Manhattanhenge

Summer is as short as an old shirt that burns.

The damp, the sweat, the heat and the smell are all gone, and being in it is just obsessed with the flames, everything is going to disappear, and you feel lost in the loss of the old things.

For Su Hui, the summer that he had had Ning Yixiao, what was burned was probably the one he loved the most in his life.

He is used to being treated as an unspeakable patient, even when he meets a little stray dog ​​and wants to treat it well, he will subconsciously say "Don't be afraid of me, I won't hurt you".

Meeting Ning Yixiao, Su Hui knew for the first time that there were people who would not leave or be afraid when they confessed their illness.

When he said "Don't drive me away", Su Hui's heart was broken, but because of this sentence, she had the courage to bond again.

Half of the summer has passed, probably God finally felt a little pity for him, and actually shortened the first depression period after he met Ning Yixiao to more than ten days.

During the past ten days, he was like a failed astronaut trapped on an extremely cold planet in outer space, struggling to maintain his life in loneliness and despair.

Ning Yixiao is his only connection with the earth.He would call Su Hui every night, just like someone trying to rescue him, trying over and over again, even if it was just a one-way communication, he didn't get a response, and he never gave up.

He would tell him everything that happened during the day, and most of them were good, which would make people feel happy, but Su Hui knew that no matter what they heard, it was the same.

"When I went to work today, I saw a kitten, as beautiful as yours. It seemed to be lost. I wanted to pick it up, but it was so scared that it ran away."

Ning Yixiao sighed inaudibly on the phone, "I regret it a bit, I should take it slowly, or find a more professional person, I don't know how it is now, will it be very hungry."

Su Hui couldn't give him any response, but just listened and shed tears quietly.

"Another intern in the office said that the festival is coming soon, Qixi Festival, I have never celebrated such a festival." Ning Yixiao's voice was very gentle, "You can accompany me, my little boyfriend."

He is very kind and generous, and he doesn't care whether Su Hui will respond at this time.

It was only after a few minutes that he said, "I take it as your acquiescence."

Every time he hung up the phone, or when he forgot to hang up at all but was about to fall asleep from exhaustion, he would say "I love you" to Su Hui.

It's like a code word that is conventional in cosmic communication and represents the end.

On the day when the period of depression ended, Su Hui seemed to have found a spaceship from the surface of the extremely cold glacier that could return to Earth, boarded it, cast off the heaviness and depression under the gravitational force, and began to roam happily.

Only this time, too, he didn't get the chance to become a normal person, not even for a day, and the transmitter sent him flying straight out, entering a hypomanic period that he both loved and hated one morning.

Fortunately, he was just in time for Qixi Festival, so he could spend the festival with Ning in a better state.

After changing her status, the first thing Su Hui did was to go to the counter in the mall.He wanted to buy a watch for Ning Yixiao.

At the end of June, Su Hui wandered around the shopping mall when he was bored by himself. At that time, he was not able to be with Ning Yixiao, but he noticed the black watch placed in the center of the glass cabinet. At that time, he felt that Ning Yixiao It must be very suitable to wear this watch overnight.

But unfortunately, he was told that this watch is a limited edition, and both the counter and the official website need to be ordered. If it is ordered now, it will be delivered in three days at the earliest, which makes Su Hui very disappointed.

But he still wanted it, so he paid a deposit, "Then I'll pick it up in three days."

The gift was not delivered immediately, and Su Hui felt that she couldn't be so empty-handed, so she went home, cut off the Juliets that had grown in the garden for a whole season, wrapped a large bunch, and put a greeting card on it.

[Happy Qixi Festival, I have raised these for a long time, and I gave them to you. ]

He wrote a greeting card several times, but couldn't choose it, so he used the first version, but after the courier from the same city took the flowers away, he remembered angrily that he forgot to write a sentence like "I love you".

Afterwards, he had no choice but to comfort himself constantly. Of course Ning Yixiao knew that he would never doubt his love for him.

When the flowers were delivered, Ning Yixiao was still in a meeting with Do Not Disturb turned on, and the courier couldn't reach her, so she had to go upstairs to the front desk of their company and put the flowers there temporarily.

So as soon as Ning Yixiao came out of the conference room, under the eyes of everyone, he received the huge bouquet from the front desk. The champagne-colored flowers were as bright as the summer sun, full of enthusiasm and orange.

"Wow, as expected of a handsome guy." The seniors in the same group started joking, "This is the biggest bunch our company sent today."

"Not only is it the biggest, it's also the most beautiful, okay?"

"Where did you buy it? It's so beautiful. It's super expensive!"

"Hey Yixiao, can you ask your girlfriend to push the flower shop to me?"

Ning Yixiao was looking down at the greeting card, and when he heard this sentence, he couldn't help but raise his lips, "He planted this himself, not bought it from a flower shop."

As soon as this remark came out, all the colleagues became even more jealous.

"How long will it take to raise it so well!"

"As expected of a handsome guy, he can play Gu."

Ning Yixiao put the flowers back at the work station, and went to the tea room to call Su Hui.

This time Su Hui got connected quickly, and his voice sounded very happy, and he was a different person from last night.

"Got it? So fast, I thought it would arrive around the time you got off work."

Ning Yixiao was also in a good mood, "Maybe the delivery master is busy with business today, so he won't be able to finish the delivery soon."

"That's right." Su Hui's voice was childishly sweet, "Then...do you have a lot of business today, and do you have time to date your little boyfriend?"

Ning Yixiao held back his smile and pretended to be indifferent, "I'll think about it."

"You don't have to work overtime today, do you?" Su Hui began to play tricks, "Can you not work overtime? Today is Friday."

"Then come and talk to our boss."

Su Hui had no intention of retreating at all, "Don't tell me, I might really go looking for it."

Think about it too.

Ning Yixiao finally smiled, "I specially compressed the time today, and I made it faster than usual. I'm almost done with my work, and I can leave when I finish. What do you want to eat today?"

"I want to drink." Su Hui thought for a while, and reported an address, which was a certain distance from his company, and it was a popular restaurant.

"I'll wait for you in the past, and I may have to wait for a seat today."

An hour later, Ning Yixiao also arrived at the dining bar Su Hui mentioned, holding that large bouquet of eye-catching flowers in his hand.It was also strange, he found Su Hui in the corner in the dim light at a glance, he seemed to have drunk a little, and there was a faint blush on his face.

"My flowers are so beautiful." Su Hui raised her face and smiled childishly. When Ning Yixiao sat across from him, she leaned over and whispered, "My boyfriend is too."

When Ning Yixiao heard this, his heart was moved, but he still subconsciously glanced around.

The guests in the nearby seats cast a lot of attention, probably because the combination of two boys and a large bouquet is too unusual.

"I drank some pre-dinner wine." Su Hui pointed, "This bread is delicious, are you hungry?"

"It's okay." Ning Yixiao barely moved his wine glass, staring at Su Hui very quietly.The last time we met, he had a depression episode, so I went to see him at his house and didn't stay long.

Suddenly two weeks passed, and Su Hui turned back to the happy him in the past, which made Ning Yixiao feel a little unreal.

The restaurant was filled with the smell of rum, black vinegar sauce and steak, obliterating the aroma of the flowers Su Hui gave.The waiter carrying a large plate of berry tiramisu would pass by occasionally, and Su Hui stopped him several times, asking for a small piece each time.

"Are you here for dinner or sweets?" Ning Yixiao couldn't help asking.

"Eat them all." Su Hui took a bite of the cake, "This goes well with white wine."

His ears were red, and his neck was pink.

"You can't drink any more." Ning Yixiao couldn't help but said, "I can't carry you back unless I throw away the flowers."

"No." Su Hui thought of Hua, and gave up drinking decisively, "I won't drink..."

A large bouquet of flowers was thrown on the side of the street, and those who didn't know it thought they had broken up.

Just imagining that scene feels miserable.

When the singers on stage sang the fifth song, they left the bar.It was already nine o'clock in the evening, and this street was far away from the commercial center, so it was not very lively.Su Hui's feet seemed to be floating in the clouds, one deep and one shallow, walking staggeringly.

Ning Yixiao half embraced him and wanted to send him home, but Su Hui refused.

"My grandfather is not in Beijing..." Under the gaze of the night light, Su Hui's eyes were moist and innocent, facing him with a beautiful smile through the plump flowers, "I don't have to go home today."

Ning Yixiao thought at that moment, probably no one in this world could refuse Su Hui.

He resigned to the champagne-colored evening.

"Where to go then?"

Su Hui stood on tiptoe, leaned into Ning Yixiao's ear, and whispered, "I've already booked a room."

The overflowing sunshine leaves a dark blue heat wave for the summer night, enveloping the two young souls who are in love.Ning Yixiao felt hot, a little fascinated, and wanted to kiss him immediately.

But there were people coming and going on the street, so he held back and kept the kiss until the moment the hotel room door opened.Before the door could close completely, Ning Yixiao pressed him against the wall.The wallpaper and Su Hui's shirt rubbed against each other, which was buried in the sound of his breathing.

In the past 20 years, Ning Yixiao never thought that he would be obsessed with kissing.

But in the next second he had to admit that he was infatuated with Su Hui.

The moment he probed into his lips and teeth, it was like finding a treasure. He found a round and cold tongue nail, like a small planet that grew in Su Hui's mouth, and was offered by him on his own initiative.In the entanglement, he got an unprecedented experience.

Su Hui's breathing was rapid, and she stretched out her hands, climbing upwards like Ling Xiaohua, pressing her fingers on the back of Ning Yixiao's neck.The moment they parted, he turned his head, followed Ning Yixiao's distinct jaw line to the side of the neck, and kissed down, stopping at the Adam's apple.

With a little curiosity, he kissed Ning Yixiao's rolling Adam's apple.

"Miss me?" He asked in a very soft voice. After asking, he lowered his head halfway and rubbed the tip of his nose against his collarbone, like a soft kitten.

Ning Yixiao chose not to answer, but hugged him—a very gentle and tolerant hug, when the two hearts were still beating violently, they almost jumped into each other's bodies through their tight chests .

He waited for his breathing to calm down a bit, then kissed Su Hui's hair and forehead again, smelled the fragrance of his hair, and said in a hoarse voice, "I miss you very much, and I am also worried about you."

Obviously, he was almost overwhelmed by desire, but this idiot actually said such words seriously at this time, Su Hui's nose was a little sore, and he raised his hand to stroke Ning Yixiao's back.

"I'm ready."

He knew he wasn't getting better, just jumping from one end of the illness to the other.

But in any case, this end can at least embrace passionately.

"Don't worry about me." Su Hui raised her head, kissed Ning Yixiao's chin and lips, her tone was light and sweet, "I'm fine now."

He couldn't tell Ning Yixiao how he saved him during these ten days of depression, he could only continue to prove his love for him with actions.

Ning Yixiao took his hand, kissed it, brought him in, and lay on the bed with him.

There is a big projection here, Su Hui thought that their first failed date was to watch a movie, so he suggested to watch it here, and Ning Yixiao agreed.

Just when the projection screen just appeared on the screen, Ning Yixiao suddenly said, "I..."

He walked to the aisle, took the bag that had just left here, and said to Su Hui, "Today is Chinese Valentine's Day, and I have prepared a small gift for you."

It was the first time for Su Hui to discover that a person as calm as Ning Yixiao would show such a cute expression, as if he was afraid that his gift would not be good enough and would disappoint him.

So he secretly thought in his heart, no matter what it is, he must act very happy.

But it turned out that Su Hui was wrong, and he didn't need to show it at all.

"This." Ning Yixiao took out a dark blue suede pressing board, which looked like a book, and handed it to Su Hui.

Su Hui took it carefully, unfolded it, and found that it was a beautiful blue butterfly specimen, and the blue phosphor powder on the butterfly wing shone brightly under the light.

He had never received such a beautiful gift.

"This is Morpho Aurora." Ning Yixiao explained, "I don't know why, subconsciously want to buy you such a gift, it may not be of great value, but I have been looking for it for a long time, and I think it suits you very well."

As he spoke, he touched Su Hui's cheek and hid a sentence in his heart.

You are like a beautiful butterfly.

Su Hui held the butterfly specimen in his heart, "Thank you, I like it so much." He leaned over and kissed Ning Yixiao's lips, "No one has ever understood what I like."

Flowers and plants, strange books, beautiful insect specimens, nebulae and star clusters tens of thousands of light-years away, the vast universe, Su Hui is addicted to it, but is always suppressed again and again.Everyone told him to like valuable things, read useful books, and be a useful person.

No one ever thought that Su Hui wanted to be a person who could enjoy the beautiful butterflies at any time, rather than being famous and having inexhaustible wealth.

Only Ning Yixiao understands all this.

Ning Yixiao scratched the bridge of Su Hui's nose with his knuckles, and there was a faint smile on the corner of his mouth.

"As long as you like it."

He was also afraid that Su Hui would not like it.

Su Hui hugged Ning Yixiao and kissed his ear, "I also bought you a gift, but it hasn't arrived yet."

Ning Yixiao told him like a conditioned reflex, "Don't buy me something too expensive."

"But it's very pretty. It will look good on you." Su Hui tried to convince him.

Ning Yixiao stretched out her finger and tapped his cheek, "That's not okay either. You can give me a gift you made yourself."

"But it's too late." Su Hui was a little anxious, "Today is over."

"It's okay." Ning Yixiao kissed the corner of his mouth, and said in a low voice, "The Cowherd and Weaver Girl can wait so long, so can I."

I don't know which word touched Su Hui, and completely overwhelmed his sanity, which was already destroyed by alcohol. He wrapped Ning Yixiao around and said unreasonably like a child: "Then I will give you a gift first."

Ning Yixiao didn't have time to ask "what", nor did he have time to say more, so he was swallowed up by the kiss.

The movie was shown non-stop, and the plot flowed backwards, but no one had the heart to watch it.The summer night erodes the love language between lovers, and the voice begins to be intermittent, hasty, and difficult to distinguish.

Su Hui called Ning Yixiao's name in a low voice, repeating it over and over again, gradually becoming the passive side, her body sank into the soft bed, and the falling kisses were like unstoppable rain. flow down.

He suddenly thought of the wound on his chest, and felt inferior for no reason, so he subconsciously stretched out his hand to cover it.

"do not look."

Ning Yixiao didn't take his hand away in a hurry, kissed the back of his hand and the crevices of his fingers very tenderly, and asked vaguely: "What's wrong?"

His other hand is down.

Su Hui hunched over and fell to one side, unable to accept her imperfection, "There are scars..."

Ning Yixiao saw his scar, it seemed to be an old scar, but there was still a faint pink, just under the bottom row of ribs.

He bowed his head and kissed quietly, which was more like a kind of stable healing than intimacy.

"Pretty," he said almost reverently.

Su Hui's eyes were sour, and she almost shed tears.

He was unprepared to reveal his most vulnerable self, but felt it was overdue.

With some strength, he turned over, turned himself on top, and sat down.

Although hypomania will aggravate his impulses and thoughts in all aspects, it is pathological, but Su Hui knows very well that he is willing because he loves Ning Yixiao, which is the only thing he is not controlled by any wrong disease part.

But he also made small decisions that he would regret later.

"Only this." Su Hui found a small box of Vaseline in his pocket, because his lips were very dry recently, so he took one with him.

His face was soaked with clumsy and innocent blush, his fingertips and knees were powdered, and his toes were clenched nervously, as if he was only now ashamed of it.

But Ning Yixiao's patience and willpower still came to an end.

"Let me do it."

He kissed Su Hui's lips and freed one hand to hug him.

Alcohol and illness were intertwined, and they worked together. Su Hui seemed to have hallucinations in front of his eyes. He felt that he had turned into a pool of gravel, scalded and exhausted under the overflowing sunlight.As dusk fell, under the mysterious gravitational force, the tide came in and soaked him over and over again.The warm water flows into the tiny crevices of the gravel, soaks the dry ones, draws away after being wet, and the tide rises and falls, and will eventually return to the vast sea.

The invading waves lapping on the shore got his echo.

The lover's name was repeated many times, Su Hui felt that she could keep repeating it like this, and didn't want a response.

[Ning Yixiao]

Su Hui suddenly realized that maybe his name was really some kind of spell, but the person who cast the spell was himself.

He really would rather just have this one night.

Originally, they had unpacked the second one, but Ning Yixiao still kept it, picked him up and went to the bathroom.

In a daze, Su Hui said that he wanted to take a bath, so he took him with him.The two were buried in the water full of bubbles, Su Hui leaned against Ning Yixiao's chest, very soft.

He was a little tired, but he was too excited to fall asleep, full of energy, so he used his index finger and middle finger to imitate the walking of a small person, "walking" step by step on Ning Yixiao's arm resting on the edge of the bathtub, and finally grabbed his hand, pick up.

"Your hands are so beautiful." Su Hui stared at his distinct joints and a layer of blue veins distributed under the thin skin, like mountains under the clouds.

"Your ones are pretty too." Ning Yixiao couldn't help pinching his fingertips, as if evaluating the color of the kitten's paws, "Pink."

Su Hui turned her head, glared at him pretending to be angry, then turned back, and spread her hands side by side with his, "Our hands match well, don't we?"

Ning Yixiao chuckled lightly.

"You should wear a pair of rings." Su Hui asked him with his head tilted back on a whim, "Did you know that there is a place in Iceland called the Svenna Glacier, where there are large expanses of blue glaciers, which are very beautiful."

As he said that, Su Hui half-turned around and splashed some water. He suddenly felt itchy on the tip of his nose, rubbed Ning Yixiao's chin, and said, "Have you seen "Interstellar"?"

Ning Yixiao nodded, "Yes." This is one of the few movies he has watched.

Su Hui's eyes were bright and moist, "Then do you remember the planet where Dr. Mann was trapped where they went? That extremely cold planet."

"Yeah." Ning Yixiao thought he was so cute and couldn't help but kiss Su Hui's eyes, "Continue."

"That planet was actually filmed in Iceland, the Svenna Glacier." Su Hui smiled, holding Ning Yixiao's hand, "Let's go there later."

"Why?" Ning Yixiao deliberately asked very uninterestedly.

Su Hui smiled childishly and innocently, and said a very cute reason, "Because it's like getting married in an alien planet, isn't it cool?"

Ning Yixiao really wanted to know what was going on in his head, but he still couldn't help laughing, "It must be cold there."

"Yeah." Su Hui nodded, "It's super cold."

"Then let's exchange quickly." Ning Yixiao grabbed Su Hui's hand and kissed his fingertips, "Otherwise the kitten's paws will be damaged by freezing."

"You laugh at me." Su Hui was not very happy.

Ning Yixiao did not admit it, "No."

"I just laughed." Su Hui refused to let go, and fought with bubbles childishly.

Ning Yixiao had no choice but to grab his hand, "I was wrong." Not only that, but he also solemnly promised Su Hui, "I will definitely take you to the Svina Mountain Glacier in the future."

"What else?" Su Hui asked.

"Don't joke about kittens."

Su Hui became anxious, "It's not a kitten!"

Ning Yixiao quickly made a third promise, "I will also protect the kitten's paws."

Su Hui felt that he was hopeless, and planned to ignore him, but couldn't resist, and soon fell into Ning Yixiao's kiss again.

Under Ning Yixiao's tireless exploration and manipulation, Su Hui lost the power to resist.The unpacked bags were still used after all, and under repeated attacks, Ning Yixiao forced Su Hui to accept this title.

"If you say you are my kitten, I will let you go." Ning Yixiao kissed his ear.

Su Hui still conceded defeat and was completely subdued by Ning Yixiao.

"Okay, I'm your kitten."