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Chapter 31 Crematorium 31
Yan Nanchen's red eyes from crying were fixed on the small box in the crystal cabinet. He slowly pressed his forehead against the door of the cabinet, and the breath he exhaled fell on the glass and smeared white mist, as if he wanted to give the box some breath. possible.
His eyes stayed on the sign next to the box, the word "Aizi Jiang Nian" was like a knife, and the pain that was born on the same day as the date of death ruthlessly sliced through his heart inch by inch. It completely crushed his courage to recover Jiang Yi.
Suddenly, he remembered the example Jiang Yi gave when he returned to China, which was...
this kid.
What kind of mood is that, to dig out the most painful thing in my heart, to complete the task of improving the secondary differentiation gene detection technology, because it hurts too much, and I don't want other people to experience such pain again.
The pain of □□ is far less than the pain of losing a child.
His tears kept flowing, the hands holding the cabinet kept trembling, even his fingertips were stained with silent collapse, and his lips overflowed with unbearable weeping, the pain brought to him by depression is nothing compared to Jiang Yi what.
Why didn't he try his best to find Jiang Yi back then, why didn't he ask his father to help him find Jiang Yi?
How could Jiang Yi, who had just given birth, be able to withstand such a blow, his heart went into cardiac arrest... almost passed away, maybe it was because his son was gone, and he almost couldn't hold on anymore.
Then how did you live these years, do you hate him very much, do you hate him to death?
Now, what mood did Jiang Yi use to return home, and what mood did he use to face him.
Seeing Yan Nanchen crying so sadly, Qiao Qiao may have felt something, and Dou Da's tears also flowed. She stretched out her little hand to help him wipe the tears, and comforted him: "You cry so loudly, what if you wake up brother?" manage?"
Yan Nanchen's tears were broken again by her daughter's childish words.
He hugged his daughter tightly, suppressing his crying to the minimum, for fear of scaring the child, but he was so painful that he couldn't breathe, and he didn't know how to relieve this collapse.
"...Big Daddy, I'm sorry for you, Qiao Qiao, Daddy is sorry for you, I'm sorry..."
This trembling 'sorry', I tried my best to hold back the trembling and wanted to express clearly, but I was still sobbing broken under the extreme sadness.
Children are sensitive creatures. Seeing Daddy crying so hard, Qiaoqiao was also a little scared, thinking that something was wrong with Daddy, crying to break free from Yan Nanchen to find Daddy.
"Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...""
Yan Nanchen felt that his daughter wanted to break away from him, and stretched out his hand towards the bedroom, crying to find his father. He quickly hugged his daughter, for fear of falling, and then adjusted his state so that he would not scare her.
"Qiao Qiao is good. Daddy is fine. He is sleeping. It's just that Daddy is a little sad. Daddy is so...excited when he sees brother for the first time." When the word "brother" is mentioned, he can feel that he will collapse again at any time.
As for Jiang Yi, does it hurt even more?
Qiao Qiao still didn't believe it, she hiccupped from crying, and wanted to find her father: "Whoa, whoa, whoa, I want to find my father, I don't want you to hug me, I want to find my father"
Yan Nanchen was helpless because of his daughter's crying, so he had to take her to find Jiang Yi, but he didn't want his daughter to wake Jiang Yi, so he stood outside the bedroom door and whispered to his daughter: "Dad is still sleeping, he is very tired today. It's uncomfortable, let's not wake up Dad, okay?"
Qiao Qiao sat in Yan Nanchen's arms, she was crying so hard, seeing that her father was still on the bed, as if he was really asleep, she felt relieved, but she was still a little scared, and turned her head away She looked at Yan Nanchen with teary eyes.
"Did Dad really just fall asleep?"
"Yes." Yan Nanchen wiped away the tears on his daughter's cheeks with the back of his hand.
"Dad...you won't become an elf like your brother, right?"
Yan Nanchen's hand that wiped his daughter's tears stopped, his fingertips trembled slightly, and the dull pain in his heart hit him again. He slightly raised his head and closed his eyes, trying to relieve himself, then looked down at his daughter, The red eyes are full of love and determination.
"Daddy promises that Daddy will protect you and Daddy, okay?"
Qiao Qiao lowered her head while hesitant to speak, her eyelashes fluttered slightly, and said timidly: "But you make Dad sad, because you keep making Dad cry secretly, Qiao Qiao saw it."
Yan Nanchen's thin lips trembled slightly, he pursed his lips tightly, looked up at Jiang Yi who was still resting on the bed, then carried Qiao Qiao to the living room, put his daughter on the sofa, and then squatted in front of her.
He put his arms beside his daughter and took a deep breath before opening his mouth.
"Qiao Qiao, Daddy knew he was wrong, can you trust Daddy? Daddy will never let Daddy cry in secret, and Daddy will never leave you again, and will never let you be protected by anyone again. , will always be with the three of you, father and son."
Seeing Yan Nanchen's serious expression, Qiaoqiao also realized that this seemed to be a very important matter, and suddenly thought of a sentence his father asked him:
——Qiao Qiao, if one day, you saw Daddy, what would you want to say to him?
As she thought about it, her little head drooped, and tears began to fall.
Yan Nanchen was a little flustered when he cried his daughter again, and looked down at her: "What's the matter, Qiao Qiao, did Daddy say something wrong?"
"Yan Nanchen." Qiao Qiao pouted, stretched out her little hand and poked Daddy's arm vigorously, just like what she told Dad back then, she should do this after seeing Daddy: "The teacher said that you can correct your mistakes if you know your mistakes. It’s just a good boy, you have to remember to apologize to your father, that’s the only way to be good, you know?”
Yan Nanchen's wet eyes were full of doting, and he suppressed the trembling in his throat: "Well, Daddy will apologize to Daddy, Daddy promises."
"Pull the hook." Qiao Qiao stretched out her little finger towards Yan Nanchen.
"Okay, pull the hook."
The big hand and the small hand pull the hook.
This promise is eternal.
After a while, Yan Nanchen coaxed Qiao Qiao to sleep, and then called Chu Beiheng.
When Chu Beiheng came, the people inside opened the door for him, and then he saw Yan Nanchen hugging the sleeping Qiaoqiao.
"Brother, I know everything."
At the entrance, Yan Nanchen hugged Qiao Qiao, he stared at his elder brother Chu Beiheng, his voice was hoarse: "I saw it, brother is gone."
Chu Beiheng originally wanted to ask that you both walked into the same room with the lonely man and the lonely man, but when he heard his younger brother mentioning this matter, he was suddenly dumbfounded, and he sighed: "Is that so, Jiang Yi told you?"
"He didn't say it himself. Just now, his pheromone concentration was out of balance and he almost fainted from the pain. It was Qiao Qiao who called me. I didn't see this tablet until I came up."
Chu Beiheng frowned, walked into the entrance, and glanced at the gift box here: "After returning to China, his symptoms were too frequent."
"I know, it's all because of me. I'm just worried that he will be in heat at any time, and he can't be without someone by his side." Yan Nanchen said, hugging the sleeping Qiao Qiao to him: "Brother, help me first." I am taking care of Qiao Qiao, I want to talk to him after Yi Yi wakes up."
Chu Beiheng took Qiao Qiao, and then seemed to think of something: "Nan Chen, I have a photo of my brother when he was born, and his crying when he was born, do you want to see it?" After finishing speaking, he paused After a pause, he continued: "I'm afraid you won't be able to bear it. Jiang Yi dare not look at it until now. For him, losing his brother is a knot that he will never let go of in his life."
Yan Nanchen was silent for a while, and replied, "I want it."
"Then I'll send it to you later, you... pay attention to your body." Chu Beiheng knew that his younger brother would not be able to accept stimulation: "Although the doctor said that you are already mild now, don't push yourself too hard. , as soon as Jiang is willing to return to China, this is already a good start."
"Don't worry, I've always been very confident about my own illness. After I learned from Code J that Jiang Yi was safe and well, I slowly got better. Now I want to stay with Jiang Yi well, no matter what identity I use. "
Chu Beiheng raised his eyebrows when he heard the code name J: "Well, this code name J is quite powerful, then I'll take Qiao Qiao home first, you two have a good chat, don't fight."
The door slowly closed.
Yan Nanchen stood at the entrance in a daze for a long time. He looked sideways at the key on the shoe cabinet. This was a gift he gave Jiang Yi a month ago, and it was the 1208 of that apartment.
Bought it again for double the price and restored everything inside.
It's as if nothing has changed.
But after all, there is still no way to recover.
At this moment, the phone vibrated, he took out the phone, and the moment the screen was unlocked, a photo came into view, and the sockets of his eyes instantly turned red.
This was in the hospital. Jiang Yi, who was wearing a hospital gown, should have just given birth. He was very weak and pale, and beside his pillow lay a child who was as small as a doll.
Jiang Yi's face was pressed against the child's belly and heels. It was a kind of innate fatherly love. No matter how his child looked, the love was extremely strong. However, the child closed his eyes and remained motionless.
Yan Nanchen wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes with the back of his hand, and continued to play the next video. This video was recorded in the delivery room. Immediately afterwards, he heard two weeping sounds, which were the sounds of two newborn babies.
Among them was a cry that was particularly loud and lasted for a very long time. In the end, the cry was not like the cry of fear of a newborn facing a strange world, but the cry caused by pain.
He couldn't hold back anymore, bent down and squatted, holding his head, biting his arm tightly with his teeth, trying to hold back the crying.
Perhaps it was such grief that made it difficult for him to relieve, so he got up and walked back to the bedroom.
Jiang Yi was still sound asleep on the bed, but he could no longer restrain his emotions, lying beside Jiang Yi, hugged him tightly from behind, and cried bitterly.
Qiao Qiao was still there just now, he didn't dare to cry at all.
Yan Nanchen put his lips on the glands on the back of Jiang Yi's neck, and hugged him with both arms, as if he wanted to integrate people into his blood before giving up. Tears and breathing were intertwined messily, and he absorbed what belonged to him. No matter the smell and temperature of Jiang Yi, it was still full of uneasiness and pain.
Finally broke down and cried.
He can break down like that now, all the words can no longer describe the pain, and he can't empathize with the pain, but how could Jiang Yi, who just gave birth, withstand such a blow.
"...One by one, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."
This voice of sorry is clenching the teeth and trembling, but also to say a complete debt.
As soon as Jiang woke up, he woke up from the moment he was hugged tightly. He wanted to push Yan Nanchen away, but he felt the coolness dripping from the back of his neck, and Yan Nanchen's trembling cry. What did he think of.
Perhaps he had expected this day long ago, since he returned to China.
It is also the purpose of his return home.
He didn't say a word, feeling how solid and powerful the chest around him was, and the heartbeat that hit his back was so strong, and the broken and restrained weeping sounded in his ears one by one, such a strong sadness, as if he felt the same. .
I don't know how long it took, but he put his hands on his head, closed his red eyes, and softly called out: "Yan Nanchen, you disturbed me."
In the next second, he was turned over by Yan Nanchen.
The two faced each other, and the close distance made the breath touch.
Jiang Yi was stunned to see Yan Nanchen crying red and collapsing, his eyes fell into the deep but already soaked eyes, the bottom of the eyes deeply reflected him, at this moment, his heart seemed to be grabbed by someone.
Then Yan Nanchen stroked her back and hugged her face to face.
The quilt was half covered, a little messy, and the two hugged each other tightly on the big bed, and even the highly compatible pheromones blended and cuddled each other.
"all."
Jiang Yi felt Yan Nanchen's lips sticking to his ear, this trembling and tentative call, he should have pushed away such intimacy, but he couldn't push it away because of his instinct, and in his heart , nor resistance.
"I don't know what else I can say except I'm sorry." Yan Nanchen choked up, he gently stroked the back of Jiang Yi's head, resting on his forehead, and stared at him with downcast eyes: "Jiang Nian, our Nian Nian, it's gone...so we have two children."
With such a name, Jiang Yi's eyes turned red instantly.
Yan Nanchen seemed to empathize with Jiang Yi's collapse. Seeing Jiang Yiliu's tears, he slowly kissed his eyelids. After a while, he choked up and said, "Yiyi, baby, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I'm sorry you……"
Jiang Yi didn't say a word, just drooped his eyes and shed tears without saying a word.
"If I had been braver back then, and I told you that I was not Chu Beiheng, I was Yan Nanchen, maybe you wouldn't leave so sad, wouldn't be so disappointed in me, and I would still be by your side to take care of you, maybe the child would be Nothing will happen." Yan Nanchen couldn't see Jiang Liuliu's tears, and held his face to wipe away the tears:
"I'm not brave enough to make you feel wronged. I'm sorry. I made you feel wronged."
The word 'grievance' seemed to poke Jiang Yi's heart.
Jiang Yi's eyelashes trembled slightly, and he raised his eyes to meet Yan Nanchen's, his moist eyes seemed to hide a lot of grievances: "You should know, at that time, I regarded you as my family, and I regarded you as my family. I am the only family in this world."
Yan Nanchen pressed his forehead and cried, "...I know."
"But you lied to me." Jiang Yi said very softly, almost lost his voice: "You make me feel like I have no home at all."
"I was wrong..." Yan Nanchen tremblingly kissed Jiang Yi's eyelids.
"When the child was born, I was actually very happy. I have two families, so I am not alone." Jiang Yi smiled, and then cried again: "But when I feel that the little feet on my face are ice At that time, I really... couldn't bear it, at that time I just thought that I would leave with him. "
"I really want to miss him, I really want to miss him, he hasn't had time to look at me, he hasn't had time to see the world."
Yan Nanchen held Jiang Yi's face with trembling hands, and was worried that Jiang Yi would break down emotionally, so he put down his hands, stroked the back of Jiang Yi's head, and pressed him against his chest.
Hearing Jiang Yi's words, his tears couldn't stop falling down.
"But I survived." Jiang Yi buried his face in Yan Nanchen's chest, put his forehead against it, and smiled through tears: "I thought I couldn't let Qiao Qiao have no father, and couldn't let Qiao Qiao grow up like me. Without mom and dad, I want to make her the happiest child in the world, and I want to watch her grow up safely and happily."
Yan Nanchen lowered his head and kissed Jiang Yi's head, his heart ached so much, he hugged him even tighter: "Yi Yi, give me one more chance, okay, let me be your lover again, protect you, love you, let me be A qualified father will protect Qiao Qiao all his life."
For a long time, Jiang Yi didn't speak.
Yan Nanchen didn't speak either.
The two embraced each other without words, but the wordless embrace at this time was worth a thousand words.
In the end, Jiang put his face on Yan Nanchen's chest and wept bitterly, as if he had hidden all the grievances, all the sorrows, all the breakdowns in the past five years, pouring out.
"puppy..."
Yan Nanchen couldn't stop crying when he heard this title: "I am here, and I will always be here."
"Hold tighter."
"it is good."
"Hold tighter."
"it is good."
Jiang Yi cried and raised his eyes, Yan Nanchen lowered his eyes as if he had a heart.
The two kissed each other, their lips wet with tears, and their eyes stared deeply at each other.
Finally embrace each other tightly.
It seems that I want to make up for all the missed courage and bits and pieces at this moment.
This layer of paper is not as vigorous as imagined, and all the pain and regrets are still in the heart, but under an intimate hug, everything has a roundabout.
"Yan Nanchen, hold me tighter."
Yan Nanchen choked with sobs and laughed, "Okay."
Everything has turned into the last obedience and obedience.
His eyes stayed on the sign next to the box, the word "Aizi Jiang Nian" was like a knife, and the pain that was born on the same day as the date of death ruthlessly sliced through his heart inch by inch. It completely crushed his courage to recover Jiang Yi.
Suddenly, he remembered the example Jiang Yi gave when he returned to China, which was...
this kid.
What kind of mood is that, to dig out the most painful thing in my heart, to complete the task of improving the secondary differentiation gene detection technology, because it hurts too much, and I don't want other people to experience such pain again.
The pain of □□ is far less than the pain of losing a child.
His tears kept flowing, the hands holding the cabinet kept trembling, even his fingertips were stained with silent collapse, and his lips overflowed with unbearable weeping, the pain brought to him by depression is nothing compared to Jiang Yi what.
Why didn't he try his best to find Jiang Yi back then, why didn't he ask his father to help him find Jiang Yi?
How could Jiang Yi, who had just given birth, be able to withstand such a blow, his heart went into cardiac arrest... almost passed away, maybe it was because his son was gone, and he almost couldn't hold on anymore.
Then how did you live these years, do you hate him very much, do you hate him to death?
Now, what mood did Jiang Yi use to return home, and what mood did he use to face him.
Seeing Yan Nanchen crying so sadly, Qiao Qiao may have felt something, and Dou Da's tears also flowed. She stretched out her little hand to help him wipe the tears, and comforted him: "You cry so loudly, what if you wake up brother?" manage?"
Yan Nanchen's tears were broken again by her daughter's childish words.
He hugged his daughter tightly, suppressing his crying to the minimum, for fear of scaring the child, but he was so painful that he couldn't breathe, and he didn't know how to relieve this collapse.
"...Big Daddy, I'm sorry for you, Qiao Qiao, Daddy is sorry for you, I'm sorry..."
This trembling 'sorry', I tried my best to hold back the trembling and wanted to express clearly, but I was still sobbing broken under the extreme sadness.
Children are sensitive creatures. Seeing Daddy crying so hard, Qiaoqiao was also a little scared, thinking that something was wrong with Daddy, crying to break free from Yan Nanchen to find Daddy.
"Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...""
Yan Nanchen felt that his daughter wanted to break away from him, and stretched out his hand towards the bedroom, crying to find his father. He quickly hugged his daughter, for fear of falling, and then adjusted his state so that he would not scare her.
"Qiao Qiao is good. Daddy is fine. He is sleeping. It's just that Daddy is a little sad. Daddy is so...excited when he sees brother for the first time." When the word "brother" is mentioned, he can feel that he will collapse again at any time.
As for Jiang Yi, does it hurt even more?
Qiao Qiao still didn't believe it, she hiccupped from crying, and wanted to find her father: "Whoa, whoa, whoa, I want to find my father, I don't want you to hug me, I want to find my father"
Yan Nanchen was helpless because of his daughter's crying, so he had to take her to find Jiang Yi, but he didn't want his daughter to wake Jiang Yi, so he stood outside the bedroom door and whispered to his daughter: "Dad is still sleeping, he is very tired today. It's uncomfortable, let's not wake up Dad, okay?"
Qiao Qiao sat in Yan Nanchen's arms, she was crying so hard, seeing that her father was still on the bed, as if he was really asleep, she felt relieved, but she was still a little scared, and turned her head away She looked at Yan Nanchen with teary eyes.
"Did Dad really just fall asleep?"
"Yes." Yan Nanchen wiped away the tears on his daughter's cheeks with the back of his hand.
"Dad...you won't become an elf like your brother, right?"
Yan Nanchen's hand that wiped his daughter's tears stopped, his fingertips trembled slightly, and the dull pain in his heart hit him again. He slightly raised his head and closed his eyes, trying to relieve himself, then looked down at his daughter, The red eyes are full of love and determination.
"Daddy promises that Daddy will protect you and Daddy, okay?"
Qiao Qiao lowered her head while hesitant to speak, her eyelashes fluttered slightly, and said timidly: "But you make Dad sad, because you keep making Dad cry secretly, Qiao Qiao saw it."
Yan Nanchen's thin lips trembled slightly, he pursed his lips tightly, looked up at Jiang Yi who was still resting on the bed, then carried Qiao Qiao to the living room, put his daughter on the sofa, and then squatted in front of her.
He put his arms beside his daughter and took a deep breath before opening his mouth.
"Qiao Qiao, Daddy knew he was wrong, can you trust Daddy? Daddy will never let Daddy cry in secret, and Daddy will never leave you again, and will never let you be protected by anyone again. , will always be with the three of you, father and son."
Seeing Yan Nanchen's serious expression, Qiaoqiao also realized that this seemed to be a very important matter, and suddenly thought of a sentence his father asked him:
——Qiao Qiao, if one day, you saw Daddy, what would you want to say to him?
As she thought about it, her little head drooped, and tears began to fall.
Yan Nanchen was a little flustered when he cried his daughter again, and looked down at her: "What's the matter, Qiao Qiao, did Daddy say something wrong?"
"Yan Nanchen." Qiao Qiao pouted, stretched out her little hand and poked Daddy's arm vigorously, just like what she told Dad back then, she should do this after seeing Daddy: "The teacher said that you can correct your mistakes if you know your mistakes. It’s just a good boy, you have to remember to apologize to your father, that’s the only way to be good, you know?”
Yan Nanchen's wet eyes were full of doting, and he suppressed the trembling in his throat: "Well, Daddy will apologize to Daddy, Daddy promises."
"Pull the hook." Qiao Qiao stretched out her little finger towards Yan Nanchen.
"Okay, pull the hook."
The big hand and the small hand pull the hook.
This promise is eternal.
After a while, Yan Nanchen coaxed Qiao Qiao to sleep, and then called Chu Beiheng.
When Chu Beiheng came, the people inside opened the door for him, and then he saw Yan Nanchen hugging the sleeping Qiaoqiao.
"Brother, I know everything."
At the entrance, Yan Nanchen hugged Qiao Qiao, he stared at his elder brother Chu Beiheng, his voice was hoarse: "I saw it, brother is gone."
Chu Beiheng originally wanted to ask that you both walked into the same room with the lonely man and the lonely man, but when he heard his younger brother mentioning this matter, he was suddenly dumbfounded, and he sighed: "Is that so, Jiang Yi told you?"
"He didn't say it himself. Just now, his pheromone concentration was out of balance and he almost fainted from the pain. It was Qiao Qiao who called me. I didn't see this tablet until I came up."
Chu Beiheng frowned, walked into the entrance, and glanced at the gift box here: "After returning to China, his symptoms were too frequent."
"I know, it's all because of me. I'm just worried that he will be in heat at any time, and he can't be without someone by his side." Yan Nanchen said, hugging the sleeping Qiao Qiao to him: "Brother, help me first." I am taking care of Qiao Qiao, I want to talk to him after Yi Yi wakes up."
Chu Beiheng took Qiao Qiao, and then seemed to think of something: "Nan Chen, I have a photo of my brother when he was born, and his crying when he was born, do you want to see it?" After finishing speaking, he paused After a pause, he continued: "I'm afraid you won't be able to bear it. Jiang Yi dare not look at it until now. For him, losing his brother is a knot that he will never let go of in his life."
Yan Nanchen was silent for a while, and replied, "I want it."
"Then I'll send it to you later, you... pay attention to your body." Chu Beiheng knew that his younger brother would not be able to accept stimulation: "Although the doctor said that you are already mild now, don't push yourself too hard. , as soon as Jiang is willing to return to China, this is already a good start."
"Don't worry, I've always been very confident about my own illness. After I learned from Code J that Jiang Yi was safe and well, I slowly got better. Now I want to stay with Jiang Yi well, no matter what identity I use. "
Chu Beiheng raised his eyebrows when he heard the code name J: "Well, this code name J is quite powerful, then I'll take Qiao Qiao home first, you two have a good chat, don't fight."
The door slowly closed.
Yan Nanchen stood at the entrance in a daze for a long time. He looked sideways at the key on the shoe cabinet. This was a gift he gave Jiang Yi a month ago, and it was the 1208 of that apartment.
Bought it again for double the price and restored everything inside.
It's as if nothing has changed.
But after all, there is still no way to recover.
At this moment, the phone vibrated, he took out the phone, and the moment the screen was unlocked, a photo came into view, and the sockets of his eyes instantly turned red.
This was in the hospital. Jiang Yi, who was wearing a hospital gown, should have just given birth. He was very weak and pale, and beside his pillow lay a child who was as small as a doll.
Jiang Yi's face was pressed against the child's belly and heels. It was a kind of innate fatherly love. No matter how his child looked, the love was extremely strong. However, the child closed his eyes and remained motionless.
Yan Nanchen wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes with the back of his hand, and continued to play the next video. This video was recorded in the delivery room. Immediately afterwards, he heard two weeping sounds, which were the sounds of two newborn babies.
Among them was a cry that was particularly loud and lasted for a very long time. In the end, the cry was not like the cry of fear of a newborn facing a strange world, but the cry caused by pain.
He couldn't hold back anymore, bent down and squatted, holding his head, biting his arm tightly with his teeth, trying to hold back the crying.
Perhaps it was such grief that made it difficult for him to relieve, so he got up and walked back to the bedroom.
Jiang Yi was still sound asleep on the bed, but he could no longer restrain his emotions, lying beside Jiang Yi, hugged him tightly from behind, and cried bitterly.
Qiao Qiao was still there just now, he didn't dare to cry at all.
Yan Nanchen put his lips on the glands on the back of Jiang Yi's neck, and hugged him with both arms, as if he wanted to integrate people into his blood before giving up. Tears and breathing were intertwined messily, and he absorbed what belonged to him. No matter the smell and temperature of Jiang Yi, it was still full of uneasiness and pain.
Finally broke down and cried.
He can break down like that now, all the words can no longer describe the pain, and he can't empathize with the pain, but how could Jiang Yi, who just gave birth, withstand such a blow.
"...One by one, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."
This voice of sorry is clenching the teeth and trembling, but also to say a complete debt.
As soon as Jiang woke up, he woke up from the moment he was hugged tightly. He wanted to push Yan Nanchen away, but he felt the coolness dripping from the back of his neck, and Yan Nanchen's trembling cry. What did he think of.
Perhaps he had expected this day long ago, since he returned to China.
It is also the purpose of his return home.
He didn't say a word, feeling how solid and powerful the chest around him was, and the heartbeat that hit his back was so strong, and the broken and restrained weeping sounded in his ears one by one, such a strong sadness, as if he felt the same. .
I don't know how long it took, but he put his hands on his head, closed his red eyes, and softly called out: "Yan Nanchen, you disturbed me."
In the next second, he was turned over by Yan Nanchen.
The two faced each other, and the close distance made the breath touch.
Jiang Yi was stunned to see Yan Nanchen crying red and collapsing, his eyes fell into the deep but already soaked eyes, the bottom of the eyes deeply reflected him, at this moment, his heart seemed to be grabbed by someone.
Then Yan Nanchen stroked her back and hugged her face to face.
The quilt was half covered, a little messy, and the two hugged each other tightly on the big bed, and even the highly compatible pheromones blended and cuddled each other.
"all."
Jiang Yi felt Yan Nanchen's lips sticking to his ear, this trembling and tentative call, he should have pushed away such intimacy, but he couldn't push it away because of his instinct, and in his heart , nor resistance.
"I don't know what else I can say except I'm sorry." Yan Nanchen choked up, he gently stroked the back of Jiang Yi's head, resting on his forehead, and stared at him with downcast eyes: "Jiang Nian, our Nian Nian, it's gone...so we have two children."
With such a name, Jiang Yi's eyes turned red instantly.
Yan Nanchen seemed to empathize with Jiang Yi's collapse. Seeing Jiang Yiliu's tears, he slowly kissed his eyelids. After a while, he choked up and said, "Yiyi, baby, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I'm sorry you……"
Jiang Yi didn't say a word, just drooped his eyes and shed tears without saying a word.
"If I had been braver back then, and I told you that I was not Chu Beiheng, I was Yan Nanchen, maybe you wouldn't leave so sad, wouldn't be so disappointed in me, and I would still be by your side to take care of you, maybe the child would be Nothing will happen." Yan Nanchen couldn't see Jiang Liuliu's tears, and held his face to wipe away the tears:
"I'm not brave enough to make you feel wronged. I'm sorry. I made you feel wronged."
The word 'grievance' seemed to poke Jiang Yi's heart.
Jiang Yi's eyelashes trembled slightly, and he raised his eyes to meet Yan Nanchen's, his moist eyes seemed to hide a lot of grievances: "You should know, at that time, I regarded you as my family, and I regarded you as my family. I am the only family in this world."
Yan Nanchen pressed his forehead and cried, "...I know."
"But you lied to me." Jiang Yi said very softly, almost lost his voice: "You make me feel like I have no home at all."
"I was wrong..." Yan Nanchen tremblingly kissed Jiang Yi's eyelids.
"When the child was born, I was actually very happy. I have two families, so I am not alone." Jiang Yi smiled, and then cried again: "But when I feel that the little feet on my face are ice At that time, I really... couldn't bear it, at that time I just thought that I would leave with him. "
"I really want to miss him, I really want to miss him, he hasn't had time to look at me, he hasn't had time to see the world."
Yan Nanchen held Jiang Yi's face with trembling hands, and was worried that Jiang Yi would break down emotionally, so he put down his hands, stroked the back of Jiang Yi's head, and pressed him against his chest.
Hearing Jiang Yi's words, his tears couldn't stop falling down.
"But I survived." Jiang Yi buried his face in Yan Nanchen's chest, put his forehead against it, and smiled through tears: "I thought I couldn't let Qiao Qiao have no father, and couldn't let Qiao Qiao grow up like me. Without mom and dad, I want to make her the happiest child in the world, and I want to watch her grow up safely and happily."
Yan Nanchen lowered his head and kissed Jiang Yi's head, his heart ached so much, he hugged him even tighter: "Yi Yi, give me one more chance, okay, let me be your lover again, protect you, love you, let me be A qualified father will protect Qiao Qiao all his life."
For a long time, Jiang Yi didn't speak.
Yan Nanchen didn't speak either.
The two embraced each other without words, but the wordless embrace at this time was worth a thousand words.
In the end, Jiang put his face on Yan Nanchen's chest and wept bitterly, as if he had hidden all the grievances, all the sorrows, all the breakdowns in the past five years, pouring out.
"puppy..."
Yan Nanchen couldn't stop crying when he heard this title: "I am here, and I will always be here."
"Hold tighter."
"it is good."
"Hold tighter."
"it is good."
Jiang Yi cried and raised his eyes, Yan Nanchen lowered his eyes as if he had a heart.
The two kissed each other, their lips wet with tears, and their eyes stared deeply at each other.
Finally embrace each other tightly.
It seems that I want to make up for all the missed courage and bits and pieces at this moment.
This layer of paper is not as vigorous as imagined, and all the pain and regrets are still in the heart, but under an intimate hug, everything has a roundabout.
"Yan Nanchen, hold me tighter."
Yan Nanchen choked with sobs and laughed, "Okay."
Everything has turned into the last obedience and obedience.
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