, many things will be more cost-effective than before.

In fact, Ning Yixiao thinks that going to the supermarket is a waste of time. When he lives alone, he usually thinks about what he lacks in advance, and then buys it as quickly as possible, but Su Hui loves to go to the supermarket very much, as if the supermarket is his playground as an adult. field.

He likes picking fruits side by side with Ning Yixiao, or watching fish in the aquatic product area. He also likes to go to the grain and oil area, put his hands into the rice buckets containing various grains one by one, compare them, and tell Ning Yixiao which one is which. most comfortable.

"I like this jasmine rice better, and Northeast rice."

Ning Yixiao teased him, "You can write a note and paste it here."

"What are you doing writing notes?" Su Hui asked.

Ning Yixiao pursed his smile and said solemnly: "Remind those children who put their hands into the rice bucket, after all, you have done research, and you can let them directly find the two most comfortable types. It doesn't have to be so troublesome, just try one by one."

"Ning Yixiao, you are mocking me!"

Su Hui likes discounts, and loves to eat cheap children's steaks there.

Ning Yixiao thought, Su Hui might just be used to the good ones and wanted to eat something different.

But the novelty will always fade, and it is impossible for him to love cheap food all his life.

Ning Yixiao is a person who grew up being repeatedly beaten by reality, and even enjoys the happiness of being with Su Hui with great care, for fear that these things will be nothing but nothing.

Facts have proved that his life can never escape Murphy's law, the more he is afraid of something, the easier it is for something to happen.

These are indeed unreliable, it only takes one depression attack by Su Hui, and all the beautiful bubbles will be overturned.

During the previous period of depression, Su Hui hid at home, and Ning Yixiao could only contact him by phone, instead of facing the other side of his lover intuitively like now.

His vivid, excited, charming words and thoughts were all gone in an instant, and there was nothing but an empty shell that would not respond to him.

After Su Hui's depression broke out, Ning Yixiao took several days off and stayed at home to take care of him, but Su Hui's indifference was beyond his imagination. No matter what he said, Su Hui would not answer, and his eyes were empty. Looking at the wall, even if you kiss, there will be no response, and it will even make him cry.

The contrast was too great, and Ning Yixiao took a long time to digest it, and he had already gotten used to not telling his tiredness and negative emotions.

It's just that the company asked him to go back for an internship. Taking too much leave would affect his ability to issue an internship certificate later, and Su Hui was in a better state than when he first entered the depression period, so Ning Yixiao had to go back.

But he didn't expect that on the first day he returned to the company for an internship, his roommate Wang Cong called him urgently.

"Come back quickly! Su Hui is holding a fruit knife in the kitchen and wants to cut her wrist!"

Ning Yixiao's mind went blank, until he went back and saw Su Hui sitting paralyzed on the kitchen floor with a light bloodstain on the skin of his wrist, he couldn't understand what happened.

"Fortunately, I found it in time. It seems to be a skin trauma. Take him to the hospital quickly!"

What would happen if Wang Cong was one step later?Ning Yixiao didn't dare to think about it.

He took Su Hui to the hospital and accompanied him to the hospital for treatment, during which Su Hui didn't say a word, as if he didn't know himself.

The doctor told him to go out and told him about Su Hui's current situation, "The patient's medical history has been going on for a long time, and his bisexuality has a great impact on his emotions. Yu Qi's tendency to self-harm is very serious. Are you his friend?"

Ning Yixiao didn't want to admit the title, but it wasn't important, so he nodded.

"How's his manic state?"

"Every day is very happy." Ning Yixiao said truthfully.

The doctor listened and explained very seriously: "The patient's happy state does not necessarily come from the heart. His happiness is probably based on hypomania, abnormal metabolism of central neurotransmitters, or neuroendocrine function. Disorder, whether the happiness or excitement he shows is not a real emotion, but a pathological reaction. For example, a person in a hypomanic period is like being in love, hot-headed, feeling that everything It's all beautiful."

After hearing this, Ning Yixiao became a little silent.

"I see."

He couldn't think of what else to say for a while, and went back to the ward alone.Under the effect of the medicine, Su Hui had already fallen asleep. The multi-person ward was not quiet, and the lights were on. Ning Yixiao walked over, and as expected, Su Hui was still frowning when he was asleep.

He leaned over, gently rubbed Su Hui's frowning brows away with his fingers, tucked the quilt up for him, sat on the chair beside the hospital bed, and gently lifted the sleeves of Su Hui's hospital gown, and looked at it for a while The wound on his wrist was bandaged.

The injury was not serious, the nurse just wrapped him with a thin layer of gauze, but Ning Yixiao still felt very painful.

At a certain moment, the doctor's words echoed in his ears again, and a thought that he had never had before flashed through Ning Yixiao's mind.

Is all happiness fake?Are they all pathological reactions?

It was as if a protective mechanism had appeared in his brain, preventing him from thinking about deeper content, and Ning Yixiao had no choice but to go out as soon as his work phone was turned on.

He works in the corridor of the hospital with his notebook, stays up late to catch up on unfinished work, and takes care of Su Hui during the day.

This period of time reminded him of his memories of his high school entrance examination period. At that time, his mother was broken by her stepfather. The stepfather took the money she had saved so hard to go out to gamble and left her alone at home to die.

Even though the exam was approaching, Ning Yixiao still asked for leave, went back to take care of his injured mother, lit a fire and waited for the meal to be cooked, he sat in front of the stove to do the questions, and almost fell asleep from exhaustion.

His mother was very guilty, she ate and cried while eating, and urged him to go back to school, but Ning Yixiao didn’t say anything. He worked hard to get into the best high school in the local area, and promised that his mother would have a good life. day.

But even so, she still left herself and left, leaving nothing but her debts.

But Ning Yixiao always felt that this time would be different, Su Hui and his mother were also different, as long as he worked hard enough, they would have a good ending.

Things were indeed developing according to his plan. After getting through the most difficult stage of the depression period, Su Hui also got better little by little under the effect of the medicine, and his emotions were well controlled. He could even communicate with Ning Yixiao, but Not too long.

They were eating at the hospital that day, Ning Yixiao specially brought egg custard, Su Hui just took a bite, and suddenly put down the bowl in his hand.

"I'm sorry." He said to Ning Yixiao.

Ning Yixiao smiled, and touched Su Hui's face with his hand, "You didn't do anything wrong, don't apologize, you never need to say this to me."

Su Hui frowned, her eyes were red, "You are very tired, aren't you?"

Ning Yixiao shook his head, "When you get better, I will be fine, so you have to listen to the doctor and take your medicine obediently, okay?"

The most tormenting thing about bipolar disorder is that it often creates a false impression of "I'm recovered", because people who are deeply in the depression period will suddenly feel relaxed and their mood rises at an inconspicuous point of time At the highest point, it seems that "health" has really been restored.

Su Hui was like this, he suddenly turned into a manic phase, and returned to his happy self.When he chatted with the nurse and learned about the hospitalization fee, he was very determined to leave the hospital and return to He Ning Yixiao's small home.

Ning Yixiao didn't know all this yet. He was working in the company, and Su Hui went back secretly, wanting to prepare a surprise for him. When he got home, he met Wang Cong who was about to go out. The other party saw him as if he saw a ghost.

But Su Hui didn't pay attention, and bid him farewell enthusiastically.

On the way back, he bought flowers, and suddenly found that the refrigerator at home was empty, so he went downstairs, went to the bank to withdraw money by himself, and planned to go to the supermarket to buy a lot of things and come back.

But Su Hui suddenly discovered that her bank card was frozen, and her credit card was also prohibited from spending.

"We've checked, and it's because the primary cardholder has chosen to freeze the secondary card under his name, and we don't have the authority to unlock it for you, sorry."

Su Hui was not too surprised, after all, when he ran away from home, Ji Tailu made it very clear.

[Go out of this door, you will not be a member of Ji's family in the future, don't even think about coming back to be a young master! ]

He was not a fool, and when he packed his luggage, he also took a sum of money he secretly saved from under the bed, which was not a small amount, but in a place like Beijing, it wouldn't take too long.

When we left the bank, it was very windy outside.In Beijing in early November, half of the autumn has passed, and the weather is getting colder and colder. The brown and yellow fallen leaves are rolled up into the gray sky, and they float away from Su Hui alone.

He had little cash left on him, but because it was too cold, he subconsciously reached out to hail a taxi, but when the car stopped for him, Su Hui suddenly realized that he was no longer the young master who had no worries about food and clothing, so I apologized to the driver again.

The driver had a bad temper and casually cursed "I'm sick", which seemed to be like countless needles piercing Su Hui's face.

He ended up walking back, passing by an ice cream shop, bought two boxes, and went back to freeze them in the freezer as a "surprise" for being downgraded.

But Ning Yixiao didn't seem to care about these things at all, he only cared that Su Hui had found happiness again, and even though he was very tired when he got home, he still hugged him from behind for a long time.

Su Hui talked a lot to him as usual, including some out-of-the-ordinary fantasies and unconsidered plans, but he didn't mention the cutting off of his financial resources, but only pretended to casually mention his next plan.

"Ning Yixiao, I want to find a part-time job. What kind of job do you think I am suitable for? I will go to Professor Wang now and ask him to help me find an internship. Do you think it is feasible?"

Su Hui thought about it, Professor Wang and Grandpa have a close relationship, maybe they have already said hello, and they will not help him.

He suddenly realized that he was really like an ant, if Ji Tai behaved his way, one finger could block his way.

But Su Hui still thinks that she is not a waste, and she always has the ability to make herself independent.

"Why don't I teach children how to draw?" He thought this idea was great, but he didn't get any response from Ning Yixiao, so he turned around in his arms, only to find that Ning Yixiao was so tired that he fell asleep.

Su Hui felt a little distressed, rubbed the bridge of his nose, kissed his lips carefully, followed Ning Yixiao's usual way, and patted his back lightly.

"Good night, Ning Yixiao."

The impetuosity of action is always very strong, Su Hui secretly wrote his resume the next day, posted it on the online platform, and got a response quickly, relying on his education and outstanding eloquence, he won the first job in his life. Work, although it is really just teaching sixth grade pupils to draw.

During the day, he still went back to school for class, and he was more motivated than before. On Wednesday, Ning Yixiao also had class, which was the last class in the morning, so they agreed to meet in the cafeteria.

The weather was not good, and the strong wind did not stop overnight. A tree that had just been planted at the entrance of the cafeteria was blown off abruptly and fell to the side of the road. The students passing by all made a detour, but Su Hui squatted in front of the tree, observing its section , He had no choice but to go to the cafeteria until the school staff came to drive him away.

While waiting, Su Hui tore open the package of a lollipop and put it in his mouth. He suddenly found a familiar figure, it was Feng Cheng who was looking for a vacant seat with a dinner plate.

Feng Cheng also saw him, and was stunned for a while, then seemed to hesitate for a long time, but when Su Hui waved to him with a smile, he still walked over with a little coyness.

"What a coincidence." Su Hui was very enthusiastic.

"Long time no see." Feng Cheng had a habit of lowering his head when speaking, and raised his eyes to stare at Su Hui from time to time, and then avoided his eyes when he was discovered.

"That's right, I was sick a while ago, and I don't live at home." Su Hui didn't care about Feng Cheng's shyness at all, and was very cheerful. While talking, he suddenly found the application form that Feng Cheng put aside, and tilted his head to look at it. After a while, I was a little surprised, "Huh? Are you applying for CSC too?"

"Ah..." Feng Cheng put away the information, "Just looking around, I..."

Su Hui realized that he shouldn't have looked at it too much, and quickly apologized, "I didn't mean it, so don't worry about it."

As he was speaking, he heard a familiar voice behind him.

"Su Hui."

Amidst the noisy voices, he recognized Ning Yixiao almost instantly, so he turned his head, stood up happily and started to leave. Then, thinking of Feng Cheng, he turned his head and smiled, "I'll go first." , you come on."

Feng Cheng was a little embarrassed, nodded, watched him leave, and also watched him and Ning Yixiao eating and talking for a long time before bowing his head to eat his own.

After packing up the dinner plate and leaving, Feng Cheng suddenly saw his father near the cafeteria, he was holding a bag of fruit that didn't look cheap, and he waved to him, so Feng Cheng walked over, "Why are you at school? "

Feng Zhiguo said: "Send the old lady here to find her grandson. I am afraid that he will suffer a lot outside, so I rush to give money. Anyway, I am going to pick up her old man, so I brought you delicious food, how about it? Studying? very tired."

Hearing what he said, Feng Cheng couldn't help but be concerned about Su Hui's affairs. Unexpectedly, Feng Zhiguo said that Su Hui didn't know what was good or bad. As a result, as soon as he walked away, he now had more work to do than before.

"Damn it, I don't know how long it will last..."

Hearing his father scolding Su Hui, Feng Cheng immediately became emotional and interrupted sharply, "Can you please stop talking like that!"

Feng Zhiguo was stunned by his son's unknown anger. His temper was obviously always docile and he would never talk back.

"What are you doing? Are you stupid in reading?"

Feng Cheng didn't want to hear it, so he turned around and left without taking the fruit.

"It's one or two, fuck."

Feng Zhiguo didn't bother to care, got into the car by himself, and waited for the old lady of Ji's family to come back after helping his grandson. He just closed the car door without even lighting a cigarette. Guo Guo got off the car and went to his son's dormitory.

"I owe you so much fucking."