Manhattanhenge

Su Hui carefully read Xuebing's electronic certificate and found that it was issued a year ago, that is to say, he became a therapy dog ​​when he was an adult, and it has been a full year so far.

Ice Cream let out a whimper, puffed her chest out and pushed her nose under Su Hui's palm, motioning for him to stroke her.

But Su Hui was already lost in memory. He got up and went upstairs again. It was also the first time he walked into the room that Ning Yixiao lived in that Kofi had mentioned.

It was the largest master bedroom, connected to the large study room, which was as empty as an office. Ning Yixiao would work here when he was in New York.

Su Hui walked in with some trepidation. There were almost no personal items here. It looked like a brand new room without any trace of Ning Yixiao.

He walked through the bedroom without stopping, but walked into the main bathroom.

On the bathroom sink, he found what he dreaded finding.

Ice Cream also went upstairs, and when she ran in, she found that Su Hui was holding a bottle of hand sanitizer in her hand, so she barked a few times.Su Hui looked down at him, and felt his uneasiness from the wet eyes of the ice cream and the fast wagging tail.

He put down the hand sanitizer, squatted down, and opened the cabinet below. There were indeed many unopened hand sanitizers in it, neatly arranged.

These are the things that best represent Ning Yixiao's existence in this whole house.

Su Hui sat on the bathroom floor, facing the cabinet of hand sanitizer, thinking of Ning Yixiao in the past.When she first met him, Su Hui knew that he was obsessed with cleanliness, and had used this excuse to refuse him to stay overnight, but in the end he softened his heart and accepted it.

Later he discovered that it was more than that simple. Sometimes Ning Yixiao would suddenly feel that his hands were dirty and wash his hands repeatedly. In severe cases, he would even count uncontrollably in his mind, such as steps or passing streetlights.

Su Hui was the first to tell him that he wanted to take him to see a doctor.

It is always difficult for people to face the fact that they have mental disorders. Su Hui has not learned to accept it calmly since she was a teenager and fell in love with Ning Yixiao. The same is true for Ning Yixiao, who has always been strong.

Without telling him, Su Hui gave Ning Yixiao the number of the doctor he had consulted before, and took him with him in the name of prescribing medicine. At first Ning Yixiao didn't understand, and was even a little angry, but he still couldn't help it. Walked into that consultation room without an appointment.

That day the weather was very bad and the clouds were overcast. Su Hui sat alone in the corridor and waited for him. It was also the first time he learned to ask the doctor about his condition like a qualified family member.

It was around the third consultation that the doctor concluded that the source of Ning Yixiao's obsessive-compulsive disorder was most likely influenced by his childhood experiences.

Many times after their consultation, Su Hui would hold Ning Yixiao's hand, eat ice cream with him on the bench outside the hospital, and tell him about the strange things he encountered when he was a child when he was seeing a doctor, some funny, some Warm, to please him.

The premise is that he is also in the normal period, or ruled by happy hypomania.

But sometimes, when he was engulfed by a wave of major depression, it would have a worse impact on Ning Yixiao.Su Hui is very aware of these things, so he always wants to give up.It didn't feel good, like a terrible reincarnation. When I was manic, I thought I was the best person in the world, and I was the most worthy of Ning Yixiao, but when I was depressed, my self-confidence was shattered. No matter how I looked at it, it was a drag , repeating the cycle like this.

So Su Hui always felt that only healthy people are worthy of love.He was very afraid of becoming Ning Yixiao's anchor tied to his ankle, dragging him down into the sea he hated.

Fortunately, six years ago, his manic period was far more than his depressed period. During the six months they spent together, Ning Yixiao's obsessive-compulsive disorder had improved visibly.

Su Hui always thought that he was getting better soon, and he would be better, unlike himself, who might be immersed in a chaotic and bumpy life forever.

Facts have proved that Ning Yixiao may not have been cured.

Ice Cream is his therapy dog.

Su Hui couldn't control himself from guessing, the reason for all this was him.He was angry and sad because he was moody and suddenly disappeared without a trace.

He subconsciously took out his mobile phone, found the number, wanted to dial out, called Ning Yixiao, to verify whether his illness really relapsed, wanted to tell him a lot, wanted to comfort him.

But it all seems useless.

Su Hui quickly sobered up and stopped this wrong practice.

They are not the relationship they used to be.

Now Ning Yixiao has someone new to accompany her, six years is too long, Su Hui has no idea what happened, and the dislocation between them may never be able to make up.

He has long since lost the qualification to care.

Falling into emotion, Su Hui turned into an old bath towel soaked in water, huge and heavy, unable to stand up by himself.

The ice cream at the side sensed something, and forcibly got into his arms again, arched his arms, whimpered like a puppy, or bit his clothes guidingly, trying to pull Su Hui up.

With the help of ice cream, Su Hui finally got up with the help of the cabinet, and left the master bedroom slowly.

Ice Cream guided him and took him downstairs, almost every step he would turn around to check if Su Hui was safe.When they got back to the first floor, Ice Cream ran quickly, found a small frisbee from nowhere, held it in her mouth, and ran to Su Hui, as if she really wanted him to play with her.

Su Hui was very depressed, but still took the frisbee from the ice cream mouth and threw it on the sofa.

Ice Cream is very smart, she quickly ran to catch it, then jumped over and got into Su Hui's arms.

Su Hui touched his back and patted him lightly, "Ice Cream, did you coax your master like this before?"

Ice Cream let out a "Wow", as if she really understood, and held her head high, looking very proud.

Su Hui looked at him and touched his ears, "Is your master difficult to coax? When he is sad, he will study and work hard, or tidy up things, and he has no time to play with you at all, is he?"

Ice Cream whimpered, and moved closer, leaning against Su Hui's arms.

Su Hui also leaned on him, closed his eyes, "He used to be like this. Maybe it's different now, I don't know."

The ice cream rubbed against him, and the feeling of being full in her arms made Su Hui calm down a little, giving him a sense of security.

"He treats you very well." Su Hui leaned on the ice cream, "He is a very gentle person."

He didn't know what he was talking about, it was illogical, it seemed to be talking to ice cream, but it was more like talking to himself.It's just that compared to before, with the presence of ice cream, it seems that these meaningless emotions and words have a new outlet.He is like a warm tree hole, even if Su Hui said some dangerous things to him, they can be tolerated instead of being spread or judged.

After a long time like this, the ice cream was hungry, Su Hui got up and poured him a plate of dog food, cooked chicken breast for him, and squatted aside to watch him finish eating quietly.

With the company of ice cream, Su Hui gradually got used to this big empty house, and his condition improved a lot. Facing Kofi and Mark, he was no longer as taciturn as before, and occasionally he could say a few more words.

Ice Cream will wait at the entrance every day at [-]:[-] am and [-]:[-] pm, the purpose is to remind Su Hui to accompany him to play.Su Hui still found it difficult at first, but for the sake of ice cream, she persisted every day.

It was also because of him that Su Hui was able to go out smoothly and go to the hospital independently to accompany grandma without the company of others.

Grandma is recovering well. The nurse Ning Yixiao found is very professional and friendly. Every time Su Hui passes by, she is either helping grandma with a massage or chatting with her.

Su Hui obviously felt that his messy and collapsed life more than ten days ago was gradually recovering, but he knew that this was all due to the ability of his ex-boyfriend, and he was ashamed of it.

He can even start a little bit of lingering work, and is willing to open the mailbox and clear the mountain of mail.

So he found Sean's previous emails, asking if he had any new works on display recently, but they were still unread.Su Hui thought he must be very anxious, so he replied immediately, but because he didn't want to mention Ning Yixiao's engagement, he skipped this so-called "work".

[Eddy: I ​​don’t have any new works at the moment, but the students I lead are competing, and there may be an exhibition of their works in a while. ]

[Eddy: I'm really sorry, too many things have happened recently, so I didn't see your email in time, and I'm only replying now. I don't know how you are doing, is everything going well? ]

He sends it out, taking a deep breath, feeling guilty.Just after checking less than three work emails, Sean's reply came, so fast that Su Hui was a little surprised.

[Sean: It's not going well. Recently, I've had an old problem. I always have stomach pains, which affects work efficiency. ]

Stomachache.

Su Hui asked with concern.

[Eddy: Seriously?It has affected work, it should be very serious, you must eat on time, the biggest cause of chronic diseases is bad habits. ]

It didn't take long before Sean replied to the new email.

[Sean: You're right, what about you?Are you eating well every day? ]

[Sean: I feel that the habits of young people nowadays are not very healthy. ]

Su Hui was indeed hit by what he said, and he didn't know how to reply for a while.

After all, you can't lie.

[Eddy: I ​​don't have a good appetite, but I also eat seriously. ]

[Sean: I see, you are very thin, I saw it at the last exhibition. ]

Su Hui was a little surprised.

[Eddy: Have you seen me?I haven't met you yet.You really helped me a lot. At that time, I was thinking, if there is a chance, it would be great if I could treat you to dinner in person. When I get better, I don’t know if you would like it. ]

This time Sean didn't reply quickly, Su Hui glanced at the time, and it was indeed time for dinner.

When Kofi called him outside, Su Hui answered and followed her downstairs.

Mark made wontons for dinner. Thinking of the email just now, Su Hui ate more than usual. After eating, he went back to the room and checked the mailbox again, but still did not receive a reply.

Perhaps his invitation came too abruptly?Su Hui was not sure.

He planned to take the ice cream down, and took the black coat he often wore recently from the closet.

During this period, he always subconsciously wears dark-colored clothes, wrapping himself tightly, as if his sense of security is attached to the skin, and it will be lost if he is exposed.

He stared at the bloodless face in the mirror, a little evasive, his hair was too long, Su Hui was tied behind his head, he put on a hat, and buried his chin in the scarf.

Ice Cream was already waiting at the entrance, Su Hui put on a muzzle for him, dressed him, opened the door and took him downstairs.

It was already half dark, and the outdoor temperature was much lower than in the house, so he couldn't help pulling up the scarf.As soon as Ice Cream went out, she started to jog. Su Hui could barely hold her back, so she was dragged to the park by him. After several rounds, the energy of Ice Cream was only half exhausted. Su Hui was already tired, so she discussed with him to go home.

Ice Cream is not stubborn, she obeys after a few coaxes, and follows Su Hui home.There were not many people on the road, but because the image of the ice cream was too fierce, the pedestrians took the initiative to retreat, as if forming a natural barrier.

Passing by the fountain and the circular lawn that they had to go home, they passed by an ice cream shop. Su Hui never had the heart to look around before and didn't notice it.

Attracted by the beautiful gift boxes in the window and a whole row of ice cream display cases, he stopped, hesitated for a long time, and went in to buy a vanilla ball, which was packed in a small box.

Big dogs are not allowed in the store, so Su Hui can only take ice cream to the open-air seats outside the store. It's cold outside, and there are only them here, but they let him feel at ease.

Su Hui put the rope of ice cream on her hand, tore off the packaging bag of the paper scoop, and took a sip of the ice cream.

Ice Cream stood up straight, looking at him pitifully, looking like she wanted to eat it very much.

"You can't eat it." Su Hui nodded his nose, "You will get sick."

The ice cream whimpered pitifully, Su Hui couldn't help but curled up her lips, took out another spoon that she took extra on purpose, scooped some up, took off the muzzle, and fed it to him.

"Eat ice cream." He thought it was very interesting, but he was afraid that the puppy would really be addicted, so he only fed a spoonful, "You can't eat it."

He rubbed Ice Cream's face and asked, "If your master finds out, he will say about me."

After subconsciously saying this sentence, Su Hui felt strange, unnaturally let go of the ice cream's face, and picked up the ice cream carton, "He probably won't..."

"But you can't eat it, you only have one bite, good boy."

Fearing that he would be greedy, Su Hui quickly ate a whole ball by himself, his teeth hurt from the cold, and he covered his cheeks with his hands for a long time.

He still felt tired and didn't want to leave, so he lingered for a while with a dog and an empty box.

Ice Cream rested her chin on his knees, while Su Hui took out the cigarettes she bought the day before from her pocket, lit them, and held them between her fingers. Surrounded decadently, dissipated in the cold wind.

The cigarette was only half smoked when a person approached. Su Hui's nerves were intermittent and broken, and his reaction was very slow until the person approached him.

At a certain moment, Su Hui had some delusional hallucinations, thinking that Ning Yixiao would suddenly appear.But ice cream's vigilant state dispelled this unrealistic idea.

He turned his face lazily, and the visitor was a strange tall white man who came to strike up a conversation.

Being stared at like this, Su Hui felt uncomfortable, lowered her head, and pressed the cigarette into the carton full of melted butter.

"sorry, I……"

Before he could refuse, Xue Ge activated his instinct as a guard dog, growled aggressively, and tensed all the muscles in his body, as if he would rush to bite him in the next second.

This obviously startled the man, he raised his hands and took two steps back.

"Ice Cream, it's okay, don't be nervous." Su Hui stroked Ice Cream's back, then got up, nodded to the man in apology, and took him away.

After walking 100 meters away, the tight state of the ice cream gradually let go. Su Hui stopped and hugged him, "You were so fierce just now."

Ice Cream rubbed his nose against him, as if he had turned back into the dog begging for a hug at home. Su Hui couldn't help thinking, how could there be a puppy that not only undertakes the task of healing, but also can transform into a territorial guard at any time What about dogs?

He thought of Ning Yixiao.

"You really look like him."

Su Hui felt strange, but soon felt that there was no cure for herself.

Still don't think about it.

"go home."

Taking the ice cream on the elevator, returning to the top floor, and unlocking the code of the door, Su Hui shuts everything that happened just now.

Back home, Xue Ge changed back to her smart and clingy appearance, and followed Su Hui to the room, making small and soft barking sounds from time to time.

Su Hui sat on the chair, staring blankly at the night in the gap of the blinds for a long time.

The reminder of the email appeared, pulling back his restless thoughts.

Su Hui put down those incorrect thoughts, moved the mouse, and clicked a new reply.

[Sean: You are beautiful, I am impressed, but I am not good-looking, I am afraid that I will disappoint you when I meet you. ]

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Ning · not good-looking · one night

Someone who is willing to demean his appearance in order to keep his waistcoat tight